|Take your time with things. Do not let people take you for granted.|
And I miss all the days when we used to spend endless times together.
There you stood proud and tall.
Between silence and death I took the fall.
You were you, and I was I.
For you I was willing to give it all, ready to die.
Like a soldier I stood in place and did all that you need.
With time like corruption your eyes turned into greed.
You wanted it all, the fun, the games, things that did not include me.
I stood back watching you, I watched you close while you roamed free.
With time came pain, and with your games came defeat.
You grew tired, walked and roamed the late night street.
Question upon question, you questioned the choices you made.
How day could turn into darkness so quick, how could it all fade.
With bleeding thoughts you linge...
You always seem to realise things at the last moment. Like your self worth, who really matters to you and who you really matter to. Days pass by and I am trying really hard to keep it together. Some nights I lay in bed thinking of all the reasons to keep on going. What is it that makes me wanna stay, but lately I can't find reasons to stay. So confused, and I have so much heaviness in my chest already, and I don't want to do or say something that will hurt the ones I love most. I'm so confused, sometimes when I awake and look at the picture I don't know why I even try anymore. It's so hard because I know things won't always be perfect but I just have this feeling that won't go away. I want ...
Sometimes, it's not the things you do.
It's the things you say .
Maybe we don't want to admit, there's a problem. For sometimes we don't like the outcome.
And after everything, maybe this is god's way of showing me the colors that are true to who you really are.
Nothing makes me more happier, and nothing makes me more sadder than you.
And I hope you understand, that this is a battle.
Life, it is all too much for you.
It's been you since day one.
Forever down the rabbit hole having fun. We laid somewhere in a field made of Daisy's that illuminated the sky. You smiled, in the moment we exposed the lie. A place so positive full of people and energy that cannot be tamed by the desire. It is a positivity inside us, something that is lit like the fire. But should this night be our last, I am glad we can share a moment which will be a past. I think about that moment, when we met under illuminated skies. Nothing mattered, only the sparkle in your eyes. So many memories, so many things had been said unlike before. We laid there enjoying company, we were reborn. I won't forget the way you looked at me, the ...
Oh things were rough, but like thorns on a rose she was tough. If this was the game to be played with the Devil. She would stoop to his level. Slowly caressing his ugly, and the truth he lays in every night. Her long hair tangled in blue, she kissed him slowly like that's what she was supposed to do.
He expected nothing in return, just the love that he thought she should give. He was cornered, without her he didn't want to live. She was his life line, she was the ultimate obsession. But beauty like hers can never be anyone's posession. She was free and never chained to a love so tainted. A canvas she was, oh how she had been painted. He laid in a bed made of his lie, a love like this you ca...
I still dream about a familiar face.
So close to home, I somehow feel out of place. It's never been jealousy, only comfort in my own skin. But I also want to know where your heart bas been.
You've been damaged, broken so deep.
I just want to be the smile, that helps you wake happy from your sleep.
Silent eyes, razor sharp words that cut deep. You keep to yourself, and the cuts begin to feel steep. Where did the time go, and why have you lost your way. Me against myself man I keep telling myself there's another way. You're so good to the people you keep close. But I see your insides wilting like a rose.
My body is a corpse waiting to expire. But I feel the energy, energy made of desire. I want it all life and death, beauty and pain. But ill sit in the dark until we meet again.
A dark water brewing inside the place between my ears. God just save me, take me back home where I belong.
You do what you want, do what you need. But don't come back with your heart of greed. You are you and I am me. But don't for one second think the devil will agree. It won't ever be like that, he is the master and I am his puppet. Do not touch what he already claims, the pain you won't love it. So step down from your throne and give me the crown you own. Step down so you can be in peace alone.
It is quiet and it is all so silent yet loud inside my mind.
I need clarity to somehow find.
Accept the love that is given to you by god. He watches over your shoulder to keep you safe.
So let the waters flow beneath the surface of your skin. You are human, born into sin.
Oh, it hurts all too much.
Too much for right now.
I need rest, to ease my soul.
Not there yet, somehow ill get over
This bump in the road.
I will eventually get there, things will be okay.
Just having a hard time right now with myself, I am having a tough time.
Truth be told, I don't want to deal with the thoughts in my head.
Shut me up, just shut me up, I want my thoughts to go dead.
I want there to be silence so that my heart can rest.
Nothing is as a heartache then when I'm put to the test.
Why can't my thoughts be in control and slow down.
Yesterday I was a princess, today my attitude has no crown.
Shut me up, the demons in my head which choose to speak.
Crack me like glass, let the fragile pieces fall like I am weak.
Too many thoughts, too much to say.
I want to close my eyes and call this the end of my day.
But I can't I have to stay up and be an adult right?
Can't lose focus, can't lose myself out of sight.
My own enemy, ...
Oh the colors.
You paint my mind so vivid.
Walk through my brain so livid.
Oh the colors.
Where do you go when Im gone?
Someone waiting for you alone?
Oh the colors.
Why does it seem to hurt oh so soon.
Why is my mind painted in gloom.
It saddens my heart, that a man I used to listen to everyday in my teenage years is now gone. Linkin Park was one of the most inspirational metal bands I started listening to when I was fourteen. They were the first band I listened to that got me into rock n roll music. That band got me through so much while I was going through highschool, they always made me feel like when times were tough that I could get through anything. So many nights that I would be going through something I turn up their music and shut the world out and somehow I knew things would always come out good. Now I'm shocked and saddened that Chester the lead singer took his own life, such a legend now gone. I am lucky I go...
Oh god, how I want it all now and not so late. I want to savour the taste of him, a blissful fate. Let him call my name by the sweetness of his honey like expression. I want him to crave me like the devil, let it become his ultimate obsession. In the late of hour, it is me he will aant to devour. Keep paitent and be kind, I want to find you in the darkest corners of my mind. Look into my eyes and tighten those lips, hold me close enough I can feel your hips. In a crowd I hold onto you until the music is all I can feel. Fireworks at it's finest, how do I know this is all so real? Your caramel skin traces my own. We lay in the grass, you and I alone. Your hands touch my neck and I can feel a ...
A love, so far
A glimpse of hope, a fiery desire.
He was all those things in a bottle that I admire.
It was late, 4 in the morning kind of late.
He turned to me, kissed my forehead, how it was fate.
We both held each other as the moon switched with the sun.
In the morning I would have to rush, I'd have to run.
The world slept as my mind would race until it was dawn.
He had fallen into a deep sleep of trance, he was gone.
It was pitch black but I could feel the lump in my throat.
Always like before I would write myself a mental note.
I caressed his face and my fingers through his hair.
Smelling his skin, thinking how on earth was this fair?
Touching his skin and feel...