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Namrata Goutam

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India
little things there are, nothing big, is there?
March 17, 2019
Raigarh, India

Dear Anxiety,

When they ask me what I am afraid of,
I lie. 

I can never expose you, 
never tell the truth about you 
for fear of speaking you into existence. 
You are my punisher and my captor,
my tormentor, my torturer.
You are the little voice inside of my head 
telling me bad, bad things to do to myself,
things I can't talk about
for fear I'll forget who I am and turn into you.

You tell me we are one and the same, but I am not you.
I would never hurt a child the way you have hurt me.
I would never tell a young girl she is unlovable,
or fat,
or ugly,
or crazy,
or worthless.

I would never tell her to carve ugly, terrible words into her body,
to hold a flame to her skin,
until she has bu...

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 15, 2019
Raigarh, India

Time will reveal,
Whose loss it truly was.

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March 13, 2019
Raigarh, India

Stop letting other people change the way you feel about yourself.

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 11, 2019
Raigarh, India

I'm on my way.
They may ask me, "Where to?" 
Well, that I cannot say...
For even I have no clue.

I know it's rather far, 
For it has to make me whole. 
The road to the stars, 
The path to my soul. 

I must go alone, 
But I'll miss you all, believe me. 
I must travel into the unknown, 
I must sail all of the seas. 

You see, I've lost something of mine. 
It's special and grand...
Magnificent in its design. 
How I lost it is hard to understand. 

What did I lose? 
Well...I'm not exactly sure. 
Please, my confusion you must excuse...
I just know I must find a cure. 

I have a terrible disease, 
The name of it escapes me. 
But it stops your hair from blowing in the breeze.
It stops your heart fr...

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March 10, 2019
Raigarh, India

I can feel
That time is slipping
By me, that it
Will be gone if I just
Stand still.

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HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY
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March 8, 2019
Raigarh, India

It is time    
To rhyme a rhyme    
A poem I must write
Pen is poised
But so much noise
My mind is like a kite
Poetry    
As you shall see
For me is like a fight    
I insist 
I clench my fist
I better do this right
I try this
And I try that
I try with all my might
Coffee cup
Time's almost up
I will be up all night
No delay
It's due today
It's dawn, I see the light
Much time spent
Inelegant
Please understand my plight
So
Here ya go
You need to know
Submitted filled with fright

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HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY
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March 6, 2019
Raigarh, India

I could skip a heartbeat, and I would survive.
I could be in a car crash, and still be alive.
The clouds could fall out of the sky.
The oceans could disappear and all turn dry.

These things in life are all bad, I know, 
but there's far worse things, 
just thought you should know. 

Life would not be the same without someone like you,
You're there when I need you to help me through.
Through the good times and through the bad,
Be them happy or be them sad.

I don't have to be with you to know you're there.
We don't have to see each other to know that we care.
We could be apart for years upon end
and still remain the best of friends.

Life goes on, and people change,
And through it all, our fr...

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March 5, 2019
Raigarh, India

The water was glistening while the dusk set on sky,
The cool breeze softly passed me by,
A million thoughts and a thousand memories,
Some days were of shame, some of glories.

The small girl dancing along with her doll,
A soul so pure, her cheeks butter ball.
As she danced her father followed her like a piper,
Looking through my window I jot down in my typewriter.

The girl danced away through the shore,
Her father trying to catch up with feet so sore,
She smiled at him and showed off her miniature,
Father was content with his little creature.

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March 4, 2019
Raigarh, India

The night has approached again.
Only this time I ain't at gain.
The night sky that bought me peace,
Now has all the stories I am gonna miss.

There goes a shooting star,
Only this time it left a scar,
I wonder why the con artist would appear,
For all my wishes it has left me in despair.

This time I think I would let it pass,
For all my wishes have left me with distress,
Since all my wishes has led to war,
This time I had to be careful what I wish for!

