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Fathimath Munisa

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Engineer ● India|Kerala|Kasaragod ● I tried to fit in.. but still stood apart..☺
August 13, 2019
 

Sickening night...
Angry rain...
Unexposed stars...
Empty sky..
Chilling weather...
Flood alerts....
And me...
Scribbling thoughts...

One good thing about being an introvert is...
You never get bored of being alone...
It is when you travel across
Dreams....
Expectations....
Reality....
Imaginations...
Building your own castle in masked, yet beautiful, world...
Like castle in sand dunes,
It may vanish by a wind...
But the pleasure of your art stays on...

From wondering why am I like this moments to thanking god for making me so...
The pages of that random surf get turned one by one...

Lucky me or unlucky me....
Depends on with whom you compare..

But I am happy with the uniqueness in so...

LET'S FALL IN LOVE
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July 13, 2019
 

Reached a point in life where
I dont wanna get married   
I dont wanna do any job...
I dont wanna stay idle at home    

I wanna stay stilll....
With no progress...
No move on..

The only thing I fell in love with is codes...

No matter how low my productivity at work place is ...

Coding is my passion  
The only thing which soothe me...
The thing I will carry on even after bidding farewell to my work...
Insha allah ..

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MADE WITH LOVE
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July 5, 2019
 

Sometimes you have reverse your path
and
choose another one to achieve your goal..

#lifelesson #today #traindamage #withnoo #clttoksd #fridayevenings #backtohome
masha allah

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WORLD WATERCOLOR MONTH
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June 11, 2019
 

Dear rain,
You make me remember my home...
You bring back memories...
Both,
Which I wanna forget...
And which I wish to remember too...
Which you were part of,
And which you were not...

You make me miss something...
Which in my locale called as 'karkare'...

You make me feel hungry...
You make me just sit idle...
Watching those drops....
Feeling chillness...
Cracking snacks and badaiess...
You give meaning to the word 'feel'...

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PASSION OVER PERFECT
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June 2, 2019
 

'Ten for hundred'
'Hundred for ten'

I may argue that both have same meaning.
Do you agree?
Some may agree ,
Some may disagree..

It depends on how you interpret it.
You may tease me, thinking how foolish am I.

For me the first one is ,'Ten rupees for  hundred candies.'
And the second one mean 'Hundred candies for Ten rupees'
They are really same...
But it is because you gave interpretation to them.
Because you wanted both to be same...

But someone who always like to point out the mistake in you can think differently...
ie,
For them the second one may be
'Hundred rupees for ten candies'
They may critisize you to stick to your words and dont change them unnecessarily..

No matter, how goo...

ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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May 22, 2019
 

#night thoughts #void #noreason #today #workwithoutreward #noonecares #undiscovered #itnomoreexcitesyou #butfillsyoureyes #feelasaburdennotasanexcitingchallenge
#allahthebestofallplanners

Best thing I have read today
"If it wasn't hard everyone would do it"

I always loved doing things which people categorise as hard or unwanted...

Exploring things which people rarely notice of...

But I never gave attention to details which everyone take care of...

I had my own print...
Which I loved...
Until now...
Now - a point in my life where I wish to be normal...
Like everyone...
Unnoticed by all
Above all, one who doesn't care about being noticed or not....

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WHITE CLOCK
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May 21, 2019
 

Alhamdulillah...
It's been a year...
From the wonderful moments of college ,being on a working environment was terrifying,
with nipah,
fasting,
away from home for the first time,
added hurdles,
Survived a year with much better situations right now...
Going through the holy month again, it brings the memories of our ifthar and zuhoor...

Alhamdulillah for the amazing souls Allah had made me meet..
Alhamdullilah for all the tensions you have given me since a year which had drawn me closer to you...
Alhamdulillah....

WHITE CLOCK
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May 12, 2019
 

#randomthoughts #sick #bedridden #bored #failure #life #fight #disturbedthoughts

Learning to fail...
Is it needed?
The society wonders..

But yes..
Life taught me
The consequences..
Of lacking the courage to face the failure...

Failure was something which had no meaning in life...
Until I realized its worth..

I thought nothing was impossible...
There was nothing like 'I can't' in my life..
Eventhough it wasn't a 100 % success, it wasn't something which could be called as failure..
And it never used to disturb me like now..

Now,
Even after months...
It still haunts me...

Learn to fail..
To,
Not "collapse" later in life...

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FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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April 3, 2019
 

One more row added to the list of things I have lost because of my shyness..

