Re'Liyah W. 🎼 ✍🏾
||I am Thoughtfully Brilliant|Visually Transcended|While Bathed in Wisdoms| Author•Entrepreneur•Realist ~Welcome to my World~|
“Don’t Let It”
It will come to you so high up, so well placed and so loving. It will work, tire and work some more to break what spirit you have left. It amazes me how one can be so quick to respond without listening carefully. I thought i evolved from the era of “Do you hear me talking to you? You’re wrong and I’m right.” I tell you i meet a friend, but a friend thinking we can grow and see the world together, but i was wrong, i was ill-advised, i was mistaken, i was blinded by an immediate need which allowed me to covet feelings which should have never been. It hurts that i allowed myself to get swept in by my selfish need.
Being a friend has not ever been this one-sided and difficult to...
I met him in the strangest way, but natural all in the same.I wasn’t looking, i was open, but Not looking. I made a promise to myself years ago “I will let love find me.” There it happened i am minding my own meeting new friends, he came to me so smooth, so different, so beautifully I was taken back, by how captivating he was it seduced me in all the right ways.
It was so amazing like I said I was not looking for him and it’s crazy because I even told myself that you know what I’m just gonna keep on moving and you know I’m not even going to pay him any mind. But I didn’t keep it moving I didn’t let that opportunity pass me by and like that a whole New World opened up to me.
“My Battle vs The War”
(I am actually writing the same letter again the first time I actually wrote the letter just a moment ago I attempted to complete it and it just disappeared.
I am Furious Because there was so much that was said and well thought out and put into that letter that it’s just, just, just gone is just frustrating.)
I have found myself at an impasse. This year has shown me some strange things not only about others, but myself. I have struggled emotionally, financially and spiritually to no avail i fear.
I look back on the year and before and i cannot believe the change and it all doesn’t seem to be for the better.
I have screamed, cried, fallen from the skies i fear th...
We called it quits.
Yes we did.
You knew i would miss your touch and always your kiss.
Sure you did.
Almost a decade and we called it out-loud.
You know we did.
I even tried to hear your words.
I said i did.
I even prayed that we would find peace.
Truly i did.
We talked about many things along with that came a love to have kids.
Would you just admit we did.
I heard your plea, but you ended up a flea.
We had our final moments all in shambles.
The did became the didn't.
We became entangled with the where are we and the what will we be that all i could say is what are we.
I wanted to keep you, forever i will feel the need of you.
Our hearts poppe...
Migraines and more Migraines either my Head is too big or my Mind is too bright.
Either way my minds sight is 20x what it would be if I didn't think as much. Focused through it all is an understatement in my world.
As I write this lettr I begin the soggy, damp feeling that are becoming my eyes. I know tears are an expression resulting from feelings of sad, inadequacies and being down, but that's not it here. The lost, broken and humiliation of what I call parts of me are growing ever so rapidly.
Last night i woke up got myself prepared for my overtime shift and went happily to work with no other thought then to get it done, be great at it and keep going. It was an amazing feeling. I even wanted to start my shift earlier than i normally would, but as my shift progressed i became discouraged, sad and confused. One thing that is very important to know about me is I am an overachiever. I...
"Killing Me Softly"
•Don't get too close•
As he carressed my thighs he gave me chills. He held me by my throat his chest to my back and his hands of coco. He knew my body better than I. He whispered is this what you wanted?
All i could feel was warmth, sexuality and this beautiful creature. His ego manifested into something unbelievable, his spirit tormented me softly and his visions for me were seen clearly. I trembled from inside with fear, excitement, lust and eagerness.
As he attempted to kiss me i lost my balance. No need to worry he caught me with no problem. To secure me properly he laid me softly on his bed and kissed every inch of my legs. As he worked his way up i beg...
•Title of my Biography•
That title would have to be something of which i believe in more than anything.
"I am Creative. I am a Creator."
Just want to sit here and chill a bit. Let my mind process the worlds challenges. If i had a better mind i would light up a nice joint and let my whole mind fall to the ground and just pick it up another day.
Knowing that wouldn't get me too far i am just going to sit and let the world be at least for the time being.
Second thought where's my lighter..? 😅
•Just Keep Swimming•
That lonely feeling when you sense or think you cannot be a winner or even get close to it. The beginning can feel like a huge let down.
The let down being i allowed for so long my hope for us instead of starting with self. The loneliness being my heart sitting on the bench. Aren't we allowed to feel whole without feeling cheated.
