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United States
⭐️ I ardently hope to inspire, help, or learn how to create the world I want to live in. YouTube Tiffany H. Lewis — NPO ♥️ www.pensforpals.org⭐ ~Tiff
August 22, 2019
 

The sound of silence is the most beautiful thing.
Take comfort, silent Solice,
We’re in the field of energy.
Synergy. United. Synchronicity.
Come into nature with me
Let’s dance to the sound of the trees
Swaying as wind tussles our hair
Let imagination fill the spaces of air
All night long in our bare feet.
We’ll dance until we fall...
A wonderland of creativity.

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SUNSET LOVE
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August 22, 2019
 

What is left to say?
I have no words,
You left, I’m here,
Tormented in the in between.
Are you in pain? A better place?
My tears never end. I’m drained.

I can’t make the world be still.  
I can’t stop time, tick-tock, blame
I can’t move at all, have no free will

You think you had the right to do this to me?
You precisely planned your suicide
Giving me no time to try & save you
I held your hands everyday.
Loving you wasn’t enough
You knew how much it would kill me.
You knew that this would take away any semblance of the person I used to be. Now a hostage.

I never thought of suicide as selfish
Until I met you; when I understood that you actually held the power,
To take away my ri...

SUPPORT AND SAVE US!
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June 24, 2019
 

Love On A Random Everyday:

I met a man one day
I do not recall even asking him his name.
He approached me angrily, as I was parking
On the shoulder of a bust street.
He began to yell and curse obscenities at me, through my window, so I pulled over hastily.
I couldn’t understand why.
What did I do?
I literally just arrived, not even fully parked yet he is screaming at in the middle of the street on an otherwise empty day.
I don’t even know if I was in a parking space.
But, I rolled my window down,
While he yelled at me more,
He called me racist
But color I can’t even see.
I got out of my car finally,
Chasing him as he tried to run down the streets. I was yelling “HEY”!
Traffic se...

RECOLLECTION
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June 23, 2019
 

Part 2:

They come to me,
Late at night
I invite them in to stay.
Then they tell me thier story
And I send you the message one day.

Your reaction; priceless.
Funny every time.
How’s it feel to not expect
An energy thats connecting
You from literally the grave?
I know what you did,
And every word they said,
Until thier very last breath.
You can’t quiet them.

QUOTE ME
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June 23, 2019
 

Part 1

Magical
Whimsical
Unbundling Hell
You think you have us under
Your hand and spell
Like no one would ever tell.

Ha! I say to you,
I have always been the voice,
Voice for the voiceless,
Especially from the grave.

Haunting isn’t it?
Eerie it must feel.
I hope your skin is crawling
As I begin to reveal
What you’ve concealed

I’m that cold breeze you feel.
Hear that? Sit still.
That’s the calling from the grave.
You thought you had buried me
Quietly walking away.
My voice was screaming
Nothing goes away.

ANGEL OF DARKNESS
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June 10, 2019
 

Teardrops won’t fall
You won’t listen to me at all
You won’t even talk.
They won’t even get to glisten
Because you refuse to let them fall
Emotions so raw
You can’t even run
It doesn’t mean you’re weak
It only what’s makes you human,
Why do you push it down,
Why won’t you let me in?
Why do you keep building a brick wall?
It is the thing that stands between
All that was, what is, why wrong?
What’s coming next-
It’s gonna be hard.
You won’t let me in

You’re falling apart.
In so many ways
I wish I could help
But you push me away.

You’re blocking me from you
And pushing me away too
What we have to do now,
Is all that left to do.
Broken, and shattered, trust
Is not all that m...

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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June 4, 2019
 

6:20 am why can’t I sleep?
Days and nights collide
An ongoing mystery.

