|I ain't scared to fall, I've hit the ground before. quoted The Weeknd|
My family is the best functional dis-function I have ever seen.
No one plays the roles we born into. My mom is like my sister yet, her sister is like my sister.
My grandfather is like my dad my nana is like my mom.
Its crazy but it works and we always accept one another for who each other is.
We forgive each other quickly. We love one another un conditionally. Were open and honest more so then most families and we share everything from food on our plates to memories that will live a life time.
The innocents of childhood when the naughty list was the sure way of giving into good behavior.
The joy of feeling miracles and wishes coming true.
One time of year families are whole and together in cheer.
Believing in something that is so pure to happiness.
The smiles on our children's faces are smiles that we once had.
When we were their place.
Believing and giving in to child with in.
Happy Birthday to you.
You have created an amazing place out selflessness. You have made a place for people to release there inner self without judgements.
You made it possible for people for people to connect around the world even if we don't speak the same language.
So today I want to say thank you and celebrate you and everything you have accomplished.
Thepain is a release.
Its a reminder of no remorse..
Mercy doesn't exist when
Your in the room of pleasured pain.
For the toking time seems to end to fast.
Leaving the room you crave and fear is the moment you realize that
Life is beautiful when your able to lift the burdens of life's stress.
Love sex and pain hold hands to survive.
Without them envious bitterness take control.
It Won't Go Away
Crosby, Stills & Nash
Don't you get tired
Of listening to the cover up
Sounds like a broken old record
When the needle gets stuck
You got your media honeys
Using their T.V. voice
Tellin' you what you done decided
As if you had any choice
And didn't they cry and worry
'bout people of color
And didn't they mostly turn away
Keep us afraid of each other
And you know it's a lie,
it ain't about people of color
The American Dream betrayed
And all of us feel the same rage
And it won't go away
Isn't it strange,
Ain' t it a mystery
How did he get it in his head
Somehow he could speak for me
Hey! If what he's been a' saying
Is actually what he believes
Then one of us surel...
From my first breath
To the face my eyes saw.
You have always shown
That you loved me.
Even when you weren't around
You made sure I safe and sound.
Just 9 years ago you and me
Were caused each other tears.
We fought and it didnt feel like
Us living together would make it through the years.
Looking back at it now, nothing with
Our history would change.
Being older memories of all special things we did together are things I cherish and try to pass down to my baby girl.
All things that we have been through
No one else could ever replace or come close to you.
Your my best friend and my mother
And I would never want another.
You weren't perfect but I'm thankful because that would mean we...
I would like to conduct a small experiment but I need your help to start it.
Its only answering some questions in the comments or private letter me the answers.
1. Do you believe that prison is the solution to all crimes committed felony or misdemeanor?
If so why?
2. Do you believe in the justice system?
If so why?
3. Do you think and believe it is okay for any Judge, Attorney, or Law Enforcement officer to break a law while enforcing a law?
If so why?
4. Do you think and or believe that anyone with a conviction on their record is bad person?
Please let me know. Its for a psychology and sociology study.
Last moments thought of what he will miss
Unable to see a future in front of him.
He pauses a moment for all he has lost and remembers what he is trying gain.
He has no urge to defend himself,
Even with his naked eye being blind.
Past the fog believe to be a new start. But getting through it is new life but not promised dreams.
Leading alone with nothing but himself
A fresh start is all he cares about.
I wish people of this country would understand that we are number 1 in the world for incarcerated citizens.
That is not a way of being the greatest country. Lol.
I wonder if people understand that sending people to jail and or prison for years, will solve crime rates nor will solve an issue. It will only create bigger issues for civilization.
Making someone institutionalized does solve anything; its actually the number one reason as to why most people that have been to prison end up in a second time. why not actually do some good and solve the issue instead of hiding it? If we look at the repeat offenders percentage in other countries like Norway. Then we would be able to find a solution. W...
People see superheros as Batman or Superman.
As a little girl I had my super hero he is my grandfather.
His name James Balda.
Most of you have a hero that you look up to or idolize.
Most people have a dad that they have for their super hero. There is some kids that lose their super heros because there hero and father wasnt just their hero but he was yours and mine. Yet most would never know there names.
But to that child who did know his name, he was that childs everything.
