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Lyanne πŸ˜‡βœπŸ˜˜

PO# 543141
Australia
Australia
A wanderer. XplorVenturer. Silence & writing are my best friends. Poetry is my solace. "Life's realities are heart's desires and dreams"
February 19, 2019
Tagaytay, Philippines

It will never be the same anymore...

It will never be...

WHITE CLOCK
February 18, 2019
Tagaytay, Philippines

           As I walk thru
         The same path
         See the same walls
         Couldn't help but
         Let tears fall;
         As I remember
           Those moments
           Can't help but
Miss you...
Feeling this sense of loss
Isn't really something new
But losing you,
Puts a new hole in me
That no patches of life
Could ever ever cover
It will bleed, when it will
Stop, i dont even know how
Each time I enter a step
Into those spaces
I remember you
I can feel the pain
It makes me wanna run
Yet makes me wanna stay

CARESS ME
February 1, 2019
Tagaytay, Philippines

β€’ Over a year β€’

How time really flies
One moment we are
Together
Then the next
You are gone
A year over
We are praying
For what could be
A great miracle
Complete healing
From Big C;
I was far distant
I flew home
To be with you
I was devastated
I was lost
I couldn't fathom
All the thoughts
All the realities
But we fought
We prayed
Harder and harder
We struggled
We feared
We cried
WE HOPED
For new mornings
Where we will
Still be together
Sharing stories
Sharing laughters
Sharing good days
After the Big C;
But togetherness
Could also mean
You from up there
Me down here
It was that moment
Where all hopes
For healing turned pleas
No more suffering
But gentle exit
With angels singing
It was bitte...

STRONG PEOPLE
June 1, 2017
Palmerston, Australia

Dreams

If in the midst of
Storm and calm
I could be with you
No matter how
No matter what
I will endure
For when I AM
With YOU
Everything is
Turnin' out to be
Just fine
If in my sleep
Is where I could
Find the time
For us to be
TOGETHER
I will hold on
Even if it's
Only a glimpse
For my heart
Will always
Long for YOU

HOLD ON TO YOUR HEART
May 28, 2017
 

-SALUDO-

Ikaw.. oo ikaw at kayo
Na walang alinlangan
Pinasok ang serbisyong
Tanging buhay ay iniaalay
Para sa bayan minamahal
Sumugod, walang pasubali
Tawag ng sinumpaan
Itataya ang buhay
Para sa kapayapaan
Para sa kalayaan
Ibubuwis ang lahat
Tanging kakapitan
Diyos na Siyang gabay
Sa oras ng digmaan
Sa gitna ng sigalot
Bawat hakbang
Bawat paghinga
Alay ang buong puso
Sa bawat putok
Sa bawat sabog
Pagasa'y kanlungan
Sa pagsikat ng araw
Magbabalik mapagmuli
Sa yakap ng minamahal
Saludo aming pagsalubong
Sa inyong pagbabalik
Aming mga kapita-pitagang
Sundalo..
Saludo!!! Mabuhay kayo..
Nawa ang inyong sakripisyo
Magsilbing LIWANAG
Sa gitna ng umuusok na giyera
Makamtan ang inaasam-asam
Katahimi...

MAJOR STEPHEN REICH
April 25, 2017
 

I am happy if/when ______
It should've been an easy
Fill in the blanks
But my mind is wandering
My heart suddenly freeze
Out of words
Nah, too many thoughts
Lingering, fast as lightning
Into an obvious abyss
Numbness thru ruins
What was I thought
A complete stillness
Came shuttering grounds
Pieces by pieces
Thundering down
To complete oblivion
Happiness is burnt
My heart in search
Will it gonna find me
Again...
Not even things
Nor all travels
Can ever replace
The meaning of YOU
The meaning of Family
Here in my life

RESPECT
April 5, 2017
Palmerston, Australia

--Untitled--

I was on the verge of confusion
Convulsing in every inch of me
You were there right in front of me
Offering me life I always hoped for
But my mind as always has been
Torturing me which one is which

I can feel all the lovin' babe
I can feel all of you in me
But I am torned so apart
Dreams I am chasing
Or the love you are givin
Love, love I am so waiting
All my life I am waiting for

You got here the least I expected
You stayed still when all I ever did
Busted you, dragged you away
I am pushin ya cos
I spell hurt baby
But all the more you get sticky
I tried to stop but can't control
I think, I am fallin head over heel

I can feel all the lovin babe
I can ...

LAST HUG
April 1, 2017
 

"LET IT FLOW"

I dont know what to feel anymore
May be, the tears has a lot to say
More than what I can utter
I will let it be, let it flow
For I, I don't even know why
It's just there, flowing through
Through all the pains and joys
No matter how my world turned up
Upside down or mere blank canvass
My heart knows why tears just flows

RESPECT
April 1, 2017
 

"I TRIED TO"

I tried to write down notes and some more notes
But to my astonishment
I find my pen writing down your name.
Hey, I know!
Unconsciously, no matter what I do
You have already make a mark
Not only in my life, moreso in my heart.