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AT THE END
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May 15, 2019
 

It feels like forever,
Since I could just breathe
Without being suffocated
Shattered or free.
I take on the baggage
It was cast upon me
But what do I know
If that’s all that’s been taught to me?
I look back now,
To the time I wrote that..
I was thirteen.
Standing tall now
I am 40  
Not hiding at all
Never looking back
At the scared little girl
You loved to attack.
You wanted me weak.
I fought ferociously,
Not for you, and only for me.
Day after day...
I did that. I created me!
I am a product of all of the Things...
Things that were not given,
And all that had been taken,
Ripped into, deprived of,
Or thrusted deep into me.
The person that you see today
The one you took fo...

MADE WITH LOVE
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May 14, 2019
 

What are you up to?
How are you feeling?
Why are you staring at the ceiling?  

Does anyone care at all
About our well-being?
Post whats on your mind,
They’ll say..
Post every move,
Every single day.

I imagined when I looked around, only 29 from now,
As a child
Awaiting a future,
Awaiting to partake
The future that was to be found.

In the years ahead,
that we’d all be in the future, and
Technically we could be-
Or could we
Be living in space?
Or stuck in the in between?
Of what we thought was happening versus
What we are today?
We haven’t learned much, have we?
As a human race.

Promises left broken,
People are fake.
What we have is time,
Loyalty, hope, and faith.

Maybe ...

MADE WITH LOVE
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May 7, 2019
 

I was your lantern,
And you, were my guiding light.
It Burns and burns
But it never is not bright,
And even heavy at times,
But will never leave my side.

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FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 5, 2019
 

I feel like I’m drowning
I feel like I’m  slipping
Oh,
Be still my heart,
A whisper said.
Don’t take my last breath,
That’s all I have left.
A giver, an old soul,
Never asked for a penny,
Or anything in return.

I’m just to save as many as I can,
Trying to create a world
In which I would want to live.

She whispers one last time,
Don’t take my fire away,
For,
I am an old soul
with so much more to learn,  
And so much less to say.

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MAKE YOUR MARK
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May 1, 2019
 

Touch through my hands, and you will feel.
Listen to my heart and you will hear.
Look into my heart and you will see,
That you and I are the ones
That make each other complete:
By forces unseen.

You are my everything
Please don’t ever leave me

Yours always,
Love,
~ me

PEACE
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April 30, 2019
 

I feel I’m detaching,
My body’s reacting.
My soul being pushed from
The inside of me.
I can see it literally.

Ripping fibers and cells,
Molecules, and chambers,
My body becomes my hell,
My body becomes a stranger.

I feel further away now,
Blinded,  bare naked, and
Struck with no sound.
I am allowed one vision;
Remind me to stop looking down.  

I lay upon a steel table, so cold
This tired body is too old,
And so is this soul.

They work so hard
Trying to get me to breathe.
I can’t seem to reattach; wake up
It’s time to break free!

I attempted to scream
But no one heard me
This is every dream.
I can feel everything.
This passage, this journey,
Is stronger than 16 centu...

BHAVYA SINHA
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April 30, 2019
 

Here comes the storm.
It’s moving closer now.
Thunder drowns,
It drowns out the sounds,
I whimper, heart racing,
While the tears fall on my cheeks.

Heavy tears that feel like the
Sound of the rain
On a rusted tin roof
I immerse myself,
Completely in you.

Am I drowning? Waking? Sifting? All over the ground.
Am I the way down?

Through my breaking heart,
The tears are speaking in rain.
It’s the only language
That understands me,
Like I understand pain.

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SHYANNE
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April 30, 2019
 

You turn your cheek,
I’m trying to breathe.

Cumbersome; silence
Protects me like lightning.

Break me!
Break me to the sound,
Of the rumbling melody.
Weakened, numbed, abound.

My days are haunted;
My evenings become one.

Welcome to my journey

My heart pounding,
like the beating of a drum.
I’m pacing, still trying to breathe
Like I’m chasing what little is left of me.

This is my journey
Beat after beat.

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CREATIVE WRITING
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April 5, 2019
 

Green:

The smell of a crisp, fresh bright green colored apple
Picked straight from a tree
Standing on your tippy toes
You quickly grasp or catch it,
In the palm of your hand,
About the size of a beet.

