|life isn't what we see it as...ups nd downs is wad we shouldn't be afraid of...|
I was there when in that time..
When the stories happened..
I was also there in that time....
When..the tragedy happened..
Don't you think my dear love..
Life can teach you many things .
The compability of companionship...
Realization of not feeling too much..
Compassion, humanity..does only exsist...
The rose becomes difficult to pluck because of it's thorns ..
But don't you love it enough already?..
I wonder how I make myself
understand something and let
the feelings get in the way...
Stuck between figuring out
what I am ....
And what I want to be...
".............somehow she knew...
However hard she tried...
One can never expect gold
from a person who is mining
The stars twinkeld bright in the night sky...
The words failed to leave my mouth..
You knew..I was obessed...with the dark energy that you shared. ..
The wind called on me..as I stood there...gazing at you...
All the sound gone numb behind me..
The rays that came from your eyes...As you lift your gaze at me...
Tried hard ...enough to look normal..
But i knew ..my eyes gave me away...
As I cringe at the rough and heavy aroma approach me..
I knew it was you...always you........
I am standing before you.
With a naked soul..
Alluring you like a damsel
Why don't you see the the blood
As I cut deep into the skin to lay
it out before you
A touch with what you'll feel..
Beats bounce off my body ..along
with your rhythm..
Rhythm of us as we ride along to an
eternity of love ..
"Tell me it was hard for you to pull away from me..
Look me in the eye..and be honest how you have craved for me deep down..
Tell me that I was not wrong when I felt the current as our eyes met..
I will never come back as promised but I need to hear the truth.
The truth about some bad parts of you...drawn to me..."
"...If you promise to leave and never come back..then..
Yes!...yes I'll be honest with you about what I feel......."
One good thing about not making friends..people don't keep expectations from you..
When you know someone very well they start taking you for granted..
They start treating you as they want you to be ..not as who you are..
Then if you don't keep up to their expectations..either they leave you ..or they humiliate and leave you ..
The road leads to just one way..dats away from you...
So isn't it better...to always walk alone...
Whoever will want to stay will stay .. whoever will want to leave will leave..
It's much better than changing yourself for someone who isn't worth your time..
You will know how to tame her...
But u'll never know how to respect
If she is gone ..know that she left
you because she was way more
independent for you to handle..
Remember..she was in search of love
and respect ..
And if you couldn't give her that..
You were never worth her time..
She wished she knew what to expect of her..
That mind is a bucket full of thoughts..
Only if she knew what to tell..
Maybe she wanted to tell ..but she believed ...she knew the answers ..
Was anything worth it..??.
Yet she did want to tell..but her heart eventually gave up..
She knew the reality about herself...
She knew...the suffering...the love...the life...
Maybe...she knew...knew a little more ....or..
Knew it all...
"After all these time....."
I wish I knew the feeling of
" always"..before I lost him forever..
I wish I could turn back time...and do things that would mean something..
I wish...my life would have no "if"s...
I wish...and I just wish........
"life will give you a second
He always said.....
Now I wish I would listen
to him ..and would have done
What is it??
Is it..that my personality isn't feminine..
Is it .that I don't go out much ..is it that I don't party around and keep meeting people ...
Or is it..that I don't wear scanty clothes...
Or is it ..I don't have 'fun'...or have a social life...don't have good pictures to put on social sites tagging my whereabouts..
What is it.??..what is it. ..that makes me...less of a kinda person to be around ..??..
....anger in my mind.
heaviness in my heart.
and a smile on my face.
I laughed out hard..as I felt my
world crashing down around me..
".....and you thought
I was never in it"
I smiled to myself as I saw him
He has an aura..
Strong enough to make the
bath go cold around me..
Loving you was pure. ..
The awkwardness we felt....
The touch we shared...
The looks you gave..to take my heart away...
I know not about the life you are living..
But I want you to know...that however hard Anything might get. .
The acceptance of love will always be embraced by me...
Happy Valentine's day....!!!
What is love??..
It is a vague expression of affection..
People enjoy more of the physical projection of it...than the real one...
It basically brings more sadness than happiness..
You can't just fall out of love ..
Priorities just change..people like me tend to choose depression and loneliness more than being in love...because they don't believe in it...because they were never been loved..from the persons they wanted to..
They are always the person who is misunderstood..judged. And spoken about..
There can come times and phases of life...where people can be confused about many things in life...because unlike you..
They have many responsibilities to fulfill rather than only run a...
Don't you think why destiny made us meet ?
You were the odd one out to be seen..
The feeling that you get always that someone was there was always me..
The time that we spend, the chats that we shared ..
The wierdness that we felt...
The stares we gave..
The smiles I got ..the closeness I felt...
There was definitely something..
Then why do you think destiny made us meet!
The teenager in me stopped right there ..when she saw you...
She expected you to look at her and give that sweet smile you always gave...
You didn't ...she looked ..you still didn't ..she yet looked..waited...
Upset.. distressed..she made me..move my feet...and walk away...
Yet...she did look back...hoping the gaze might..just shift up a bit..
Turned and walked...I smiled ..to myself..
You knew..dint you...yet you chose...not to...
I felt alone..yet at peace ...
Nothing lasts forever...does it?
It was a daily hustle bustle life I was living..
When you entered..with the weakest smile I have ever seen on your face..
It was the happiest day because I saw your face again..
You were broken...I really wanted to make you better...
It broke me more to see you like that..
You always talked of leaving me..
And you really left one day..I never wanted you more to stay..
I still hear your crooked broken voice..and heart still breaks...
I know I feel too much...
But ..I really wanted you to stay ...a little while longer..........
Absolute darkness ...
Distant where howling wolves are the only one heard...
Chilling breeze freezing down through your spine ..
I don't know how people are afraid of that...
Coz'...that's where I rise and open up to be me.
"A hot chocolate truffle.....Yummm.."
Your favourite it is..isn't it??
"Yeah, fortunately he is....."
It so happened..
You entered..the fragnance hit me..
You smile..my heart skipped a beat..
You stomp out, I just wondered why..
And, it just so happened..
The teenage girl in me..fluttered with the aura you had created..
And my smile never left my face ..
Yes, it 'happened'.........
He was warm, attractive and compassionate ...from ourside...
But stone, hard, and secretive from inside...
No wonder..why the stars never brought us together..
There will come a time. ...where I won't matter to anyone anymore...
The fear that is burried deep beneath the surface..has started to fight back..
Making me question my own exsistence..
The only string that kept my mind and heart intact...have already been torn apart...
Insanity is crawling it's way through me...
Not long untill it wins over the bit of sanity...left in me...
Taking me away from me............
'.........and suddenly as I faced my scars, I felt stronger..my tears came from not my eyes, but my heart.. narrating me a tale, I dint even completely understand....'
She saw him..waiting in the darkness..
Waiting..to prowl on her..and take her life away...
Yet this time, she dint stop him..did not run..
Just let herself get carried away into the darkness ..
No one will ever know...how she felt or how that happened..
They will only know...she just left....
Time is the only person standing strong yet in this rat and mouse game ...
While we are all falling short of what is called 'time' from our lives!!!
One of dem asked me:
If u did given a second chance..would u have done things differently??
I said yes .but really I do not know .
All I know .is my current heart is a ghost town ..one populated by passion, enthusiasm, loneliness, shame, pride, betrayal and sadnesses. I cannot distangle myself from it even if I feel sorry for myself and weep in silence..
I don't know if future will remember me..but if it does may it never see me as a victim but someone who moves forward with courage paying the price she has to pay!