I tried to doze off to sleep tonight
I am so sleepy, damn it!
But to my astonishment
I find my hands scrolling up
Reading our messages
I know! I know! But what can I do?!
You're still the reasons I smile

I tried to close my eyes and forget
I did all I could to my dismay
But the more I throw you away
The more you keep on clinging
Heck, I know! I should have
But you're the light in my darkest hour
The one that keeps me going

LAST HUG
November 10, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

#PHOTOCHALLENGE

In a world of splitting dilemma
One or the other; is the right
Nor totally wrong at all

A new world is coming
In the midst of a misty fleet
Sending uncertainty of tomorrow

Will the shadow of the past
Makes a wisdom for today?
Or shadow of today inflicts
For what the future holds?

All in chaos is dark rottened
But the mist of brokenness
It's roaring for healing
Not just for one but every one

Standing in these misty ground
For long he could endured
Till the day has come
When the rainbows to be out
For the world he love the most

STRONG PEOPLE
November 3, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

Before he passed out
He uttered one shout
  "Love you!"

In her arms, he laid
In her bossom, she dreaded
The pangs of seeing him
No life at all! How?!?

Her heart is screaming
In utter silence
All is breaking
Her eyes you see

Emotions running loose
Darkness embracing
As the hardest rains pouring
In her tears, thunders roaring

See the palettes of her eyes
So grey! So dark!
So pale! So dull!
Hers is where he is...

ANGEL OF PASSION
November 1, 2016
 

Starting all over again
Takes a leap of faith
Baby steps to big ones
Decisions to make
Courage to take
Unknowns to embrace

One by one
Day by day
It will make sense
If not now, when?
If and only what if's
But not anymore
Today, only I CAN
That's all that matters

SMALL BEGINNINGS
November 1, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

the art of perfection is learning from your misTakes and make it all better.

My mistakes are one of my foundations to grow and mature.

So the heck with y'all! Love me or hate me, i'll always be ME.

MAKING MISTAKES
November 1, 2016
 

I dont need pity, I need understanding

STRONG PEOPLE
September 29, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

Minsan anlabo lang
Pinipilit mong kalimutan
Sya naman nagsusumiksik
Sa isipan mong tigagal

Hanep naman yan memorya na yan!
Utang na loob naman lubayan na
Minsan kasi ansakit pa rin pala
Yun sabi mo okay na hindi rin pala

Yung isang kanta lang napakinggan mo
Lahat na ng alaala, lahat bumalik
Puso mo tanga, binalikan mo nga
Ayan tangay na tangay ka na naman

Hindi ka na maiyak kasi alam mo na
Isa kang tanga na umaasa sa wala
Lang beses mo ng sinabi ang, tama na!
Pero sadyang sya pa rin talaga

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FAVORITE HELLO
September 23, 2016
 

I am back in my place
A place of reverie
Where there's always and only YOU

In all of life's troubles, struggles
I only find myself coming back
In our perennial rendezvous

All alone in a sphere of darkness
You are the glimpse in my eclipses
Where the heart holds my brokenness

I am back in my place
Where love and hate collide
And there's still, always YOU.

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NEON WILDERNESS
June 23, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

My world may not be as bright as rainbows
Most of the times I seemingly live in the dark
Shallowed in pain turned upside down
But beyond the darkness is a glimpse
A beautiful reminder of a new day to rise
Where I can see the sun shining through

[I cant sleep. Migraine. Hip pains. Here I am into my solace.
Where words could seemingly calm all pressured veins.
Hoping the last word could send a thousand meanings
To let my whole being to rest and get a good sleep.]

ORIGINAL
June 12, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

I'd like to keep my heart in the safe of life; for when all is gone and everything passes by to the ends of time where only memories will live; I know my heart will always remember.
But if my heart can't be accepted in the safe, let this iPad be kept for this is my techbuddy that knows every tap I made in every mood I got into with every emotions that filled me in, each and every moment of today and tomorrows.

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YIN YANG
June 12, 2016
 

They say magic is just for kids but if only I could grab a wand to spin it to and make a wish come true, I would without a doubt, grab that chance to make a clone of myself as double so I could be in two places at the same time; one here where life is just a whirlwind in the passage of time and the other one is to be where home really resides.

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DISTANCE MEANS NOTHING
May 24, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

The road ahead isn't as bright as I hope it would be. It gets so bleak as I take further. But the pains that leaves me crawling and creeping will only gets me back to stand firm. I wanna take hold of what is absolutely mine -- my life. It hasn't been the easiest trip since the surgery more than a year ago. Each time I thought I already took a further step higher, things pull me further down. It always feel like going back to square one. But I will not stop getting better. No matter how long it takes to fully recover and get myself back to the kind of life I have been dreamin' of, I will do it, I will take it. No matter how hard it takes.

TODAY, I will make a wish.

I wish that my tomorrows...

