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I’ve realized I’m more damaged than I originally thought I was. For me, being in a relationship is hard. Not because I can’t manage to be in one without problems, but because of my past relationships, I’ve come to realize that what I’ve been through in my past definitely has an effect on me.
I get nervous and battle my depression and anxiety DAILY. It’s not easy, some days are better than others. But I keep myself as busy as I can to avoid feeling that way.
When I’m in a relationship I’ve noticed I’m constantly feeling like I’m walking on eggshells. I’m constantly trying my best not to ruin anything. I don’t wanna do anything to my my significant other feel attache, upset for any reason....
They say a drunk man speaks a sober mind. Tonight my hunny decided he and his cousin were going to venture out on bikes and ride to a bar for a little bit and come back home. When they started taking longer than usual I started to worry. So he calls me and asks me if I can get him but I was half asleep so I said no he said it’s fine we will ride our bikes back. I laid down for not even 30 min at the most and I had a dream something bad happened to him I was sleepy but couldn’t sleep because he wasn’t home. Unless he is working I can’t sleep and even then I don’t sleep very long because he’s gone. After picking him up tonight I go to get him some cigarettes and he tells me he loves me ❤️ idk ...
When your away, all I do is think of you.
When your busy all I want is your attention.
When your mad all I want is to fix it make it go away and be happy again.
When you smile I smile.
You have literally been my rock.
I’m the type of girl that loves hard and falls even harder. I’m sensitive, I’m not perfect. I forget things. I try to do my best.
I love you and all I wanna do is spend the rest of the days showing you how much and why I love you. Showing you what a real women is. Showing you that you no longer have to do things on your own. I wanna glow up and grow with you. I wanna make memories. I wanna vent, go on vacation, cry, sleep and everything else I can’t think of ❤️ your my everyt...
How soon is too soon?! How do I say it? How will he react? I don’t wanna scare him away... but I am really really really certain of how I’m feeling 😭 these are the thoughts that run constantly through my head. Me an my baby have been talking for a few months now and have been officially together for a while. But I recently started falling for him and not only do I care about him but I honestly love him. This man has done for me what NOONE have EVER done for me before. When he told me let a real man show you how to love you, I didn’t think he would really manage to do it and then some. I’ve been the happiest I’ve ever been before and I’m always hearing about how happy I am and how happy they...
When I feel myself get into these dark places I know and recognize emotionally it’s so hard to keep myself from completely shutting down... lately I’ve been tested and honesty I’m barely keeping up with myself... having an abused past isn’t easy. I didn’t realize it until this week that I had it from anyway I turned and sadly still do. Usually I have enough strength to keep myself from completely breaking down, but I’m managing to keep my head up and turn my head the other way. I wish life was easier than what it really is... I just wanna cry...
Being a mom can be challenging at times. Sometimes you wanna cry, sometimes you wanna run away, sometimes you just want some space to think without having to be interrupted by a child who needs you all hours of the day. This week has really been a challenge for my love and I. Between a child who is sick af, to a child who acts like he’s going on 15 it’s been rough. Although I can say it’s been interesting seeing my boys grow and learn. I love being a mom even with the wild rides. Atleast now I am not parenting alone. I finally have that support of a man who wants to be there and care about me and my boys. I’m forever grateful for all the guidance from the man above because without him we are...
I can’t begin to explain how much this man means to me. Getting to know him and talking to him and now being his girl has been the best thing I’ve ever done. I feel so happy, it’s the happiest I’ve felt in a relationship. He’s one thing I don’t think I wanna live life without. I got someone who is almost like me. His personality, his taste in music, the way he is with my boys. He makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. If I feel sad or alone or scared he’s there. If I just wanna get away and have a drink we go together. He sleeps next to me and makes me feel safe at night. When he gives me kisses and undivided attention I’m at peace. We can talk for hours, and I’m ALWAYS laughing ...
