Tired of living this high I've decided to leave. My wings are tired and the roads are calling me. Tomorrow I am leaving, they might have forgotten but I didn't. I am a traveler. I grew up on the road and I always find Home on the other side of the ocean. You said you love me but you never tried to catch me. Perhaps it's for the best, I heard we are not supposed to chase what we cannot keep. I am leaving tomorrow so I can be someone else. And only then, I will celebrate the day on which you freed me.
And I must admit that what I did was all for myself. I did it all because it felt good.
She was afraid to be a long-lost souvenir. So every time he would meet her she would become the wind...
I will stay.
Just this once.
Because we all need someone to stay.
I will keep you close but just this once.
I will sell you hope and brush your bones.
Despite what happened, I hate to see you helpless.
You were the fire inside of me and my tomorrows.
I know that you're trying to hold on to these 3 words we used to say but our Hallelujah is a just a broken echo. Stuck in this in-between give up is the smartest thing to do.
Tonight, I will hold on to you.
Cry it out.
I've heard that tears make sense out of anything.
We all need someone to stay, but we all deserve to be loved and happy.
Turn me into all your yesterdays.
No matter what happens, I will remember you. Don't forget that I was here. I could see you back when you were invisible. I was here before all of this. Your memory is safe with me. I will remember you.
You did what you did, please forgive yourself and forget it all. I will hold you tight waiting for your glitters to dim-out within your ice cold body. I will remember you under the sun. Warm and happy. Even if I am not the one who holds the smoking gun, note that I am deeply sorry. I wish I could have been able to fix his mistakes.
Once the trumpets will be out, I will sing the universe to you. May you be at peace. Breathe out all of the pain they put in your inside. It's time to let go. I ha...
She wanted to stay free. She wanted to stay away from him and his devilish touches. But the desire was growing in her inside and soon, it started to break and crush everything. Bones, flesh and organs.
It was scary but awfully good. Quickly a peaceful feeling named "happiness" surrounded her soul. She wanted to get away but it was too late. He had already sewed their hearts with strings made of ice. She fell in his arms, he wrapped her with his unbroken promises.
They were two in one. He could read the Holy Scriptures in her eyes, therefore he needed to call her by his name. She agreed to run the risk to be intimate with Brokenness: she offered him her freedom.
"It's because I can read the Holy Writings in your eyes that I want to call you by my name."
And I simply fell in love with what he said.
If you shut down your brain and give all the power to your heart, what does it tell you? Take my hand and let go of everything, what should stay will stay.
Don't fight your emotions, let them rain. A shower of meteorites built from your inner thoughts. What a beautiful picture that is, you are pain-free. Trust your instincts, you can survive this and more.
Breathe in, breathe out. Count to ten and see with your hands. Nothing is real anymore. The pain is gone and life is bright.
Losing is growing. Losing is cleaning. Losing is improving. Lose gracefully what you have to lose.
Your happiness is within you, not in their hands. Your peace is within you, not in their comments.
He was in search of his true half. A love that'll see no end. He travels the world with this crazy idea. "We all have someone out there." He tries. Again and again. Over and over. His love must be somewhere!
The fake ones, the scared ones, the lost ones. He would let them play with his heart because he knows that none of them could cut his heart out. Before even meeting them he had forgiven them. Hence, the longevity of his quest and his peace.
"Heartfelt love where are you at? Can not you see my light? My heart is chanting to your soul. Infinity times infinity. Always and ever."
He is in love and he believes. His better half awaits. He is in search of a new land to welcome his hopeful ve...
Time flies and my scares are still open. Nothing seems to take the pain away. Here it is again sitting on my chest. By now the wind must have brought to your ears my biggest wish.
Oh God, why would you test me in such a way? Introducing me to a masterpiece so it can leave me in such a tragic way. An absolute curse disguised as a wonderful surprise.
I was perfectly fine by myself. He broke something in me and now I chasing his company in the dark. He is always on my clouded mind. I want to be where he is!
The closer I get and the further he is. My heart is writing words of peace using the blood of the stars. Nothing seems to be enough. He cannot be reached.
We were done before we even met....
She wrote a song and named it "End of Love". Always thought Art is useless unless you can make a stranger break down and believe.
