|Take your time with things. Do not let people take you for granted.|
I wanted to but couldn’t.
You stepped away, I wouldn’t
I loved you like the sea was deep.
Lick my wounds, as I slowly weep.
I wanted to, everything and more.
Someone I trust, someone I adore.
Though no one is perfect, and though times are rough. We still see it through the good and the tough.
You were sinking, like an anchor.
Deep into parts of the ocean I couldn’t get to. I wanted so much.
I needed you, needed your touch.
Somehow in a place which was very still. I was an ocean with tides that could drown a hill. I pushed until you told me, what the deal really was.
So my ocean’s tides were calm. But soon they would sail from you. And my tides will sail you to where you want to go....
You were an angel, and I put so much trust into this art we painted onto our convas. Oh the art was beautiful, it really was. We painted an image of a heaven we had dreamed of, we both cared so much about things. So passionate about the life that we wanted. Now the canavas it is old and it is haunted. By the idea that this could ever be so still, you wanted me. The princess out of spite and sin.
I won’t stop you from loving somebody else, never will I ever want to be the bridge between you and the happiest place you go to. Have we made mistakes? Have we been good to the world which shames us everyday of the way that we are? You and me, are we the things which we wish to be? Can we ever surv...
We laid there for a very long time, dreaming of a life we once had.
Thinking of all the ways that life had been bad. We were lost kids searching for the answers to Never Land. It's the answers we crave for, we didn't have.
Somewhere deep into the meadow where the grass runs steep. We held onto each other, you were mine to keep. We laid there for a long time gazing into each others soul. For a split moment, my love I thought I felt whole.
But the world had torn us apart, manipulated our DNA to what we were now.
So scarred, by life's curve balls, it is not why but it is the questions of how.
Can we heal from the lies, from the deceit the world plants in our brain.
Could we run far ...
Baby girl was so young standing and 5 point 2. She had black hair, fair skin and eyes that were piercing of blue. When Annie was younger she began to walk to the woods once every other day. She stayed there until the sunset, in the green grass she would lay.
Annie was special, she could feel mother nature and she could hear the animals whisper as they passed by. She was quite alone in a place that she would eventually one day die. The deep woods so dark and so deep, she would lay there with all of the animals to watch her as she would sleep.
Annie was smart, she knew what she wanted. That was until the day that she had seen Ben. He had blonde hair, fair skin and two ...
Time, oh time how I search for you, I search it in me.
Where have you gone love? How long has it been? Maybe a century or maybe a couple, I was determined to make this temporary time supple.
You held me close, your lips at my collarbone each kiss to the neck.
Oh how I trembled, my insides collapsed, it was a war zone I was a wreck. You had it all the looks, the charms, the lifestyle, the money.
I was never looking for what you needed, this was our story it was quite funny.
Someplace deep between the stars and the constellations our souls had met in the centre and that is how it all happened. So quick so fast, surely it was fate... we were built to last.
One morning when the fog h...
We laid there, don't you remember? Or do you seem to forget?
"Take my hand" you whispered was that your voice of regret?
To be honest I really don't know, maybe it was our turn to grow.
Don't take my kindness for weakness because I am not weak.
Sometimes late in the hour, I can hear the sadness as you speak.
We talk about passions, dreams, and wandering as our souls collide.
They collide with the universe of which is our own, side by side.
I want to remember your face, your laugh when our bones grow old.
Take me with you, when it is time to go, greatest love story ever told.
For a long time I knew, that somehow you would find me.
Somehow I would find you too. But when I saw you ...
I want to touch you but you are so out of reach.
You caress my tears like theres something you want to teach.
Down a dark dark hole buried beyond the darkness, I am alone.
Was I dreaming, was this all just so real?
Emptiness, it is the only emotion you let me feel.
Clawing your ways into my heart, and then into my brain.
You are the emotion I can feel, my insides become clouds with rain.
Let me breathe, let me breathe, let me do the things I love.
Smile more, smile more I tell myself with every breath I take.
But the emotions inside me crack on the surface, something you can't fake.
It is a dark forest, so muddy, so wet. It is the silent place where we met.
A calm place you...
Maybe we were scared.
Maybe we were naive to let someone in.
Give them power, put those memories in a bin.
With plastic hearts which do not beat, for they are always on the run.
Wanting to play with my heart, wanting to have the fun.
Thoughts they linger in the wake of late in the night.
Sometimes it's things like this we just cannot fight.
Like why do you do the things that you do?
Who do you love? Is it a tale painted so blue?
Does she caress your face, does she smile?
Is it true love? Or is this just passing time for a while?
Tell me.. how do you define the greatest love story ever told?
Are there butterflies thoughts of you getting old.
Is she the music to your ears,...
I saw brightness and I saw light, someplace distant though and from afar it still felt right. To watch you, just to see you make them smile for another minute without my presence without my love. What were you waiting for and who was holding you back? You were fighting thoughts and emotions you were under attack. You asked me one night as we laid there in the grass so green you asked me " am I capable of loving? or being loved back?"
I laughed because I knew you were capable of a great love story. I saw the love that you had wanted to give to the world, to the one girl you had been saving your heart for. I wish I could have seen you, seen the things you could have done with your life. But...
So I walked a lonely road, a road so dark so cold. I stood before a girl I thought that I knew. But maybe it was her that I out grew. You know the innocent girl, she didn’t know of pain, only rainbows.
