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Natasha Nicole

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United States
I ain't scared to fall, I've hit the ground before. quoted The Weeknd
April 5, 2019
 

Your stare is something that makes want to lay there
Exploited and bare to you.
Your touch makes me want to submit every part of me to you.
Your voice makes me hear and feel everything.

The shape of your lips so kissable and perfect to the touch.
The way your body feels against mine brings security to my being
A hug from you changes my whole day.

The way you love me saves me from my break.
Your my spine
Your my light in dark
I cant wait for the day.
I Do!

PROOF OF LOVE
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April 2, 2019
 

Hiding a tear with a smile
to save face.
Hiding a feeling with thought
To protect what is there.
Pouring my heart out
For nothing
Is a thing of the past.

STARS
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April 2, 2019
 

Not everything beautiful
Glows
Not everything that glows is beautiful.

POETRY MONTH
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January 22, 2019
 

Im standing strong
Even though my knees are weak.
Ive been lied to and given false hopes
By the one I love with my heart.
I still cry over you
But I smile because of me.
I realize now that
I can still be happy with me.
I still hurt over you.
I still miss you.
I still think of you.
But because of myself:
I focus on my own future
I use the pain to give me strength
I no longer miss myself.
Because of you my walls are strong and wont come down easy.
Bevause of you Ive learned more about yin and yang then you could imagine.
Because of you I will move forward and I will succeed with knowing that I did it for me with no one but me to congratulations.

POSITIVE ATTITUDE
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January 19, 2019
 

Her hearts last velvet rose peddle just hit the floor.
It shatter was quiet but the sight was a disarray.

The empty space where it used to lay is starting to burn like pitch wood on a cold winters day.
The pain thats replacing the good is something thats so addicting to feel.
Her insecurities are no longer of importance.
She knows this moment in life changed her forever and this moment in life is the last time she will feel this way again. Nothing will stop her from coming out on top.

MAKE YOUR MARK
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January 1, 2019
 

I cant explain something I dont understand.
I cant make anyone else understand because they are not me.
I dont get how my view and opinions dont hold hands with how i feel.
In my opinion everyone should do what makes them happy. Life is to short not to.
But i dont feel happy in almost anything I do.

Why is it that everything I need to deal with makes me feel like im drowning and makes me panic. Why is it that me exisisting makes me so angry.
Im always looking for any type of valid reason for me to exist.
I am moody because Even when Im at my most confident and good moments I still feel lost and sarrowed inside.
Even when Im laughing
My motivation for moving forward in anything is star...

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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December 30, 2018
 

Its the starting of a new year.
It wont start with a fresh made smile but a genuine tear.
Its a tear of loss and a tear of joyful memories moving behind me.
Its a tear to toast the ones ive lost amd loved. Its a tear to toast to for the year to come.
The tears will mix with anything that consisted of vodka or beer.
Cheers everyone and a happy new year 2019

2019
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December 23, 2018
 

No more left to cry.
Nothing left to feel inside.
Numb to any touch.
This to shall pass.
But in this moment its here and in this moment not a
single thought could make it
Disapear.

Not one memory and not a soul is able to remove this nothing
From within.
Contiplation with in of suicide.

I kmow i wont but that doesnt make the thought any less real.
Wonder if the pain would bring the feeling of life to me again.

CHRISTMAS FLOWERS
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December 18, 2018
 

I have hurt you
I hurt myself in the process.
I never planned on it and if it was possible to change the past would change that choice that did this to you.
My mistake doesnt mean I dont love you it doesnt mean I dont care.
It was a choice without thought or reason and one that I cannot repair.
I didnt play you nor do I think your a fool.
Cause truth it be.
I am the fool that lost you.
I am the fool.
Im the one that fucked up.
I am the one that hurt you and myself.
I know Im far from perfect.
But know that
Everyday that goes by
Ill be thinking about you
Know my actions of one night cost me the best thing to walk into my life.
I will learn from this and at the end of it all. I dont...