I must continue to go hard for what i enjoy and more importantly what i believe in to give me such a profound and lively meaning.
Just because the world has sensed chaos and pain doesn't mean you or I have to imitate it. The fact is in this life i feel like Dory and with that being so i wish to make it as far as that little fish with th...
"Be better than the Lie and Stronger than the Truth."
If you intend to follow the wrong person or people just know there is a cause and effect for everything and in these cases those effects can ripple thru your lifetime.
Lead proudly, responsibly and truly. Everyone started as a follower only those who wanted to be more chose to define their own lane with no error of choice. Be ready it is a great duty when leading others.
Caught me at a standstill.
Didn't know i would become lost just looking ahead at the day.
I started to walk noticing i was moving as sweet, diligently and fearless as a woman could.
I laid my right hand on my hip. The left above my head and i took over the scene.
Envisioning a striped, tall and beautiful figure seeing nothing but the symbols of music and love in the air.
I graced the walk proudly. I held my head so high you couldn't see my eyes. I feared no man.
Beginning to sway and send ripples thru my body it felt good to be free. My dress felt like silk runnin...
I know we said that our Love could surpass our lifetime.
I know we even talked about a family for us to leave behind as a legacy.
I know i told you that it wouldn't hurt as much.
I remember when you saw the end of our love.
I was laid to rest and you were standing shattered at the very core.
You were strong, loving and a blessing.
We gave one another pieces that have been missing for eons to ourselves.
We laughed hard on so many different stories and topics.
We cried as one and stood a chance against any weather.
But at some point everything that begins must end.
We believed in a fairy tale that just was not true.
We showed love that just couldn't be.
We laughed to kee...
Dare defy the nature of this.
Leaving without saying goodbye.
Being ignorant to my gift.
You seem a little distant.
Driving me crazy with your indecisive demeanor.
I will show you the world in one flash.
I can supply you with the strength to keep going.
It's frustrating to see you leading a path that will not end with you to this graceful place.
Be careful you may fall sooner than you think and you may sink.
I will give you three tasks to help you believe how true i am. Listen completely before you say anything.
1. Follow your true nature and you shall get to me with no interruptions.
2.Bend to both your knees when you realize you have made it and are filled with bliss.
•Why I Write?•#WIW
I write purely and utterly from experience with an extensive creative world behind it. The good the bad and the unbelievable i expose for all to see without failure and with an enormous amount of boldness.
I believe that if one person comes across my words that came together for a great and intriguing story on paper and they feel full, informed, loved, a togetherness and a friend i have truly done what i came to do.
My words are not just from me...they are for me. So it becomes a destiny, journey and a lesson that i hope is shared by so many.
I write with passionate creativity and life's truths. Thats why i write.
|Changing Faces; Break Face|
Be what you can they said. They never told me that it was indirect for be what we want you to be. You're faced with fears and shames where society is trying to push you in the corner or erase you entirely. Give them hell. Let those people know bullying is not going to be tolerated and you have a voice and you are not afraid to use it. Don't be victimized by what others wish to make of you, be what you designed yourself to be with no shame and no fear.
Will the road be hard? You bet. Will you wish to quit and cave in? Probably so. Will you rise higher than you ever imagined? Hell Yeah. Those that fear change are only seeing with one set of eyes. Sure we ha...
Run where you know you will be able to stop and take a breather and pursue a long walk.
The Key to being happy is knowing you are the smile to your happy ending. Doesn't matter where you come from it only matters how you see yourself, because only you will know what makes you stand in the most darkest of times and what can buckle your knees in the most beautiful times.
Be different, Be you and be your own Key.
Put the best in best-friend. Put the best in bestie. Put the love to end the hating. We grow every second to every minute to every hour within every day. Some may not understand the friendship or the importance of a best-friend, but that is something hopefully they come to be blessed with in their lifetime.
Paint the walls a different color of fun, experience and acknowledge we gotta be ready to head into different worlds. We laugh so much I feel we forgot we were women and not little girls.
Laugh together, cry together and support one another. Love is in all colors and when you have a best-friend love is in all corners. Once upon a time one felt lost even was con...
I can feel my heart beating in my eyes and throughout my whole body. Last time i felt this way death seemed like a pleasure. It's amazing I am even still here. I am just trying to find at what moment in my dreadful existence did i lose sight or lose myself? I can love so hard, but it will never be what i give to it.
