Uncle: Go with the tide. Don't go against it.
Uncle: You get it?
Uncle: Are you listening?
Uncle: Why are you not answering?
Me: I nodded. It means "yes"
Uncle: Why are you silent?
Me: I'm fine.
Uncle: You're acting funny.
Me: You have a problem when I talk. You also have a problem when I don't.
Uncle: Your silence means DANGER.
Me: I'm tired.
Uncle: Why do I feel the bomb is going to explode in the next few hours?
Uncle: I'm prepared.
Me: You're sounding funny now.
Uncle: No. I'm not.
- the new Melody
My new year started off on a good note. I started learning to have patience. Situations are the same. I'm trying to readjust myself to the "never changing" and lousy environment at work. I look backwards only to gather lessons that could help me move forward. There's a lot to contemplate on. I am wondering if suppressing anger is doing me good or bad. I am experiencing a different feeling I can't bring myself to explain. Were I better off when I threw my temper around? I think I were. Where I better off when I let it rip? I think I were. I atleast slept peacefully at night I tell myself. It's all different now. I carry a heavy heart to bed. While I'm trying to ignore bul...
There are a lot of people out there who'll undermine your strengths and make you feel weak. But never forget there are also people out there who believe that you have the ability to withstand pressure, who encourage you to be who you are and inspire you to be better than you were yesterday. I remember reading this somewhere. " You can't play chess with a pigeon. He'll shit on the board and strut off as if he has won." Believe in yourself.
- the new Melody
In dad's absence, it was always uncle Lawrence who looked after me ( not the uncle I keep writing about). Uncle Lawrence is my dad's only brother and is a happy bachelor. That's what he says. He was very fond of me when I was little. I remember sleeping on his lap while he fiddled with his cutting plier and nose plier in his workshop. He loved to overfeed me with cookies and chocolates and put me to sleep. Since I was a fat lump, mom was never able to carry me around but uncle carried me in his arms everywhere he went.
I'm not the same little kid now. I've grown up. I've changed but uncle Lawrence is still the same. I see no difference in him.
Uncle Lawrence: Hey, Ann. I brought something ...
Me: I just wished my ex boyfriend a belated happy birthday, a belated merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. I hope he's happy with his sweet wife. May the Lord bless both of them.
Me: What's what? Was my English that bad? I don't think I have to repeat what I just said.
Uncle: By the way .. when was he your boyfriend?
Me: Oh I'm sorry. I was almost on the verge of becoming his girl friend but I guess something went wrong. We decided to continue to be friends or enemies I suppose. I don't remember. I have a poor memory, old man.
Uncle: When you want to pick up a fight with me, your memory is too sharp. You are able to recall every sentence I uttered nine years ago. W...
Me: You have no idea what you're doing in the name of helping me prosper.
Uncle: I have no idea how to cure your mental illness. You suffer from imagination.
Me: I only hope your efforts don't go in vain. I hope you don't get to see something you least dreamt will happen. I'm losing my mental balance.
Uncle: You're thinking negative again.
Me: My job is taking a toll on my mental health. I've been telling you this since two years. I am doubting if you had something to do with the management turning down my resignation. Why didn't they let me go like every other employee walks out so easily?
Uncle: Because they need you. I had nothing to do with your resignation. You're turning paran...
Smart coworker conversing with the oversmart me😘.
Coworker: You're a Christian, right?
Me: I think so. That's what my parents told me.
( Coworker starts discussing somebody that doesn't concern me. Poor me! I couldn't ask her to duck off. It's workplace . I can't do that. I'll get screwed royally)
Coworker (trying to be sacarstic): How is that some people among Christians follow this culture and some follow that? It's funny.
Me: I don't follow both. I create my own. Moreover, culture is just a set of beliefs passed on by assholes of one generation to another. If you wish to, follow it. If you don't, just don't. The world won't collapse.
Coworker (blushing): Oh I see. Very smart.
What stuff are you made of?
As I opened my eyes this morning, I felt a little heavy in my head. My little mind took a quick glance at some of the pages of my unwritten book titled "Believe it or not" . It then travelled to places I once loved to visit and returned to me with this question.. " What stuff are you made of?
