Dusty Flower

And maybe i was too blinded by the idea of being in love with you that i never realised that you never loved me. You cared for my well being like anyone who held you in hard times. But i just wasn't the kind you'd want standing next to you or the one you'd go out with. I was more of that flower stuck in a book, covered in dust that you forgot about a long time ago...

Pari

     An Excerpt From A Book I never Wrote

                     " The Fall Out"

" Him leaving must've hurt a lot? How'd you cope?"

" I knew it long before than he did that I'd lost him. Everyday i watched him fall out of love with me. The indecisiveness of spending time together, wandering eyes, excuses, that far away look in his eyes. I knew it was becoming too hard for him to picture us, together. It hurt, but i didn't  have the heart to let him go first. Maybe it was just me being selfish. Holding onto him like that but i just couldn't  let him go when i was used to sleeping to the sound of him snoring in the background."

Pari

An Excerpt From A Book I Never Wrote

" Have you ever missed me? The kind where you can't concentrate on anything but the fact that you miss me? No, you haven't because I've always been there before you woke up, after you went to bed. "
" Do you know why? Because i know what it feels like to miss someone so bad that it fucks up your mind. Makes you restless, i never want you to go through what i do, everyday, as i wait on you."

Pari

                       My Renaissance

            His eyes, were a shade lighter,
                 the kind that resembled
                a hazy sunny afternoon,
      surrounded by wrinkles at their corners
              every time he smiled at me.
                   Every time he sighed
                   nd he called me love,
             made my heart skip a beat,
                                    or
       the way he held me in public, proud,
          and i knew it was different, better
                  because he wasn't you..

Pari

                        Last Winter

Driving through the blizzard with the broken radio brought a wave of nostalgia... our last winter together.. incomplete tunes, biting emptiness, foggy road ahead & an immeasurable distance between us...

Pari

                       Reflection

It took blurry puffy eyes nd your figure walking in the distance for me to realize that all that mattered was how i perceived my reflection in the mirror nd not your eyes...

Pari

                          Bon Voyage

Standing by the shore as the waves hit my feet
I felt all the weight that was once pulling me
Down washing away, leaving my feet clean n
bare for a new adventure ahead...

Pari

                          The Heart Fable

Maybe it was because i gave my heart away to soon,
To a little boy with wobbly feet and unsteady hands,
For the way it is now covered in dirt,
Covered in dirt i gave it to a man, strong n sturdy, who held it a little too tightly,
Crushing it his palm saying it would make me stronger and i deserved it,
Eons later, walking down the beach, i found a guy with amber eyes and crooked smile, soft and dreamy, too good to be true, a little scary only for me to walk away to keep it from getting torn any further...

Pari

             Feeling Too Much

                    Everything is in a frenzy
        Like a never ending roller coaster ride
       Its like, they all have different opinions
   Maybe it was the way you made them feel
                    Heart; barely pumping
                     Lungs; burning for air
                           Liver; necrotic
                           Kidneys; dying
                    Brain; stuck in rewind
              The ruckus your indecisiveness
                       Just felt too much
And maybe i wasn't used to feeling anything at all..

Pari

                       The Wicked Witch

        The voices are just a mere whisper
                      Sticks and stones
                way too far to reach her
            She's a bundle of wickedness
                With potions and spells
            Sitting high up on a throne
        Built from the bones of the ones
           That once tried to crush her...

Pari

To all the characters i fell in love with,

I never thought there would come a day when i would find somebody who was as protective as Constantine , as cocky as Damon, as sensitive as Augustus and as beautiful as Jammie. Yet here i am writing this to let you all know, i did, he's basically all you blended in a mixer with a hint of that cologne I'm crazy for and a hint of him.

P.s. don't tell him that i only love him because he's your blend. Shhhhh..

Love
Pari

                                           STARSTRUCK



                            You're something more celestial
                     and I've learnt to never dream of things
                             that are too far for me to reach
                    You're like a dream that i live everyday
                                            Talk to, See
                                      I don't even realize
                         At times that i have my thumb grazing
                  your cheek through the screen while you talk
                                    That i poke your nose
                           Every time you make fun of mine
                   ...

                    CALORIES

   I don't know if it was gravity or the weight of your words weighing down the spoon on my plate, making it impossible      for me to lift it up. The intoxicating fragrance of all your vile words felt like a knot in my stomach making me want to puke. Somehow the only thing i remember being on the plate was a bowl full of 500 calories with a side of 230 calories....

Pari

               The Wrinkles

      Maybe it was the way your eyes            wrinkled at the corner
                  every time you smiled
that made me fall in love
                    with you even more
It reminded me of that moment
               when my hands ran along
the length of its surface
       and the smell of a new pages
Of the "happily ever after" hit my nose.