COLORS OF SPIRIT
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November 30, 2018
 

Silently our souls dance.

Lovingly our hearts knot together.

The winters chill
Melts away; from the warmth of our seduction play.

The fire in your deep emotion gleaming eyes; is the desire driven me to crave your caress.

My body and soul
Dances with you through the winters bliss.

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TRUE LOVE
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November 16, 2018
 

Living in the moment only
Brings you temporary happieness.
Living for yesterday only causes a stangnant state of mind.
Living for the future of yourself brings true understanding of life.
No matter how big the choice maybe or how bad it hurts
If you dont see a flower bloom
After feeding it so many times.
You must plant a new seed.
Chances are that flower wasnt meant to bloom.
Doesnt mean kill the un bloomed plant.
It means let the plant be free to grow at its own pace with success and ease.

STAN LEE
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November 15, 2018
 

All of me
has already been given away.
What I have left to give;
May never be what you deserve.

LOVE TILL IT HURTS
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February 20, 2018
 

Ying and Yang

BE YOUR OWN YOU
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February 18, 2018
 

My self is speaking,
No response as I am unheard.

The mutual enjoyment of having eachother seems to
No longer be there.

No intrest in my day so look down without so much as a "hey"
We used to bond by words not by body alone.
Where is my best friend?
Next to me and yet so alone.

I wish I had a secret place that let me be heard.
Or even a tree to show me they care.

PIECE OF HEAVEN
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April 5, 2017
 

You are the painted color in my sky, when the sun is coming up or going down.

You are the bright colored humming bird that flutters by my window.
You will always be the sweet sound of a wolfes or cyotes howel.

My child hood memories are filled with all the sweet small joys you gave to me.
And you are more then a grandma to me.
You are my Nana and for ever you will live with in me.
Your kind heart and gestures to show you truly care.
My fevers and troubles you were always there.
You were special to me in everyway.
You even made my first dance and play.
You made me feel like i was a princess.
Your lessons and words of wisdom will never be un taught.
I love you and I miss you.
I d...

THE SKY BROKE
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February 10, 2017
 

Jimi Balda,
               
              Lil Man, you are about to 18 years old. Holy hell how time flys. I remember how cute you were as a baby and now look at you all growed up.

You have turned out to be an amazing person Jimi. You have so much to offer the world and I hope you see that. I know you have the tools to fallow any dream you wish to fallow. All you need to do is know you can achieve it with a little motivation.

Your more then you know. You have a vocabulary that would kill most college students to hear. You have mind that allows to think outside the box and inside the box. Use that to your advantage through out your life. You have learned to not look down on people but to ...

NOT KNOWING
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February 10, 2017
 

The love of two people
Can be written as beautiful as the music notes you see and hear.
The love between two people because of true acceptance, is as delicate as roses petal. At the same time one wrong note written or a single thorn can turn into something of scars caused by pain.
Always remember to write a song that is with in your beats rhythm.
Make sure the rose is watered so that it may grow into a protected beauty story that is shared between you and your lover.
Happy Valentines day.

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 9, 2017
 

So special to you?
Then why does it seem so easy for you to dismiss me?

So in love with me?
Then why not communicate with me?

You know me so well?
I think not, or you would know what you are doing is only pushing me away.

Understanding of the last relationship pains that are still not healed?
I bet not because what you are doing now is how my last one started.

Pushing me away is fine by me,
I could understand doing so,
If you would communicate with me.
I only ask is not to kept in the dark.
Yet you keep shutting me out without reason or even so much of a fuck off.
Communication is key.
You make me feel special and make me feel like I am worthy of time.
But then you take it all back a...

PASSIONATE POET
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February 8, 2017
 

My angels are falling
While my demons dance
To the sound of their
Pleading cries.

Slowly but surly
The demons I have will
Win eventually
Cause the depression is to much to
Bare.
The shriek in their voice
Want me to catch them before they fall
But not even I feel enough heart to
Soften their fall.
My tears would have saved them
But no liquid remorse or regret fell from my eyes.
My angels cries are barely hanging on to the edge.
Eventually my demons will own their halos.

