Lately life has been trying hard to push me out of my comfort zone.
And i stopped resisting ...
You know what ? After all the things they have done to you, they would say "It's no big deal. Get over it" and you know what is real misery? You will have to GET OVER it. You are so out of choices.
Ps: Love or helplessness?
If the person is already suffering; even if she is being unreasonable, even if her reaction is beyond your understanding, even if she don't get to explain herself, you don't show her anger. You just BE there.
Ps: Suffering and Loneliness.
A nightmare of an introvert
Imagine yourself ...
In a room, full of strangers
People who are staring at you
who are observing your every gesture
Who are noticing your every expression
Every breath you take is being counted
Every move you have make is being judged
And all they expect from you ..
Is to 'Socialize'
You know what happen when you don't die from poison ?
You get addicted to it and this is even worse.
Somewhere in the process of being strong and emotionally independent she became dangerously numb. Now she knows she don't need anyone for anything, anymore . No wonder when you try do something against your nature it requires a lot of soul tailoring and pain. As a result it changes you completely as a person.
Ps: They call it extreme of depression. For me it's ultimate freedom!
Some incidences happen in your life in a way that, it becomes difficult to live with them.
Ps: Felt the true meaning of helplessness and humiliation.
Minute after minute...
Day after day ...
Year after year ...
Some people are only good at making others feel bad about themselves!
Life is not fair, i admit. But who promised you it would be ?? Its YOU who had false expectations.
Ps: Nobody said it was easy.
Some days are so suffocating..
It becomes difficult to breath in those days.
'Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday...
Some days you just feel terribly alone....
and there is nothing you can do about it.
You didn't love her! You just didn't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didn't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!
May be i was born to break hearts and hurt feelings. Why do people can't understand that i am too immature to handle their feelings? They need to know every time they would hand over something fragile to me, my hands would shake and i am gonna break it into million pieces. And its okay as far as you are breaking things but when it comes to break hearts ? Nah .. not good. Even a person as cold blooded as i am thinks it not a good idea.
" I try to be happy. I try to accept it within me. I smile but I always cry at the same time. They told me, a person's happiness is within them--its in us, our happiness and our sadness. So I paid heed to them, and smiled a lot--they have told me this will make my brain think happy. I make smilies on my wrists, I make moons and stars on my palms and at the back of my hands--to make me happy. I cover my cut marks with a string of stars and glitters and call for happy to meet me. I ask it to come visit my heart.
I smile again. I show my bright teeth to the morning sun, and move out of my home, resolving today I will bring happy in me. I laugh with people all day, speak non stop with glitter in...
Instead of roots, I chose wings. Instead of earth, I chose skies. For what I needed was ground but wanted the stars.
"Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
That depends a good deal on where you want to get, said the cat.
I don't much care where....., said Alice.
Then it doesn't matter which way you go, said the cat."
She often felt a urge to grab a bucket full of soapy water and scrub the streets, the public squares, the government, the parliament, the bureaucracy, and, while she was at it, wash out a few mouths too. There was so much filth to clean up; so many broken pieces to fix; so many errors to correct. Every morning when she left her house she let out a quiet sigh, as if in one breathshe could will away the detritus of the previous day.
-Three Daughters of Eve
No matter how hard you try to be kind to everyone, to be caring, to be loving; you still will be a monster to many. you cannot make everyone happy. People don't really love you they just love the idea, the perception of you: that they have made in their mind. And If you don't fall in that criteria you are no good at all. Irony. Isn't it. Nobody loves you for who you are, for what you want, for what you want to be, for what you have chose to be. People judge. That's what theey are good at. Just keep giving them what they want and you will be loved. Sometimes I wonder nobody loves no one. Everybody is selfish. They just love themselves. When they say they love you they actually love the feelin...
It doesn't matter how much they love you or doing hundreds of things for you. What really matters is are they doing that single thing you are expecting from them. Coz heart wants what it wants or else it doesn't care
There will be a day when there will be moonlight, stars and your memories ..
But still I will choose to not think about you.
There is no dark side of moon, really.As the matter of fact, its all dark.
Either I love the mighty heights of Mountains or the deepest depths of sea .. Either I love you like a hell or ignore you like you never exist. Yess I am extremist .. there is no in between ..
Life is all about meeting deadlines. Deadlines that we give to ourselves. Deadlines that life gives us !! #JustThinking
You know what ? After all this you are still lucky. Lucky enough to even miss her. Because she couldn't even miss you. You left her with no choice.
Ps: Such numbness !!
Do Not Fall In Love
With People Like Me.
People Like Me
Will Love You So Hard
That You Turn Into Stone
Into A Statue Where People
Come To Marvel At How Long
It Must Have Taken To Carve
That Faraway Look Into Your Eyes
Do Not Fall In Love
With People like Me
We Will Take You to
Museums and Parks and Monuments
And Kiss You in Every Beautiful
Place So That You Can
Never Go Back to Them
Without Tasting Us
Like Blood In Your Mouth
We Will Destroy You
In The Most Beautiful Way Possible
And When We Leave
You Will Finally Understand,
Why Storms Are Named After People
Do Not Come Any Closer.
People like Me Are Bombs
When Our Time Is Up
We Will Splatter Loss
All Over Your Walls
In Angry Colors
'The hardest lesson I ever had to learn in my life was to love as hard as I could and let go of expectations. Expectations are those things that you create when you think life "should or shouldn't" happen a specific way. But the reality is, those "shoulds" only set you up for pain. If you let things show up the way they need to show up, life starts to happen for you and not against you. But the second part of this is understanding the grace it takes to have strong personal boundaries. If at some point your heart tells you it's time to leave (for whatever reason) then it's time to go. You can trust that. Being a lover means giving love. Tons of love. In fact, you're an expression of it. Just d...