I really don't understand people, how can they be so cruel & cold-hearted???
To somebody who is so loving , caring and just wants to love and be loved!!!!
I don't understand people how can they destroy & break somebody down to the point where they don't want to live no more???
How can they belittle a person because of their own wrong doings????
Or blame someone else for something they didn't do????
I don't understand people they're so cold hearted & cruel my heart is so dead inside!!!!
So lost here!!!!
Is there anybody out there that can find me???
And help heal me????
I can't do this on my own anymore!!!!!!
I have been murdered mentally, emotionally & verbally.
And no one cares!!!
Not even the ones who murdered me!!!
I was belittled, disrespected, rejected, neglected, abandon, used, played & destroyed!!!
By the people who said they loved me!!!
And that they would never do anything to hurt me!!!
Or cause any physical or mental harm to me!!!
But they lied!!!
Now I am laying here dead & no here for me!!!
Wow I see now I am really A NOBODY!!!
And no one really loved me!!!
Or appreciated or value me as a human!!!
Or valued my heart!!!
That very sad to know, feel & see!!!
aloha maiʻoe iaʻu. e oki ka huhū iaʻu no ka kumuʻole. e ho'ōki i ka hanaʻino iaʻu. e ho'ōki i ka haʻiʻole iāʻoeʻaʻole kahi manawa noʻu. e hoʻopau i ka hōhēʻole iaʻu a me kaʻaeʻana i kekahi e hōʻino mai iaʻu. e ho'ōki iaʻu i hope. e hoʻopoina e hoʻopoina iaʻu. e ho'ōki iaʻu. e oki ka haʻiʻana iaʻu e heleʻoe i kahi'ē aʻe ināʻaʻole wau makemake makemakeʻoe a'ōlelo paha. e hoʻomaha i kekahiʻaoʻao. e ho'ōki i ka hoʻonohonohoʻana i nā manaʻo me aʻu a laila e kali wau iāʻoe a huhū aku iaʻu i koʻu heleʻana e hana i kahi mea'ē aʻe a paniʻia paha ma luna ou. e noho kāua e like me aʻuʻaʻole iʻaneʻi iāʻoe. e oki ka haʻiʻana iaʻuʻaʻoleʻoe e mālama & a maikaʻiʻole paha.
you love me ok well show me then. s...
@realDonaldTrump YOU ARE SO STUPID AND RACISTS!!!!! YOU HAVE MONEY PAY FOR THE DAMN WALL YOUR DAMN SELF!!!!! BETTER YET GET YOUR RACISTS ASS OFF MY PEOPLE'S LAND!!! AND WHEN I SAY MY PEOPLE'S I AM TALKING ABOUT MY BLOOD MY NATIVE AMERICAN INDIANS!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO WORRIED ABOUT PEOPLE OF COLOR!!!! BUT IT IS NOT US!!!!("THE PEOPLE OF COLOR") THAT ARE COMMITTING ALL THESE CRIMES AND DOING AMERICA WRONG!!! In actuality it's your own race that we are seeing on national news!!! Committing more of the crimes so who are you building this wall for??? WHO are you trying to keep out??? Because Mexicans, Native & African American people!!!! People of color are actually the ones who are doing the more wo...
Sitting here wishing
Sitting here wanting
Sitting here needing
Sitting here waiting
But no one cares
No one wants me
No one loves me
No one needs me
No one CARES
GLAD I DON'T HAVE A GUN
GLAD I DON'T LORD YOU
KNOW IF I DID I WILL KILL
MYSELF THIS PAIN THOSE
WORDS WAS TO PAINFUL FOR
ONE TO DEAL WITH
I AM SO AFRAID TO KILL
MYSELF AFRAID TO END ALL
THIS PAIN BUT TO AFRAID TO
SO AFRAID OF THE HURTFUL
THINGS PEOPLE DO TO ONE
ANOTHER & SAY TO EACH
IF THERE IS A GOD PLEASE
END MY LIFE!!!!!
PLEASE END MY SUFFERING!
PLEASE END MY PAIN!!!!
Walking this dead
Walking this road alone
Walking this life alone
Unwanted by everyone
Unwanted by my family
Unwanted by mine love ones
Good morning, I am so stressed out having mixed signals mix emotions!!!! Not knowing how to feel about things, very tired of people playing with my emotions!!! I'm tired of people acting like what they did to me or allowed to happen to me as a child was ok to do!!!!
I'll give you a little bit of explanation on what's going on. Couple days ago I get on my Facebook page to see what's going on with my friends & loved ones. And what I see that my aunt posted on Facebook??? Talking about how disgusting & how mad she is about the R Kelly incident!!!! And how the people that knew what he was doing & didn't put a stop to it. I sent my aunt an personal message asking her to kindly remove it. Becaus...
Good morning everyone I need some advice I have certain people that are trying to come back into my life now I remember specifically saying my past is my past that's where it stays it don't make me nor does it Define who I am who Raven is now I know I'm not perfect I know I've done my share of wrongs and I know that I probably hurt a couple people in the process but I will say this I've been in Austin for almost 5 years August 25th of next year will be 5 years of me being here in Austin Texas I've met some good people I've met some bad people I met some evil cold hearted people I've met and I've made special bond's but some of the people that I met became Brothers & sisters I even went as far...
Holidays huh what's ok holidays Thanksgiving Christmas holidays they say time to celebrate & Unite with your family spend time with your family embrace the special moments & get the turkey the dressing the gravy biscuits they say don't forget the desert holidays they say all new to me my first time celebrating holidays and having a family to celebrate it with I'm new to this I don't know if I'm doing right I don't know what all we supposed to have for Thanksgiving & Christmas I've been alone a long time holidays they say is it time to make new memories I'm ok with that is all new to me very overwhelming I don't know where to start I don't know what all to get all I know is I'm feeling warm in...
