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Letitcia

PO# 378439
Netherlands
Netherlands
🥀 I’m lost in a world where words don’t mean anything. Please take me away from here to the place I belong. 🥀
July 9, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

My heart hurts
For I went through the worst
Lost without you
Everything is nothing more than a blur

- Leti

CROWS ON MY WINDOW
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May 20, 2020
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Al die jaren liet ik mijn vooruitgang vertragen.
Slepende dagen zonder maar iets te durven vragen.
Al die jaren heb ik het geweten,
het geen dat jij mij had verweten. Is wist het, geen twijfel mogelijk. Zo vaak heb ik je de vraag gesteld. Heb ik de dagen geteld. Je had het alleen maar hoeven vragen. Je had het niet alleen hoeven dragen. Maar vragen dat deed je niet. Jaren lang bleef ik mijzelf vertragen. Saboteren, weigeren er iets van te leren. Al die vragen heb ik met een hangend hoofd gedragen. Ik mocht niet klagen, er niet over door blijven zagen. Achteraf is het gebleken, ik had gelijk. Je had het alleen maar hoeven vragen, dan hadden we de lasten niet alleen hoeven dragen. De laatste ...

THE VASES
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April 27, 2020
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Het spijt me,
Ik kan het niet meer.
Ik wil het niet meer,
zoveel te vragen,
zoveel te vertellen.
Maar durven,
dat doe ik niet.

Ik mis je,
weet je dat?
Merk je dat?
Doet het je wat?

Het spijt me,
voor alle pijn die mijn aanwezigheid jou bracht.

Ik moet je wat vertellen,
ik zal het je zeggen.
Misschien is dit wel de laatste keer dat je mij weer levend zag.

Tranen met een lach,
voor zolang jij het zag.
Vrij zijn,
Dat betekend niet altijd blij zijn.

Mijn morgen,
is nooit meer gekomen.
Voor altijd dromen,
is het enige wat jij zag.

Ik pas niet,
In jouw straatje.
Ik voelde mij niet thuis,
ookal had ik een huis.

De pijn is niet wat jij dacht
dat het was.
Het is zoveel,
meer en min...

FLOAT ON THE SKY
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April 21, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

There’s this madness
behind your silence

There’s this pain
behind your smile

There’s your truth
Behind your eyes.

Yet you refuse to tell me
how thing really are.

Sure, whatever.
I didn’t care anyway.

DON'T TALK TO ME
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April 13, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

No words
are words too,
you know?

- Leti

THANGBALAY
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April 12, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

There’s this old record
It looks broken
As it keeps on repeating
And trying to correct itself

There’s this mirror
It looks shatterd
There are a million pieces
There’s a reflection
A reflection of mine.

- Leti

A QUIET DREAM
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April 5, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

Nobody knows how loud silent screams really are until they face eternal silence on their own.

- Leti

EARTH
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March 26, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

The other side

I’ll keep on searching for an exit because I wanna leave this life. I keep on hoping to find a way out, because I can’t stay on this side. There’s a fire burning inside my head. No matter what I try, it won’t get out. My phone keeps on buzzing, but there’s no-one on the line. You asked me to describe this feeling, but no matter how hard I try, the words won’t leave my mind. I wish you could enter and try to find the one thing I try to hide. So many changes they ruin my mind. My heart is crying wishing to be on the other side. My eyes are blinding my sight. My mouth is bleeding, the words pass by. I’ll keep on searching, hoping to reach the other side. Please stop praying and p...

KEEP RUNNING
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March 15, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

“Wil jij mijn wereld dragen?” is iets dat we niet zouden mogen vragen. Dat heet zielen plagen. Het zal je vooruitgang vertragen. Iets waar we al zoveel over klagen. En alsmaar over door blijven zagen. Zou je de sprong durven wagen? En het jezelf willen vragen? Want vertrouwen, dat is iets waarop we zouden moeten bouwen. Jezelf leren sjouwen... Om uiteindelijk met je toekomst te kunnen trouwen.

- Leti

GO FOR IT
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March 15, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

Vragen “zullen we het erop wagen?” zal dromen heus niet laten vervagen. Maar kunnen we dat? Die klagende vragen dragen? Of is dat net zoiets als planken met je handen willen zagen? Zie daar, de onzekerheden die eerst op ons lagen. Ze vervagen, steeds meer met vlagen.