MAKE A WISH
May 22, 2016
 

#SOTD

Things may not be falling into place right now. Leaves you in vain. Crashes your heart into pieces till the teardrops fall immensely. I don't want to know, I just want to go where you are right now. I don't wanna know how painful it gets cos I want you to feel that it will get better. In time, for sure. But for now, let me hug you. One day soon, you will learn to finally dry your own eyes and feel the normal beating of your heart. It will get better, my friend.

✍ BHanzberj © 2016

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UNIQUE
May 18, 2016
Belconnen, Australia

TODAY...

It isn't all the routine I have. It is one of the days that I am glad it come. It is not because of someone or some things that means huge but small stuffs that come along my way.
Today is a good day! I am glad with the cold outside. I am glad with the people coming pass my front while I am sitting here in one corner having a sip of my hot chocolate.
It doesn't matter how long I wait here for the next bus ride. As long as I am here. Feeling all the goodness that today has to offer.
An hour seems too long but truly, time passes by so fast and it already ticks to end my moment here before I know it. Oh how I want to stop the clock! Why?!? Because all these people around me at the mo...

FEELING GOOD
May 16, 2016
 

To my mom and lolo & lola, I wouldn't be this strong if not from both you. So thank you so much for giving me a good life. The time we spent isn't that long enough as we'd hope for but it's more than enough for me to always look back on all the memories we've had. I missed you all, ALOT. Thank you for all the tender loving care and the wisdoms you imparted to me.
I love you both so much from down under to heavens and beyond horizons.

✍ BHanzberj © 2016

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LITTLE ONE
May 15, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

I couldn't sleep. My heart's beating so fast. I don't understand the unknown heaviness in it. I am calm. I am just listening to some random songs in Pandora. But I can sense something deeper that I don't know how to spill it out. Call me stupid for letting a tear fell into my eyes out of nothing. Not knowing the reason why for such tears in my eyes.

Well, I guess I just miss someone. Or I miss a bunch of people. May be I just miss the life I used to have. The kind of life where no matter how tough the struggle is there is a comforting hands and bunch of people to laugh with. Or may be, I am just being sentimental tonight? How life has been? Too many how's really, I just find it out tonight...

INK DROP
May 14, 2016
Palmerston, Australia

MIGRAINE

No matter what. No matter how.
I gotta face you. I gotta accept you.
For in every bits of pains you cause
A resounding weakness embrace
As I melted to a sick bed in waiting
Where my eyes will close in darkness
My body resting in turbulent softness
In hope that all will be just fine
When the sun is up there to shine
No matter what. No matter how.
I scream or even in silent cries
I gotta fight you till the very end
Till you finally get out of my head
Giving me a resting moment ahead

✍ BHanzberj © 2016

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FACE TO FACE
May 13, 2016
 

Lingering Past

If I could turn back the hands of time
If only I could stop the changes from happening
You know that I would, if only I could
But I am only just like you, ordinary me
I don't have the power to say who to stay
Grieving is far long gone but the past
The past still have the guts to knock in my heart
It keeps on finding its way back to me

Time to time I let all the what ifs to linger
Cause that's the only insane moments I'd have
You know, what if you are still here with us?
What if miracle happened on that day?
What if you are still alive and soaring high?
I know, silly thinking but no one can stop me
My heart always longing for you, what do I do?
I know, everything happens for a...

CARESS ME
May 12, 2016
 

#Poetry Challenge
>>False Ceiling<<

He takes it one step at a time
When all along she want him gone
He slowly step onto her world
When all she ever did was hid
Right into the core he arrowed
Through to the very soft spot
Where only him got the hint
No one did she ever believe
For her heart has been pierced
Many times it already died
But persistent to exist to her
He did all he could to win her
To the very bits and unexpected
No matter how hard shelled
Her heart just so melted
She's falling so fast and hard
And when all seem to intertwine
When all hopes blossoms from none
But believing in love once more
They take the flight of uncertainty
Knowing one day soon is too dainty
But all is about f...

NEVER FORGET
May 11, 2016
 

#POETRY CHALLENGE
>>Lost Letters<<

Sitting in one corner of these coldest room
Staring into the blank wall of what a lame
Flashes and gushes came rushing through
To solace in what they called, memories
They are those lost letters waiting to casts
In these mortal realm of despair
Shall find rest only to rupture

✍ BHanzberj (c) 2016

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MUSICAL NOTES
May 11, 2016
 

The thing when you hardly get a sleep was forgetting TIME.
Today has been what it should have been, really.
I walked passed towards the bus stations 12 minutes early, only to get nervous whether the bus is coming or not. Me, checking up the up-to-date app of bus arrival on the bus stop cos I can feel I will be late on my appointment for the morning. Five minutes late, I saw it coming, what a big relief! I know, I will be late either but let's get it on.
I walked for 10 minutes or less towards the clinic. It has been cold sunny day! What a day, I said. I wanna enjoy the walking while feeling the heat of the sun fighting through the chilling coldness I am feeling. It felt good!

Only for me t...

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