CALORIES

   I don't know if it was gravity or the weight of your words weighing down the spoon on my plate, making it impossible      for me to lift it up. The intoxicating fragrance of all your vile words felt like a knot in my stomach making me want to puke. Somehow the only thing i remember being on the plate was a bowl full of 500 calories with a side of 230 calories....

Pari

               The Wrinkles

      Maybe it was the way your eyes            wrinkled at the corner
                  every time you smiled
that made me fall in love
                    with you even more
It reminded me of that moment
               when my hands ran along
the length of its surface
       and the smell of a new pages
Of the "happily ever after" hit my nose.

Pari

                      SUPERHEROES

      Not all superheroes wear capes

    Some are dressed in their pyjamas

      With a cup of coffee in one hand

              And a pen in another...

PARI

          I Carved Myself

          To halt your steps
       On that cold winter night
      I decided to carve myself
To fit in the Caracas that pleased your eye
           Drop by drop
          Flesh by flesh
I scrapped off all the parts you labelled
           Fat and ugly
         Weak and blubbery
Until it was just a pile of blood nd flesh
     Only for you to turn around
  To point out the tiny scrape i left...

Pari
   

   
                  My Denouement
     I can still  feel the weight of your words                         
                    Lingering in the air
           settling in the pit of my stomach
                      hefty and ruinous
               coursing though my veins
          wrecking everything in its wake,
                          Like your name
          that just leaves a bitter aftertaste...

PARI

            Reincarnation
   
   It only took the sound of her heels
     Tick- tocking against the floor
         Firm and confident
     To silence the buzz in the air
  With her Chanel wafting through the
    air, intoxicating and addicting
Numbing the senses of the one's talking
      A reincarnation of Satan
   A Skirt in a room full of suits...

Pari

       MY SAVING GRACE

   I can still hear that sizzle melody  
    When you tried tracing the path
        That i once travelled
        Burnt and poignant
     With ash covered footprints
       Of the faces and places
          i left in my wake
       for i was HELL FIRE
               and
       YOU my Saving Grace ..

PARI

                      Dear Daughter

I remember the way your tiny hand wrapped around my finger felt Like, so warm and tiny. Wrapped in a soft pink blanket, beautiful and fragile. I fell in love with the way you blinked your big blue eyes at me and wrapped your other hand around my pinkie as if asking me to promise You, to keep you safe.
Days after days I watched you grow more beautiful and mischievous. From trying to stand up on wobbly legs and run to me. I remember that smile on my face when you ran into my arms with your first ever walk. That warmth that spread through my chest, melted that stone cold heart and made it thump loudly.
Now as i place your hand into his, don't mind the tears ...

                    The Shooting Star

          He being the hopeless romantic,
             Fell in love with the way,
                  She tried to reason
          With him, the real cause behind
             The shooting stars, instead
               Of wishing upon them...

Pari

           The Crevices

   I blame all the men that told me
    "I was worth so much more"
   "That I deserved so much better"
      for the way the crevices
      that run down my skin
   from the path that was once traced
            by them.
     The one's that are too good
      to be claimed by anyone...

Pari

                      Catchlight

              I think i figured out
            what it was about you
        that was so darn alluring.
                It was your eyes.
      The catchlight in your eyes
     reminded me of that full moon
                shining bright
         with the wolves howling
as the alpha and the Luna became one.

Pari

                       The Voids

I knew it long before you did, that you were in denial. The way your hands trembled when i laced mine with yours told me how much bigger the voids were that she'd left behind.

Pari

                     The First Time

Oh how i wish i could tell you what the swirls of the  black n blue on the canvas meant. It was the only thing I remember that covered your skin when I first saw you....

Pari

                        12:13 am

I've always heard of the 11:11 wishes                        coming   true.    But it was 12:13 when i       knew I had found something i never             even wished for.
                                YOU....

Pari

                           Remnants

I'd love to watch the remnants of all that was once covering my skin turn into ash when your hand makes it way down...

Pari

              Maybe

While gazing at the person standing in the mirror. I couldn't help but think of what it was that repelled you so much that you couldn't bear to tell me the stories that the moon heard when you mumbled at night?. Was it my scars that reminded you of your own?.
Maybe it was the way i swayed when the storm came that you thought that maybe I wasn't steady enough to build a home around.
Maybe i reminded you too much of the one that left your heart aching in the middle of the night. Maybe just maybe...

Pari

There's a way I'd like to place my arms around you. Like the darkness that holds the stars together. Protecting them against the light that's too blinding.