- Leti

YOUR DREAM, YOUR STORY
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March 14, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

Eenzaamheid is niet altijd alleen zijn. Soms ben je met z’n twee,
maar voel je, je toch heel alleen.
Dromen die vervagen, je durft de sprong niet te wagen. Mensen om je heen hoor je alleen maar klagen.
Je druft niet, je durft het niet te vragen. Eenzaam zijn betekend mentaal niet met zijn twee zijn.

- Leti

SIMPLICITY DAY
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March 1, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

I just wanna call you,
and tell you how scared I am.
But I can’t seem to find the courage to pick up the phone and dial your number.

Please tell me you know what I mean, that you can hear my silent scream. Please tell me you can count my tears, who are hiding my fears.

I feel so alone even though I know I have you around me.
Days seem to last forever,
and my heart starts to beat faster.

I’m falling in love with you,
and all that scares me. Because I’m afraid that I will scare you too, just like I scare myself.

- Leti

WHY DON'T YOU LIKE ME
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February 22, 2020
Gorinchem, Netherlands

I can’t stop crying,
It’s making me sick.
Please hold my hand,
As I’m going through this.
My hands are shaking,
Those letters are a mess.

I’m scared this hurts.
Please don’t make me look back.
I feel like sinking, deeper into this mess.

I beg you to save me,
I admit it, I’m a mess.

I can tell you this,
The way it hurts me,
Really disturbs me.

Please, just hold me.
Until I’m back.

- Leti

EVERY TIME
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February 22, 2020
Gorinchem, Netherlands

Storytime

Three years ago he gave his word to her. Oh how many things have changed since then.

As he pulls up on the driveway, she gets ready for a difficult conversation. She sits down in the chair and waits for him to walk in. As soon as he walks through the door she goes

“Darling my love,

Please sit down, next to me.
This isn’t easy for me to tell you. Nor was it easy to even think about it. But my heart couldn’t take it any longer. My mind is a mess. My love for you is still as strong as is used to be when we first met, however, there’s something that changed. I can’t exactly explain what it is, maybe it’s our behavior, our habits our even our conversations. We seem to be stuck in ...

THE SKY ISN'T THE LIMIT
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February 22, 2020
Gorinchem, Netherlands

Acta est fabula

Step by step
Little by little
I start to grow
I’m ready to show
The lessons I’ve learned
For those who wonder
What I’ve became
A monster you’ve created
Reached surface for show
You can call me to port
But I’ll keep on moving
For one it’s not over
The show it has become
This story is ending
But I won’t be scared
For I’m still growing

- Leti

A QUIET DREAM
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January 8, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

There’s a monster inside my head. He is dying to get out.
His cage is broken, can’t hold him back. He makes me feel like a stranger, inside my own head.
He says all the things I don’t wanna hear. He’s breaking me down, piece by piece. It feels like he’s winning after all. I’m stuck, in a world that doesn’t feel right.
The voices told him that they had enough. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, it will be wrong anyway. I don’t wanna listen to the things they say.
They’re trying to force me to go their way. I’m losing control over my mind. So many feelings, mixed into one. There’s a monster, who’s tearing me apart.
He’s dying to get out. The voices  told me he should destroy my hea...

A QUIET DREAM
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January 7, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

It hurts... it really does
I can’t tell you why
But I’m scared
For the things I will do
The things I will say

Don’t you dare
To look at me
Don’t you dare
To ever touch me

I want to disappear
From the place
Where I don’t belong
I’m a stranger in disguise

Take me somewhere
Take me to a place
Where I belong
Where my mind
Can rest in peace

Please save me
From the pain
I feel deep inside
It wants to get out

It hurts more
Than you can imagine
The screams in my head
Are louder than before
Deeper, like a creep
It crawls up on me

It tells me to leave
This place I am
It tells me I don’t belong here
The place I called home
Never was nor will it ever be
My own, my paradise

Please help me,...

INVISIBLE
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January 7, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

I don’t feel at home in my own home. I don’t feel save in my save place. I play hide and seek with my own mind, trying to ignore the pain I feel. I’m trying to hide my tears, I don’t want to show them I’m weak...

