Oh ! It's a girl !
The family celebrated. The child is lucky to be born in a family who doesn't hate her birth
Everyone celebrated everything about her.
A colleague of her dad showered her with kisses when she was ten, dad thought it was pure love . The girl knew the pain behind it .
At fifteen , her teacher soothened her failure at an exam with an unwanted physical touch she never wanted . Everyone thought the girl is the teachers' favorite student. The girl knew the embarrassment behind it.
At nineteen, the so called best friend of hers made a nasty mark on the pages of her life. The girl knew the intention behind it.
Her parents succeeded in giving her a perfec...
When unwanted conversations creep into love, the belief in words slowly starts to walk out.
No matter how much I hold back,
The tricky 1:00am always makes me to miss you.
No matter how much I console myself,
The stupidest mind of mine always wants to cover itself in your heart.
No matter how much I stay far from you,
My heart always runs behind you.
No matter how much I wait,
The time says wait for a bit more.
No matter how many times I see you,
My rhythm always skips a beat as it were the first time.
No matter how many times I listen to your nonsense talking,
I end up myself blushing for no reason.
No matter how much I want you for the rest of life,
I just want you the same for a hundred more.
A year ago,
She hated everyone
She hated everything
She wanted to escape from the reality
She didn't felt a bit of love even though she had it ,not because the love is wrong, her mind wasn't just right.
She always had a fight between the truth and the reality
She was scared of another day and another morning
She always found peace in solitude
She lost the capability to trust something or someone again
She was stuck in a crowd of people alone.
And then ,
It lent it's shoulder and listened to every difficulty she ever had
It celebrated her craziness
It adored her wierdness
It got struck her in its warmth hug of happiness
It made her cry as much as she wanted
It portrayed ...
The breeze knew how I thought about you as it carried our memories along with it
The rain shared my tears and hid them from you as if I never cried for you
The summer knew the heaviness I had in my heart and made the day even hotter trying to burn our conversations as if we had never talked to each other
Every leaf of autumn knew about the journey we shared
Every blossom of the spring knew about the love we cared
The changing seasons ,
The passing by time,
The unheard stories,
The memories we made as photographs,
The guilt heart for losing you are all
I am left with.
Broke the promise,
You are the air that keeps me alive
You are the tornado that makes my life miserable
You are the tiny tide that pampers me like I'm a kid
You are the hurricane that will let me die as my fate
You are my imagination where everything seems possible
You are my hallucination which breaks my every dream into a million pieces
You are the smooth early morning sunshine that brightens my life
You are the harsh summer sunlight that scorches me every minute
You are my strength that wants me to breathe
You are my weakness that lets me die.
On that morning,
With the warmth of sunrise in her eyes,
Mind as calm as the ocean,
With the raising tides in her heart,
The brewing coffee in her hands,
With the happiness she always wanted,
With the life she always desired,
With the love she always waited for,
With him by her side,
That is always she dreamed of
This night, she dreamt of that beautiful dream again.
In a world of disappointments , be an expectation.
In a world of temporaryness, be permanent
In a world of changing trends, be classic
In a world of selfishness, be self loving
In a world of break-ups, be commited
In a world of mimicking, be artistic
In a world of dying to live like everyone else,
Live like yourself.
Love like yourself.
If it's about love ,
It's not about short distance or long distance
It's not about status and security
It's not about caste and religion
It's not about advantages and disadvantages
It's not about you and me
It's about us.
It's about our love.
It's about the life we make together above all these differences.
It's about the strength we have when we are together.
It's about the determination to be together.
Dragged herself into the darkness
Tied herself to her trusted principles
With no one to untie the knots
She wanted someone to comeover and make her to believe in trust and happiness
Everytime, someone came and made her not to believe in trust again
Until there came a day when she realized that she never needed someone to make her believe in happiness, to believe in trust and to believe in love
She realized that only she can kill her own ghosts and push herself out from the darkness
Only she can love herself for just the way she is and she can be happy with that.
" I gave you many chances, " the thoughts said to her.
Within no period,the sweet and the meaningful thoughts changed to bitter ones.
The bitterness slowly turned into a poison.
A kind of poison which could slowly kill her inner self, which could take her to places where she always scared to live in,
Which could turn her mind into a reckless tornado, spinning her soul as it wished,devastating every happiness she could let in , the poison made her helpless.
By making her to taste every drop of it,
the poison made her lifeless.
All she need now is an another thought that could save her from the poison or to be true, maybe she needed the same thought that once made her feel alive.
This time ,
That isn't just another day .
She didn't made herself to sleep with tears.
