|Take your time with things. Do not let people take you for granted.|
It's been a while since I put ink to paper.
I can't seem to shake the thoughts growing like a skyscraper.
We always seem to know the road which we drive.
A road to something meaningful, an eagerness, a thrive.
But then you drive in the dark and miss the road you should have taken. Now you ponder on the thought, your thoughts feel more real, more awaken.
So now here you are driving a road to an unknown destination.
Whose gonna kick it with you, for the time of duration?
Who will it be? Who will you see at the end of that tunnel?
Maybe the people who was always gonna be your ride or die?
Maybe no one though? You can go through this alone.
“I love you, I do.”
Yah but for how long?
“Honestly.. I don’t know.”
Yeah you and me.
I wanted that shit like no other, and now it feels like you found a lover.
Alone and unwanted, thats how this thing been feeling as of late.
I thought I knew you, thought your love was real, you were my mate.
But then you go around, and come back fiening.
So what is this? you and me? what is the whole meaning?
False hope, or have I given you too much love to drink.
Somedays I wake up and I don't know you at all, what does one think?
In every love song, every love story, or a love book there will be hurt.
Throw my heart in a blender, and burry my bones in the dirt.
Thought I knew you, but I guess I don't.
You can't know me though, you just won't
I know ...
I am speechless with the amount of things I want to say.
You were my big bro, we spoke like every single day.
So now comes a time where you no longer reside.
I cannot hold you for you are not by my side.
I am confused and I feel out of place in a world so still.
I don't know if the Devil is playing with me for the thrill?
But you see it all from Heaven I know you keep an eye.
So tell me to shape up, tell me to be strong, at least to try.
Maybe it has been me all along, struggling to find the truth.
I want to go back to the day, the day that I had my youth.
We were young and we were stupid, always laughing with a smile.
Please tell me the things I am feeling are okay, it stacks...
Someplace between sacrifice and truth.
I died again, just to replace my youth.
There was a time that things were different and it didn’t change much.
But as years progressed you and I lost touch.
So theres a reason for the way that my soul collided inside of your own. You were broken, so broken and alone.
But I sparked a light inside you, to show you that kindness still is true. Even though now things cannot be the way they used to be.
You lost yourself, and I let you.
You needed comfort and I let you.
You ran far and I let you.
I let you find your soul, for one day like a stray cat you will come at my door asking for company.
And I’ll let you.
I stared at you for a very long time, until I was completely sure.
That it was your love worthy that I may endure.
Your love would feel amazing, and then it would be great.
But what was it in the stars to bring me to your fate.
That night, the hot air and the stars just wanted us to meet.
I fell before you and I became weak from my knees to my feet.
There was something about the way your body electrified mine.
I knew together we: you and I would always be divine.
Would it always be this way? A flame turned into fire?
Maybe I won't always be this, a fantasy, a desire..
Peel back the layers and you would find me, the real me.
The one shattered and broken, the one I don't let yo...
I want you to know, I'm not mad.
You were like a brother to me and I will always love you. But I hate that you left me, the way you left me alone in this life. You are gone and I miss you everyday. Just know I am not mad, I now know and I have found comfort and peace.
Shall I ask more of you?
I wouldn't, shall I need more from you? I wouldn't.
Not because I don't need or want to but because I shouldn't.
There is a parallel universe between the things that are true and things that are false. You and I fall into a category of both.
You and I are both a universe made of true and false.
We are born broken.
As broken as we will ever be.
Here we go again... you're back.
Thought you'd left but you're back to haunt my mind once more. Oh sadness why do you attach yourself to me like this.
Deep inside me.
Evolving inside me.
Pressuring my mind.
Reason to run from me.
Easily you come and go.
Solitude how you isolate me.
Slowly eating away at my brain.
Isolating me from everything I feel
Opresssing everything I feel to a low.
Never ever will I let you win.
You stayed there lingering past 3 a.m. inside this rotten soul of mine.
Nothing I say will make sense, nothing I put on paper feels right.
& you had broken me, far more times than I'd ever expected.
I'm not sure, so I'm puzzled.
Wish I could be honest, but my mouth should be muzzled. It's tough when all you want and need is gone, faded in the dark. Thinking about it hurts, it leaves a stain, a mark. How do I recover? My mind plays with me in the dark, hoping I'd find something other. Maybe It's a distraction, maybe it's the Devil playing to see my reaction. But I hate it, every single bit of everything I feel, it feels like a dream, a fantasy that isn't real. Over and over I think about it a little too much. Devil as he is showed me he was hot to the touch.
So down came God, trying to tell me that my judgement is clouded. I cry because I wish it were true. I was suffocating and every...
To be free from the demons in your head.
You must lay there silently, allowing them in your bed. As they caress the body of which is their's to claim. Tomorrow you may feel different and not the same. Time is all you need.
Maybe theres nothing to feel.
Maybe all is gone now that was real.
Galaxies away, but you gave up too soon. Darkness is my favourite illuminated by the moon. Broken by the demons which always win. The Devil takes me, we are bred into sin.
But the walls inside my mind wear thin.
Clouded thoughts, a mind so sore.
Feels like I don't know you anymore.
Maybe we don't want to admit, there's a problem. For sometimes we don't like the outcome.
Nothing makes me more happier, and nothing makes me more sadder than you.
And I hope you understand, that this is a battle.
Life, it is all too much for you.
It's been you since day one.
Forever down the rabbit hole having fun. We laid somewhere in a field made of Daisy's that illuminated the sky. You smiled, in the moment we exposed the lie. A place so positive full of people and energy that cannot be tamed by the desire. It is a positivity inside us, something that is lit like the fire. But should this night be our last, I am glad we can share a moment which will be a past. I think about that moment, when we met under illuminated skies. Nothing mattered, only the sparkle in your eyes. So many memories, so many things had been said unlike before. We laid there enjoying company, we were reborn. I won't forget the way you looked at me, the ...