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MAKE YOUR MARK
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March 3, 2019
Raigarh, India

Yet another day passes.
Over hills, twilight presses.
Moon already hung up high,
Welcoming nightfall.

Birds flying up to their nests,
Chirping time to rest.
Time for peace and stillness,
Time to restore our minds and bodies.

As all fades into night,
A hollow of absence of light.
Only twinkling lights of stars,
Sparkling in amid.

No drama or anger lingering,
No quarrels or crying interrupting,
Only songs of crickets,
Only dances of star lights.

Oh, what a pleasant time.
If only day were this tame,
It would bring peace.

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March 3, 2019
Raigarh, India

In this life 
I once felt hope.
  I sometimes still believe in this, 
but each moment a little less.
  I feel abandoned in my despair, 
and it's difficult to repair.
  I get broken each day some more, 
keeping these emotions in my core.
  I find myself hiding behind this smile, 
the one that shows my denial.
  I have thoughts of lonesomeness, 
which no person should possess.
  I camouflage this so well;
it feels like I'm in hell.
  I hurt on the inside, 
trying to push these demons aside.
  I want something better, 
to not feel all this terror.
  I know it can be manageable; 
there are things that make life tolerable.
  I just cannot find the thrill, 
like when I was a child with a one dolla...

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March 2, 2019
Raigarh, India

There is a girl who sits in the corner.
Her heart is crying out.
There are people all around her,
But no one seems to hear her shout.

Her life was once happy,
Full of love and care.
She was always laughing.
There was always someone there,

But now her life seems empty.
What's missing, she doesn't know.
She wears a mask every day.
Her true feelings she doesn't show.

Her once colorful and cheerful life
Has turned so dull and grey.
She once enjoyed her group of friends;
Now she just wishes them away.

For when she is by herself,
She can break free from her shell.
She can let the unhappiness break free
And unleash the devil from hell.

Because at the end of the day,
When everyone's in their bed...

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March 1, 2019
Raigarh, India

When you recover, what will you do?
When you recover, will you still be you?
Will you be stronger, will you be new,
When you recover from what you've been through.

Can life get better than it was before?
Will you realize your dreams and improve your score?
Will people still remember your name,
Or will they forget you because they're ashamed?

Life in recovery may not be the same.
The rules may have changed in this brand new game.
You can pick up the pieces and make a new start,
Let courage and hope keep you from falling apart.

The world all around you seems different and changed.
Things that once were now seem out of range,
But you can recapture your life and fulfill
The dreams that were l...

MAKE YOUR MARK
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February 22, 2019
Raigarh, India

She looks at the stars as if
     to know who counted them last.

WHITE CLOCK
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February 14, 2019
Raigarh, India

When words have power,
At the right time and hour,
Imaginations rules,
And dreams come true!

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February 5, 2019
 

The rocks that have endured the hardest blow from the cold snow,
Shines the brightest at dawn.

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THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX
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January 29, 2019
 

As the clip started,
Everyone looked towards the screen. The song started to play and the photos went passing one by one. I remembered every silly, stupid, sweet moment with you. The clip took me to the places itself. I stood there crying in happy tears all the way along the journey.
I saw myself the happiest in that time. As the clip ended you were still looking at me, with that ever so beautiful smile of yours, I saw you smiling through the happy tears and came running towards you.
You came and hugged me oh, so tight and I knew all my decisions were right.
I wished to stay in that moment for as long as the there was existence.
I wished that the time froze and everything stayed still.
I ...

LOVE FOR ALL
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January 26, 2019
 

"Close your eyes! I've got a surprise for you. Walk with me, her mother said.
She took her daughters hand and together they walked outside...."
The glittery stars and the moon filled the sky,
It was a present for the princess in the castle,
The sky was illuminated with lanterns and sound of fire crackers.
The daughters sang the birthday song,
And their mother danced along.
Every year the birthday was a celebration,
Not just for the princess in castle but for the daughters at home.