More than a lose, it was an underestimation of what I could,

Now I doubt whether any 'I can' things exist in my path.

Soon gonna bid good bye to 'tongue only for  survival' world.

I fit nowhere in this world where 'words speak louder than action' ...

A psychological move called buyer's remorse..

May be something better lies in the plan of best of all planners, Allah.

It may be just a redirection for ne search and seek that path....

POETRY MONTH
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March 9, 2019
 

Green lights turned on the  signal on opposite track.
"Dont cross, we can wait", I told her.
"Ok,Let me turn my camera on",She replied.
Seconds of katta waiting to take video of train which doesnt have stop in KSD.
"Dont cross, the train is near",said a passer by.
"I wish I could shoot it without any obstruction", she said in desperation.
It was already too late..
Still, I stood beside her supporting her craziness and skill( 😜 ) in photography.
The choo choo sound became so close..
And her wait was approaching its target..

AN ENGINE PASSES...

           🤣🤣PLING🤣🤣

#fridaynight  #trainjourney #backtoksd #withher #alphotographer #thangamma #noora #twinsis😜

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HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY
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March 5, 2019
 

Silence and me are the best synonyms ever...

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LIGHT LETTRS LOGO
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March 4, 2019
 

Having a topper as your friend
make  many technical  and scientific words
pop up
in daily conversation.

#equal distance
#probability
#source
#shadow_object
#shortest distance
#silica gel
#parabola
#migration

#ut_thangu

MAKE YOUR MARK
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March 4, 2019
 

#night thoughts
#lifelessons
#experience

Some yes or no questions are meaning less ..
in that
the questioner expects
only a single biased answer...

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MAKE YOUR MARK
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March 4, 2019
 

Void

A word which has a deeper meaning than its original meaning.

A word which means empty but powerful enough to fill your mind , heart , in short everything.

A random jump into this word bought back memories...

Of people, whom I thought, were insane like me..

May be,
The most fascinating, neverending subject in this world is human behaviour..

We expect people to be like us.
Because the only human whom you know completely is your SELF...
And this expectation is dangerous...
Like teaching an elephant to fly,
It cause destruction of them in us,
And that space get filled by void...

Finally a single word remains..
VOID

MAKE YOUR MARK
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February 11, 2019
 

Walking over an unfamiliar path is something which I choose to avoid the most.
But part of me wanted me to try different path all alone.
Half of me loved Solo Journeys through  unfamiliar path.
Meeting new people ...
Asking help from them..
And finally making that path a familiar one.

A lazy part of me wanted me to stick to routines so as to avoid burden of getting familiar with the new one...

Overcoming the lazy part is so challenging one, which I rarely used to try upon...

But once tried..
It gives the feeling of conquering Himalaya..
That joy ...
Gives the energy  for vandalising the lazy part.

#night thoughts #newpath #solo #silence #new #introvert

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LET'S FALL IN LOVE
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November 7, 2018
 

Lost and Found"
"No, you are wrong"
"You failed in getting lost and hence in being  found"
"What you saw was the just something which was already there"
"Without losing you can never ever realise the joy of being found"

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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November 5, 2018
 

Fear
-----
Something which  thwart me
From being
What I am capable of...

COZY FALL
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October 3, 2018
 

Dear microprocessors, system programming, electrical circuits, etc....,

You were far easier to me than dealing with people...

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THE EDISON BULB
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October 3, 2018
 

I tried to change..
But in vain
Because it's like physical change...
It goes back to old state..
Because it is the most stable state..

A chemical change..
It's impossible..
Because I just wish to get lost in the wilderness where no one can find me..
To get lost in thoughts..
To be in my own world..
To be myself..

I dont even try to change my slang
Because I love it..
Being what I am..
To be a shy, childish, short, foolish woman
To be what I am
I am resistant to change..
But I love to be what I am now..

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THE EDISON BULB
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September 27, 2018
 

#rainy thoughts
#unknownme
#unfitwiththerest

They asked her who she is?

The introvert smiled and answered, i am a puzzle that will take you a lifetime to solve.

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>"Could you please speak ?" Asked everyone.
> "Can you just shut your mouth?" Asked a few.

She was a like a two-way switch..
With no middle state.

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She was like a computer program...

Complex to handle..
Only some special people can understand and too not completely...

