Mark R. Pinto
|Native on the Red road living in two Worlds. Father of three Beautiful Daughters & four Grandchildren. Hopeful Romantic|
Out of nowhere the sense of loneliness overwhelmed me.
Oh God please let there be someone for me.
A Prospectors Life
It had been hardened by a pre-staged life that he was destined to live.
Their life's journey & future hardships to come were unimaginable.
Working long hours, from sun up to sundown. Exposed to some of the most extreme weather conditions. Living outdoors & induring all four seasons that did not show any forgiveness and have taken many lives. Wildlife that filled the land took care of the weak. Always keeping an eye out for any dangerous encounters.
There was no just giving up & returning home. For most didn't have a home they could return too.
Limited to greedy price gouging merchants. Many times having no choice where or who they purchased their equipment fro...
If one day our eye's ever meet amongst the sea of people, please, i ask of you.
Avoid looking into them.
If i notice your gaze,
It will cause tears to flow from my eyes like a river & I'll know then that you had.
As i watch your gesture
of expression, I will start to
cry out in shame that you had seen deep into this soles remorseful past.
If you don't excel in your career and strive to learn by your mistakes from previous relationships, there
is always another person
to replace you.
You may have broken the mold but there is always a new cast being created.
You ever just meet someone
and just wish you could
talk to her more?
She was special and
I just let her slip away.
When I Google your name I scroll through all the faces then it hits me, I forgotten what you look like.
It's been so long, I miss you so much, where have you gone.
I wish you were near, right here. I miss you, I miss what could have been, what should have been.
Where we would be now?
Prospector till I'm forgotten
When I imagine going to the creek, stream or river,...
I picture rolling hills as the gates leading to the mountains.
As fast as a blink of an eye. As if I've passed
threw a portal. Nature takes over & turns into a place where
things haven't been scarred or touched by many men.
Where the road turns to gravel and takes me lower
In evelavation, slowly winding down between two peaks that are covered with Lodgepole Pines.
A place wildlife can keep me on my toes & i always
have to check over my shoulder because the dog might've
passed out in the shade or disappeared.
I look all around thinking, "Som'bitch, some German shepherd you are!" I swear that nose of hers has gotten
her in more trouble. La...
Turn to a new time in my life. Who are you?
I do not know? I'm a new me I say, but am I really?
Tears coming from my eyes!
Struggling times. Struggling to breathe!
Oh God! Help me breath again.
Let me float, let me breathe!
Is your New Year's resolution about
who you want to be or who you were?
do I want to be a new me
or the person who I've always been?
Depression has hit me so hard this year.
I don't know if I can handle another year like this with my emotions going all over. Its like I have no control of my heart.
Went to see a doctor. She gave me these pill that made me go numb like when I used to use meth.
I love having feelings and emotions but not go I numb to where I don't feel anything.
God gave me a heart with feelings not a pocket full of dope or a script of pills.
I just want to be naturally balanced!
Lost & alone
What are these feelings
Memories of my childhood
Time of emotional distress
Is now the time to mourn
Over due journey back to my past
Thoughts of sorrow
Little lip quivering
Taken away from all i knew
Fearing of not knowing
What is to come
Lost & alone
Is it the idea of loving someone like you
Or is it that idea of falling in love with
that perfect person & hoping its you?
My imagination runs wild with
endless thoughts of you.
I want that person in my
to be you.
Our Earth, she reveils a time long forgotten
when i turn over boulders.
Exposing a never seen place that had
been coveted long ago.
Gravel mixed with sands amongst pebbles & stones
hiding an Ore, we are so in search for.
Like a glimmer out from the corner of our eye &
as fast as light, it settles beneath the sands.
We roll water in & out, side to side.
Black sand in our pan, slowly washing it away.
Suddenly a yellow like no other you have ever
slightly appears before the eyes.
It screams "I am here, can you see me!".
For it is so precious, men have not only killed for it
but have inslaved many races & made them dig it up
from the ground leaving deep holes & gouges in
"I got jokes all day"
Hmm… I wonder how people would react if I walked into SEA WORLD with a fishing pole?
When new doors of opportunities open for you,
Becareful think, what are the long terms of this
decision before you decide to walk through it.
Some missed opportunities are a blessing.
Mark Raven Pinto
Where's my news?
