The You Beneath You
The gentleness of you is what I miss.
The soft sweet subtle mind state you hold when you are here in this present moment.
When this is all you ever need..
Somewhere in your memories,
beyond the gates of your negative thoughts of me, there's a paradise of goodness in which I exist.
It's getting past those gates that's the hard part...
but once you do, I'll meet you there.
Dad, I Remember
You dragged her across the hallway by her pretty hair..
Based on the assumption that she had an affair.
She was kicking and screaming but you didn't care..
What hurt her most was that her child was standing there.
You threatened her not to leave while you took a shower..
But she wasn't going to stay there and cower another hour.
She drove off refusing to be overpowered..
You ran out in your towel chasing her as your demons became louder.
SMASH! Goes your fist thru the neighbor's car window..
You've mistaken the neighbor's vehicle for your wife's blue pinto.
The cops arrive and your son's crying into his pillow..
Sobbing for his mommy as his blood begins to siz...
One Dark Moment
In one dark moment his whole body was hijacked..
Possessed by an angry entity that refused to give his mind back.
He lost everything in that moment, and he might not get his wife back..
The consequence of his unconscious mistake is that he might not get his life back.
The weight of his remorse fills his conscience as he's informed of his actions..
Realizing what he's done, his sorrow takes over as his whole life blackens.
His whole world..
and their whole world is now upside down..
With one mistake, his family's foundation seems to be a mudslide now.
Hoping and wishing..
Wishing and hoping every day that she could forgive him..
As she knows his real self i...
Perhaps I Don't Even Make Sense
I can feel my stress level extend to the ceiling,
the negativity surrounding my life in which I've been dealing is becoming so heavy on my mind that it's numbing my feelings!
I don't care,
I don't care,
I'm aware that it's there!
I don't care,
I don't care to tolerate what ain't fair!
I guess it's the highway,
cause very little goes my way,
deaf ears can't hear what I say
when I speak with logical mind play.
How much is that?
it doesn't matter, I can't afford it!
This system is so distorted that I go unrewarded for all the hard work that I do..
..So mission aborted!
on stand by are those devouring snakes of whom we get our co...
Encapsulated in a dreamlike state..
Life is imaginated through third eye's wake.
Frequencies bend not break..
Die no death, nor accept no fate.
I want to be touched by you..
In a way that makes me feel significant..
I want to be kissed by you..
In a way that makes me feel rich again.
I'm Growing weary chasing after you..
You slow down to arms reach,
then gain momentum as I grasp for you.
Feeling faint everytime you escape..
This picture you paint ain't up for debate.
It's plain to see the disaster you capture..
The emotional fracture after I slip from your rapture.