Pari

                      SUPERHEROES

      Not all superheroes wear capes

    Some are dressed in their pyjamas

      With a cup of coffee in one hand

              And a pen in another...

PARI

          I Carved Myself

          To halt your steps
       On that cold winter night
      I decided to carve myself
To fit in the Caracas that pleased your eye
           Drop by drop
          Flesh by flesh
I scrapped off all the parts you labelled
           Fat and ugly
         Weak and blubbery
Until it was just a pile of blood nd flesh
     Only for you to turn around
  To point out the tiny scrape i left...

Pari
   

   
                  My Denouement
     I can still  feel the weight of your words                         
                    Lingering in the air
           settling in the pit of my stomach
                      hefty and ruinous
               coursing though my veins
          wrecking everything in its wake,
                          Like your name
          that just leaves a bitter aftertaste...

PARI

            Reincarnation
   
   It only took the sound of her heels
     Tick- tocking against the floor
         Firm and confident
     To silence the buzz in the air
  With her Chanel wafting through the
    air, intoxicating and addicting
Numbing the senses of the one's talking
      A reincarnation of Satan
   A Skirt in a room full of suits...

Pari

       MY SAVING GRACE

   I can still hear that sizzle melody  
    When you tried tracing the path
        That i once travelled
        Burnt and poignant
     With ash covered footprints
       Of the faces and places
          i left in my wake
       for i was HELL FIRE
               and
       YOU my Saving Grace ..

PARI

                      Dear Daughter

I remember the way your tiny hand wrapped around my finger felt Like, so warm and tiny. Wrapped in a soft pink blanket, beautiful and fragile. I fell in love with the way you blinked your big blue eyes at me and wrapped your other hand around my pinkie as if asking me to promise You, to keep you safe.
Days after days I watched you grow more beautiful and mischievous. From trying to stand up on wobbly legs and run to me. I remember that smile on my face when you ran into my arms with your first ever walk. That warmth that spread through my chest, melted that stone cold heart and made it thump loudly.
Now as i place your hand into his, don't mind the tears ...

                    The Shooting Star

          He being the hopeless romantic,
             Fell in love with the way,
                  She tried to reason
          With him, the real cause behind
             The shooting stars, instead
               Of wishing upon them...

Pari

           The Crevices

   I blame all the men that told me
    "I was worth so much more"
   "That I deserved so much better"
      for the way the crevices
      that run down my skin
   from the path that was once traced
            by them.
     The one's that are too good
      to be claimed by anyone...

Pari

                      Catchlight

              I think i figured out
            what it was about you
        that was so darn alluring.
                It was your eyes.
      The catchlight in your eyes
     reminded me of that full moon
                shining bright
         with the wolves howling
as the alpha and the Luna became one.

Pari

                       The Voids

I knew it long before you did, that you were in denial. The way your hands trembled when i laced mine with yours told me how much bigger the voids were that she'd left behind.

Pari

                     The First Time

Oh how i wish i could tell you what the swirls of the  black n blue on the canvas meant. It was the only thing I remember that covered your skin when I first saw you....

Pari

                        12:13 am

I've always heard of the 11:11 wishes                        coming   true.    But it was 12:13 when i       knew I had found something i never             even wished for.
                                YOU....

Pari

                           Remnants

I'd love to watch the remnants of all that was once covering my skin turn into ash when your hand makes it way down...

Pari

              Maybe

While gazing at the person standing in the mirror. I couldn't help but think of what it was that repelled you so much that you couldn't bear to tell me the stories that the moon heard when you mumbled at night?. Was it my scars that reminded you of your own?.
Maybe it was the way i swayed when the storm came that you thought that maybe I wasn't steady enough to build a home around.
Maybe i reminded you too much of the one that left your heart aching in the middle of the night. Maybe just maybe...

Pari

There's a way I'd like to place my arms around you. Like the darkness that holds the stars together. Protecting them against the light that's too blinding.

Pari

              Hades and Persephone

This tale is about the one who ruled the      underworld with a halo of the fire burning brighter than any pyre with eyes that resembled  the depths of an   abyss.

This tale is about the most beautiful being to walk the earth with a rosiest pink covering her cheeks and eyes that resembled the colour of the brook.

This tale is about the time he left the underworld and ventured the earth and found her walking through the orchids. Like a moth drawn to a flame. The ruler of hell was at the mercy of the naive.

Unaware of the wrath that would unleash on earth he took her with him.
And built her gardens with the pinkest pink and the deepest red there was ever...