Lately everything has been so crazy, but he’s literally my peace. He is the reason I literally smile daily. He’s been so helpful and cares about me and we’ve only been talking for almost 3 months now. I’ve been more happy since talking to him than I’ve been in a long while. I think this is the plans god had for me. I think he knew what I needed and felt he needed me too and since we have so much in common and like a lot of the same stuff. We get along so well and he’s so sweet. He makes my heart melt ❤️ my handsome doesn’t even understand the amount of blessings he is to me and my boys 😍🥰😘
I’m slowly starting to let myself be happy ❤️🥰 I cannot begin to explain the feelings I have being around him and just talking to him. He makes it seem like someone could honestly really care about me and actually wanna be with me. Allowing myself to be with people who aren’t worth my time have taught me I need to do for me. He’s been soo sweet and I wake up to good morning txts faithfully every day and good night txts before bed 🥰❤️😍 I couldn’t be more lucky. My handsome has been my peace 😌 I love to spend time with him. I can’t wait for tomorrow ❤️ Good Night 😘
I’m so happy for my best friend and her hubby ❤️ they have come A LONG WAY 🥰 but have managed to finally have things exactly how they always wanted it to be. I haven’t spent as much time as I wished I could and I can’t be the support she needs but I’m happy he is able to and is there for her 😍❤️ my best friends means everything to me. I couldn’t be more happy for her ❤️
My child’s father is the funniest person in my life! He’s got a HUGE imagination and very BIG dreams 😂, as much as I would LOVE to make them dreams become a reality for him, there are some things I just cannot allow myself to do. He wants a life style of a polygamous relationship and have a big happy family. HOWEVER, I personally don’t think I can do that. I love too hard, I’m too much of a jealous person and it would cause our relationship to fall apart. The mother of his middle children and I have a bad history and it wouldn’t end very well between us two. Since I can’t stand not even the sight of this girl I wouldn’t want to try to be friends. She’s drama filled, doesn’t wanna be mature a...
One thing I have always worried about and been picky about is the car seats my kids used. When my boys were new born I ALWAYS had Graco infant car seats, when my oldest got big enough to where it was time to upgrade his car seat I went with an Evenflo car seat, but today when taking it apart the styrofoam started to break and i realized now I need to buy him another seat. So not only am I stressed because I don’t know which seat to get my almost 1 year old, BUT I also don’t know what to get my oldest since he will be 5 this year and is only 45 lbs but he’s very petite and I want my boys as safe as possible. I was looking into the Graco Extend to fit for my 1 year d since he has to rear face...
To know that I’ve finally found an app and a place where I can be open with myself and not have to worry about the bitter and drama filled people in my life makes me happy. Only thing I’ve been thinking about are these blessings I’m waiting on. God knows I’ve had a rough start, but there’s always a rainbow after the storm ❤️
Lately I’ve been thinking about my life and how much I’ve grown. I’ve been through heartache, I’ve been through emotional break downs, I’ve had anxiety, I’ve over thought most of my life. I never thought I’d be good enough. I never thought I’d ever get the chance to have my own place, I always put myself down.
But lately I’ve realized I’ve been so blessed. I’ve learned from every situation I found myself in. Now I chose to focus on me and my boys and getting us right. Slowly but surly everything has been falling into place. I spoke to my dad over the weekend while he was in town visiting his grandkids and me and my sister. He told me he would help me get a car and wants to see me to do goo...
If I found a magic pen that only allowed me 24 hours to write anything it would be a book on my personal life and experiences. I want to be able to touch the lives of those who might be going through anything I could have possibly gone through and maybe with them reading how I over came and dealt with those certain situations be able to help someone else. I love the feeling of being able to help anyone. Sometimes it’s the wisdom that’s put into books that helps us get through tough times. I will make sure I write a chapter everyday. And make sure it’s shut off every day after I finish until I have made my total chapters. I’d organize it to where I can set a chapter per even that happens in m...
The most dreaded day of each month. GROCERY DAY! I hate going to these stores when they are full of people especially those who are so rude 🙄 but mommies gotta do what she has to do her babies have food and snacks at home 🥰🙏🏽
My babies are always good. Mommy will forever have them straight before herself. My babies have food, clothes, toys etc. I love my boys so much! And my jax will be 5 this year 😩😭! We are currently planning him a surprise trip for his birthday 😍 maybe somewhere tropical or just a quick family get away ❤️
I’m so EXCITED! We are just about ready for Dominic’s First Birthday Bash 😍👏🏽🥰! Party venue reserved! Cake and cupcakes are set and taken care of! Invites sent out! All we need is his outfit and we are ready to go ❤️ can y’all believe it’s been a whole year already 😭 time flies TOO FAST! My boys are getting so smart and growing up so quick I feel like I haven’t gotten the chance to enjoy them being little 😫😩, but me and baee got almost all things together, Dom is gunna have a BALL! Family will be here and everything!!!! 💪🏽 this is definitely one party I’m looking forward to ❤️❤️❤️
Prove it then mf! 🤣 🤷🏽♀️
Nobody be believing shit you say because you don’t have the proof to back it up baby! Money talks and bs walks 👏🏽👏🏽
You can sit there and live in your delusion all you want. And try to say some shit to make mfs feel some type of way, but until I see pictures and a written proof of pregnancy signed by a doctor I call BULLSHIT PERIOD 🗣🤪
Sadly you continue to be the dumbass of clown bitches all 2k19 😂🤣🤦🏽♀️ 💯
Having him in my life has made everything a real life rollercoaster. But when he called me yesterday I realized he’s worth so much more to me ❤️. He brings a smile to my face just spending time with him. When he called and wanted me to get dressed and be ready for him to step out I was shocked. I’ve never been out with him late at night like I was last night. Made me feel so special and like he really loves me. Anytime I’m out with him someone always tells me how highly he speaks of me and how much he loves me. It means a lot to hear it constantly from people because from my point of view the past two years haven’t been much considering how much love and determination to make his first littl...