Pari

              Hades and Persephone

This tale is about the one who ruled the      underworld with a halo of the fire burning brighter than any pyre with eyes that resembled  the depths of an   abyss.

This tale is about the most beautiful being to walk the earth with a rosiest pink covering her cheeks and eyes that resembled the colour of the brook.

This tale is about the time he left the underworld and ventured the earth and found her walking through the orchids. Like a moth drawn to a flame. The ruler of hell was at the mercy of the naive.

Unaware of the wrath that would unleash on earth he took her with him.
And built her gardens with the pinkest pink and the deepest red there was ever...

                  The 2am Jingles

The 2am jingles of the beer bottles     clanking together is all i remember, along with the breeze flowing from the  window lulling  me further into a slumber so deep with your hazy form    calling  my name.....

Pari

                      GROWING UP

At 6, she saw her mother humming a tune in the middle of the night. Pressing her face closer into the wet pillow. On asking her she said " it was because she missed her mum".

At 10, she saw her mother jump at tiny  noises, cover her eyes and mutter " please no". On asking her she said " it was because she had a weak heart and hated sudden noises".

At 16, she saw her mother painting her face to cover those dark blue and black patches on her face. On asking her she said " it made her look young".

At 18, she saw her mother clutching at her hand tightly with eyes pooling with water as she waved her off for college. On asking her she said " it was because she'...

       The Last Phone Call

It was 2 am on that cold winter morning
the telephone was hanging from its wire.
Similar to that thread sewing my heart.
and your words kept ringing in sync
with the beeps of our last phone call.
all i could think of what you said
Last summer of how people lose interest
But i was too blinded by your beauty to even bother thinking about quenching your soil with my love with nothing in return....

Pari

         The Lost MOJO!!!!

      The way my fingers fumble
         Over the keyboard
        To write you a text
        Makes me wonder
      If we've lost our mojo....

Pari

                                2:30 am

I heard the wooden floor creak beneath your feet and the sound of the door slammed shut. I could hear my heart slowing down and the blood pounding in my ears. I couldn't move. My feet remain planted on the floor with my gaze stuck at the closed door. I wanted to chase after you but i couldn't do it, i loved you enough to let you go. I knew you deserved more than just an abandoned building.  I knew there would come a day when you'd figure out you deserved better too. The day you'd see me the way i see myself. The flickering light in that abandoned building kept my hopes alive. I should've known better. People who hold  a grenade in one hand and the re...

                 The Forbidden Triangle
   
   
     He was my life but she was his universe...

Pari

                  The Finger Kisses

       Something about the way you
   Press a kiss against your finger
           And touch the camera
Means so much more than just a kiss
          And as i close my eyes
I can feel the weight of your fingertip
    On my lips and in that moment
                 I know I'm home.....

Pari

             We just weren't meant to be

            We were like fire and water...
                        total opposites
      You had a fire burning in you're eyes
       that kept you and all that you loved
        warm through those winter nights...
              And i was like that water
                   in the turbulent sea,
            crashing and uncontrollable
         destroying everything in it's path.
           I wish you'd realize it sooner
                and swim to the shore..
          before i splash and extinguish
           that fire burning in your core
               and render you cold.....

Pari

Somehow even after years later
The burnt tongue
Still reminded me of you.....

Pari

Dear love,

She's 10 year old now and a spitfire just like you. She's like a tiny girly version of you but god forbid she heard  that i called her a girl, she'll throw a fit. She says she's her dady's boy who'd protect me while trying hard to flex her non existent biceps. Oh how i wish you were here to see her grow up. She hates anything green on her plate. The way she always sleeps In a weird dancing position, just like you did. It's so hard for me to calm her down at times. She punched a guy in her class because he accidentally bumped into her and when i asked her why she did that she said ," daddy said boys are mean and if anybody ever tries to touch me " accidentally " to punch them in th...

                         I HATE IT

           I hate that helplessness
            That crawls on my skin
          That heaviness that sets
                       In my gut
               Those slowed down
                     Heartbeats
         The pounding of my blood
            Flowing in my ears
   The metallic taste on my tongue
   From biting my tongue too hard
         To keep the words at bay
          Those gritted teeth and
                  Curled fists
     Scared of letting all the angst
                    And hurt go
The one that is holding me together...

Pari

                THE OLD WRIST WATCH

   I was like that old wrist watch
  Cracked and running out of battery
           Ticking with memories
          In sync with your heart
         that left you indecisive
              Whether to let go
       Or to keep me tucked away
           In your shirt pocket
            Close to your heart....

Pari