We may have started talking for about 8 years but we knew each other since elementary. I do remember way back. We weren't really fond of each other. But every since then we've become close and glad we are getting closer. Everyone here knows you as the Mystery Man. But to me, you were always a familiar. Your compassionate, charming, considerate, caring, and funny. You bring light into my world and I don't ever want the flame to go out.
If I can tell my past self-something it would be, "Don't ever look back. Keep walking forward."
If I can ask my future self a question it would be, "Did I finally make and choice? And am I happy with it?
Let us escape, live free and eat well!
Me and you, living in a castle filled with joy!
Breathe the fresh air and go outside!
So, what do you say? Can we go to Venice?
You will be thrilled of the ideas I've planned.
Won't you join me on this new journey?
Have you seenVenice? It's beautiful!
To me its everything I ever dream to live.
Let Me Breathe So You Won't Have To.
I've fallen out of love for you and I'm not surprised.
You may have given me attention in the beginning but that has now faded. You use to spend time with me but there's a difference, those who make time and those who have free time. You used your free time then made time but now you make no time... I guess you've fallen out of love for me too. It's funny I thought we were actually gonna make it but I see now I only kid myself and guess we can just stay friends.
I'm always scared to leave my mother alone with the monster upstairs. But she always told me she can handle him and I should get on with my life and not worry. How can I? I get scary calls at night of her asking for help but I'm on the other side of the earth. How can I go on with my life if I'll always have to worry about the monster upstairs who I use to call my father...
The new year isn't a national holiday in our house. It's always yelling, screaming and police arriving to arrest the same alcoholic man every year. Sometimes I might a joke about it and say "the cops probably know us by now." But they don't and don't care. They think we're just a family that's a waste a time to help... Happy New Years Father... I'll look forward to what you have to complain about...
The picture of you is all I have.
It shows your beautiful smile that doesn't shine bright anymore. I see your eyes sparkle like the quiet moon light but are now dull and empty. Your lips in the photo are smooth red lips but reflect now rough and plain. The picture of you is all I have left since you are now up, up in God's arms.
The glass finally breaks bigger as I revealed to you the truth.I didn't think and I hurt you. I had no remorse for your feelings. I didn't respect your wishes. You gave me everything and in returned I gave you pain and suffering on the past that you didn't wish to cross back. Not only did I hurt you my sister. I broke our mom's heart and I broken the bond and trust I worked so hard. I cry now in the puddles of my tears. I don't know what the future holds for us now. But I know you'll be better off without me sis. I leave here tonight in shame... I won't ever forgive myself.
My new years resolution is just to enjoy my new life in California. Go on advectures, make my relationship with my older sister, Dory stronger. Meet new people and friends. Live up to my dream career. After all I do love what I do no matter how hard. Nothing will change my heart or passion. I will continue to laugh, smile... I will continue to be with you if you continue to be with me as well :)
Have a happy new year everyone!
I learned alot these pass few weeks.
He wasnt the guy for me and i was surprisingly not upset by his respond. I was angry though that he thinks hes “the shit” bc hes wasn't. I've always enjoyed my life being single and things get more accomplished when I'm single. So it wont be bad going into 2017 single again bc I'll be moving to California and starting a new life there. :)
If it's meant to be it's meant to be.
I can't keep doing this to my heart or to myself. How many more times must I go down this road again. I have faith ...but why do I fear the faith of love? I have to let that run its course. If what he's feeling about me is too then I shouldn't be worried. But oh how I fear...
You changed me...even though we're not together. You made me the happiest person these past year. We both took each other to places we've been before but always never forgotten. I know you and I know you know me but you don't know how I feel about you. As I don't know how you feel about me. But I see it in your eyes... How you pause for a moment into my eyes... I'm moving soon as you know and I just want to say thank you for making my last year here memorable.
I love the way he makes me smile. I love the way he ask, how am I? I love how he thinks of me every morning. With a simple, “Goodmorning.” We share the same interest and have the same friends. But sadly... I'm not in love with him like I use to be. Times have changed. We want different things, have different paths. I confused what we had for love when in fact we can be nothing more but just friends.
Your smooth- and lite as the snow
heart beats true- as remembered.
When I leave- will you be-
Reminiscing me- of all the old memories-
Or will you be- forgetting me-
I guess your not smooth as White Christmas.
