I stand with one foot forward into the future and one dangling back into the past. The first 18 years of my life was filled with abuse, addiction, struggles and impossible tasks. But I'm okay. I'm past all of that. Right? Wrong. How wrong I was. I am with a guy who loves me and cares for me. But every thing he does wrong seems like the end of the world. I cannot control my emotions. Mainly my anger. It scares me. Here, before me, is my chance to have a happy life. And I'm ruining in because my brain is stuck in the patterns of the life before. I don't want to ruin this but it seems like I will.