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To my friends I was not aware I left behind while I was busy trying to build my life...
I'm sorry I wasn't able to always say Hi, to make a sound in your inbox asking you how's your day been, to post our memories on fb when they make noise in my notification box.
I'm sorry I wasn't there to witness your special occassions, to make a phone call or a video call to tell you how happy and proud I am for all your success.
I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me most, when you were alone and crying, when you want to talk, when you want to scream, when you need somebody you can rely on.
I'm sorry that you still have to consider me as a part of you no matter how many times I hurt you.
I was busy trying to figure out my life. I was busy working on my pains. I was busy proving myself. 'Til this morning somebody made me realize that while I was busy making myself better, I was slowly leaving people behind, I unintentionally hurt them with the thought that it is okay to leave because I am a no good friend for everyone to keep.
" I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for letting you cry alone. I'm sorry I wasn't there to at least be your Sergeant when you have always been my Army. And I'm sorry that no matter how many times I leave you or disappoint you, you love me just the same."
In the now is the brightest shine of their eyes,
The unfamiliar curves that were caused from afar,
The chills from the words sent from the other side of the arch,
And the hope, that despite the WIN or LOSE concept there is something extraordinary sweet and different that may happen IN TIME.
Strange it may seem to have a coincidence of virtually meeting an unfamiliar yet exciting thought of a daydream.
Strange, it feels to meet eye to eye in a distant reality for a hope of something to last but can settle for something to be kept.
Strange, a word used to scare but is now a part of how to live today.
Strange, to hope for the BEST things for a STRANGER she met along the way.
Strange, a word added to her vocabulary with her own meaning not known to any.
"At bibilangin ko sa daliri ko kung sino ang mahalaga at dapat iyakan. Bilangin mo sa hangin at hagilapin kung may iilan para sa'yo na handang mamatay."
Sometimes, the only thing we are left to say is, "I LOVE YOU". And it is the million little things that come together when they hear it.
She has always been a free spirit but a very day has come that she wants to be imprisoned in a situation with somebody in an unknown cell of passion and clarity.
The kind of connection that is not visible but is pumpin' your blood. That is, when you know that you want to keep it.
The next message could've been...
"I miss you. May I come over?"
But, the preliminaries were rejected so she chose not to say anything. She chose not to see you. Though again, it hurts.
"At sa paglipas ng mga araw ay ang unti-unti kong pagtanggap ngunit hindi pagbitaw."
Pagtanggap sa katotohanang hindi na ang mga parehong mukha na may bahid ng karunungan at kawalang muwang ang nasa silid ng kaalaman sa parehong mga taong nakalipas. Hindi na ang mga boses na may sariling indayog at paglalambing sa aking taenga ang nasa parehong pandinig. At hindi na ang mga parehong puso na may sigaw ng uhaw at pag uumapaw ng pagmamahal ang yayakap sa parehong taong hindi din alam kung ano ang nais isigaw. Ngunit, hinding hindi ako bibitaw. Hinding hindi ko ibibigay. Ipagdadamot ko sa mundo. Itatago ko ng buo. Ang mga ala-ala na hindi nag pumilit ngunit kusang loob kong binigyan ng pwesto di...
We have always want people or somebody to love us, to be there for us, to keep us. But, we have always been the best in pushing them away.
To let them down and give them disappointments aren't enough reasons for them to give up on us. It is those trying moments they are next to us but we still feel alone that hurt them. It is those tiring moments we say we can't do it anymore when they have always been there to cheer us up that hurt them. It is those uncontrollable moments we needed them and they will rush to see or talk to us though they are in a middle of something important yet, we say no one understand us, it hurt them. It is those intolerable times we walk away from them when all they ...
"This wasn't what she wanted at all. She knew for months but only accepted it today as she was about to start her day. Instead she packed her bags.... and composed herself for she is well aware that somebody is waiting and hoping for her existence. A very day of realization came to her. There is more love she can give the world than to lock herself to pity and angst."