People will always bring pain and lies to you but never the Truth. Her song made me realize how wrecked I am. Drowning my sins in a salted sea might be what I need. But, losing my colors terrifies me!
I have never changed a single color within me. If you take a closer look you may see that my Universe is inanimate and I have grown to love it as it is. Dead.
Ever since I discovered the summertime sadness disease I have been flying too high for too long and now my heart is frozen in their emotionlessness love.
Makes me think that my God is not big enough becaus...
This entire situation is eating the best of me. I am holding my breath waiting for my ghost to appear. I tried to fill up my inside with prayers but my God had forsaken me. I am an empty vessel, a loveless lover. Lost in a storm of loneliness I am withering from the inside.
I live a life of letting go. It always ends up like this. Souvenirs crystallized in the disappointment. I was ready to suffer the sea, I am burning alive. I am the broken one. The vicious one. So what are you waiting for? Do it pull the trigger. You can have it all. It all reminds me why it did not work anyway. Keep it all. My heart was yours therefore, I will not ask it back. I will create a new one once needed. My light remains untainted by your lies. This why I know I will survive you. It is a waste of time and I know it. I shall keep chasing you in the dark. As long as it suits me you'll be in my clouded mind.
"As she put the envelope back right where she found it, Solveig signed Gideon's death sentence. She thought everyone would be safe ever since Hector's death but the truth is the death of one monster gives birth to another. Someone was dying for ending what her late husband had started."
Straight out of my novel. I can't believe that I am doing this. I shall keep you posted.
Work in progress! My first novel ever!
"Lev!", said Gideon forcing him to look at him, "you were gone. I was all alone and I suffered. I couldn't cope with this pain anymore. It was too heavy on my heart..."
"So it took my mother's death to get an explanation? A chance to understand? You've erased me of your life so fast that until now I feel dizzy!" he confessed with a broken heart.
"Ss...Sorry! I did not... I never meant... It's time for me to leave I guess." says he smothered by his tear.
"Gideon wait" whispered Lev with his hand on his face, "I am about to be weak. If you really want to help me you will hold me tight... I want to cry so..., so bad."
It's a whole universe that is expanding within me. The wind is wild. And my heart is floating at the safest distance from my soul. I want to let go of everything. It is enough. I want to be seen and heard. I put to rest my inner beast. I have forgiven everything that is within my lightweight skin. And somehow I am always pulled back in their orbit, talking in circles and breathing glass dust. I shall not die... I don't want to die... I am trying so hard to not lose myself. Desperately seeking a new territory to welcome my white flag and my exhales.
You've taught me the courage of the moon and the strength of the sun. No matter what you say without you I'd never have been half of the man that I am today.
You loved me when I hated myself. You laughed with me and sometimes at me, and you've kept on loving me when I was gone. Undeniably you're my biggest fan and that's fine because you're my hero.
I would need to create a whole new language to honor you and to express my gratitude.
You are my first best friend, my favorite enemy and the most valuable teacher. Father, thank you. One million times Thank You.
It's my whole heart that's trying to reach out to him. My soul is on a trial. And I am tired of crawling all the way. It's enough, there's no more room for doubts. He's playing and wants me to regret. He's the one who lives with a coal shaped like a heart. The time to learn have come. Looks like he wants to move away from me. I shall not move if he does. No need to cry with no reason. No need to pray with no reason. I wait until the lack of him comes out. My heart might be burned by his plastic stars but it's not buried. It's alive. Once all of it will be done I will breathe through my own happiness.
"I need no weapon. The truth will be enough. " And this is how they knew he was aiming for the throat.
My heart is full of electricity.
It feels so different.
So new. Nothing is real anymore.
It's all about the unseen perfection.
Because it hurts so much
When you are not here. I know.
I fell in love with the middle ground.
The bad is good. The good is bad.
I try so hard to keep my eyes closed.
But I'm losing control and find myself
Lost in a beautiful mess.
With a single touch,
You made my metals shine.
A beautiful surprise, is what you're.
Don't let them break my spell,
And let my voice run in circles
Around your brain because somehow,
Falling in love with you costed me
An entire soul...