I cannot understand myself, I am me.
But now I must leave myself, to understand the feelings of which consume me.
There was a time that my thoughts were consumed with you. The thoughts of where you made me feel so blue. You disgusted me, you had broken me, damaged me. So I had to wait for someone to pick up my broken pieces to put me back. But the piles of emotions always stack. You were a pig of a human, only caring about your needs and that night I had met the devil. Oh how you did what you did to pain my soul. Took me years upon years just to feel like me and somewhat whole. You took a part of me I can never get back, a part of me that you forver have. Over the years I don’t know what I was searching for. Maybe it was closure, maybe it was just to hear you say sorry for the thing you put me through. ...
My mind starts to drift, into a place where I feel at peace. A place where nothing happens after you decease.
I paint a picture of colors where they explode into happiness of which I wish to feel. Someday we will all somehow heal.
How do I separate my my love and my pain?
Can I ever love you, can I do it again?
Here I am wondering about a love we had, it seeped deep into my very soul. So at the end of the road I stand, but this time I am not whole.
I think everyone has their faults, everyone is constantly learning about themselves but I am torturing myself by waiting for a sun that will never set. How do I get around this, the way that it hurts so much to walk away. I wish I could erase the emotions which you instil in me. How can I set a caged bird, set it so free. I think about a life where you and I are not as one. I think of a scenario where you and I are done. It hurts too much to think of a life where the futu...
It's been a while since I put ink to paper.
I can't seem to shake the thoughts growing like a skyscraper.
We always seem to know the road which we drive.
A road to something meaningful, an eagerness, a thrive.
But then you drive in the dark and miss the road you should have taken. Now you ponder on the thought, your thoughts feel more real, more awaken.
So now here you are driving a road to an unknown destination.
Whose gonna kick it with you, for the time of duration?
Who will it be? Who will you see at the end of that tunnel?
Maybe the people who was always gonna be your ride or die?
Maybe no one though? You can go through this alone.
“I love you, I do.”
Yah but for how long?
“Honestly.. I don’t know.”
Yeah you and me.
I wanted that shit like no other, and now it feels like you found a lover.
Alone and unwanted, thats how this thing been feeling as of late.
I thought I knew you, thought your love was real, you were my mate.
But then you go around, and come back fiening.
So what is this? you and me? what is the whole meaning?
False hope, or have I given you too much love to drink.
Somedays I wake up and I don't know you at all, what does one think?
In every love song, every love story, or a love book there will be hurt.
Throw my heart in a blender, and burry my bones in the dirt.
Thought I knew you, but I guess I don't.
You can't know me though, you just won't
I know ...
I am speechless with the amount of things I want to say.
You were my big bro, we spoke like every single day.
So now comes a time where you no longer reside.
I cannot hold you for you are not by my side.
I am confused and I feel out of place in a world so still.
I don't know if the Devil is playing with me for the thrill?
But you see it all from Heaven I know you keep an eye.
So tell me to shape up, tell me to be strong, at least to try.
Maybe it has been me all along, struggling to find the truth.
I want to go back to the day, the day that I had my youth.
We were young and we were stupid, always laughing with a smile.
Please tell me the things I am feeling are okay, it stacks...
Someplace between sacrifice and truth.
I died again, just to replace my youth.
There was a time that things were different and it didn’t change much.
But as years progressed you and I lost touch.
So theres a reason for the way that my soul collided inside of your own. You were broken, so broken and alone.
But I sparked a light inside you, to show you that kindness still is true. Even though now things cannot be the way they used to be.
You lost yourself, and I let you.
You needed comfort and I let you.
You ran far and I let you.
I let you find your soul, for one day like a stray cat you will come at my door asking for company.
And I’ll let you.
I stared at you for a very long time, until I was completely sure.
That it was your love worthy that I may endure.
Your love would feel amazing, and then it would be great.
But what was it in the stars to bring me to your fate.
That night, the hot air and the stars just wanted us to meet.
I fell before you and I became weak from my knees to my feet.
There was something about the way your body electrified mine.
I knew together we: you and I would always be divine.
Would it always be this way? A flame turned into fire?
Maybe I won't always be this, a fantasy, a desire..
Peel back the layers and you would find me, the real me.
The one shattered and broken, the one I don't let yo...
I want you to know, I'm not mad.
You were like a brother to me and I will always love you. But I hate that you left me, the way you left me alone in this life. You are gone and I miss you everyday. Just know I am not mad, I now know and I have found comfort and peace.
Shall I ask more of you?
I wouldn't, shall I need more from you? I wouldn't.
Not because I don't need or want to but because I shouldn't.
There is a parallel universe between the things that are true and things that are false. You and I fall into a category of both.
You and I are both a universe made of true and false.
We are born broken.
As broken as we will ever be.
Here we go again... you're back.
Thought you'd left but you're back to haunt my mind once more. Oh sadness why do you attach yourself to me like this.
Deep inside me.
Evolving inside me.
Pressuring my mind.
Reason to run from me.
Easily you come and go.
Solitude how you isolate me.
Slowly eating away at my brain.
Isolating me from everything I feel
Opresssing everything I feel to a low.
Never ever will I let you win.
You stayed there lingering past 3 a.m. inside this rotten soul of mine.
Nothing I say will make sense, nothing I put on paper feels right.