We're all made of some stuff for sure. Apart from flesh and blood, there's something that holds us together. It could also be the same stuff that once tore us apart. I think I'm mostly made of hurt, anger and pain. These are the elements running through my veins. Without their existence, I wouldn't be what I am. They've been constantly reminding me of what I shouldn't g...
It's heartbreaking to watch young students go through trauma. I hardly find time to talk to my students in person. With fifty or more students in each class, it sometimes becomes difficult for me to pay attention to each student. I always presume they're big enough to look after themselves since they're post graduate students. But there are so many who need to be counselled I'm happy I took out some time to talk to this student today. Probably he needs me the most at the moment. If I can change the life of one student for the better, my soul will be satisfied.
Me: For the fourth or fifth time I'm meeting you in person. Tell me why are you abstaining from classes? Your mother is worried abou...
Friend: You don't look stressed these days. Last year you looked miserable.
Me: Haha. That's right. I don't LOOK stressed but I'm actually stressed.
Friend: Haha. You must be doing something to appear so calm and composed.
Me: like what?
Friend: I don't know what. I'm trying to figure that out.
Me: Lol. "What cannot be cured must be endured". I finally accepted that. Maybe that is why I appear calm.
Friend: Hmm. Good for you.
- the new Melody
Melody welcomes you to lettrs. I'm sure you'll enjoy your stay here. It's a home away from home. Happy time.
Uncle: preparing a new time table is nice. You have to follow it. That's important.
Me: I'll try.
Uncle: You hand me a copy of it. I'll make you follow it.
Me: No. I'll follow it myself.
Uncle: You better hand me a copy. I'll teach you how to follow it.
Me: I'm sorry. I can't do that.
Me: I've allotted some time for making and attending phone calls. You will strike that out. I'm sure. I'll not give you my time table.
Uncle: Lol. Okay.
Me: I've allotted some time to hang out with friends on Sundays. If I hand you copy of it, you'll delete that too. I know you.
Uncle: Have you not allotted some time to pick up a fight with me?
Me: Nah! I haven't. If you want me to al...
I just prepared my time table to be followed from Monday to Friday. I keep hearing uncle say.. " You are not disciplined." 🙊🙊. I'm going to wake up at six in the morning everyday . I'll begin the day with exercise followed by household chores. I've allotted some time for prayer too and that's before bed time. I'll be slogging at workplace from 9 in the morning to 4:30 in the evening. So I need to take a nap in the evening. I've alloted just one hour for sleep. I'm sure I'll be stretching it on certain days or almost everyday🙊. I've alloted some time for yapping over the phone as well ( don't ask me with whom). Most important, I've allotted time for my research work.
I'm not going to follow t...
Someone just called me a selfish woman. Oh yes I am! I was once an asshole who cared for people way more than I should. I once treated everyone as my own. I was once an open book who everyone read and took advantage of. I once boldly told people much I loved them and got spat at in return. I was once very very innocent.
Now, I'm just the opposite. I might love you more than I love myself and you will never know till you reach your grave because I love to keep people guessing. I'll talk to you if you like to talk to me. I'll stay away if you don't like to keep my company. I don't like explaining anything to anyone. I don't care what anyone thinks of me. If you think I'm sweet, yes I am. If yo...
Uncle: How was work?
Me: Oh I thoroughly enjoyed it.
Uncle: Don't let me faint.
Me: I'm serious!
Uncle: How did this happen?
Me: I changed myself.
Uncle: 2018 has really changed you I guess.
Me: I think the planetary position in my birth chart has changed.
Uncle: Hahahahahaha. You and your astrology!!!!
Me: I'm never going to get angry from now on.
Uncle: I can provoke you in seconds. A few seconds are enough.
Me: Try it, buddy!
Uncle: Your dad was an asshole.
Me: I'll kill you. I will. You have to die. I'll wipe you off from the face of this earth right now.
Me: If you only utter one more word about dad, you're dead. I'm serious!
