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" But, YOU ARE MY MOST BEAUTIFUL SECRET. And I don't want to keep you a secret if I love you because I want the world to know that I have somebody like you. I will be proud to be associated with you. "
" And maybe, the scariest is to let somebody take the seat for the reservation you made for yourself. But, it is NOW or NEVER. "
It is mostly that mistaken concept by people. I believe that if we say we love, even if it is our friends, our family, a lover, or other people, we must not expect something in return. It must be that kind of feeling when we don't wait for anything in return. That we do the things we do for them or we give the emotion we invest without asking them to do the same. Or even when we are hurting, we still try to understand and accept, or even when we want to keep them or stay with them, we will always be willing to let them go. Because when we love, we are willing to walk away, or give up or do anything just to make them happy may it include us or not anymore.
To BESTFRIEND at 2:00am,
Most people are busy trying to be cool, known, loved through being seen by the world. But here we are. Locked into each other. Having lunch and dinners on restos, talking and laughing on coffee shops without photos taken. Looking at beautiful things without boasting. We possess valuables and hearts not in broadcast over photoshoots. We make our own party of two laying in bed talking out all the programmed and random ideas. We offer ourselves without favors in return. It makes me love you more knowing that I have "ME" in you. And I hope, if we ever get to meet somebody or get married in time, still, it isn't something the SAME as OURS.
Because OURS is PRICELESS and E...
" But I've never seen a storm so devastating just as how you left her. "
Do you know what's sad?
Making people feel loved but it isn't YOU they want to hear I LOVE YOU from, it isn't YOU they want to feel the WARMTH from.
Do you know what drives them away?
They haven't let go of the disease you wanted to cure.
Do you know what you are left to do at the very least?
Wait for them to get that first aid kit, let them clean and cover their wounds themselves, let them stay still as they pour the disinfectant, then shut up while they cry in pain, watch them fall asleep with tired eyes.
And as the morning comes, you know you both played your part.
Maybe a little more distant, maybe, a little more closer.
Somebody asked me,
"Why do you always sleep?"
" Because that's the only way not to remember my ALONE and LONELY.
My EMPTY and FULL. "
To the one I've kept the closest,
Look at the stars...
And I hope, you get to remember that we are a part of them and even in million years, we'll never depart. If we do in some unfortunate moment, I hope you know that I've spent most of my light for you.
To Mom and Dad,
" I'm sorry if I am never the DAUGHTER you've always wanted."
I'm sorry if I didn't pursue a career in COMMUNICATIONS/NEWS or if I didn't enter the MILITARY. I'm sorry that I have chosen to land in a NOBLE PROFESSION where I earn less or much little than I should've had if I listened to you. But, with these kids, I have found love and hope which are much of scarce at home.
I'm sorry if I didn't marry the guy you hoped for to be with me because you thought he'd be the best fit. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you how he abused me. How he made me less of a person when I was with him. How he wanted to turn me to a person I am not. How he suffocated and comforted me with lies. Ho...
" Because BEAUTY, is what we decide to see.
INTELLIGENCE, is what we decide to carry.
LOVE, is what we decide to hold.
And HAPPINESS, is what we decide to be. "
I don't know why there is a very small percentage of men who will be able to comprehend the way women think and act.
The way some of us are sensitive and insensitive at the same time. The way some of us differ amongst other women. The way some of us doesn't need to be provided of material things but of a mind that will be able to think deeper when we aren't making sense or getting ourselves in trouble of overthinking. The way some of us doesn't need a trophy to be displayed but a gold to be kept hidden. The way some of us love the unknowns, the abstract.
Those moments when you want to swim in a universe of thoughts but they sit still in a square foot room.
These, for the nth time, are s...
" For the happiest isn't in the sound or the gesture of a head erect from too much noise but what's inside that many do not know. "
A Letter for a High School Friend's Death
You may no longer be able to read this or hear somebody tell this to you. But let me at least write this for you no matter how cliche and strange it may seem.
" People remember when it is already too late. People regret the time they let to pass by when they had all the chance. People are too busy trying to be in the world when they are their own world. I am one of these people. And I'm sorry if it took me 11 years when it is too late to tell you MY SINCEREST THANK YOU for being such a kind and wonderful person. And for showing me that strange is beautiful and friendship isn't always in a form of having to hold each other's hand for a lifetime or ...
" Yours is a sound I'll hear from a distance,
Yours is a silhoutte I will always recognize,
Yours is a smell I will always keep fragrant,
And yours is a touch, I will forever crave."