I always wondered what its like to be living away from my family and friends. I begin to find myself sitting alone and alongside a tree by a lake. My strengths and fears begin to show. I understand now. The work put into life... My life. Everything I've learned has come to this. Change is here even if we don't want it to come. This is how my life is like living alone. I can feel. I understand what family means. I know who my real friends are.
Why do you cry? Why are you afraid? Why can't you trust? Why can't you love? Why can't I feel what your feeling?
I cry because of our alcoholic father. He has lied to us. Since then I wasn't able to trust anyone else. I don't know what love is because I never felt any parent's love. You can't feel because luckly you didn't have my childhood. You are strong.
Your wrong. You are strong and I love you.
My body moves to the rhythm of your soul. Every beat pumps my heart. The sound of voice rings through my ears. You throw paint all over my body. The passionate feel drives me off the wall. Your angry thrills me more. Your laugher brightens up my smile. When you say, “you love me” I know you really do.
How can you say，“we are not all the same?” We are like colors. We're different and come from different parts of the rainbow. When we mix together we are something more. We are beauty, we are unique. When we are one. The next time you look at someone and say “we are not all the same” look up at a rainbow and you will see we're not so different when we are together. We are one. Spread love not hate.
Beware of her.
She watches you
She watches you live.
She watches you sign.
She watches you die.
She everywhere you go.
She'll never let you go.
Beward of her. Her name is Death.
3 yrs and 2 months later...
I have peeled off that old, damaged piece of me and a new skin grows. Smooth and tender. A new life is here. New meets friends. Friends meets lovers. I'm more stronger then before. You haven't seen all of me. But when you do you will be surprised. I'm still the same. I just peeled off that old, damaged piece of me but a new skin grows.
The crazy thing is I am inch from living. But why wait for that inch. Start living now. Go on an advecture. Alone if you have too. Stay out at night. Watch movies at night. Do whatever it takes. Just live right now. Don't way. Life will pass you by to those who wait.
Looking forward to the day I find (you).
Oh I will long for that day you hug (me).
Valley to valley.Ocean to ocean together.
Every night every morning waking up to you forever.
Life has changed you.
Is it for the better?
Or is it for the worse?
Are you doing this for you?
Or are you doing this for her?
She helped you find yourself, while you experienced real pain along the way.
Her name is Life and she has changed you.
Someday... we can fall in love, stay within our heart. Have a family, spend time with faces. I want you to see me rise, see me high and touch the sky. I'll let you be my king and I'll be your queen. But let me wear the crown proudly and you'll see it's not so bad let me rule the world. I want you to see my fame and be a part of my future. I'll provide you a home and watch you succeed in life with your dreams. Someday we will fall in love.
I can't believe I fell for another.
Another wannabe mobsters. Another heart breaker.
Another guy who fucks around with girls. He can do it but god forbid us from doing it? That's messed up. I thought things could of worked out. I thought we would of been something special but you turned out to be another.
Tomorrow is another day w/o you.
I've always wondered how I'll make it through each day w/o you. I would cry for hours watching you live your life.
Now wait. Lets turn this into a question.
How can I make it through ewch day w/o you? I can. Would I cry for hours watching you live your life? No. I would smile as you would watch me live my life. I wouldn't have a care in a world being w/o you. I would be free from your bullets, bruises, beats. I decided to turn your negative vibes to positive ones.
Bitch Be Brave.
All I wanna do-
Is to fall in love with you-
That all I wanna do- with you in my arms.
I wanna be with you-
Let's make something come true.
Can't you near my heart beating.
What will our world come too?
Hate, on people
Hate, on culture
Hate, on regional
Hate, on gender
Hate. Hate. Hate is all I see on the news. I try to love the bad as much as I love the good but my heart can't bare too much hate.
I'm on the train and there's a little fly by my window. I keep knocking the fly down but the fly continues to get to the top. Who am I to knock this fly to get to the fly. In the end the fly got to the top and flew away. Freedom. No matter how many times people knock you down. You still have enough strength to get to the top.
You were just given an opportunity but then a higher authority decides to hand someone else the wheel while your "driving" too. There can't be two drivers or else we'll crash. So whose going to be driving this project? Either decide or I'll just walk away.