I was lucky to have my grandfather. I was lucky to know his name.
My grandfather is a Vietnam Veteran. When he got home from war he spit on and looked down on by the people he went there to defend.
He was 101st Airbo...
Everything has become dull
Imagination side by side with
People smiles; stuck in idle.
Nothing is of creative color
Only shades of black or white thoughts.
All thats left is lit screens of pictures.
Its frustrating to not see us The American people as a whole.
Its stupid for people not to see the importance of not being divided.
Our men and women who lose their lives fighting for us Americans, do not go over there and fight divided. They stand together. They do not see the person they trust their lives with as black, mexican, native or white. They see one another as brothers. They see one another as a whole.
They work together.
Why in Gods name cant we stand together in getting what needs to be done.
Everyone needs to look at the issues at hand. Abortion, oil, jobs, obamacare, education, mental health, and jobs.
We cant just take away planned parenthood. It would do more damage to...
Agony of pain in my
Words thought of
Are never spoken.
Understanding is the next
Best thing to forgiving.
Alone with negative thoughts
Of oneself is often the last thing said.
Confusion of any relationship will hurt both people.
Caring is more then jist purchasing.
Its emotional and it can never be a lamp with a switch.
My tears wont fall to be seen.
Ill wait till the pain is not distracted.
Your eyes do not see the things you put me through.
Keeping me in the dark is only a score for us to live life a alone. Why should we be together.
People surprise me more and more everyday.
I sit there wondering things that people do not notice and it makes me wonder how dumb Americans really are.
How stupid is it for us to want the illegals here plus give them the right to vote?
Were not allowed to illegally go into their country work and live? So why should it be okay for them to come here work and live.
We sit in jail there if we break a crime there but we send them back without so much as a conviction?
How is it okay for some lady to hide a bunch emails that proves she did American soldiers wrong? Those American men put their life on the line for you and I and your okay with and will agree to her being president because she is a w...
My advice as an American, is to stay true to the people of this country.
I believe you are our only hope making sure that America stays with our history.
I also want to give advice about staying safe, because the people that support Hillary are nuts on many levels and violent. I believe that you are the chance we have keeping our rights and making sure the People that belong here are put first. My only advice is do not let us down. Make sure you do as you say. Dont talk just for a vote. Be about what you say. Do not be what we dont need.
Honesty and fallowing our our constitution. Bring back American traditions and most of listen to those of this country. Listen to o...
You are an amazing artist. An artist that has a one of kind way with not only beat and rhythm; but lyrics.
You have wrote lyric that can open peoples eyes to the nature of humans. Your beats are memorizing and make most people want to understand or listen to it all the way through.
I have never heard an artist or seen artist create music with that kind of reaction; other then maybe mozart or even vocally Jackie Evanco.
Now on a personal note.
Thank you for sharing your talent with the world. Your music has opened my eyes to seeing many things and understanding many things; that I did not see and wanted to understand before.
Part2 a poem from me to you.
After the clouds disappear
After the rainbow has gone
I'm left with a song in my ear.
The melody keeps lingering on.
How come i have to explain
Music is worth all the pain.
After the rain washes down.
After the fog burns away.
Will I see the sun coming around?
Closer and closer each day.
How come I have to explain
People are worth all the pain.
I just wanna see the love in your eyes
After the storm has passed you and gone.
When your dreaming of how could be.
It doesn't work to pretend.
Let me tell you what happened to me.
Just to get to the end
I needed a friend
After the rainbow had gone
Its so sad losing a friend.
But the memories keep lingering on.
How come i have to expl...
Like a whisper on the wind.
Sometimes the wind don't want to hear about it.
Like a sail boat on the sea
Sometimes the ocean just don't care about it.
There are many many feelings
That can tare you soul apart.
But the pressure of unequal love is hard.
Cause the price you've got to pay
Is that pain wont go away.
Did you ever stay to long
With a lover who was over you?
You had the feeling it was wrong
But you've loved so hard theres nothing you can do.
There are many heartaches when your up against the wall.
And all the love you give, it wont come back at all.
And no matter what you do it really hurts to know the truth.
Love is unequal sometimes.
When you ...
My days are as black as my nights.
All of the sudden
Little glittering lights
Cross my blackened skies once again.