Of all the people in this world, I love this frog the most. I don't know where exactly he resides within the four walls of my house but he's found in my washroom every alternate day. He probably comes to see me. After I give him a bath, he disappears. He's been living with me since five months. I made an attempt to touch him but he looks so slimy. I feel one sort. One day I probably will. I can't own a dog right now. So I'm happy with the frog.
#frog love #he's good
- the new Melody
There's never day I've asked for food. You've always made sure I get tummy full. I reached home an hour ago and was looking for sweets. I found a big box of sweets in my refrigerator. With you around, It's Christmas in my house everyday. You never like wasting eatables . I know it. My eyes are bigger than my tummy. I'm aware. That's why I took out only a little. I've kept the rest intact. I'll relish them tomorrow and day after. I love you😙😙.
- the new Melody
My third day at work after holidays has begun on a good note. My students were a little sad yesterday because I have never taken them on a long distance trip so far. Managing the crowd has always been my worry. Moreover, they're grown ups. They tend to form groups and get into fights easily. Today I promised them that I'll take them on a long distance trip provided they behave well. They seemed very very happy. I'm happy too:)
- the new Melody
Uncle: Your eyes and your smile aren't synching in. What's wrong?
Me: Nothing. I'm fine.
Uncle: Don't try to be someone you're not. It's okay to be grumpy. I just asked to try to smile more. You're trying to change yourself overnight. It's difficult.
Me: Why are you this smart?
Uncle: Come on. If I have to handle a smart girl like you, I have to be over smart. You can hoodwink others. Not me.
Me: Hmm. I know.
Uncle: Where's the injury? Which side of the heart?
Me: in the centre I guess.
Uncle: Want a cigarette? It helps cure heart diseases.
Me: haha. No. I don't want.
Uncle: Who is it this time? Mom I guess.
Me: You figured it out so quick.
Uncle: Some things are bett...
The day my friends and coworkers stop worrying about why I'm not getting married is when I'll call them "matured".
Him: You have to get married. All of us want to attend your wedding.
Me: Oh that's not possible.
Him: Why? Are you not going to invite us?
Me: No. I'll run away and get married slyly. I won't invite anyone.
Him: God in heaven! You're a limit.
Me: You think I was joking.
Him: I know you were.
Me: I weren't. I'll really run away and get married.
Him: Haha. Why so?
Me: I've hardly attend weddings receptions but I've noticed one thing in common. No matter how good the wedding food tastes, people grumble about it. They don't appreciate what's being served at weddin...
My second day at work after Christmas holidays went well. I laughed a lot. Made others laugh too. I'm generally different at work. I don't like anyone cracking jokes while I'm busy meeting deadlines. Coworkers would dread talking to me. Today was different. I reached out to them. To my surprise, I found many of my coworkers gather around me to listen to my not-so-funny jokes. I wouldn't know if they were laughing at me or my jokes. Whatever be it, they laughed and that was all that mattered to me. Life is short. There's no point in trying to change the entire system. We have to change ourselves to adapt to it. While trying to do so, let's not forget moral values. It's very difficult to strike...
Mom: So this is your new home?
Me: I suppose it is.
Me: I mean.. yes.
Mom: Why have you got on such pathetic clothes?
Me: What's wrong with the pants and shirt I got on?
Mom ( angrily): You look like a beggar.
Me: Oh. That's alright. I'm a happy beggar.
Mom: Nice house!
Me ( committing a blunder): Go in and have a look at my room.
Mom: What is this shit?
Me: What are you talking about?
Mom: You've got your bed messed up. You've thrown all your books on it. Where's the place for you to sleep?
Me: I was getting late for work. I couldn't tidy it.
Mom: What are you going to eat tonight?
Me: I don't know.
Me: I mean I'm not hungry. Uncle ...
My mommy is coming home!!!!!!!!!
Unlike any other daughter, I'm not really happy. I'm scared. She's a terror! I gotta hide my soft toys because she hates them. I mean she thinks I will never get married if I'm so in love with things like soft toys. I'm really scared. I wouldn't know if she'll be glad to see my new house. I've cleaned up the place just to show her that I'm a very very good girl. I can mess it up after she goes back home. Lol. I'm really scared. My mom's tongue can kill anyone on the spot. It's as good as mine. I don't know how she'll react when she walks in.