It may be the most lone,
Wild, captured wholeness.
Sacred, full of spirit.
It’s seems to come alive
The more I describe it.
The more it seems to grow.

Is it a crayon? A land?
Air freshener,
Forests or grass?
Is it an apple? Is it Kale?
What about a Granny Smith pie?
Or is it the crisp
That when inhaled
Our senses create a formula
For the color itself?
Does it shape shift?
Does it take practice?

Ahhh... the ripest,
The deepest,
Most perfect crunch.

Sometimes we feel f...

THE SUN WILL SHINE
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March 29, 2019
 

In the sweetest tone,
The words emerged-
“I wear my heart on my sleeve”,
She laughed softly,
Two souls were merged.

Both have had thier wings broken, plucked, stretched and shattered;
Both without a sound
Only flight matters.

Hurt? Well, yes.
Afraid? Not a chance!
Time to mend our wings;
Tape them back together
Glue them to the night!
We begin to fly,
we soar, we rise,
So gallant; the freedom.

Only the air between them.
Never looking down,
She speaks
“This is not a dream”-
It’s our personally victory;
Now fight!

Break the chains, rip them apart
Every mystery and memory
Synchronized and solved.

So....
Break free, cut all of the chains
Destroy the cycle -
Don’t wast...

HOPE BATEMAN
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March 21, 2019
 

Finish me please:

It’s pouring freshly ground salt
onto my bleeding parts
like a drum, opened, exposed, once attached soul.

Mix it with rubbing alcohol-
It burns,  
My stomach twists and turns.

It’s so dark, It’s so loud,
The trail so profound.

Daggers and knives
Couldn’t pierce this
Not even to death
Not even to life.

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WAKE UP AND WRITE
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March 15, 2019
 

Loss of a loved one
Losing my mind
The tragedy unfolds
I want to scratch out my eyes
I hate pain...
I forsake every
Unfortunate, sunken silhouette of all the difficult times,
Especially today,
when you died.

3/14/19 RIP Spenser

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HEARTBREAK
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March 11, 2019
 

Oh yes, I will say
All the things that you won’t,
All the things you wish you could,
And the things that you don’t.

It may even sound like screaming
Sweet sounds of my inner demons.

That may frighten you
But it truly pleasures me.

Read any of my poems
And you too shall see.
Never disappointing,
This is my story,
Unraveling piece by piece.

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LION
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March 11, 2019
 

Can you feel the air?
Do you feel that shift?
It’s presence is strong, thick.
It’s heavily armed,

Like it or not....
You asked for this
Can’t push it away?
Why are you alarmed?
You asked for this.
Your doubts, chances and fighting, evading
trying desperately to hang on,
To that shell of a life
That is long gone. Changed.
Let go now. You must.

It’s warm, like a fever
it sinks in deeper; almost aches.
Until your soul meets
transformation.
I love the pain.

Always searching and seeking answers, and conclusions,
asking so many questions.
You wanted to know!
So,
Let us in,
We’re knocking.
Welcome to enlightened
Home of where
Nightmares age made
And fear begins.

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CHIRAYU
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March 8, 2019
 

Lucky for you,
I want you to;
Do all of the things
That not one has done...
Will you?

What’s left to lose?
I ask?!
What’s one more time?
I had to choose,
And now I do.

You are
Loyally, honestly,
With
Time and modestly
Sweeping me away,
But from under my soles!

Not by murdering what’s left of my tortured soul
Or twist what is true

Lucky for you, sir,
Lucky for you
I still have hope too.

IMPOSSIBLE.. I THINK NOT.
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March 8, 2019
 

She said now,
With a smile
It’s been a while
Since the fire inside of me burned
With anything other than hurt.
He said, hang on dear
Trust me, I’ll be here
She’s heard that one before
It’s going to take more than words.

They say you only live once
But that just is not true
You only die once
You live everyday
The how is up to you.

