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It’s been a rough bumpy road lately for my best friend. But I’ve been doing my best to keep a positive mindset for her, reassure her and just be her biggest support where it is lacking. Even when she thinks shes the biggest screw up in the world and everything doesn’t seem to be right, I know in my heart that this may not be the path she wanted to take in life, but god never makes mistakes. He puts certain people in your life that are supposed to be there for a season just like the leaves on a tree they are there to throw shade every now and then and then they wither and die. I was meant to be a root in her life, the ones who provide the things that keep her going and never let her give up o...
Being a mom has taught me some of life’s most important lessons. When I first became a mom, I thought I had it all figured out. And for the most part, I did. I knew how to feed, bath, change, hold, burp and care for a new born baby. I had experience in taking care of babies from newborn to toddler and potty training stages. But when I had my own child not only was it easier because of all the experiences, but it was so much more than just that. I learned that nothing in the world could ever compare to the happiness of having a child of my own. I was always so cautious and trying to do my best as a mom when it came to my first born. He was born with erbs palsy. Erb's palsy is a form of brachi...
Today I’m beginning my journey that I refuse to let myself down in. It’s a clean slate, a new chapter to be made, bigger steps to be taken. It’s time I completely start to financially support me and my small family. I want to prove to myself that I can do anything as long as I’m pushing myself to do so. I want to work double jobs and double shifts if I have to. I wanna get my own space, my own furniture, my own car and my own life together. I want to be able to try to have my kids in their own home and be able to possibly become a whole family IF my bae actually takes a step and try’s to be become one with me and work together to be a better US. My first step was bringing god back into my li...
They say that as you begin to seek god and focus on the path he already has made for you, everything else will fall into place.
Happy Moments.... PRAISE GOD
Difficult Moments.... SEEK GOD
Quiet Moments.... WORSHIP GOD
Painful Moments.... TRUST GOD
Every Moment.... THANK GOD
🙏🏽 AMEN ❤️
I close my eyes and I can see
A world that's waiting up for me that I call my own
Through the dark, through the door
Through where no one's been before
But it feels like home
They can say, they can say it all sounds crazy
They can say, they can say I've lost my mind
I don't care, I don't care, if they call me crazy
We can live in a world that we design
'Cause every night, I lie in bed
The brightest colors fill my head
A million dreams are keeping me awake
I think of what the world could be
A vision of the one I see
A million dreams is all it's gonna take
Oh, a million dreams for the world we're gonna make
There's a house we can build
Every room inside is filled with things from far away
I find it amusing the many things some girls will do just to keep a man around they believe is all about them. It’s crazy how some have delusional fantasies, some will use their children against them, some will get pregnant without them knowing, some will even use their past against them etc.
I cannot even wrap my mind around the fact that these girls think they are the bomb diggity and think they love them just because they deal
With them or put up with them for these reasons. These men don’t even care about them half the time. They always have someone on the side. Always cheat. Always lie. And yet they STILL believe in their relationship🤣💀.
Let’s make this completely clear, HE👏🏽 DONT 👏...
Today is a day for love.
A day to make memories.
A day to show your spouse or significant other how much they mean to you.
Today is a day where married couples keep the spark alive, and the single people wish they could have that love.
Today is a day where the smallest gestures can make a big impact.
Today is the day that is dedicated to love and everything about it.
Happy Valentine’s Day ❤️
Today I tried to catch up on my missed services online. And I feel like the words that were spoken were meant for me to hear. They spoke about feelings and being able to control them and doing right by them.
One of the feelings that were spoken about was anger. A lot of people don’t know how to control them. Some act out of anger. Some keep it all to themselves. Some find ways to blow off steam. Pastor told a story about president Abraham Lincoln and says that when he would get mad he would write it all out on a letter to whomever he was mad at and would put it in his suit pocket and leave it there until he forgot about it and then he would take it out and shred it and move on.
The past few days have been a bunch of emotional rollercoasters. But as soon as I got that message I was instantly back. Knowing I can’t stay mad forever and no matter how much I try or want to I can’t Seem to make myself fully let go and forget you. Your the one who gives me butterflies when I get a call or text. All I have to see is your name and I get bubbly and smile and butterflies are just there. When I’m with you it’s like my whole life is on hold and everything just for that moment is perfect. We may not be together at the moment and we may not have our whole lives set quite yet but, who knows what the future may hold for us? God has a plan for us, we just gotta stay strong and keep ...