Why did it have to be now that
This beauty of you came into my life again.
Why now . why not at a time
When I wasnt scared to bring you down.
Why when not when my life was easier to explain.
I dont want to have anyone around me fall into darkness
Know everything i say is a true
As the beauty in the sky we both look at.
The feelings i speak to you are far from pretend or fake.
Your words are words I ve always wanted to hear.
The smiles and acceptance you bring to my life is
More then you know.
Wish you would ask me things so I could tell everything..
I understand if you...
I am reaching out
Into blackest darkness
What should be solid
Yet I still feel me slipping into
What could be my last real breath.
Screaming out for help
Yet there is no sounds coming out.
I feel that I am far from alone.
But nothing is set in stone.
I feel like im falling faster and faster
All the while I suddenly hear laughter.
My scream still mute
My sight still black
Now I feel a cold chill up and down my back.
Arms blindly searching for anything or anyone to hold on to
For this life like dream,
Never reaching an end like Alice once did.
At the end of that cold cold fall
At the end of that fear
All the sudden my body turns cold
I know im in water ...
The lies you tell me to keep me silent
Are no longer going to be my silent mouth
To stop a fight.
Im done fighting with you.
My freedoms keys will be in someone elses hands.
And seeing me before I was not of any importance to you.
So why should I care enough to cry or yell about something that I cannot change.
Its your choice and I know were I stand.
Thats fine id rather be alone then deal with the pain of wondering why things that are important to me are not of importance to you.
Slipping through my hands grip.
Secrets we shared are now yours alone.
Why keep things from me if you know ill always love you.
Even if it hurts its better then to leave
You dont speak with words
Yet I hear what you are trying to say.
You dont play poker, spades or even go fish.
But the games we play all our own.
When I go to bed, you make sure that we never fall asleep alone.
Your loyalty to me is clear and un questioned.
When you little self looks at me
It makes me feel like I have my best friend.
I search for you for many years.
But I never thought I would find it in a little winner dog.
You are the reason I understand MANs best friend.
You my little pooch
My side kick and four legged son
Are something so dear to me.
I see why dogs can help heal a soul
But it wasnt till you that i understood why people were so close their pet.
But now I do. I...
Its been so long since
Ive shared on here.
But I am back to my therapy place.
I missed writing it something and seeing it mean something to someone and anyone. So here to be with yall again. Never going to let this my passion go again.
Whatever shut me off
Put me on ignore.
I as your lover, should be your solace.
Instead I think to you I am
The dark winds of the change
Between past, present and Future.
Once as your solace,
Feeling so alive,untouchable by broken hearted hands,
That is when I was your true solace.
I know, no other lover or person,
Could love you as much as I do.
Through rough and thick muds or stone.
Through clouds and clear water. From dusk till dawn.
Forgiveness of any wrongs
Acceptance of who you are
And my lighted doorway is always ajar for only you.
No matter the temporary anger of frustration or confusion.
Loving you is beyond a choice.
My heart forever belongs to you
Sadness sets in once she realizes
Herself is everything she never wanted to be.
Herself in life is not what she dreamed of being.
The pride she once had came and went. Nothing of her beauty is from within. She once used to cry for the pain she felt
Now she cries for the pain she causes
The fire in my heart soul is dimming
Day by day for the love you give me is the oxygen that makes my fire burn in my heart and soul. With out i suffocate to nothing but smoldering cole.
I dont know what about me is left to enjoy or love but if i could get it back i would just breath you in once again. The feeling of passion burning loving between us. Is the most right feeling before my eyes close to dusk.
I miss everything I once was to you. I miss being a person of value, i miss your voice reminding me of everything that made you love me. Your voice when i wanted to never look back its you your whole self that has saved me from dying before you I never thought I could love so deeply not j...
Before you un cover your secret self to anyone
Think about how it can be used against you.
Because it will be at any given time even if love is involved.
Its better to keep yourself to yoirself because at the end of the day your the only one that has to deal with you.
Giving up is right around the corner.
nothing I do is going through or there is always something that makes it not happen. not trying gets me nothing and trying seems to get me shot down. trying for nothing is fucking stupid.
im becoming angry with the world and im becoming angry at myself.
one day im going to snap. im tiered of it. im sick of having everything go to hell no matter how hard i try. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!