|Writing is my pensive, where all the words that can’t be said, flow. And all the unsaid feelings reign.|
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find you.
You who are supposed to be more than anyone else.
You who won't abruptly change everything.
You who will slowly become part of my essence.
I wonder if you're close by.
I wonder if I missed you, somehow.
I wonder if it's not meant for us to meet in this lifetime.
Wondering Máh L.
Distance has done me good. I don't really know how it feels for you (if you feel anything) but it feels refreshing for me.
I've never considered the need for "time and space" but I greatly appreciate it now.
Slowly, things start to feel smaller and get into perspective. I'm able to be grateful for the lessons instead of focusing on the hurt.
I'd like to thank you. Truly, I do. Leaving was the best we could do. And I no longer resent you for that.
Peaceful Máh L.
You were thrilling and at some point I loved the game, but since then I've grown tired of the chase. This game of cat and mouse got me feeling some melancholy. It's been so long I've decided to step away. Go on, keep running. Someone else will step in my shoes. Thank you for all the fun we had. Thank you for all the red flags. I'm honestly glad we've gone through all that. You may keep your mysterious facade. I'll find a puzzle that is as thrilling to solve but not scared of getting caught.
-Not-regretful Máh L.
I count the days we don't speak
"I miss you" I think
but can't find a way to convey
for another chance
maybe a change
yours or mine,
I don't know anymore.
Time has passed and our promises have fallen to the ground like autumn leaves. Although sad, it was beautiful to watch.
Change knocks and I am afraid to make the same mistakes again, so I open the door.
I haven't closed the curtains, though. I know you've always enjoyed peeking through the window.
I wonder if you'll still recognise me and accept me if I'm no longer the girl you knew.
Say hi sometimes,
Ever-changing Máh L.
Because I can't
pretend that this works
It's dark and lonely in this place you are no longer. The world seems to have lost its colour. But not the sky, it shines in iridescent colours. Thoughts of you, as many as the stars, dance for me in the middle of the night. The only thing that keeps me going: knowing one day you were here.
Saudosista Máh L.
In the space between the moment you noticed me and the way you smiled, I wondered if it would be ok if I stayed forever in your life.
Hopeful-romantic Máh L.
Dear no one,
It hasn't been that long.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't think of you, I usually do. Whenever I meet someone new, I wonder if that's finally you. I wonder if you feel like I do. If you also feel blue when you notice it's not.
Today I thought I saw you in his eyes. The way he smiled. Or how his voice made my heart beat.
If I'm honest, I am still unsure. And I wish you'd let me know if that's you.
Apprehensive Máh L.
Words have been failing me for a while now. Whenever I try to explain this feeling I carry inside.
Silence has grasped me by the throat and won't let go.
I wish I could make it easier for both of us.
Maybe with time.
Unsure if love is the right ending,
Dear No One,
How have you been? Time has passed and sometimes I wonder why you're still not here.
I hope life is treating you well just like it has been treating me.
I wish we'll do what we got to do so we can finally meet.
On those nights you're feeling lonely I hope your heart is filled with warmth and certainty that someday you'll find me.