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monkeywrench

PO# 651324
United States
United States
You never know......
May 29, 2020
 

Another late night scrolling instead of holding someone.. another night peering through the window of other people’s “happier” lives... imagining what the air must feel like on that balcony overlooking the ocean passed the inspirational quotes.. Like a revolving glass door into other lives watching their children grow year after year envious of what a postcard life they have. And in reality, you don’t even remember how you knew them in the first place.. Why do we do this to ourselves? What are we searching for? As if it were life’s bottomless purse we keep digging.. let me know when you find “it” because after all, it’s another late night.....

ENDLESS STARS
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April 30, 2020
 

I feel like I need help. I feel like I’m drowning in stress and sickness.. responsibilities... loneliness... anxiety... I don’t know what to do. I’m totally fucked... help...

SIMPLICITY DAY
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April 26, 2020
 

There is no one that has ever watched The Wizard of Oz that didn’t wish the wizard had something in his bag for them.. or thought about the wishes they would make if you found that genie in a bottle.. Not Sarah, she would put the bottle away for years and years until she could analyze and then analyze again all the different possibilities and consequences of anything she would wish for. Maybe if the wizard could give her confidence she would then be able to make up her indecisive mind and reach for the stars. She feels like an empty canvas waiting for the master piece or a blank sheet of paper waiting for the words to launch a thousand ships. She would wish to find her passion, her purpose.  ...

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April 5, 2020
 

1:20am... tears rolling down my cheek watching videos of strangers roll by this sweet girls house with banners and horns like a private parade for her birthday. I cry because now knowing I cannot have children I feel the utter empty loneliness of being alone. No one that is mine or is a part of me. This is how I have felt most of my life.. I think it’s in our nature to belong to people. To truly be connected with another person like a circulating Current. All the love these people showed to this girl to celebrate HER..

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February 27, 2020
 

Sitting in the chair waiting for him to come in she prepared herself for the conversation that was long over due. Bumbling thru the door with keys and briefcase in hand he is startled by the heaviness in the room... “uh hi...” he said confused.. “sit down. We need to talk.” She got up poured him a drink. “Ok, it’s no mystery you and I pass by one another like two strangers on the subway lately. So I’m going to do us both a favor. I accepted a mission in Moscow. I leave in the morning.”  With a great sigh he runs his fingers his thru his hair takes a big drink and    says nothing for a moment pondering his next move. With tears welling he gets down on one knee and pulls  an old antique ring bo...

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February 10, 2020
 

She woke up as the credits were scrolling up the screen and ugh again she missed it....What happened, how did the story end? She shrugs her shoulders because she’s all too familiar with the feelings of missing out “story of her life” as she says. But it is WAS too late... As a young girl all the images she had of what life would be like as she grew into the woman she now was has slipped by her like the passing train outside her window. It’s too late now. Her body was too old for children now, and no one to love her. With a sigh she turns out the light... it’s just too late......

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February 3, 2020
 

So many days waiting..... wondering when love will come in. Wondering if she will let it in... how to let it come in... The security of independence has kept her company for too long to remember any other way... She has a heart the size of the moon, like a big beautiful house with no one there to make it a home...

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ENDLESS STARS
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February 1, 2020
 

Hello there,

New to this..... hope this letter finds you well.... Question.....why does life pass by so quickly? Seems every year goes faster that the last.....

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THE OFFICE
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