You have always been my bestfriend. The one I can tell my untold stories.
You have always been my safe haven. The one I can always run to.
I don't know if I will ever be able to let go of your hands. The hands that made all the hard work to give me a better life.
Thank you for all the love. And if there is one thing I'm so afraid of in this world, it is not to meet a man who is close to the MAN you are. And if he does, don't ever forget that you will always be my FIRST LOVE.
" Life has always been tough on me since I was a kid. I'm on my 50's. And I've never known how to laugh genuinely or what true happiness is 'til I have a family of my own."
- a dinner with Dada
I am, of the time you spend at work
I am, of the time you spare for your bosses queries,
I am, of the new people you meet,
I am, of the new friends you laugh with,
I am, of that person you will always feel guilty about not to send a reply in every message they drop in your inbox.
I understand you have to make a living,
I respect your dreams,
I want you to grow,
I need you to build strong relationships that will nurture your personality and values,
I accept that I am NOT one of the top priorities.
I will retire tonight,
With tears dried,
Longing for the familiar warmth of voices and touches,
That is FAR ENOUGH NOT to DREAM about.
How do people define FRIENDSHIP nowadays?
It's not when you post a lot of photos together. It's not when you visit each other's house everyday. It's not when you attend each other's special occassions and take a photo with the family members. It's not when you go to the same school or company. It's not when you react on posts or how many times you liked each other's status.
Nowadays, there is a very big misconception of what FRIENDSHIP is.
Shall we blame today's technology for this misconception? Shall we blame parents for these young people's upbringing? Shall we blame the generation itself for not knowing how to evaluate and be matured enough?
Friendship, isn't about all that what y...
They told her, "ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT THING AND YOU WILL LIVE."
And she has kept these words all her life. One day, she wondered, "HOW COME THEY ARE STILL ALIVE?"
More days followed and she was able to comprehend, TO LIVE DOESN'T MEAN PERFECT. TO LIVE DOESN'T MEAN I CAN. TO LIVE DOESN'T MEAN I WILL. But, it means, I MAY NOT BE PERFECT, I MAY NOT ALWAYS CAN, I MAY NOT ALWAYS WILL and that's fine because everyone commit mistakes and that's how WE TRULY LIVE.
There are these days when I want to walk away from the world or shut it off. The kind of world that comes in different shapes but has a single face. Then, live with mine and yours which I think, is a world we both made differently reckless and brave but a chance and choice of a LOVE that reach for the impossible to happen in the midst of chaos.
To my girlfriends,
I do not know how many I MISS YOU and I LOVE YOU we have to send via internet before we see each other again. But despite of this longing is the pride that we are our parents' hope today. And we are slowly, gently becoming the people they need us to be. I hope, you like your choices. Because I love mine.
She can be kind to everyone. She can be polite. But she doesn't give privileges in bargains. Only those who are close to her must have it.
He was standing in front of the gate. Staring from afar, looking on the stage with a severe glint on his eyes. He was wearing his usual attire - thin thead of long sleeves, faded old pants, both slightly painted of dark mud. He has always been a FARMER in his HEART and APPEARANCE.
Another man walked on his side - leather shoes, ironed pants, classy linen on top with a brand of fragrance he didn't recognize.
Without agitation, he still stood there. On the same spot. He didn't bother to compare and contrast who's standing next to him or what he doesn't have that the other holds.
Then suddenly, the other man's voice filled the air...
Other Man: Hi! What's up? I believe we attended the same cl...
She's a fan of all the UNKNOWN for SHE, herself, is NOT KNOWN.
"Saving oneself at the expense of the other. That's when excuses are so functional."
"You should've been my Lancelot. But I was NEVER your Queen."
Tapos tatayo ako,
Ngingiti sa harap mo,
Dahil nakaya ko,
Nakaya ko na wala ka sa buhay ko.