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August 6, 2017
 

Saving 'Hope'

Saving hope requires an enormous amount of courage to not go back to what has become comfortable and reassuring. In the beginning, clarity and enthusiasm creates the sought-out path. Day after day, life appears slightly different until it becomes the new norm when the expected new results seem to take forever.

Without a clear sign of progress, it feels like nothing is happening. It is important to remember the 'why'. Depending on how we look at things, we might be easily swayed by what surrounds us. No two journeys are alike. Each is specifically customized and therefore any comparison to those of others can pull you back to where you do not want to be.

At precisely th...

UNCERTAINTY
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July 27, 2017
 

People collect memories and outside of the precious thoughts we keep, we treasure photographs, letters and other things sometimes forever. I used to have sentimental value of things given to me and I do not know if it's superstition that keeps them safe where I store them. They take up space wherever they are and I sometimes need that space for newer things. I don't like to keep things I don't need anymore but somehow I keep these mementos of happier days and painful times justified by a need to remind myself of what I've been through. Funny how keeping them means something when I have left them untouched in what seems like lifetimes ago. Is it the knowledge that these things are within arm's...

KNOW THY SELF
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July 27, 2017
 

Disappointments and I go way back. At that time I didn't have a name for it. When I was young, I thought everyone's life was the same. I didn't have the slightest clue that my life was far "better" than of those who surrounded me. Because I had everything I needed and had no idea I could possibly need more, I had no disappointments. Ignorance is bliss. I was raised to be grateful for everything... period. There was no wiggle room for personal desires, the necessity to want more or other than what was given to me. I was terribly sheltered. If I didn't have something that others had, there was a reason for it and I had no need to find out why or was taught to not find out why... or simply know ...

ONE VOICE DAY
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July 23, 2017
 

Stand firm and do not allow yourself to bully you with negative thoughts. Fight for your life.

DO NOT FEAR YOUR FEARS
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July 23, 2017
 

I am not a patient person. Growing up sheltered has made a large contribution to that dilemma. I certainly never had to wait and my world spun filled with magic. There was magic to getting things I wanted, needed or getting things done. At a drop of a hat, time and time again it was proven to me. Life was certainly good. Some people call that 'spoiled'. I beg to differ.

Young, curious and suspicious I paid a lot of attention. I learned that there was a price for everything. My needs were not material things. Those were given to me before I wanted them. Freedom to do what a normal child usually gets I could never have. My so-called privileged life subjected me to a full schedule of mandator...

CAR TRIP
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July 21, 2017
 

I strongly believe that we are born complete and have the capacity to love, forgive, learn and reach our highest potential. Throughout life we are exposed to what surrounds us and we slowly change. We evolve, as intended. Some of us have that awareness of who we are at a very young age but it dissipates in the journey. It seems like we've lost it but it's simply pushed aside as we learn things. We are influenced greatly time after time by those we are born to, those we love, dislike, hate and hope to meet. Everything under the sun has an influence on us. There will be a moment in our lives when our true selves beg to resurface then we have an inkling that we are not who we think we are today....

KNOW THY SELF
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July 18, 2017
 

On my way to nowhere...

Habit has me getting up at 3:30 in the morning mostly seconds before the alarm sounds off. I did not take the time to look at the room I was in. It was no longer an unimaginable thought that I'm here. I have embraced the fact that I was willing to change to see a different outcome. Having no power to control anything other than my own thoughts and actions I remain grounded. I have no delusions that cloud my judgement. Years and years of unnecessary hurt inflicted on me resulted in hate and pride. How heavy the burden was that I carried needlessly. I let that go.

The silence, reassuring... I walked around knowing I'm the only person awake. Purposefully I keep tell...

THINK FOR YOURSELF
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July 17, 2017
 

On my way to nowhere...

Freedom from the daily grind is often inviting. Taking a vacation is an escape... our society conditions our minds. Vacations seemingly promise a change of pace, relaxation, good times. I saw a shirt hanging from a store window that most people describe my lifestyle - I'm Always On Vacation. I make no effort to change their thought. I once explained myself when I was a rookie decades ago. It was pointless talking to people who already made up their minds. Amused, I was tempted to buy it.

Just as scheduled I received a text. I was on my way to lunch somewhere, undecided. Not fazed by indecision I put on a stylish distressed pair of capris and a flimsy Wonder Woma...

