|Hello. I am Priscille and I like to write open letters, share some thoughts and try to put emotions on paper.|
After almost year I find myself here again. Flashes of images keep reapearing. I can hear the conversation that we had. The words that were said, and how it made me feel. Feelings of nostalgia that bring me back to a moment in the past. A moment that began so sweet. A moment where for the first time in my life I knew what being loved or cared for was and how it could feel. A moment I ever knew to wish for without ever thinking it would happen. So strange, it could ever happen to me. Life felt so sweet. I felt wonderful and happy. Like how it feels to be out on sea on a clear sunny day, feeling the nice blissful warmth from the sunshine on your face. You could even feel the smile on your fac...
Can someone tell me why..
Why you keep on thinking, missing and holding on to something that is clearly not good for you.
A toxic relationship, friendship and self image..
It's been a little while since I have been on this platform. It feels good to be back and reminisce of the days I spent on here. Happy to see all the changes that have been made over the years.
Just another hello,
nearly a year has passed. my emotions and feelings have finally sobered up.
i am no longer drowning. im learning how to swim. ive learned how to be stronger. life.
thats what life is about.
to fall, stand back up, and keep moving.
its been over a year since we spoke. I still remember the last time we had an interaction. it was on that rainy day in school when we walked pass each other and you smiled at me and i smiled at you back.
how could I let something like this happen. I was a selfish person when it came to love. now that im a year older and a little wiser I see how much of a fool I was. I didn't mean to hurt you. you never deserved to be treated like that. another reason why I didn't deserve you.
I need to speak to you. after so long the urge to speak to you has grown stronger. almost unbearable. my heart aches everyday now of all the regret I feel and of all the memories of you that constantly haunt...
look for the light
in a world filled with hate, sorrow, sadness and despair we must look for the light.
it might be small and maybe you can't see but one thing is for sure:
it is there!. keep looking and don't give up no matter what happens!
If you only had one ticket to travel back in time, what would you change?
let me know by commenting...
us. we are the one who can make a difference.
we are the ones who can can truly change how thing are in this world.
restore our faith in humanity.
have you ever felt so empty inside that it gets to the point it hurts?
like you can feel your heart hurting so bad it gets difficult for you to breath.
like you just don't know what to do anymore but lye there and hurt.
the one who always seems to be on my mind, put a smile on my face.
You, the first person who ever said I was inspiring, are the one I can't even look at anymore.
You, the only one who ever looked at me different apart from other people, are the one I seem to always avoid now.
You changed my whole life since the first day you said 'hi' to me.
(If only you knew that)
Now things might never go back to the way they were and its all because of me.
I'm sorry for all those times I ignored you. I'm sorry for pushing you away.
I'm sorry for being the way I am. I'm sorry for making you feel unwanted. I hate myself for doing this.
Every time I try to change things I panic and act the same as yesterday.
Now I'm scared that we might never talk anymore. This is all my fault.
I learned once that even tho you don't believe in God,
you still worship a God you don't even know about.
Everything your obsessed with, addicted to, or can't put down is your God because it controls you.
Think about it...
*all my tears have been used up on another love"
those are the lyrics that remind me of you which is why I play this song a hundred times every single day.
i admire people who are not afraid of what others might think.
just be yourself.
you are beautiful.
you are precious.
you are stronger than you think.
you are one of a kind.
you are worth it.
don't let anyone tell you other wise.
Its like i want you to look at me but when you do i turn my head the other way.
so its kind of like im ignoring you. the thing is i really dont mean to ignore you.
its just that I'm afraid of looking at you or talking to you because I know I'll just mess everything up.
so please don't give up on.
there I was again. it was midnight when I started hearing your voice In my head. remembering every single word you said to me before you left. remembering takes me back to the place I never wanted to leave because I know you were there. and that smile you always had on your face was the reason of the smile I had on my face. i wonder when I'll ever get over this 'phase'.
I don't know when or how I started falling for you.
only thing I know is that I felt happy falling for you. just talking to you would always make my whole day.
I sometimes feel stupid for having these feelings for you, because of not knowing if you felt the same way.
I want to be with you, always.
But at the same time i dont want to see your face because of the pain I feel every single day in my heart.
people say its only a crush that will fade away in time.
but this feels like more than a stupid crush.
I fell in love with you and these feelings won't change.
I wonder what goes thru your mind when you hear someone mention my name. I wonder what goes thru your mind when you hear my voice. because I know whenever I read or hear someone mention your name, my heart starts beating fast. I know whenever I hear your voice I become happy because I know your there. I know your close even tho your a few meters away from me. I always catch myself smiling when I think of you.
at night, when I go to bed, I think of you. then I hope that when I fall asleep I would dream about you. because whenever I dream about you it feels real. I feel happy. I hear your voice In my dream. and its like I can touch you; that's how real it feels. and in the morning when I wake up, I wonder if you thought of me as much as I did. I wonder if you ever dream about me too. but I guess I'll never know. I'll just have to keep wondering.