I miss reading the news written on Lettrs!
It seems like that was the only time i had to read about whats currently going on in the world.
I hope someone starts it up again.
A smile just erupted from my face remembering the Feather River Pow Wow in Northern California.
Closing ceremony had just ended. I seen a few of the young dancers were out on the back field walking tossing a football around. So I thought let's play a game of tag football, worrior style, ayeee!
We had just started when some college guys asked if they could play.
We all looked at each other and grinned as if we were think the same exact thing. Cowboys against Indians. Hoka, Hoka hay! I thought.
As we played the game started getting rougher. They thought they could toss us around since we were smaller or whatever was running around Thier small naive brains.
It was going on eleven an night and ...
I am merely a man wanting to be happy as I age.
Those who are close to me know we only want happiness. This social network might have destroyed the closeness i have with someone that I truly care for over misunderstanding. So for this reason I am only keeping to writing about my life's experiences.
I hope and pray that it hasn't but if it has I know I'm done with social media, forever.
Marc Zuckerberg, you have truly hurt more then you'll ever know.
Mark R. Pinto
The Red Road
Living the Pow Wow life
As i look up and slowly close my eyes.
Staring beyond the Lodge poles out into the gassly cluster of stars that fill our galaxy.
Laying there, imagining how she floated like a butterfly with each step to the beat of the drum as she danced.
So graceful, like a feather floating inches above the ground.
The smoked canvas fades from light
to dark as the fire sends whiphs of smoke through my lodge poles.
In the distance I can softly hear a father singing a traditional lallaby to his infant.
Early morning sky.
Heavy thick Winter Robe draped over me as I duck out the doorway.
Morning frost covers the grass. Glistening, slowly melting to dr...
When I was young
Looking over the little valley, hidden between two pine covered hills.
I could see the smoke stained canvases of our homes that we loved so much and all the Ponies.
Memories rush back to me from my childhood as i start to smile.
I start to count the corralled ponies while watching the children try to trick them with a piece of fruit leading them closer to the fence so they can sneak on their backs as I did as a child.
My Great Uncle smiled as he told us "Ponies know what you're doing".
We didn't understand at the time.
I laugh now as my Uncle did.
We thought we were smarter then the ponies.
When we got lucky and tricked them they ...
I dont know what it is anymore
I thought I did.
So many words can describe the word Love and what one feels during the course of a relationship and how those feelings change throughout it.
Remember when we were young with our first relationships and how love made us feel.
Heart pounding before that first kiss and the butterflies in our bellies.
I know i smiled everytime that person at that current time in my life ran across my thoughts.
How excited I was when I seen her number appear on my phone.
Or how she lit up when I brought a beautiful Rose that I cut. Knowing I selected one just for her.
Watching, as she put it to her nose, smiling as she looks up at ...
When I was young
Looking down apon the little valley hidden between two pine covered hills.
Seeing the smoke stained canvases of our homes that we love so much.
Laughing as I count the coralled ponies.
I watch the children try to trick them with a piece of fruit to lead them close to the fence so they can sneak on their backs as I did as a child.
This makes me smile in happiness
as my Uncle did when i thought we were smarter then the ponies.
Living this life makes me feel proud to have lived it.
Leaving this way of life makes me sad knowing I've returned to the white world.
Living in Two Worlds
Mark Raven Pinto
Life is a mystery
Live lifes journey until
the unknown has been
Experienced by you, the Inspector
Mark R Pinto
Have you ever been alone
Have you ever been homeless
Do you ever wonder what it
like to have a beautiful family
Do you really know what it's like to have lost everything
I do, it hurts
It makes you feel lost
It makes you feel shame
It's makes you humble
All you can do is strive to be who you never were
Mark R. Pinto
I have a light that shines its brightest,
Amongst the kindred and compromising,
Lost in depths intensely kept
Reaching outside n ever crying,
blinding-bent- and in regret,
The orchid blooms nature is select.
It's you I'm writing about on my phone. It's you m thinking of. It's you I dream of.
I'm looking for you
I'd be lost without Lettrs.
I'd be,... You don't want to know.
If it wasn't for this app
Drew created I might not love life as much as I do.
Thank you Drew, staff, "O", and everyone else I hold dear to my new heart.
Mark R. Pinto