I choose kindness
No matter with whom.

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HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY
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February 27, 2019
 

The things I know
The things I can’t un-see  
In other realms
I speak loudly of the matrix
Everyone seems to dismiss.
They are blind and so are you
Things you’ll never understand
Until you let me through
Trust me to guide you?
Will it ever get better?
I silently laugh

Like watching myself
40 years later
When my mother said one day
You’ll have a child just like you
I said that would be great!
Radient with light
I held on to the fight
I was cursed with
For 18 years
For you to come home and finally be mine.

You are hot, you are cold
You are perfectly untold.
The way you make me
Shake my head
Forcing me to approve
Of all of your lies, your tales
That you believe are true!...

ANGEL OF DREAMS
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February 27, 2019
 

Does it ever calm down
Tell me,
Will you ever accept the truth?
Or will you keep on fighting
The deception showed to you?
Maybe it’s your personal
Choice
In that case,
I can’t wait until you see what I see
That’s what it took for me to find
My place
In this world and my voice
and even my inner strength.  
It’s our kaleidoscope!

KALEIDOSCOPE
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February 27, 2019
 

Only god or whomever
knows the reason why
You make me angry
You drive me insane,
With your selfish mind.
Oh the millennials
You think you know it all
You think you’re an adult
But you don’t understand that adults fall!
All the time in fact!
It makes me laugh.
It’s unforgettable.
Trust me or don’t,
Try to bribe me,
Maybe blame me?
I still sit here with hop.
That one day you will know.
Stop rocking the boat!

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DARK NIGHT
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February 27, 2019
 

After 25 years,
one random solemn day
you never talked to me again
My tears were on display?
What did u do?
What did I say?
Where do I even begin?!
These questions will always remain.
They will also always replay
In my mind every day.
This pain is tearing me apart
It’s shriveling and swallowing
Every ounce of my heart.
It’s turning my soul into
a deep empty dark.
It’s cold, so cold
But I cannot fold.
Someone told me you
We’re back on drugs
And while that makes some sense
It isn’t your defense!

Why won’t you answer me,
Why won’t you call?
What was I to you
After all?
Lies, lies, and more lies
Is all I know to be true
About you and I, and most
Certainly about you.
You...

READ A LOT WRITE A LOT
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February 27, 2019
 

You try to convince me
That you have special powers
Well so do I
Not that it matters
I’m silent
You scream
I find it hilariously
Hard to believe
How much you deceive
God you piss me off
No need to hurt me.  
And I still find it wild
Funny, and uncomfortable
What you consider mild.
No longer will I support this
No more I will support you
You go your way
Blame me
And say they we’re through
But tell the world the truth
Stop hiding
Stop staring at me
Because you know that
I have proof.

MAKE YOUR MARK
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February 27, 2019
 

It’s like a freestyle
Thoughts come through
I lay them flat for you.
Why can’t you just let me be?
I can take care of me!
Let me go
Keeping me stuck
Let me go now
This really sucks!
Let me go now
Or I’ll abandon you
I gave you a chance
To let me go too.
You refused.
Ghosted. Ignored.
That’s something
I am healing from to.
Healing from time
Healing from you
But so long as you don’t
contact me
Then I can get over you.
If not then let me go!

MAKE YOUR MARK
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February 24, 2019
 

The weight that I carry, to inspire you all is heavy,
very heavy;
But to my knees I will not fall.
I will carry this load no matter how hard.
I will not quit,
I will not give anything away,
other than my all!

So, yes I am angry
and yes I am patient
and yes my thoughts race
and God knows I hate it!
But that’s how it tastes,
to carry this weight.
It is not in my head
It runs straight through my veins.
Straight through my heart
A gunshot in the dark-
nothing remains,
nothing can be torn apart!
And still,
she said,
there is nothing more from me
that anyone can take.
Not even after I am gone
Not even when I’m dead.
My words will remain!
... and I,
I call that sane.

AGAINST ALL ODDS
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