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MARTIN LUTHER KING JR
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January 25, 2019
 

From being head over heals to realising that we aren't meant to be,
I think I changed.

From being all into you to feeling you might leave,
I think I changed.

From being in love with you to thinking of the time you won't be around,
I think I changed.

From being able to sleep listening to your snoring to not being able to sleep,
I think I changed.

From thinking a little to over thinking,
I think I changed.

I wish to change one last time though,

To falling head over heals again,

To being all into you again,

To being in love with you again,

To thinking a little again.

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MARTIN LUTHER KING JR
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January 23, 2019
 

Just for once,
I want someone to feel
Exactly what I feel.

Just for once,
I want someone to be
Afraid of letting me go.

Just for once.

LOVE FOR ALL
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January 17, 2019
 

The blade is cold
But not old

I didn't go deep
I didn't even weep

Just one cut is all I need
And my mind goes calm, while my cut bleeds

It was harmless but helped so much
I stopped being mad and such

No more angry thoughts went through my mind
Just fascination, everything else left behind

Is the start or the end?
All I know is I don't want to disappoint my friend

Is it too late for me?
I thought I was getting better but I only pretended to be

The cut now stains my arm
Nothing big or deep, nothing to cause much harm

A cat scratch is what I'll say
But I doubt people will see any day

They won't see the real me and who I am
They won't see my body is disconnected from my brain stem

I don...

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January 15, 2019
 

Things would go wrong,
People will fail you.
There is a great chance that we may win against all odds, against all the criticism,
You know why?
Because you are betting on yourself this time.

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January 11, 2019
 

I suppose it's hard for some to understand
This is not the way that I had planned.
I don't know how I've let myself get this way
And sometimes feel like calling it a day.
But then I think of those who are close to my heart.
Ending it all would probably tear them apart
So while I'm thinking of my dread.
I'll try and sort out this mess in my head
Then if I find I still can't cope.
There's nothing more I can do than pray and hope.
That everything will turn out right for me
And someday I'll be as happy as I can possibly be.

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ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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January 10, 2019
 

We're all in the same game, just different levels.
Dealing with the same problems, just different devils.

ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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January 6, 2019
 

I was drowning in the sea. 
You took one look then suffocated me.
Bubbles came in through my mouth as I screamed.
They exited my nose when I tried to breathe.

My mother always warned me about this. 
She always pointed out the people I shouldn't miss. 
You're the same feeling as plastic bag over my face;
The same feeling as running, not staying in the same place. 

As I tried to swim up and out of the sea,
You only made it easier for me to sink. 
Every lie was another stone tied to my feet. 

Every blood curdling scream is your toxicity washing away downstream. 
Can't you see the scarcity in my life?
Blood spilled from the kerf you carved into my back with your knife. 

A strong toothed, vora...

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January 3, 2019
 

I find my happy place in you,
Even if its freezing outside,
Even if I am sweating in the hot weather,
Even if my neck is jammed with keeping it the same,
Every time I see you,
I am complete and empty all at the same.
I could keep on gazing you till the sun comes up,
And wait for the night again.
The feeling of being happy and overwhelmed,
The feeling of failing and winning,
The feeling of loosing and gaining,
The feeling of being at peace and a whirlwind ,
I am complete and empty all at the same.

#a girl obsessed with star gazing.

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January 3, 2019
 

It started when I was told that I cannot go any forward and that I am the lowest of my likes.
I started writing.
I was terribly bad.
I didn't back down because I knew I cannot go any lower.
I realized even though there was no one to hear, I was the best listener for me.
I was the best motivational speaker for me.
I was me and no one could have taken that away.
Well now I am okay, still learning everyday.
And I love writing, no one may listen or understand me better than me, right?

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January 1, 2019
 

My new year is special because it started by kissing you ❤️

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December 30, 2018
 

People running towards their goals with all their might often forget to enjoy the path leading there.

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December 29, 2018
 

When you realise that people don't have to behave a certain way so as to make you look good,
You have attained freedom.

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