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I think it’s funny how people wanna constantly put their noses in grown folks business. Mfs is seriously PRESSED! Are y’all seriously this DELUSIONAL? Bitchs need to either worry about themselves and stay out shit that do not concern them OR CATCH THESE HANDS! I’m over mfs constantly trying to act like “ gods angels “ but instead are the children of satan. Get a mf life please! 🙄🤦🏽♀️ seriously the shit is getting old. GROW TF UP! Is somebody clearly don’t want u and obviously wasn’t planning to have shit with you MOVE TF AROUND AND GET A MF LIFE! 🙄✌🏽
It’s been a rough bumpy road lately for my best friend. But I’ve been doing my best to keep a positive mindset for her, reassure her and just be her biggest support where it is lacking. Even when she thinks shes the biggest screw up in the world and everything doesn’t seem to be right, I know in my heart that this may not be the path she wanted to take in life, but god never makes mistakes. He puts certain people in your life that are supposed to be there for a season just like the leaves on a tree they are there to throw shade every now and then and then they wither and die. I was meant to be a root in her life, the ones who provide the things that keep her going and never let her give up o...
Being a mom has taught me some of life’s most important lessons. When I first became a mom, I thought I had it all figured out. And for the most part, I did. I knew how to feed, bath, change, hold, burp and care for a new born baby. I had experience in taking care of babies from newborn to toddler and potty training stages. But when I had my own child not only was it easier because of all the experiences, but it was so much more than just that. I learned that nothing in the world could ever compare to the happiness of having a child of my own. I was always so cautious and trying to do my best as a mom when it came to my first born. He was born with erbs palsy. Erb's palsy is a form of brachi...
Today I’m beginning my journey that I refuse to let myself down in. It’s a clean slate, a new chapter to be made, bigger steps to be taken. It’s time I completely start to financially support me and my small family. I want to prove to myself that I can do anything as long as I’m pushing myself to do so. I want to work double jobs and double shifts if I have to. I wanna get my own space, my own furniture, my own car and my own life together. I want to be able to try to have my kids in their own home and be able to possibly become a whole family IF my bae actually takes a step and try’s to be become one with me and work together to be a better US. My first step was bringing god back into my li...
They say that as you begin to seek god and focus on the path he already has made for you, everything else will fall into place.
Happy Moments.... PRAISE GOD
Difficult Moments.... SEEK GOD
Quiet Moments.... WORSHIP GOD
Painful Moments.... TRUST GOD
Every Moment.... THANK GOD
🙏🏽 AMEN ❤️
I close my eyes and I can see
A world that's waiting up for me that I call my own
Through the dark, through the door
Through where no one's been before
But it feels like home
They can say, they can say it all sounds crazy
They can say, they can say I've lost my mind
I don't care, I don't care, if they call me crazy
We can live in a world that we design
'Cause every night, I lie in bed
The brightest colors fill my head
A million dreams are keeping me awake
I think of what the world could be
A vision of the one I see
A million dreams is all it's gonna take
Oh, a million dreams for the world we're gonna make
There's a house we can build
Every room inside is filled with things from far away
I find it amusing the many things some girls will do just to keep a man around they believe is all about them. It’s crazy how some have delusional fantasies, some will use their children against them, some will get pregnant without them knowing, some will even use their past against them etc.
I cannot even wrap my mind around the fact that these girls think they are the bomb diggity and think they love them just because they deal
With them or put up with them for these reasons. These men don’t even care about them half the time. They always have someone on the side. Always cheat. Always lie. And yet they STILL believe in their relationship🤣💀.
Let’s make this completely clear, HE👏🏽 DONT 👏...
Today is a day for love.
A day to make memories.
A day to show your spouse or significant other how much they mean to you.
Today is a day where married couples keep the spark alive, and the single people wish they could have that love.
Today is a day where the smallest gestures can make a big impact.
Today is the day that is dedicated to love and everything about it.
Happy Valentine’s Day ❤️