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MinnieTheMidget

PO# 550440
United States
United States
Broken Hearted Girl
July 18, 2019
 

Your Repetitive Cycles Are Gonna End. I'm Tired, Done. Go Play With Someone Else

I don't know what you were thinking,

To think I'd want to be played (again)

I'm better off distant from you

Not sure if we can be friends



You broke my heart once,

And I can't let myself let you do it again

I'm not down for repetition

This shit's gotta end



You have a full on girlfriend

You kissed me and lied to my face

"Thank God I am single", you said

I will NOT be your escape.



You probably used me

To get back at her

I don't know y'all situation

I'm not entirely sure



You use your words pretty well

I was NEVER what you wanted or needed

I wa...

STEAMING
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October 21, 2016
Long Beach, United States

the hand that holds a heart

there's a hand
it holds a heart
it sews the heart together
so it won't fall apart

the hand that holds a heart
wants to squeeze it
out of all it's blood
so no one can see it

if someone saw the heart
and the blood it used to contain
they can see the difference
and the hand is strange

the hand that holds a heart
wishes for love
but can never get it
there's nothing to think of

the hand that holds a heart
is a peaceful human
he can't trust no one
because they aren't true to him

he's truely hurt
he holds his heart
he's so stressed
he's torn apart

he wants his heart
to keep on beating
but the longer he holds it
the more he bleeds

he's bleeding so much
so much fr...

TIME OF PEACE
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November 21, 2017
Long Beach, United States

Help me.
You're a doctor, you're supposed to help me
Instead, it's been four years living in constant pain.
Instead you say "well we don't know what to tell you"
Because you're too lazy to figure out what really is going on.

You're supposed to help me
But I can't live with this pain

It's hurting me
Killing me slowly
The depression is worse and worse

Do I keep going?
Or give up and live in pain?

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SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW
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November 21, 2017
 

All you do is give me medicine
You claim it's supposed to help

But instead it messes with my body
And makes me feel bad

I wish you would take the time to listen to me
Understand what I am saying
I can't keep living like this.

I can't keep doing this

Shots and pills, shots and pills

How do they help when they really don't help me

The specialist told you what it was
You go back and say it's gastrointestinal.
No, it reproductive. It has been
I get cysts. But that doesn't say anything to you.

I get bad pains
But that doesn't say anything to you

Shots and pills, shots and pills

Save me.

SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW
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October 16, 2016
Compton, United States

Dear Mommy

I learned to no longer cry at your grave
I learned that the pain never really goes away
It's there, it is light not heavy like before
I've learned not to cry at your grave anymore

To me it's an accomplishment, something great for me
The pain and how it hurts to accept that you are free.

Free from suffering, free from pain
Life without you has not been the same
It's been downhill from here
With its uphill moments
I miss you show much I don't know how to show it.

Today is your day to shine bright and free
I hope to hear from you soon
Fly by in my dreams.

I learned to no longer cry at your grave
I learned that the pain never really goes away
It's there, it is light not hea...

SEE IT SHARP
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October 16, 2016
Long Beach, United States

Happy birthday mommy.
I have a reason to be happy now.
I hope you're proud of me now.
I'm doing the best that I can as I have been like I've been told to.

I have been staying strong like you and Daddy want me to.
I wanted to wish you a happy birthday.  
You don't visit me as much as you did in the summer.

I hope to hear from you

BLACK AND WHITE MOVEMENT
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September 2, 2016
 

It Hurts

It hurts to know
I can't let you go,
I just can't let you go.

It is almost like
No one understands how this feels
It is like
No one understands how much this hurts.

because I am
constantly told to let you go
but I am sitting here
hoping for a miracle

like an idiot
sitting here

fighting for nothing
hurting for nothing
it is all for nothing

I don't get it,
why am I trying?
why do I bother?

ORIGINAL
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November 28, 2015
 

And Months Later

you tell me you love me
and that you never stopped.  
then the next morning
you say you're sorry about "last night"

You tell me to move on,
and once I do,
you get mad and pissed off and act like

I did something wrong

when I didn't...

KEYCHAIN LOVE
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November 21, 2015
Long Beach, United States

"Mija, you're sick.  you have to take care of yourself." she says.

I've lived in this lie that what I was going through is normal.
I lived in this fairy tale that I am fine, nothing's wrong.
I sit in my room alone,  I don't interact with family.  
I hardly have friends.
I may be talkative at times, but at others,  I am alone.  

"Mija, you're sick!"
she tells me yet again while I feel the weight of the world telling me to act normal.  

BE LIKE THEM.

"MIJA,  YOU'RE SICK!"