KNOW THY SELF
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July 15, 2017
 

On my way to nowhere...

Day two started with an unfamiliar refrigerator hum. Who would have thought that I would be able to tell the difference from the one I have at home and this. Like people, refrigerators may  look exactly alike but a subtle identifying difference will scream "I'm different!" Looking around with one eye half-open and the other defiantly uncooperative, I remembered where I was. So far, it was the coolness of the room that reassured me I left home, I did not change my mind. I am stubborn in ways that only justify how well I know myself and I was definitely not in my comfort zone. I have taken a leap of faith to a seemingly pleasant war zone. There's something surreal abo...

CHANGE IS GOOD
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July 14, 2017
 

My worst realization is fighting for someone who will not fight for me. I hope my pain is worth a thousand times over of joy for someone else.

HANDS OVER EYES
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July 11, 2017
 

On my way to nowhere...

I think about the faint sound of the alarm when it woke me. It was barely a buzz and could easily be mistaken for the random sounds I hear surrounding me. I can't say that it could be compared to a light tap on the shoulder when someone finds you've dozed off sitting in a waiting room. It was definitely a soft whisper so close to the ear of someone saying something inaudible that makes you wonder if it was part of a fading dream. Nonetheless the feeble tone demanded my attention.

I woke up with frightening anticipation that I  am going somewhere on a whim. Some things were packed the night before because I felt the need to have them and others, because I needed ...

CHANGE IS GOOD
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July 6, 2017
 

It's always something...

Starting over is never convenient but knowing what I now know and going through the similar changes over the years I thought this life has been an easy transition. From this to that with a better attitude armed with hope and enthusiasm I move forward dealing with the changes. Making note of the differences and sameness I step back to reflect on these things. Why so easy? Could this possibly be just the way it is? Good for me! Life has finally decided to be kinder. I'm thankful.

Out and about seemingly not affected by what's strangely new, I encounter the bumps and snags. I'm tougher now. I'm better at patching up the cuts and nicks. The newness of a smooth transiti...

CELEBRATING FREEDOM
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July 1, 2017
 

It is true what some people say...

When you train your mind to be grateful for everything your heart is open to see the lessons and blessings. Amidst chaos, this profound thought when always with you will pull you away from the negative and help you rise above. Gratitude opens doors for more good things to come to you. Don't be afraid. Be thankful for everything...

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DON'T BE AFRAID
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June 22, 2017
 

When your soul is simply waiting for your body to get with the program every 4 in the morning, I have to say I am many many steps ahead. My whole being has come to realize this buddy system works. Knowing myself enough from having the difficult conversations with myself has brought me here. There is no shade of gray. Everything is in full color. Gone are the endless days of "what now", "I don't know", "not so sure" and "not today." Life is so much simpler. The skies are always blue even when it's raining cats and dogs. Not to say that no new questions come up. There's always something I may not know... but the answers are not hard to find. The challenges are what keeps life interesting. Mind,...

MOVE ALONG
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June 11, 2017
Cleveland, United States

Dear Lady Lettrist,
        I'm going through a period of growth. Changes are challenging, aren't they? Oh but so necessary! With change, I can't help but to think of the symbolism in the life of a butterfly. Without anything but survival instincts, and that which God has given it, every caterpillar lives , bound within limitations of distance and elevation. When then, life seems so hard, almost too possible, God's preplanned Beautiful invites this creature to embrace itself with protection, love, shelter, and rest. I can only imagine how exhausted these little creatures must be by the time in their life when they are meant to create their chrysalis!! They made it. Trials and Victories, hang ...

BALLPOINT PEN DAY
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June 8, 2017
 

On Friday nights, little kids participate in my class. This class allows you to push and pull only but the kids have trouble differentiating a push from a strike.

It's a challenge to partner up with a little child. When they are 5 and 6 years old they're three feet tall and everyone has to adapt. I have to stand lower in my stance even if it kills my knees and I am likely getting pushed in my gut which is normally their chest level. As short as I am they are unable to reach my shoulders without disconnecting. We have to stay connected at all times. They have small hands and tend to grip with their fingernails digging in my skin. Self-control is something that takes a long time to learn.
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FRESH PRINCE OF BEL-AIR
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May 12, 2017
 

The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost.
-G.K. Chesterton

INK DROP
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May 18, 2017
 

The one thing about me that people might not know is how protective I am. As dismissive as I can be to a lot of things, my family is excluded from that. My children are my world. If I get a whiff of danger to them, no matter how small, my fangs will drop visibly and I'm prepared to kill. I will not stop until the threat is gone. I will feast on the threat's torn flesh and drink his blood. I will pick my teeth with the bones left behind. If there's a soul to devour that too will be gone. I pray that you are not a threat to my children. I will hurt any threat with no remorse.