And I'll try to breath until it becomes muscle memory. Breathing in and breathing out. Your sweet sharped lies, one by one will be mine. Soon enough I'll be dead enough to stop feeling this everlasting disappointment. That disgusting bitter taste that I have in mouth every time that you spit on my heart will be everything that I look for...
"The dark days weren't over just yet. She realized that when she found yet another note in her mailbox. She felt anxious as she opened the note. It said..."
"The truth will set you free."
As she is reading those words her heart escaped from her chest and ran away on the dusty ground. Her lungs jumped out of her throat and flew away in the dry air. She was experiencing fear. She looked around, thinking she could catch "The Crow" but the streets were empty. The secret that wasn't even hers to keep came with a cost. The cost of her soul. Like I said, the dark days weren't over just yet...
"Don't tell them yet. They'll find out soon enough. By killing me they offered me a chance to come up stronger than ever. My passion is undead and stars are closer. They'll learn!"
"His voice was mesmerizing. She was so intrigued by his voice that she didn't even hear the actual words coming out of his mouth. As she realized the conversation fell quiet, she realized a response from her side was requested. She could feel her cheeks turning red and... "
... She looked down. As he was waiting for her answer she was dying in the inside. Although she did not hear him; his words were written all over his face. She already knew that she wouldn't be able to love him as he deserves to be loved. She took a step back, screw her face to finally let her truth speak for itself.
Hearing those words was painful but necessary. He needed to hear them to live his life. All those memori...
"As she was cleaning out the closet, she found his belongings, still in the box. She never touched them after..."
... He had been gone. She had no idea what to do with them. She was so afraid of what could come next. As she sat on the table she could hear his voice echoing through her chest: "Every angel has dirty hands." She never understood what he meant by that. She never felt the need to ask though. The look that was coming with this mysterious sentence was so peaceful that she felt safe. Unable to decide herself, she left the box on the kitchen table.
Every day she would stare at the box wondering if she was strong enough to handle whatsoever was in it. Her man was a guy of surprises...
I knew that I would feel like this again so I keep prepared. That one feeling ; the one that no one can describe. Unsuccessfully I traveled the Seven Seas to find that indescribable feeling. Hopeless I was and gave up I did.
But you were here waiting for me. Where the body meet the soul between the mountains. The super moon was out that night and this is how I knew my feelings would take the wheel. I simply fell for you. You came to me and initiated my heart. I was so sure that it couldn't be used again and yet here I am feeling all those crazy things for the King of Death.
After letting my sky drown in your sea; you knew that you had no choice but exposing your garden made from Hell and yo...
I can't beat that feeling. I hate to feel it. Yet I was so sure about not being broken but somehow they did it. They've find a way to reach my core. They've broken me with their sharped lies.
My head is filled with doubts. And the weirdest thing is that I'm not even afraid. How come? I do my best to not believe in what they say but their words always find a way. Echoing through my chest: I Am Nothing.
They are in my head. They are calling from the under. They have caged my passion and now I am empty. I can't write, I can't laugh, I can't...
This situation is so tiring. I want them to win. What is the point now? It only can be easier. Letting them smother whatever they feel like. Reshape...
I don't want to fall for you if you're already in his arms.
I don't want to open my heart to you if you don't want to try.
If loving you means living in the darkness of his voice. I will kindly decline your offer.
You must have underestimated me to think that I would have to deal with it.
I am handsome and smart; surrounded by options. Don't you dare forget that I have chosen you.
My heart shines bright and it's ready to love like never before. I am unbroken and in love with the man that I am. I refuse to let you put me in such an awful position.
Love someone in the shadows of his past isn't what I am looking for.
This is a goodbye.
I understand now. And I won't let them win. I will destroy them from the inside. I will take whatever I need to be happy. I will not ask. I will not wait. It's now or never.
I am not dead therefore the fight is not over. I am walking on a path made of my ancestors' souls and they gave their life so I could be free. I owe it to them. I shall be. I shall believe.
I do not need to be wolf nor a lion. I will be me and I will be the best soldier that I can be. I will use my words to set the voiceless free; I will use my voice to save the weaklings. I will fight the unfairness of this whole Society.
My life needs to be great so my kids can have a greater one. Good people rising good kids. This ...