I still feel this sense of denial.  I don't want to accept it!
I CANNOT!
I AM NOT SICK!
I AM NORMAL!

then I called her after my appointment.

I told her what happened.

"Mija,  why are you in denial?  you know yo...

TEAMWORK
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May 2, 2016
 

Dear him,
I wish you knew every ounce of how i feel
i wish you could see every ounce of how i feel

i wish i could be 100% honest with you.
I wish you could hear me cry trying to tell you how i feel

but the storm is brewin
and i am afraid
to say or show how i feel
i wish that this was easy

i wish you could see how much i care or how much i love you with all of my heart
i cannot help but worry about you. you mean so much to me and you don't see it
i wish that this was easy i wish that i didn't have all of thus love for you.
i wish that this didn't hurt me so bad.

i don't like to see you hurt. i don't like to see you sad.
i don't like to see you hurt.
i don't like to se...

DROP THE MIC
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May 2, 2016
 

is he okay?
i wonder impatiently
how is he doing?
he's not talking to me.

what is on his mind?
i really want to know
he holds it all inside
he won't let it go

Who am I?
to constantly live in this worried state of mind?
to constantly live with this hurt for the rest of my life?

what am i doing?

is he okay?
maybe he's at work?
how is he doing?
does he know how much this hurts?

what am i doing?
I will never know
i fell so hard,
I can't let him go

LOVE IS LIFE
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May 2, 2016
 

Today I fell

I fell so hard on my face,
wondering how could i be so stupid
to love someone
who isn't ready for me?


I dreamed that we worked things out,
we made it through this storm together


but why do i love you?

when you're not ready to love me?

this aches . this hurts
I dream and dream and dream
that we could make this work

but all it is, is a fantasy
in my aching heart and mind
I wish we'd be honest with one another

since all i will ever be is your best friend with benefits.

LOVE IS LIFE
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November 29, 2015
 

Promise me

Promise me that you'll be strong
And you won't miss me when I'm gone
Promise me the love you have will stay
And as time goes by, it won't fade away

Always know I'm in your heart
And I won't let you fall apart
Always know I love you dear
But don't miss me when I'm not here.

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FEATHER LIGHT
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November 26, 2015
Long Beach, United States

Dear Biological Father,

I hope you're resting well with the angels.  
you left me with a lot to think about,  a lot of unanswered questions and wishes that will never be fulfilled

sometimes wish I had gotten to know you.
sometimes I wish that we had a closer bond
sometimes I wish that we were close,  joined at the hip

sometimes I wish I was "daddy's little girl".

sometimes I wanted to know what traits of yours do I have
sometimes I wondered when I'd see you again.
sometimes I wondered if you were the dad I thought I would depend on.

but

I always wondered if you ever loved me.

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TIS MERELY A FLESH WOUND
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November 25, 2015
Long Beach, United States

Dear miserable girl who's dating my cousin and can't stand to see anyone, especially me,  happy:

I just wanted to say something,  but I don't know how to say it...

where do I begin?

how can I say it?

ah.  

I got it.

Fuck you.

you say that you're my friend,  
you say that you care,
but are you really, who and what you claim to be?

no you're a two-faced shit talker who can't mind her own business
you're an insecure little child,  
you're not an adult.

do you think anyone gives a shit about your relationship?
do you think I care about how much you love him? or how much you hate him?
because I don't.
I never had
I never will
I lost so much because of you.
I ended up the bad pe...

CAN YOU NOT?
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November 24, 2015
Long Beach, United States

I wasn't yours, but you loved me that much.
you took care of my sister and I as your own

but we weren't yours.
it took a while for you to adjust to us,  
and us adjusting to you.

but over time,
as we all got older,  
your love for us grew.

you loved us.
we weren't your children.
we were your twin nieces.
we weren't your children.
but you raised and loved us just like we were.
and every year

I am thankful for you.

the life you lived, and the life you gave me.
the strength you gave me.
the strength to stand up for myself.

I see myself when I think of you.
I look up to you.
I miss you.
I love you.
and I thank you.

THANK YOU
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November 19, 2015
Long Beach, United States

When I Once Loved You

remember when I met you,  I couldn't help but smile
it felt like I've known you all of my life
it felt like I found my one true love.
the one I'd marry and spend my whole love with.
the one who would never stop loving me.
the one that accepted me as I am
the one who was afraid to lose me.

but that didn't happen.
instead, you stopped loving me when my dad died,  
you stopped loving me when I was stressed,  
you stopped loving me when I got sick,
and said all you wanted from me was friendship.

I spent months trying to move on
holding every feeling I still had towards you inside.
holding on to memories
holding on to the past
holding on to what no longer exists.  

...

CLOUDY SUNSET
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