She didn't regret for her existence.
She didn't get scared of the clock that is ticking twelve.
She realised that there are hearts that would hold her in her ups and downs.
She saw the happy tears in those beautiful souls just because she is smiling.
She came to know that there are people for whom her smile matters.
They proved that blood isn't always needed to become family.
Not her shadow in the dark ,but his light showed the path
Not her braveness raised her from the downfalls, but his encouragement did
Not her pain saved from her agony, but his belief in her strength did
Not in her silence she found her peace of mind , but staying with him silent did
Not for the thought that he could give his life for her gave the happiness,but for the thought that he will be with her untill death gave her strength
Not the existence of her gave her the spirit of life but one cannot think about her without thinking of him did.
She repeatedly thought about it by thinking not to think about it.
The complexity of her thoughts is so much confusing
She chose ,
pain over happiness
tears over smile
fear over strength
weakness over boldness
Yet, besides of all these choices, she wanted her life to be perfect !
How stupid she is ! She didn't realise that all her hopes will go in vain without the positivity in her heart and mind.
Trembling in the darkness
Darker thoughts in the mind
Senseless foot steps
Not your shadow as your ally
Not your braveness as your guardian
Not your determination as your strength
Not your knowledge as your way
Oh ! Forget about the loved ones, they ain't gonna be with you without all the above
That's when you should hold your heart and listen to it.
Because you and only you are your life
In the darkness, in the light,you will have only you .
When you think the behaviour of others gives an impact on your inner peace either shout it out on them or walk out.
Remember that your inner peace is important .
She is not always that girl who would shut herself out to people.
She is not always that girl who stays in her box of fear and would not let any word out of her mouth.
She is not always the one who would let anyone humiliate her.
No, she is not what everyone thought that she was.
People least know that,
She can let her heart synchronise with her dance.
She can hold wordless pain and can show it with just a smile.
She can get traumatized again and again and can get back again with doubled strength.
People least knew that she never cared about what everyone thought about her.
People least knew that she gave lesser importance to the outer extravagance than she gave to her inner beauty.
Oh please !
Try to listen with an intention to
If you just want to reply,then don't
listen at all.
Letting go is easy
To get rid of something is easy
But holding on to something is difficult.
Feeling something as our responsibility is difficult.
To make something as our life is difficult.
To do something as our passion is difficult.
To be with someone even if it takes to die is difficult.
To earn respect is difficult.
To live with dignity is difficult.
To understand is difficult.
To live someones else's life is difficult.
Choosing the difficult paths will lead to a life which is full of glory, peaceful mind and brightened soul.
Whether we chose it or not is our choice.
Those eyes ....
Can hold her entire universe
Can show her life's longest dream
Can explain the mysterious feelings
Can take her to a world which she always believed in
Can hold her tears and transform them into happiest smiles
Can make her smile more brighter
Can show her the purest form of love and life.
Those eyes just gave her a beautiful place to live in.
I wanna hide my tears
But you know how to reveal it
I don't wanna talk
But you know how to understand
I wanna run away
But you know how to get me back
I wanna die
But you know how to let me live again
You make me stronger than I'm
You make me feel more alive than I'm.
Let me go.
Let me fly in the sky to the infinity.
Let me swim to the deepest depths.
Let me run to as far as I can go.
Let me talk until I get tired.
Let me wake up in a place where there is no fear.
Let me be broken from these unseen chains .
Let me be free.
Let me be me.
You didn't let me talk
You never listened
You never asked
You never wanted to know how I feel
You never know what I want
You do not know how I understand
You never know how much I love
All these years, what you did was estimating me based on your own beliefs and you will do the same for the rest of your life
All of a sudden you wanted me to share my feelings with you
How would I do that ? When I have no idea how to do it ?
You left me in a box which is filled with full of fear and you wanted me to fly freely in the infinite skies ?
You filled my mind with full of hesitance and you want me to express boldly ?
You gave me a bag full of lies about your life and wanted me to tell the hon...
No,it's not your fault.
Being misunderstood by others is not your fault.
Being cheated by others is not your fault.
Being ill treated by others is not your fault.
It is a reflection of their mind towards you dear , it's not your fault.
Keep shining as always as you are because it's never your fault.
Only you know the struggle that you are going through in your tough times
Only you know the value of your tears that are running down in vain
Only you know the pain of your heart that cannot do nothing but holding the pain
Only you know the darkness of your darker side which cannot be seen by anyone but you
Be there for yourself to console you in the hour of harder times, because no one but you can handle yourself.
Because you know yourself better than anyone.