As I sit here & watch my days go by because of my mental illness that I deal with on a daily it's a constant struggle every morning for me I tried to overcome that by thinking of the good memories that I've had & have in my life & the only good memory that I could think of or that comes across my mind is a day that I met Yancy Lee Jackson Sr it puts a smile on my face but it also saddens me because I see I have no good memories the only thing I see & remember are the bad memories the bad things all the torture, Pain & abuse that I've been through the people that try to murder me use me for money use me for my body use me for whatever they could get & then throw me to the streets like I was tr...
Dear, Linda Lee Gail Salazar
The reason for this letter, is because I am coming to you today, I would like to say thank you. For everything that you did and didn't allowed to happen to me, the good and the bad things. I would like to thank you and your kids and your family for help messing up my life including myself. It made me a better person even when y'all was telling me that I was adopted. My entire life the sexual molestation that you allowed to happen to me giving me to your husband to Bear children for you because you couldn't bear children. The abuse that you allow happened to me. I want to say thank you for all of that cuz it made me a better person. I'm glad and I think the b...
My love I am writing this letter to let you know I love you very much I am severely depressed I don't feel that I have a purpose to live I'm not saying that I want to cause self-harm to myself I'm just letting you know that I'm done living I wish I was dead I can't continue living like this dealing with this on my own when you are supposed to be my support system you're my husband and you don't even feel like you're my husband I feel like I'm living in a house which strangers I'm sleeping in a bed with a husband that feels like he not mine that barely has time for me he chooses a video game over me I love you with all my heart but even when you're here I'm alone you don't communicate with me ...
As I sit here and I look around to see who's here to have my back emotionally, physically,mentally & verbally but yet I see no one here so very alone I have no one no friends no family no one to call on and when I'm depressed locked inside this room between these four walls with no one to talk to about anything no one to call me to see how I'm doing text me to see if I'm okay or if I'm still alive as I sit here and I look around to see who's here for me physically I noticed that I am completely all alone in this big world cuz no one seems to understand me or want to understand me or want me or want to get close to me or want to love me for me as I sit here in this room surrounded by these fou...
One by one is how they come to lie to me.
One by one is how they come to play me
One by one is how they come to reject me
One by one is how they come to disrespect me
One by one is how they come to tear me down
One by one is how they come to hate me
One by one is how they come to make me suffer
One by one to take my life is how they come.
You want to judge me and treat me like I am trash underneath your shoes because of things that you heard from people that has did me wrong stole from me left me homeless even went as far as putting my life in danger you want to judge me because of something that you heard from people that hate me with a passion that wants me dead you know nothing of me you don't even know me you don't know what I've been through you don't know what I'm going through nothing but you still judge me like I have your life is so much better than mine you disrespect me you look down on me and you talk trash to me you even go as far as threatening me because of what you heard from my enemies. Who are you to judge wh...
Yes Depression had set in yes my eyes have been open I see I see now that y'all was never mind to begin with y'all was never my true friends from the beginning you were just using me and lying to me this whole time but that's okay cuz I see now even though depression has set in I see that's all right because instead of reaching out for y'all to help me patch up what y'all help messed up I should be reaching out for the Bible to read upon knowledge and get wisdom from my heavenly father that truly loves me and made me in his own image so with that being said y'all might feel like y'all had one because you'll see me down and you'll see me depressed but y'all haven't won the battle because I'm S...
Today is the first day I feel like hurting myself in over years
today is the first day that I really do feel completely alone and betrayed today is the first day that I do really feel like somebody murdered me 10000 times over and over
Good morning or good evening I am writing dis letter cuz I have something on my chest dat is very heavy dat is hurting my heart so bad dat has triggered certain things from my past I can no longer take dis pain. I have been having flashbacks blackout spells I have been second-guessing my decisions I have been second-guessing da people dat loves me I even went as far as withdrawing myself from my fiance & his kids cuz of dis incident I am not going to completely put my business out there but I will share a little something dat away u would understand why I hurt so much & how it is affecting me I had a friend dat I knew for 4 & 1/2 years dat was supposed to be helping me took me in charge me re...
Roses r red
Violets r blue
Candy is sweet
And so r u
My love for u will never die
My soul n body is ur and only urs
Not feelin well on my way to the hospital but something is pullin me to the lake to get rocks for my fish n to find peace
Idk why i am feeling like i bein told to go to the lake it is ban for us to go to it cuz of the rain n flood the rain is bad water rising
But my heart is being told to go there wat could it be why do i need to go there wat is my heart n soul tellin me
Sittin here lookin dat my lil family
that loves me n i love to death.
My lil family that i will lay my life on
the line for .
Sittin here lookin dat my lil family
n think to myself how lucky i am
n how bless i am to have them in my
Sittin here lookin dat my lil family n
I am thinkin to myself how much i
really need them.
Sittin here lookin dat my lil family
wishin they would respect me n be on
the same page n work together as a
team instead of against each other.
I would like to start off by thanking the big man upstairs. Our God he has blessed me, help me through my good & my bad times my trials & tribulations, physical, mental, sexual & verbal abuse that I overcame. He blessing me with two wonderful children that love me and a loving husband that respects me loyal, honors me, loves me for me & he keeps his word. I went from being homeless, my life almost being ended, losing my jobs, being very sick. TO having everything!! God bless me with I can't have make it through all the hard times without him watching over me & putting his angels around me & keeping me safe. I feel very honored, to have such a wonderful loving family that loves me, cares for m...