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Isa Kwon

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United States
A Revived Muse
December 9, 2018
 

Some are born winners.

Some are born quitters.

My family are full on winners.

I’m the only member who quits.

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TOASTING ON 2017
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November 29, 2018
 

South Korea,
It was beautiful dreaming about having a life with you.
Finding my red string mate with
you.

Bearing my children with you.
It was a bizarre beautiful dream.

대한민국,
너와 함께한 삶에 대해 꿈꿔 본 것은 아름다웠다.
내 빨간 문자열 친구를 찾는
당신.
내 아이들을 너와 함께 지키라.
그것은 기괴한 아름다운 꿈이었다.

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LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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November 22, 2018
Austin, United States

“Just One Sip”
Should be fine.
The liquid inside that pretty decorative bottle had been offered to me
By my roommate’s Dominican parents-
I said “No me gusta el alcol”-
Meaning “I don’t like alcohol”

Not because I’m underage but because I just don’t like the taste.

If I get told that I will change my mind it pushes a button within.

For the sake of being polite, I keep the eye rolling turned off.

Very little of the time however, having maybe a little “tragito” would be nice.

That can heal me after seeing my soon-to-be divorcées hugging.

The drops running down my throat to replace the tears rolling down my face.

To heal my suicidal thoughts and replace them with thoughts of the s...

HERE'S TO 2017
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September 24, 2018
 

There was never
a moment in her life
when she feels so empty about everything.

She’s not reaching a hand.
She’s still super doubtful.

For just a moment, show her what the afterlife is like.
Let her reborn as another for another chance.

She knows nothing is perfect.
But she knows that nothing can be this awful.

She keeps away from therapy.
Instead turning to antidepressants.

As if she doesn’t want help out.

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HAPPY THANKSGIVING 2018
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November 8, 2018
 

Never have I felt solely empty looking at wedding pictures.

Never have I thought true love could end.

Never have I questioned married people if they like being married.

What would I know if I’m too young though?

What would I know about falling in love at 20?

What would I know from reading about it in fanfics?

What would I learn from heartbreak and divorce from
family?

Only that I’m gaining disinterest.

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PEACE ON EARTH
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September 28, 2018
Austin, United States



If that someone really is there on the other side of the world.

Tell him, to stop waiting.

I can no longer see myself next to him.


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THE KISS
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October 31, 2018
Austin, United States

Brother: Gove me your hand.

I gave him my left hand.

Brother: Feel how warm that is?

I nodded.

Brother: Think about never having to feel that again.

I broke down sobbing.

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COZY FALL
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October 8, 2018
 





New York worried me hundreds of times.

After seeing my role models perform live,

giving speeches in their own words about

self love and acceptance.

For a moment they have made me reconsider thoughts to take my own life.

For a moment making my two wishes come true fueled me with some new
sort of new content mood.

For a moment I felt reborn after nine months of grief,

wonders over depression have turned off and nothing else mattered.

Such a sweet moment.

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I LOVE WRITING DAY
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October 1, 2018
 

The more pressed together we are,

the more gulps you want to take of myself.

The more my fingertips trail every warm spot,

the closer you hold my face against yours.

The more times this occasion happens,

the more I want to hear you say

I love you.

But you never do.

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BITE YOUR LIP
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August 2, 2018
 

I will not leave

I will not leave...

Until I truly

feel like I’m ready to leave.

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AAKASH PANDEY
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July 14, 2018
 

There are

                Times when

                           I wish
To

                      Give up.          So

                                            Badly.

               

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CHIRAYU 4
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September 18, 2018
 








Please tell me what it's like in Heaven.

Is it better?

Are you finally getting what you always desired?

Is everyone there as an angel?

Or is there room to become part of the galaxy?

Can you hear those who love you up there?

Can you show me someday?

He answered.

”Someday. Soon.”

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LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
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August 1, 2018
 

“Lost, Gone”

Can I really,

Do Anything I wanted

To do what I love,

Just because I love it

Anymore?

When does passion fade?

Can that come back?

Is it natural for that

Passion to go for

Someone else?

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POOJA WAHANE SUBMISSION
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August 26, 2018
 

I told myself that I could learn

To be content being alone all the time.

I do now.

I told myself that I could prepare for whenever the universe

Says there's no spot for me beside you.

That there's no one to dance to Ahora Tu

Or ”Eyes, Nose, and Lips” to.

That I can learn to live without soulmates if that wasn't for me.

But another part of me aches for that someone.

That someone I can love perfectly imperfect.

Someone I can call my Bachata and Blues.

Someone to argue and later makeup with,

Someone who is willing to put up with my stubbornness

The same as I'm willing to put up with theirs.

For now I think I'm still too young

And too drained.

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MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
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August 18, 2018
 

Originally written July 14.

My grieving for you

Should not be something wrong.

Crying for you should not be an exaggeration.

Should not be overdramatic.