WRITE ME SOME LETTRS
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May 18, 2017
 

Just thinking...

I can't force people to respect me. I've learned that it's not a reflection of me and I snapped out of self-doubt. Respect cannot be forced but I can certainly REFUSE to be disrespected.

NEON WILDERNESS
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May 13, 2017
 

Life reminds me when I become complacent. I recently had a stimulating adult conversation with a stranger. Wise, he seemed until his self-help-books-learned knowledge contradicted his actions. The words flowed. I almost wanted to pay him for giving me a recap of what I've read years and years ago. When he saw how absorbed I was in his wisdom he carried on like he was Tony Robbins. Maybe he thought he was Zig Ziglar or Napoleon Hill. I was eventually distracted and his repertoire of wise words was nothing but white noise. He had an audience. The authenticity of his intentions flew out the window. He was just bragging now. A swift kick in the groin would have awakened him from the self-hypnosis...

LIVE AND LEARN
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April 24, 2017
 

Dear Lady Lettrist, thank you for the comment you left on my letter ☺️ it made me smile

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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May 6, 2017
 

If nobody seems to love you the way you need to be loved... love yourself harder than anybody you know has ever loved you. The day will come that you won't have that need... knowing you love yourself enough will sustain you.
                       - lady lettrist

ONE SOUL
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May 4, 2017
 

My Dearest Jennifer,

Today I celebrate with you one of the happiest days of my life. Words are not enough to explain how I feel. You have grown much too fast and too soon but you've left me with memories that seem like they were made only yesterday. If only you could see yourself through my eyes you will see the true meaning of awe, inspiration and pride. You are so loved beyond words that I will keep trying to show you all the love I know to give until the end of my days.

Happy Birthday, Chickie! I love you!

There is no mountain too high to climb. Show the world what you're made of and know that I'm always there keeping an eye on anyone who will try to stop you... I'm prepared to shoot a...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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May 3, 2017
 

Mother... Ma... they are words that make your heart warm. We always look forward to seeing, meeting, chatting, trusting our secrets, and what not, to our mothers.
My mother is a woman of immense patience. I have seen her remain composed in the midst of chaos. She can see through people's tricks and guide us accordingly. She has taught me not to lose my cool but to make my point unambiguous. Though age has taken its toll on her, she still remains the silent spirited woman who is always ready to help me with the little strength she is left with. My gratitude cannot be expressed in words.
I love you Ma... thanks for grooming me into a strong woman.

Mou...

MAY PHOTO MONTH
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April 30, 2017
 

It's almost Mother's Day! Children look forward to this day to treat their moms for the mother that they have been to them. Each family is different in their ways. Some are extravagant and go all out while others quietly celebrate. Some significant others honor the mothers  they know or share their lives with. Some solemnly think of the mothers they wish they had or those no longer with them and are missed.

I'm looking forward to see the movie Snatched, a comedy with Amy Schumer and Goldie Hawn. This should be fun!

Think about your mother for a moment. WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING YOUR MOM HAS TAUGHT YOU? Write an open letter and tag it 'movies' and 'mom'.

Happy Writing!

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QUEEN OF THE HOUSE
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April 30, 2017
 

Looking for a good book to read? I stumbled upon PLEASE LOOK AFTER MOM by Kyung-Sook Shin. When I saw this title again, my heart stopped. I do not remember the story but I was suddenly hit by an overwhelming urge to cry in the middle of the musty library. I choked slightly and wondered why I felt this way. I have no recollection of this book at all but I found the audiobook in my personal library. This means I have the print somewhere in the boxes I never unpacked since I moved. Apprehensive that it struck me so powerfully before that I put the thought of it away, I'm compelled to revisit the pages.

Because Mother's Day is around the corner, the wheels are turning...

Food for thought:
"Lif...

SHOW LOVE
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