NOT KNOWING
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February 8, 2017
 

The 8 years we shared
Are shredded
With both at fault
And not a single to blame.
The times we shared are now memories of the past.
Bitter sweet lessons is all I have left to take with me.
Ill be here as your friend and
Know that even with all the bad I still have your back.
I wish nothing but happiness love and beautiful things for you.
I am sorry for my wrongs and any pain I have ever caused you.
Thank you for the good times and so much more.
Here is to good bye
Even though these words youll never read but forever their a part of me.

TO MOVE ON IS TO GROW
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February 8, 2017
 

My angels are falling
While my demons dance
To the sound of their
Pleading cries.

Slowly but surly
The demons I have will
Win eventually
Cause the depression is to much to
Bare.
The shriek in their voice
Want me to catch them before they fall
But not even I feel enough heart to
Soften their fall.
My tears would have saved them
But no liquid remorse or regret fell from my eyes.
My angels cries are barely hanging on to the edge.
Eventually my demons will own their halos.

MYSTERIOUS
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February 5, 2017
 

My demons are dancing
To the sound of my angels falling.

NOT KNOWING
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January 9, 2017
 

My family is the best functional dis-function I have ever seen.
No one plays the roles we born into. My mom is like my sister yet, her sister is like my sister.
My grandfather is like my dad my nana is like my mom.
Its crazy but it works and we always accept one another for who each other is.
We forgive each other quickly. We love one another un conditionally. Were open and honest more so then most families and we share everything from food on our plates to memories that will live a life time.

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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December 12, 2016
 

The innocents of childhood when the naughty list was the sure way of giving into good behavior.
The joy of feeling miracles and wishes coming true.
One time of year families are whole and together in cheer.
Believing in something that is so pure to happiness.
The smiles on our children's faces are smiles that we once had.
When we were their place.
Believing and giving in to child with in.

WINTER
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December 12, 2016
 

Drew,
       Happy Birthday to you.
You have created an amazing place out selflessness. You have made a place for people to release there inner self without judgements.
You made it possible for people for people to connect around the world even if we don't speak the same language.
So today I want to say thank you and celebrate you and everything you have accomplished.
Happy birthday.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DREW
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December 9, 2016
 

Thepain is a release.
Its a reminder of no remorse..
Mercy doesn't exist when
Your in the room of pleasured pain.
For the toking time seems to end to fast.
Leaving the room you crave and fear is the moment you realize that
Life is beautiful when your able to lift the burdens of life's stress.
Love sex and pain hold hands to survive.
Without them envious bitterness take control.

THE SWEETEST
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November 18, 2016
 

It Won't Go Away

Crosby, Stills & Nash

Lyrics

Don't you get tired
Of listening to the cover up
Sounds like a broken old record
When the needle gets stuck

You got your media honeys
Using their T.V. voice
Tellin' you what you done decided
As if you had any choice

And didn't they cry and worry
'bout people of color
And didn't they mostly turn away
Keep us afraid of each other
And you know it's a lie,
it ain't about people of color
The American Dream betrayed
And all of us feel the same rage
And it won't go away

Isn't it strange,
Ain' t it a mystery
How did he get it in his head
Somehow he could speak for me

Hey! If what he's been a' saying
Is actually what he believes
Then one of us surel...

DEEPLY LOVED
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November 17, 2016
 

From my first breath
To the face my eyes saw.
You have always shown
That you loved me.
Even when you weren't around
You made sure I safe and sound.

Just 9 years ago you and me
Were caused each other tears.
We fought and it didnt feel like
Us living together would make it through the years.
Looking back at it now, nothing with
Our history would change.

Being older memories of all special things we did together are things I cherish and try to pass down to my baby girl.
All things that we have been through
No one else could ever replace or come close to you.
Your my best friend and my mother
And I would never want another.

You weren't perfect but I'm thankful because that would mean we...

STICK WITH LOVE
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