When I started to cry, my feelings were hurt.

I was told that I could not cry for you.

Half a year passed since you left

And I miss you dearly.

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POOJA TYAGI
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August 4, 2018
 






           Just sleep.

Just sleep...

         I want to stay asleep.

                             
                                              Forever....

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STARS
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June 16, 2018
 




Tattoos aren’t labeled as ‘troublemakers’ we see on television.

Tattoos aren’t “non gentleman like” or

“Non lady like.”

Tattoos are permanent body art.

And art have meanings behind them.

Like the person wearing them.

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TATTOO IT TO YOU
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July 24, 2018
 

                          You
                        Piece
                          Of
                        Shit
                       Angie.

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STARS CAN'T SHINE WITHOUT DARKNESS
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June 19, 2018
 

Dispersing for what feels dreadful months.

Nows the time I start using antidepressants.

I thought about them and I might actually need them.

I’m sorry for bringing grief to Lettrs’s feed.

Tell me I’ll be welcomed again.

Lots of love

From above.

-Isa K.

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INK DROP
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June 11, 2019
 

  “Gethsamane”

They think somebody’s forcing venom inside me.

They don’t know the demon is my own figure.

They said I’m young and still learning.

I told myself I should’ve known by now.

Again my vision gets blurred, again my voice cracks mid-sentence.

Again I say “I shouldn’t have come.”

They lose temper.

She wanted to live because self love.

She wanted to die old of age and happily.

She wanted to live because she had no guts.

She wanted to live because she made a deal even before she was born.

In such sort time she evolved into her current form.

She didn’t think the reason was their death because she didn’t want guilt thrown.

Maybe this form is her destined trut...

DREAMY NIGHTS
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June 11, 2018
 

What do you call...
Making your loved ones satisfied...
By sacrificing your own happiness?

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My Heart
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May 20, 2018
 

She told me there’s passionate amor and lasting pleasure when we’re together.

She also told me there’s mindless lust and pleasantness when they’re together.

....

It wasn’t until hours before I broke the silence and I take a gulp of her with all my heart.

“It’s okay. I still love you too.”

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LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
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May 23, 2018
 


"What Now?"



Now my mind tortures itself playing the good that could've been

I want to jump off the roof.

Not hoping the jump will kill me,

but more likely injure me and my  ''selfless'' attempts

when they are proven to be selfish.

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SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW
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May 23, 2018
 




I think about when my brother asked me,

"Do you need to see a doctor Angie?"

I think so. But he didn't know.

"Do you have anxiety?"

I don't think I do. He didn’t hear when I said nothing.

“Do you get depressed?"

I don't know. I think it's all perfect illusions. He didn’t know...

Because I couldn’t tell anyone.

Because I have no strength.

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ORIGINAL
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May 23, 2018
 

Entry 1

There is no chemical abuse. And there won't be any cocaine snorted.

I have been told that during your twenties, you'll be fucking up the most.

But I've had enough, enough of this fucking up.

I've had enough putting on scenes.

Ah!

I can't concentrate because my feelings want to pour out.

I can't remember any simple important reminders

Just because my lazy ass won't do it.

I managed to bite back tears. For the first half that is.

Then, I already knew I fucked up when lying.

It wasn't until the work schedules were already mailed

Made me fear it was too late for requesting short vacation off.

Not the vacation was for me, but thats what made my te...

ORIGINAL
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May 13, 2018
 

Happy Mother’s to AlL Mother’s
Out there even my own.

Feliz Segundo Día De Madres Amma!

I can’t wait to raise my children with the same knowledge and love and wisdom you taught me.

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CELEBRATE MOTHER'S DAY
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May 10, 2018
 

Last night,

My first night terror came.

Four deaths occurred for unknown reasons.  

Returned home greeted by fifty 9” millimeter bullets on the front yard.

All aiming towards and away of me.

My nephew choked almost twice.

My mother left in the dark night with someone faceless.

Face wet before turning her head away one last time.

Bullets were still there like they were my apparition.

Terrified enough buying mediation, isolation, safety in temple.

Which I only committed out of fear.

Discharged and woke, their was fear at the pit of my stomach.

Hope for reality for beautiful evening and absolute feared to death.

I felt as if someone were about to kill me.

Scared t...

CHIRAYU
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May 4, 2018
 

He was my inspiration.

And for myself I kept writing.

He became my motivation.

And I kept writing for him.

He is nearly fading.

And my creativity faded.

WINTER WHISPERS
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April 29, 2018
 

Dying didn’t seem like the way to go.

Living didn’t seem like the right moment.

What do you do if you don’t want to live anymore?

What do you do if you don’t want to kill yourself?

She decided herself,
“I don’t wanna live no more.”

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WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 29, 2018
 

All these letters I write,

All this passion I put in writing after dark,

That end with the same three affectionate words.

I wish they didn’t exist,

Just like you-most likely don’t exist.

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ORNATE LUXURY
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