Had my birthday yesterday. It was calm and I am grateful for it. No drama. A simple lunch, couple of birthday cards, my guy with me, my friend with me, and later in the day, my kids with me with a cake.

I am thankful.

Here it is to an other year. :)

6 months next weekend.

I can’t believe it.

I am honestly happier then ever.

Pinky finger update:

Fully healed.
Slight bend.
Hurts when it’s really cold.
If it gets tired it hurts. Using a splint for a night helps with that.

Overall.
Happy with the outcome.

Happy New Year Everyone

^^short story^^

I stepped into the room wearing my new red lingerie. I looked into the mirror and frowned. I looked fat and totally not sexy and my next thought was to take the sexy thing off and just put some shirt and short. I wanted to look sexy for him. He loved red lace. He loved it on me. I just couldn’t believe it. I sighed touching the ham of my top. It looked nice, it looked sexy and you can see my nipples.

I was so excited to show this to him. I was so excited to see him tonight.

It’s our anniversary. A whole year seeing each other. Meeting two-three times a week and I enjoyed being with him. He was caring and lovely. I was slowly falling in love with him. I wouldn’t say I am a...

MERRY CHRISTMAS FOR EVERYONE ON THIS APP!!!

Christmas is soon here and I hope it will be better then the last one.

I am hopeful.

What if I can’t give you everything? You will leave and my heart will be broken again. You just put it back together and I don’t want it to be broken again.

Feeling the pain as I go pale and can’t move is the worst ever at the moment...

Hopefully I will get some results next week.

You become an important person in my life.

Please, don’t leave.

Pinky finger update:

Bandage off for the daytime, 4 more weeks to wear it at night!

Coping well I guess lol

This is not a game,

It’s real life.

Don’t screw it up.

Don’t blame yourself, baby.

No one knows a thing just yet.

I promise everything is going to be just fine.

Don’t even think about the worst.

Stop blaming yourself, baby.

Time is precious.

Use it well.   

Yesterday was a day when I realised this could be more then what we are doing.

It’s early, scary but in the future I want it.

I want you.

Moving on with small steps with you is the best thing what happened to me in the last year.

I like it.

Thank you.

Do we actually go anywhere else?
Does our relationship real?
Am I doing it right?
Going slow is okay?
Just to see how it goes at the moment?
You are too good to be true,
You are too good for your own good.
You are much more then I thought you are.
More.
We are more now then friends.
More.
More.
More.
More.
Smile.
Happy.

I fractured my pinky finger.

Great job!

My favourite holiday is Disneyland land because I can feel like a kid all over again!

Feeling content and I don’t want to lose it :)

I don’t want to be obsessed with you.

Recharging for an other day.

Experiencing new things in life.

I am really enjoying it.

I am a bad boy then.

I already found your replacement.

Imagination is great power.

Broken heart means broken mind.

ADVICE - COMMENT PLEASE
I need advice.

Do guys like to hear that someone loves them?

I am debating to tell him, but it’s pretty complicated as we are not together anymore as he moved away.

I think he has feelings too but I don’t want to read too much in it either. I don’t want to get heartbroken more then I am now, and I don’t want to be disappointed either.

Never had this before, never had a guy this special in my life.

I have the “You only live once” thinking in my mind though... like I don’t want to burry this feeling, and I want it to be out there, and tell him...

But you know... I am scared.

Why are you not here with me?

I miss so many things about you that I can’t even describe it...

Where to start..?

I can’t...

If I do, I wouldn’t be able to stop and I will start craving after you again.

I miss you.

Time will help.
It’s easier to let you go.

But I still smell you on me, I still remember our time together, I still feel your touch, I still see you standing there and smiling at me, I still remember your kisses.

Time will help.
I am hopeful there is someone out there for me... but that hope is fading.

I was completely fine while you were here, I hate what happened, I hate the situation and reasons behind it but I have to accept it.

I am no one.

Time will help and I will be able to smile and laugh without thinking about you.

Time will help.