It is times like this when she makes me realize I have the right person as my right hand. I would never ask for more from being the support I need when I’m at my lowest, to being the one to cheer me on when I’m at my highest. She will be the one who will be there for all my future memories. The one who will probably have a picture for just about anything. Someone I can trust with my kids if anything were to happen to me.
She is my best friend. I absolutely love her with my entire heart and soul. Even though she may not love my decisions or ways of handling things, she still my backbone for it all. She loves me and I can’t imagine life without her, we got 3 more months til our 1 year BestFr...
Anytime I get a call or message, I instantly get butterflies. This time I get those feelings along with the feelings of frustration and anger. I hate that I get this way, just with the thought of you. But I’ve been down this road so much it’s like my nightmares from my past have been put on repeat minus the physical abuse.
My heart aches so badly I can’t think straight. It becomes hard to breathe and suddenly I just feel like I want to be around no one, speak to no one, do nothing. Just be alone in complete silence and shut myself out and down from everything and everyone. I recognize the pain, and it’s nothing I’m able to control anymore.
I’m back in the dark places I never wanted to re...
Today was the worst I’ve felt in forever. Woke up sicker than life. But I’m feeling better a little bit, still not 100% but I’m better than I was this morning. My baby took care of me all day and sat with me while I slept, helped my mom with his baby brother and brought me medicine and checked on me while I slept and every time he saw me up. My baby was a big help today, I’m so happy to have such a good boy who loves me and helps when we need him most ❤️🥰
So my baby brother received his soft orders and sadly he will be going over seas soon. He will be gone for a year and since everything is so different I’m hoping I will still be able to communicate with him.
My brother is a us army soldier and I’m so very proud of him. He has always done such a great job to push himself and do great things. He’s always been an honor student and has had high goals for himself and managed to meet them.
I pray nothing but blessings come his way, may god keep his hands over him as he goes on this next chapter of his life right after his graduation for ait. I love you baby brother! Thank you for being a great role model for both your nephews and for serving ...
I hate having to start from scratch with someone, but I’m happy it gives me the chance to have the person whose meant to be mine. The person who I will be able to talk to, bother, laugh, cry, argue and make up and just be complete with.
I’ve always told myself I wouldn’t have anymore children or do anything drastic until I’m married to the man who can be the perfect husband I need. Although that hasn’t quite worked because obviously god has other plans, I’m hoping to keep it that way this time.
I want to be best friends, go out, have fun, do things as a couple and just enjoys life, marry then have one more baby.
I want to start my career and work together to build together and grow tog...
I hate feeling like I can’t control my depression. I hate that it’s gotten so bad sometimes I just wanna break down and scream and cry for hours on end and not care about anything or anyone. Why do I keep feeling this way? Why can’t I just be happy. It’s like my day starts off great and ends shitty.
Can’t I be blessed with smooth days... I miss the days I used to work all day til night and come home to my son in our own apartment and just be alone... I hate it but I really need to be. I can’t be stuck around mfs that are so unappreciative and constantly running their mouth toward me.
Hopefully things start to go smoother. Time heals everything. I need to work on myself a little more. Emot...
It’s sad how a person can talk down on a person who has ALWAYS done things on their own without the help of others money. They say oh I do this on my own, oh I work, oh I provide for mine. BUT they are always having the income of someone who shouldn’t be providing anything for them. 🤔 imagine if that extra “HELP” was going to the person/people it’s supposed to. Imagine if you had to really bust your ass to make ends meet because you don’t have the support you should have. Your live in your own place because you have help not because you did it all by yourself. Your not drowning because your not only relying on the money you make. Don’t ever judge a book by its cover because You don’t know oth...
I feel like I let people in too easily. I allow people to sweet talk me into things. Other times I feel like some people have taken so much advantage of me that they ruin it for others who may wanna be right for me.
I hope god knows what he’s doing, lately I just haven’t been able to figure out why he’s put me through so much hurt and confusion with my love life. My kids and myself deserve so much better. But how will I know if every time I’m happy he takes it away from me.