To a Tuesday's sunrise, from a Monday night's disapproval,
May the SUN always shine to remind us that illumination awakens the soul.
May the MOON never leave us crying alone at night.
May the STARS continue to make constellations to guide us.
May YOU never FORGET that somewhere out there, YOU are somebody's SUN, MOON and STAR.
We may not all have the same perspectives but may we all have the heart to respect human beings.
So sad that people put on the mask of righteousness when they don't even know how to act like it.
Teach me that...
to fall in love recklessly,
to get my heart broken half to death,
to always choose courage no matter how you scare me,
to be careless because I have always lived safe.
To still be ME at the end of the day.
If a man cannot break the walls of his ego for you, darling, I don't know if he loves you enough to bruise himself to heal you.
" I hope, everyone has a PERSON whose LOVE is greater than our mistakes, failures and flaws. Whose COURAGE isn't in the spirit of beverages. "
" Maybe, we have to be awaken by a LOVE that doesn't give up when we fail.
A MOTIVATION that doesn't walk away when we fall. "
I think, confused and reckless are luckier than feeling nothing at all.
Note to SELF
Today, on your 24th...
You are still young to miss the joy of sunrises, the warmth of sunsets, the cuddles of the wind, the kisses of the rain.
You'll get through all the challenges and the pain in every phase.
You are never exhausted not to fly half the world to see, take photos and write about Athens, Jerusalem, the old civilizations from the west or express and exercise your skill in English as you drink tea in the UK or walk the streets of New York.
You'll get there. You'll live the dream you had from your 4th Grade.
You possess that young heart while you carry an old soul who always put God first before your self interest.
Remember that above every thing, you ...
" ON HAVING BROTHERS alone..."
I don't know how they do it but I want to thank them for trying their best to understand that I am never a fun sister to have.
I am boring and they love to spend time having fun.
I overthink a lot and they are so cool with almost everything.
I always lock my room's door and own my space when they love to go out and spend time with their friends or whatever, wherever, whenever.
I want everything at home to be in their proper places and they always put everything improperly, always NOT in order.
I developed OCD and they get annoyed whenever I ask the same questions repeatedly, like, "have you locked the door? did you unplug the tv? electric fan? did you...
The thing is, we can't be perfect. We can't always conform to our society. We can't always meet people's expectations no matter how good they must be or beneficial for us. There are things that we can't have, people we can't be with, ink we can't print on our skin, smile we can't always bargain for and a heart we can't carry around begging to be felt and seen.
But you have every moment in your life you can live for. Moments you have to stand up for what makes you happy may it be with or without somebody. Moments you can live a thousand more because it is filled with love you wanted for yourself and a heart that doesn't give up on you because you claim it to be yours, forever. - Lays
To one of my close to ALMOST,
I am a diffucult task to accomplish.
I am a broken piece that may consume your heart and soul to have me repaired.
I am an ego that is too strong to break.
I am a mixture with no identified elements.
I am, your CHAOS and ORDER.
Your DESTRUCTION and PEACE.
Your GRIMACE and GLOW.
Your SORROW and LAUGHTER.
Your PAIN and HAPPINESS.
I am what you NEED and NOT.
What you WANT and NEVER HAD.
Thank you for all the PATIENCE.
" I have chosen to let go of the heartaches, the pain. I have chosen not to go back in the past lane. I have chosen to traverse the road many chose not. I have chosen to close the curtain of the tragic theatrical play. Because today, I write the new chapter of my shortly-cut untold story that time, chances and choices took away when they passed me by."
To Mom on Mothers' Day,
Thank you for teaching me how to listen in silence, to see in the dark, to feel in nothing and love strangely.
But how is that ever possible to write
" I LOVE YOU" in a thousand times with all sincerity and passion and never to move your tongue and have the vibration in your throat to say it out loud?
I hope, every one of us is like the ocean.
So DEEP and has a lot of mysteries.
That even when people might live a thousand years, they will only know 5 to 10 percent of what we are.
That they will think they know us and yet, they don't.
That we could be a beautiful thing to see and love but we are also capable of being dangerous and destructive at the same time.
That we are all capable of giving ourselves the RESERVATION no matter how much we want to love and be loved, no matter how much we want to be remembered and be handed down in stories of every passing generation.
I hope, we don't settle for anything less just because they say we are ENOUGH. Because there is no such thing like E...