I'm feeling like my mother inlaw is coming home. Hehe. I'm scared!!!!!!
- the new Melody
Uncle: This is for you.
Me: Tortoise? Don't give me toys. I'm not a kid.
Uncle: Hmm. Be slow. You're too fast.
Me: Haha. Okay.
Uncle: Slow and steady wins the race.
Me: I see.
Uncle: How was your day at work?
Uncle: It would have been very bad if I had not wished you a happy new year yesterday.
Me: I don't think so.
Uncle: You would have thrown your temper on your coworkers.
Me: haha. Maybe.
Uncle: I have understood you so well.
- the new Melody
My resolution for 2018.
I'm going to change my attitude. I started it from day 1. I'm back to work!!!! I entered the department with a smile on my face. I took the initiative to greet everyone. Wished everyone a happy new year. Everyone was like.. " What's wrong with Ann?". Haha. Nothing is wrong with me. I'm learning to go with the flow. Learning to adapt myself to circumstances. I entered the classroom and wished my students a happy new year. I promised my students that I will be happy always and will make them happy too. It really worked wonders. A change in my attitude is the answer to all my problems. I'm learning to accept facts. My students were so happy to hear me speak. I told them...
The doorbell rings.
Me: Oh this must be little Zaid for sure. He must have come for his third round of cake.
Uncle: * walking in like a soldier*
Me: You!!! I least expected you'll turn up. When I had come home in the afternoon to wish you a happy New Year, you didn't even bother to look at me. You were that mad. Why have you come now?
Uncle: Shall I go back?
Me: No. Sit down.
Uncle: So tell me how was your trip to bangalore. You'll ruin my whole year if I don't wish you a happy new year. That's why I came home.
Me: How sweet! You still appear to be mad.
Uncle: Why not? I'm angry with your friend who allowed you travel back alone. She shouldn't have done that. I least expecte...
Little Zaid: Happy New Year, Sis!
Me: Happy New Year, Zaid!
Little Zaid: Have you eaten up all the cake or....?
Me ( thinking): You're the one who ate most of it. I've got a little left for me.
Me: Hmm.. Yup.. There's a little remaining. Shall I give you?
Little Zaid: Okay. Gimme.
Me ( thinking): God bless his appetite.
- the new Melody
My last night adventure
About 5:30 pm
My friend and her sister dropped me at the bangalore metro station. I'm not used to travelling by a metro train. They were not inclined to let me travel alone but I assured them that I would manage. I rushed to the ticket counter and got the token.
About 5:36 pm I guess
The train was about to arrive. I was not sure if I was getting into the right train. I asked a passenger if I was on the right platform and got in.
About 5:40 pm
The super fast train arrived the destination. I was supposed to get into another train that was scheduled to leave at 6:15 pm. I was afraid I'll miss the train. My friend had called me up several times to check on me. I neve...
My encounter with the rickshaw driver at 9:30 pm last night. I don't trust the rickshaw or cab drivers in the city I live in. They're unscrupulous! Moreover it was dark. I don't fear getting into a rick in broad daylight.
I got down from the train and walked out of the station. There were a few buses plying on the road. Getting into a bus when one is alone is much safer in the city I live in.
I waved at one or two bus drivers with the idea that they would be kind enough to stop and pick up a lady walking alone at that part of the night. Unfortunately, none of them stopped. Probably they were in a hurry to get back home and celebrate New Year. Bad luck!
I was walking or ru...
I returned home an hour ago from bangalore. Things never go as planned. I was supposed to return with my friend but since mom asked me to join her for New Year celebration, I had to rush back home. Uncle never came to pick me up at the railway station. Looks like he's still angry with me. I completely understand why he was not willing to let me travel. I realised it an hour ago. It's New Year eve. The trains were packed. I should have reserved my ticket. It was chaos everywhere. I was not even sure if I would return home tonight or be stranded somewhere. This is why uncle never wanted me to go. Oh but I can't help it. My friend needed me. I went shopping. I ate and ate and ate delicacies. I c...