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October 2, 2018
 

I don't get it.
How can it be so painful without any wounds?
How can people be so cruel as to hurt their loved ones?
How can someone be so healthy on the outside and still it's harder to breathe?
How everyone just wants to get rid of my psychotic behaviour but doesn't wanna help?
I don't get it.

THE EDISON BULB
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October 2, 2018
 

There are so many feelings that can be felt but they are all out of focus but one
One that has a huge impact on my mental health
I can feel the chemical secreting from inside of me
The one that just doesn't seem like the one that secretes when you're happy

THE EDISON BULB
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September 4, 2018
 

You know what?
I have my own problems
But do you see me crying
I know they don't matter to you
Or maybe they do
But I can't listen to you thinking you maybe lying
Writing everything down
With that romantic movie on
I know this shit you ain't buying
I told my share of lies
But they never hurt you
Yours did. But I was never prying.

GREAT THINGS
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September 4, 2018
 

There are some times
When I think I ain't worth shit
Ain't worth no love no limes
But then some feeling comes no more than a hit
Can hear my phone's rings and chimes
Start thinking this life's lit
Only thought that's worth no dimes
Is that I might be falling in a pit

GREAT THINGS
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September 4, 2018
 

Loved you
Got acquainted to you
Loved you
We became friends
Loved you
You loved me
Loved you
Knew you better
Loved you
Silly me
Loved you
Wonder if I still know you
LOVE YOU

GREAT THINGS
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August 28, 2018
 

Hey!
I miss you
Why couldn't you be here?
Never knew you really
But have some idea about what you would have been like
Had you existed
My unborn sibling.

MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
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August 28, 2018
 

Here I am
Writing again and again
Until I feel this weird feeling go away
Here I am
Finding solace
In my own words
Here I am
Too naive
Thinking the feeling would just go away if I write it all out
Here I am
Maybe running
Or just trying to convince myself that it's gonna get out of me as soon as I write it.

MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
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August 28, 2018
 

Why and how does it become so hard to breathe?
Not impossible
Just hard
As if I'm doing myself a favor

MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
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August 10, 2018
 

Life ain't sucking really
But when all the focus is on one thing
It's just empty space after a while
And sometimes some other things relate with that one thing too
After its gone all the other things are gone too
Or maybe not
But either way
Misery maybe the only feeling left

BE KIND
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August 10, 2018
 

Get comfortable with yourself
Be happy in your own company
And when you're almost there
Someone comes along
And you think of them as a reward
But it is just a game the destiny is playing with you
Hold that one hand
And you either may cross the finish line
Or may have to start from the very beginning

BE KIND
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August 10, 2018
 

What angers me is the fact that I'm always doing a trust fall thinking somebody is standing behind to catch me and knowing nobody will ever do it...

BE KIND
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August 10, 2018
 

Ever had that one moment that just comes so unexpectedly that you don't really react to it the way you've been planning to but the way you had been telling yourself not to?

BE KIND
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August 10, 2018
Udaipur, India

Hyperventilating
Playing those 5 seconds again and again and again in my head
Can't sleep
Won't sleep
Can't eat
It was all okay when I caught some cold
But then came those feels

BE KIND
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August 1, 2018
 

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SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 21, 2018
 

Tears pouring down like rain
Yet again
Can I call what I hit a rock bottom?
Yet again
Yes I can
But the fear resurfaces
At last
Saying there's more to come
Much more worse to suffer
Yet again
It ain't gonna last
But it also ain't the last

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 21, 2018
 

Here I am. Once again. Breaking down. Feeling every fucking feeling to a maximum. And there they are. Telling me that I shouldn't feel the way I am feeling. Trying to tell me how to feel.

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 21, 2018
 

I'm lost
Or maybe I just think I am
Why is it so hard for people to understand my craving for isolation?
Or for a hug?
Just one hug, a tight one, saying, "It's gonna be okay".
Why is it so difficult?

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

It's the best kinda therapy you get when someone can just make you so happy, get you away from all the anxiety and depression, and not even know about it.
These "someones" can be found just anywhere.
In a brother.
In a friend.
All you gotta do is let the negative energy on the inside that says "You ain't getting over it" pass through you.

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

One of the things I'm afraid of is the fact that there is a fair chance of that wrecking ball coming my way one day, yet again. And once again, whether recovered from the previous wreck or not,  I'm gonna welcome it with open arms. And let myself be wrecked, until I'm unrecoverable.

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

My music taste differs from the ones around me
Even if I tell them the kind of music I like to listen to nowadays, they'll have their attention to the kind of song, the genre, but the reason behind me listening to that particular song on repeat for hours won't be a part of their interest

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

I like you
I love you
It's times like this when you should have been here
So that I don't doubt myself
And my love for you
And your love for me
Only if I could love and hate someone as per my need

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

Keeping things to myself is the one art I'm perfect at.
If not telling people what I'm going through on the inside,  they won't be all sympathetic towards me.
And act like they always do.
No pressure on them to cheer me up.
Or try to "fix" me.
And no pressure on me to try to feel normal now that I let it all out.

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

Is it healthy for me to be my own therapist?
To be talking to myself as soon as I am alone?
Is it healthy not talking to anyone about what's going on on the inside?
Keeping things to myself?
Keeping feelings to myself?

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

The one thing about being alone for me is that o don't feel lonely at all
I feel perfectly myself
Happy even
But then there are people around me all the time
All of them talking about something that could be avoided
Something I do understand
But understand way too much to even talk about

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

One side is the one bitch who doesn't give a fucking damn about what others think and isolates herself
Other is the one who is anxiety ridden because of her FOMO

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

These movies I watch
Always leave me being a different person
Taking a part of me
And in its place placing a part that fits more perfectly

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

Everyone has someone or should have someone they can be purely honest with
They can be what they are when they are alone
Talking to them feels like as if talking to oneself
Only if I could be that fortunate

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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July 20, 2018
 

All we did was talk
But damn!!
Aren't you a wrecking ball?
Always leaving behind a wreck
In the shape of ME

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER
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June 22, 2018
 

Ever think about how darkness is good for us?
How it just allows us to do whatever we want without even worrying about being judged
Ever think about how much we just want some light?
But it can be blinding too
Taking what we have in a positive way is the key
Being happy with it
But not satisfied
Being hungry for a bit more
That's what's gonna keep us going

MAJOR STEPHEN REICH
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June 19, 2018
 

So there's this crazy ass mechanism inside of me
Making me act immature every single fucking time someone calls me mature
Is it something to be worried about?

MAJOR STEPHEN REICH
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