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May🖋☕️

PO# 491406
United Kingdom
United Kingdom
Author📚 Author of The Martens brothers series, Black Guys and Gals, Damaged and McQueen Family series 📚(Marianna Nemeth)
October 20, 2017
 

Every day is different.

Sometimes I do cry,
Sometimes I do laugh,
Sometimes I do think,
Sometimes I do shout....

It's not easy but I have to go through this to get my freedom, get what I deserve and live my life with my kids.

I don't need pity,
I don't need watching,
I don't need listening...

All I need is you letting me go because, damn... you fucking screwed up and you can't undo it. You can't make me forget it. I want you to leave but still don't leave the kids, only me.

Let me live my life with them. Let me mourn over this relationship because that's what I need, that's what I have to do.

It's easy for you, you don't even see how easy for you... You are already starting a new life w...

KEEP RUNNING
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October 18, 2017
 

Starting to feel free...

Not fully but I will be there soon.

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EARTH
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October 13, 2017
 

#13WS

TIME, THAT'S WHAT I NEEDED TO FINALLY LET YOU GO AND SURVIVE IT.

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ENDLESS STARS
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October 13, 2017
 

With the new day comes new streinght and new thoughts!

   Eleanor Roosevelt

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LION
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October 9, 2017
 

I looked into my mirror and sighed. My hair was loose on my shoulder, straightened and deep brown. My make up was light, but I tried to make some changes so I used red lipstick.

My dress was long and black and all I wanted is to take it off and get back to my leggings and shirt.

I walked up to my bed and sat down putting on my high heels which I wasn't even sure if I was able to walk in it or not. I stood up and grabbed my small bag, checking if I had everything. Phone, money...

I slowly walked downstairs and my friend and her daughter looked at me smiling.

"How do I look?" I asked them and they grinned.

"Like someone who is ready for her  first real date." She told me and I smiled at ...

AROUND AND AROUND
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October 7, 2017
 

Feeling more alone then ever.

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STAR EXPLODING
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October 1, 2017
 

#coffee

He looked into my eyes deeply and I smiled shyly at him.

"Why are you looking at me like this?" I asked him and he sighed looking out of the window then back to me. I couldn't take off of my eyes from his face. His deep blue eyes, his cheeks how smiles, his lips.

"I spotted you looking out on this window in the last twenty minutes..." he started it and I sipped some coffee from my cup and smiled. "... and I thought you need some companion." He shrugged drinking from his coffee.

"I don't know..." I shrugged looking at my coffee.

"Broken heart?" He asked me and I smiled sadly looking back up to him.

"Kind of..." I mumbled.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked me and I shook...

INTERNATIONAL COFFEE DAY
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September 30, 2017
 

The end.

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FRIENDS
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September 27, 2017
 

I think it's over.

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MEAN GIRLS
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September 25, 2017
 

This can't be undone.

It's already feels over.

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EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY
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September 22, 2017
 

Don't play with me.

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NATIONAL DIARY DAY
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September 19, 2017
 

I am so hollow inside. I don't feel myself feel anything at all.

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INTO THE GALAXY
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September 18, 2017
 

Physically and mentally exhausted.

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EARTH
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September 15, 2017
 

What if I change and no one will like it?

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STAR EXPLODING
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September 14, 2017
 

Never give up.

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STAR EXPLODING
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September 11, 2017
 

I don't know what to expect anymore.

I do love you but we need to change.

Change for the best.

Change for our future.

Or we will hate each other for the rest of our life.

But what if we find our way in the middle?

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STAR EXPLODING
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September 10, 2017
 

I am afraid.

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HUG ME
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September 9, 2017
 

I am afraid after her, I won't be able to satisfy you anymore.

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RESPECT
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September 8, 2017
 

Stop asking it if you are not serious.

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DON'T TALK TO ME
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September 7, 2017
 

You want to talk?

Why?

You already made up your mind, I can see it.

It's crushing and hard but I have to accept it and think ahead of me.

I am scared but I have to, I know I won't be able to get out of my own mind.

I am just so closed off and all you want is talk.

What if I can't?

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EXPLOSION
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September 6, 2017
 

Sometimes all you need is to calm down and think.

Yes.

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IT'S OUR SECRET
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September 3, 2017
 

Who the fuck do you think you are..?

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IT'S OUR SECRET
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September 2, 2017
 

#words

When I hear the words I can't really process it, when I think about it alone, with my thoughts it can kill me. Brake my heart and rip it out of my chest.

Words can kill. Kill the love, kill the promise, kill the hope, kill the only thing what you really need...

It can affect you. It can affect everyone around you. Your loved ones, your kids.

Words are deadly.

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WHO DARES TO DISTURB ME
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September 2, 2017
 

#lettrs

'This is just a small story.'

Once in a lifetime

"Touch me." I whispered looking at him as he was standing in front of me. My legs and arms were already shaking.

"Shaking much?" He arched his brows and moved his eyes on my lips.

"I am standing in front of you in my bikini and I just got out of the sea..."'I tried to explain it to him and tried to mask my disappointment. I should have told him why I was really shaking. I was shaking for his touch for god sake! I could see from the corner of my eyes that he lifted his hand up and tucked my hair back to my ear.

"We can't. He is watching." I shook my head and quickly looked around scared and it was true. My husband was watching f...

ANGEL OF HEARTS
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August 28, 2017
 

Feeling your touch and skin on mine is incredible. This is what I needed. You. Feel me. Fuck me. Deep inside of me.

That's what I live for...

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ANGEL OF LOVE
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August 13, 2017
 

Love is beautiful.

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NATIONAL LAZY DAY
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August 7, 2017
 

#talent I think my talent is writing. I don't have anything else much in me. :)

Shania's POV

"I just want to look out on the window. That's it and then we can go home." Home? Does that mean he is gonna be living at the same floor as me? Or he is going down to his brother and I am gonna live alone with the twins? Not that I hated the idea but I liked that he is around, I liked that he looked after me and took care of me when I needed and I would love to give that back to him as well. I swallowed hard and shook my head. Gosh. No. I can't think about that right now. I wanted him more then I ever thought I would. I was screwed. "Shania?" I snapped my eyes to him as he cleaned the window and ...

YOUR DREAM, YOUR STORY
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August 3, 2017
 

“If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.”

― Paulo Coelho

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EXPLOSION
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