Want to be famous
Want to be respected
Want to live a luxurious life yet be grounded
Want to give my parents the life of their dreams
Want to travel the world
Want to meet 'the guy' who not only knows me but my soul
Want to spread love in this depressed world..
This was my bucket list when I was a teenager, nd yet somehow its still the same..
I am writing this letter to share a different level of feeling I felt yesterday..
As there is lockdown In the whole world due to Coronavirus, mine is no different..
But, yesterday I had to go out coz I had to buy some medicine for my dad..
While I was driving, I couldn't see even a single soul.. It was good to see that people are respecting govt decision, but while I was driving.. I was hell scared.. The weather was like it's monsoon over here.. The corner of roads were covered by dried yellow leaves.. Nd I was driving all alone.. Till yesterday, I was the person who loves.. Just loves to be alone.. All by myself.. But yesterday, when I couldn't find any human.. I felt like.. I am in a sca...
How people love the fake version of you& hate the real you
How people always expect from others to be in a certain way, but when it comes to them they simply become self-centered..
How when u show your emotions, you are given a tag of being a 'emotional fool' & when u hide it, you are termed as ''cool"
It's strange how people always say, that they want to see the real you, but when u show them who you really are, it's a bit too much for them.
Now even her soul was yearning for pain...But she can't even get dt..
Life can be pretty ruthless at times
He said- are you a mind reader??
She said- No, I just have a good relation with pain...
He said - you have changed..!!
She smiled nd said- change was necessary, coz when u were not here, I craved for your presence..
I felt like a place u visited when no one was around..you know, I longed for dt place, as i am human too, I have expectations, But not anymore..
Sometimes change is necessary to help yourself from getting hurt.
Don't think dt i am some heartless person, but sorry i cannot change myself..
Deal with it.
Be around people who make u happy nd energetic..
Life is too short to feel dull& frustrated..
In the end, it's all about how happily we lived.. How many happy memories we created here..
Sometimes u have to travel..travel a little back to find those answers u r seeking for a long time..
Travel back to dt memory lane, visit those places, which u did once.. Nd when u feel like it's all lost..
U will find a solution to your problem..
I guess life is not always about moving forward, sometimes u have to take a step back, travel in dt memory lane, where it all started, nd trust me.. Dnt be afraid to do so...you will be more than okk that day..
What if you don't care how perfect your make up is or how fab is your dress?? Aren't u Beautiful naturally??
What if you don't care how big your muscles are or what package you earn?? Are u worth only for your money??
What if we don't think how other people would react by each of our action? Like seriously, are we doing every damn thing in our life for their reaction??
What if we stop thinking about every damn other person in our life nd just start living for oneself??
Is it too much to ask for???
Sometimes I feel dt..
Those days were better than today, when I used to think dt-
Hogwarts was a real place nd magic do happen..
Dt Hansel &Gretel are dr for us whenever a witch comes..
Dt holding hands wd a boy is enough to convey how much I love him..
Dt 'love story' song by Taylor Swift was the perfect ending to every love story..
Dt world is such a nice place to live in, and people really care..
Plz don't make fake promises..
Plz don't say things which u say to every 3rd person in your life..
Plz don't use me as your secret place, where u can come nd go any time you want when you are tired of people around you..
Plz don't show like u care about me when all you wanna do is casual concern..
It affects us alot.
Strange how we know someone for like ages.. Nd they suddenly just disappear..
Nd we keep on wondering whether they existed for real Or was it just our imagination..?
I sometimes wonder how easy it is for people to just leave.. Like they never existed.. How selfish can this world be?
Has it always been like this or was it i who always had the illusion of this 'perfect world' nd now I am hitting reality..
And when the night comes, she becomes silent..
All dt thought of she is a creation of beautiful mess just vanishes..
She started thinking.. Exactly when she lost her best friend, exactly when she stopped searching her happiness, exactly when she lost herself in trying to make people happy.
And once again the night went by, nd she woke up again wd dt beautiful fake smile...
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop loathing yourself.. If u envy others for what they have.. Be it lifestyle, career, or anything.. Stand up and make a move..
Life isn't easy, it has never been.. So just breathe in &move..
She sat down at her happy place.. thinking if what she had lost so far.. but she stopped..thinking what to think about..?? Money/ feelings/friends/lover/ herself..??
She then closed her eyes, tears felt down.. how she always admired strong women but she failed to become one..
She saw birds flying.. and then a new thought popped in her head.. she too was free once.. but now she is caged in her own thoughts..
I still can't believe dt i haven't written a single letter for the only person who matters to me the most in my life..nd dt is my brother..
I guess most of the happy parts of my life involves my time spend by you..
I still remember how u used to call me a adopted kid all the time just to annoy me..
How u always used to take last bite of maggi..
How you used fight wd me nd pretend in front of mumma dt it was me who was at fault..
How we used to and still call each other wd funny names even in public ( and when people stare at us we give each other dt devil smile of ours..)
I still remember when u didn't talked to me for 6 days when u got to knw about my first relationship,nd dt killed me...
I know its good to be practical...
But what good this world would be if i stop thinking about unimaginable??
May b we were not destined to be together..
May be we will be together beyond the stars and moon..
May be we will be together in the depth of ocean..
May be we will be together in heights of those mountains..
We will perhaps meet one day(not on this planet , not as humans) just as two souls who were waiting for don't know how long to just meet each other...
One day.. perhaps one day.......
The silences screamed between the two - " there is nothing left between us "
Yet, she was only able to say " plz come back "
I guess in the end " the heart wants what it wants" indeed is true..
I & YOU
We were young and stupid when we fell in love..
Nd dn.. just like dt.. all seemed a little blurry....
Dt confession of love at 2:51 AM, both wanting to sleep but not prepared to let each other go even till the morning...
Dt day..when not talking to each other for one whole day seemed like ages..nd the first text was itself a series of questions..
Dt belief on relationship, which gave the me the courage to tell the truth to his brother, even she knew its consequences..
Dt day of your Coming to see me(by traveling almost 3 hours in a metro).. just once when u knew u cud only see me for 2 min..or may b less..
Those days when we used to fight even on st...
She could hear loud music coming from her neighbours house..
She could see people holding their champagne glasses waiting for the clock to turn 12..
She could see on her Facebook wall how everyone was having a gala time with their friends nd family..
But amidst all this, all she could think was how by each passing year people are covering their face with another face.. they now have layers of fake faces..
Japanese believe that people have 3 faces... But she believed there were many..
I just hope with this new year..people are more real..
They say what they actually mean..
They do what they really wanna do..
They enter into a relationship not because of their physical neends, but coz they ...