Just little things I question myself with at night 😔
I literally just want to break down and cry. Everybody is just completely fuckin me over one by fuckin one. Now all of a sudden because she has apts and agreed to help watch my boys don’t want to and wants me not only to find a baby sitter because it’s “risking her life” but I gotta find my own way to work because apparently the car ain’t mine and she had to got on the bus with her kids to take them to day care and go to work smfh. Why does everybody hate me. Why must I be put through these dumb ass situations. Why can’t I be one of the lucky ones who were blessed with money and can get their own cars, apts/homes, pay bills etc... I feel like no matter how much I help I apparently am told I d...
Right now my life is a mess, my life feels like it’s falling apart while trying to fix itself. Almost like when you try to re stick tape on something but it’s no longer sticky and keeps coming off. I know that right now my perfect life is completely torn apart. But I need to keep pushing. I need to keep reminding myself that things happen for a reason. God knows what he’s doing. I would never have anything I can’t handle put on my plate. But it’s one of the hardest things I’m encountering and this time trying to push everything negative away from me because it’s just causing more hurt than anything. If I could fix it to perfection and be at my happiest like everything once was I would. But th...
I cannot begin to explain the hurt I’m feeling. How can things that are in the past and honestly should not matter ruin everything that was perfect in my life. How do I constantly find myself in all the negativity and drama. Why am I always trying to be torn down and talked down upon. How can’t one person hurt me to where I feel I’m literally at the bottom again. I feel like I post something irreplaceable. I have been hurt so much it’s killing me. All I want is to be happy. I want my life to come together already. I’m sick of feeling like this incomplete puzzle that’s never going to be finished because the last piece is lost. But still. The scar in my heart constantly feels fresh, because it’...
I began my year with a fresh start. A clean slate in every possible way.
I promised myself I wouldn’t allow anyone to bring me any negative vibes. Problems. Drama.
I refuse to have yet another year of heartache, frustration and negativity.
This time I ended my year promising myself to god. Because through him anything and EVERYTHING is possible.
I began my year praying and believing in him. Because he is worthy of my love and he has the power to help guide me through life’s biggest moments.
The past couple weeks I’ve been doing job applications praying I would get a call and get an interview and somehow land a job.
Mind you with the bad decisions I made in my past my background m...
The worst part about being a mom is having your babies sick 😩 I hate having my poor babies this sick it breaks my heart. Hopefully my lil mans don’t have rsv and I don’t have to stay in a hospital with him. Tummy still isn’t good for heavy foods so nursing it is for my baby boy. It’s gunna be a long day. Good Mornjng ❤️
When we are able to sit and talk calmly and just communicate without interrupting or getting loud I love it.
I may not be perfect or be easy to handle, but I can promise I can be everything you need.
I understand I’m not that person u may want anymore and I understand I’m not exactly who you want to be with, but I wish you would give me the chance to be the women I know you need.
Yes I may be in a rough spot, but I’m trying to get myself back up on my feet. Trust when I say that I’ve made some decisions lately that will effect everyone in one way or another.
I’ve decided to make god the center of my life, I need him and want him to help guide me through these chapters in my life as well...
When I lay my head down to rest, all I seem to think about is you.
I think of all the things I miss from when we were happily together.
I miss your kisses
I miss your hugs
I miss our shower dates
I miss when you would just lay with me and watch tv
I miss just being able to sit and talk about everything
I miss when you would get up for work and kiss me and say I love u before you left
I miss cuddling at night
I miss being able to be your back bone when you need me
I miss play fighting with you
I miss the sound of your voice when you would call just to check on me
Most of all I just miss being with you and having u around.
I love u so much and hate how things are right now.
I’m sorry for the lies.
I’m sorry for breaking the good we had.
I’m sorry for not being that one person that can be your all.
I’m sorry for making you mad.
I’m sorry for all the excuses.
I’m sorry for being imperfect.
I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused.
I’m sorry for ruining my life.
I know your never gunna forgive me this time.
And I’m sorry things ended the way they did.
But know that I love u and cherish the memories.
Because without you I feel like I have to go back in time...
I love you forever and always.
I’m sorry.... 😔