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PORTRAIT
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September 18, 2018
 

Destiny...
Allah's will..
Its so powerful..
One year back,
Preparing to grab the first job offer in my life,
And,
Cracking the first interview,
Amidst lack of capability,
just because you had written it in my destiny ya allah.
A life at Banglore..
How can I hold on to my views on such a city,
With a half 'no' from parents,
A lot of anxieties and worries remained,
But Allah had a better plan for me,
And it brought me to where I am now..
But somewhere,
I miss something..
And that something what I need the most for my survival..
'The old happy me'
Now,
Fighting with the obstacles,
With no one to understand what am I going through,
I am still living..
Allah..
I feel it as a punishmnt for the mist...

BE KIND
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June 28, 2018
 

The whole world see me as a mad woman...
They are right...
I am mad...

But..
I know the reason behind my madness..
Which..
Most of the mad people don't know..

I am a lazy one...
Who love to get lost in thoughts..
Who think of the worst extreme situation one can be in..

Actually...
It's a relief for me..
Expecting the worst and getting better than expected..
But when I express my thoughts to others..
They feel like I am mad...
Sorry ...
They feel the madness in me..

It's raining now,
It brings back memories,
Somewhat refreshing me,
But not completely...
Coz, I am missing something..
A void...
And I dont know the reason behind this,
A tragic novel would have helped...
But not in a mood to r...

STARS CAN'T SHINE WITHOUT DARKNESS
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June 28, 2018
 

When you are happy with what you do...
But not happy with where you are.
But you chose to be stay there...

Somewhere..
Something wrong..

Mysteries...
When you wanna yell at the world that it's not your mistake...
And you wanna find its cause..

But no..
It can't be found...
It's hidden version of something called fate..

All you can do is to leave everything you love and be hidden from the outside world..
That's how you will be in peace mode...

Till that..
You will suffer..
For no reason..
For no mistakes of yours..

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STARS CAN'T SHINE WITHOUT DARKNESS
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June 20, 2018
 

Somewhere I do miss something.
But I can't figure out what it is.
I do wonder....
But..
I am facing the consequence of that missing..
I can't find happiness in doing what I love.

May be it lies in lack of sorting out what is right and what is wrong...
or
I may be missing the people with whom I have spend years.. my parents and sibilings..

I need you people to talk, laugh and fight together..

Not a single working day passes without counting for weekends..

Uncontrollable thoughts floating over the restless mind..

Still wondering what is wrong with me...

MAJOR STEPHEN REICH
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August 28, 2017
 

"What happened to you?"
"Depression.When the reality travels on   opposite side of dreams and  the realization that it is so hard to chase it,I feel like a loser."
"Why is it so hard?"
"Coz nearly a quarter of century have been wasted.Morever I dont know the time of my return journey."

NATIONAL DOG DAY
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January 17, 2015
 

An inspirational experience of my friend

She was a kind of girl, so sensitive to the downs turning up in the adventurous journey of life.

Two days before ,while she was returning home, her thoughts roamed around the adversities of life (simple problems which when once become part of past ,could bring smile on our face) and was searching for a reason for continuing life.
In this one hour journey ,
suddenly  a mentally challenged boy caught her eyes, she just watched the boy nescient about torment in his life..
On the same way, she saw a man suffering from vitilgo, a lamey woman and a mentally challenged girl..
The 4 people changed her perception on life and in turn made her consious of the ...

Hurray for Hollywood
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February 23, 2017
 

Like Igor,
(in Paulo Coelho 's
'The winner stands alone')
I too wanted destroy the world to give out message,
not through killing,
but through
                  "SILENCE"

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Hurray for Hollywood
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February 20, 2017
 

"Is it regret?"
"No," I said to console myself.
"It is called  fate.The god's will.We should believe that what he intends only happen no matter how hard we desire and strive for it to happen."

Deep inside, heart still murmured,"Regret ... regret..".

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Hurray for Hollywood
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January 2, 2016
 

First day of new year got over..
Yesterday and day before yesterday,both were similiar to me..
The only change was that mom had replaced an year old calender with the new one...
Every day would have been a new one,if we could live without bothering about past and future...
But, mishaps at the past and worries about future, sometimes, even make us sleepless..
Then how can we wake up onto a new day!!!!!
Similarly rolling days of calender too doesnt change our life eventhough we make a list of new year resolution and celebrate the first day of the new year!!!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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May 19, 2015
 

I always wonder.....how different my life would have been...if just a small choice of mine was different from what it is now....
its always choices that matters...which decides something called fate...

ORIGINAL
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