- Leti

A QUIET DREAM
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January 7, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

Trapped

I stopped counting my tears,
they only brought me fears.
I asked myself so many times
if this is worth the pain, if it’s worth the blame.
Everyday I wished I could go away, or at least close my eyes,
and go to sleep...

- Leti

KEEP RUNNING
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January 6, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

Hey hey everyone!!!

I have some exciting news!!

I have been writing for years, and a few years back I started a book, I ended up deleting it before I published it. But I finally did it!!! I wrote a book! It’s full of poems and little stories in a form of a poem ❤️ I love poetry, and I wanted to share a few of them with the world!!

The book is called: Tales of my heart. And you can buy it on amazone de/fr/es :D for the people in the Netherlands who want to order it: you can buy it from bol.com and bruna, a few other stores sell them too!
The ISBN is : 9789402143720

I hope you’ll guys will like it as much as I do. Please let me know what you think,

Lots of love,

Leti aka Letitcia

A HAPPY NEW YEAR
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January 3, 2020
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

Dear lettrists,

Nobody knows why we do what we do, and say what we say.
Yet it seems to be written in history. So please, tell me, do you believe in mysteries?

First things first:

Happy new year and the best wishes for 2020!!

Soo...

Do you believe you’re alive?
Like, I mean do you feel like you’re alive? How do you know you’re really alive?

Have you ever had a feeling you couldn’t shake off? That you’re awake but feel like you’re still sleeping and think it’s a lucid dream?

What did you do? What did you feel? Were you scared? Or did you find peace?

Please, if you want to, please share your thought on this in a letter to me.

- Leti

LION IN THE STARS
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January 1, 2020
 

Stranger you are

You’re a stranger
Someone I have never seen
My heart kept racing
Hoping for you to pass
There’s no silence in my mind
All that because of you
There are tears in my eyes
There’s no sadness
nor there is joy
I can’t forget you
You’re stuck in my mind
A beautiful soul
Will you be a paradise?
A paradise of mine

- Leti

A HAPPY NEW YEAR
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October 30, 2019
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

I tried to scream but nobody listened.
Someone please tell me this is just a bad dream.
Time to wake up, from this terrible dream.
I tried to move, but my body was too weak.
Someone please tell me this is just a bad dream.
A terrible nightmare gone wrong.
Someone please tell me this is not what it seems.
A silent scream became undone

- Leti

LET IT ALL OUT
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August 29, 2019
Bergen op Zoom, Netherlands

You took out my heart
And replaced it with stone.
Crossed your fingers
And hoped I died.

- Leti

HAVE FAITH
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August 27, 2019
Bergen op Zoom, Nederland

Forgiveness

all I wanted
And all I needed
All I hoped for
Was forgiveness
For you never to be lonely
For you never to forget her
Forgiven silence
Nothing more

- Leti

IT IS POSSIBLE
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July 31, 2019
Oudenbosch, Netherlands

I wanna disappear
For I do not belong here
I don’t want to hear
All the voices screaming at me
Everyone near me is so perfect
At pretending they don’t know
I wanna disappear
Cut my wrist in hope to die.
Just wanna sleep forever
And end all this pain.

ORIGINAL
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July 31, 2019
Zevenbergen, Netherlands

I felt so weak,
After your words hit me so deep.
I tried not to weep,
After your knife hit me that deep.
I felt so empty,
After you told me what I never could be.
I felt so alone,
After you told me I was not worthy the life I lived.
I tried not to make a sound,
After you took my heart from me.

              I’m empty
                    This empty
              Have I never been
                     I’m scared
              Never ever
                     Have I felt like this
You did it
               Congratulations
You killed me
                Congratulations
You hit me this deep
                 Congratulations
You broke my back
                 Congratulations
You won, I weep...

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
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July 30, 2019
Oudenbosch, Netherlands

I know it hurts,
but babe, it means you are alive.

Live your life, listen and speak with your heart and embrace it with your soul.

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MY SOUL CRIES OUT FOR YOU
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July 30, 2019
 

I was looking at this beautiful painting in her eyes.

It was a marble swimming in an ocean of glory, and tears of joy.

Her lips were open, and singing their song.

Cheeks so red, with a wonderful glow.

A voice so soft, it hit me like “wow”.

I took a picture, a memory of mine.

Forever floating, a diamond that will shine.

- Leti

PERFECTION
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