Should the feeling i have inside be this deep, alone and crossed? I say i will not let it affect me, but my feelings has it's own home. I believe in the fear, pain and the Truth, but no matter how much i come to understanding i believe it doesn't matter what I believe just as long as it's my feelings lying in between. So it's a paradox, a mind game and a blown sh...
Intro... So we are gathered here to honor a woman whom has brought us all together by love, unity and relation. (Chuckles)
Now i know you are all probably thinking "here she goes with her stories." (Chuckles) Well yeah sort of. This shall not be a story, just merely an acknowledgment of the most important lady in all of our lives. ❤️ Let me just borrow a minute of your time sharing good memories, with dope lines.
You may call her Mother, Aunt, Grandmother, Friend, Great-Grandmother (Little Leya) or last but not least Mother-In-Law. She is of nothing out here. Some may say well she is just a woman how insanely different could she be? I answer that with she is my gramz the...
Once upon a time all i could think and see was defeat, anger and maybe even revenge. I lie to you not as soon as i saw my niece she sparked a chill in me that was of bliss and peace. I immediately cried and just became amazed that she was a part of my blood and she would call me Auntie T and hopefully i would be one of those people that she looks up too. I may never conceive and i am perfectly fine in that regard. She may not be my child, but she is my niece and with that i will always protect, watch and be there no matter cry, scream and or laugh. In 10 seconds of seeing her she opened up a part of my soul i thought ran into hiding and she has forever changed me as a young woma...
"The Art of Price"
See it, Bargain it, Negotiate it, Sell it and then Buy it. You can always see where the $ will go or where it can take you as long as you can see or know a PRICE!
The painter has to know what the dreamer craves. The dreamer has to know how the buyer will see the Art of which the painter has depicted his dream.
Once that buyer has seen that one piece of envisioned Art the sell is on. The painter gave the visual to the dreamer. The dreamer provided his dream to another who could not dream it, but for the right price that individual could see it and dream of it as much as they wished.
Give a range of from which you can go no higher and then work from there a bargain may...
I can give you a little taste of me, just a little.
Tell you my biggest sin and then leave it all in one a big mystery.
I was told to tell something about myself, but I don't know if i can share something about someone else.
I am a stranger to this new life of fixation on the ways we like to be addicts with social media and be cramped in boxes pleading for attention by strangers who are meaningless.
But i was told to share something about Ree'.
28 years old never known anything other than being loyal and always standing by my family no matter the decisions i made i was to never doubt nor do damage to the family name.
Being in a african American family with a mother who is OC...
"Deeply Enraged of Predicting Patterns Regarding Entering Social Societies Impressions Of Nothingness..."
For sometime it's been there just hiding and yet being seen.
I never like to speak of it out loud , because giving it voice breaks me further into a coma.
When i feel low, i try to think of everything i have good and if it outweighs the bad.
When i begin to feel the rage and the tightening of my hand into a fist i know i am in need of a counsel or a sedative.
I wonder a hundred times a day does other people feel this rush or this low?
Do they curse themselves for feeling the rage and the anger out of nowhere by just looking into the distance?
I knew something had to be seriously w...
I am back.
I disappeared for a bit.
Next to nothing i dismissed all that I have done with all that i missed.
I wondered on for days not knowing if i would emerge from this slumber or stay shifted forever.
One day i was so sure I would be better and have so much more to give, but little did i know i was never going to give again.
The laugh was isolated.
The tears were individual at times.
My thoughts consumed me, but would not allow me to release them.
I gave up Hope i guess you would say.
After my second published book i really believed this time around my writing works would be known and celebrated as one of the best sellers.
Maybe i am thinking too much...
Maybe I haven'...
Hey, beautiful old friend you're probably wondering where I have been and what I have been up too? Well I have a lot to tell you and share with you. Let me start with as much as I can, because unlike you I am not good at long tell alls of insight. (Laughing out-loud, because I know you are since it's true.) As you know I have been married since winter of '10 but as you also you know we had to find GOD together so we can show each other the way for and to our future. Xion is doing great her and our son are growing everyday. There isn't a day that doesn't go by where we are not sharing with Ja'Quil about auntie. To say the least I wish we wouldn't have too, since I don't know ...
"There is NO Toto..."
So if I take a step back in time I will see a lot of tracks made, but not footprints where I have been. I have heard old sayings where my ancestors picked cotton and sang negro spirituals to get them thru the trying and injustice of times. Now I am here not safe, but in fear that I am numb not from feeling but for my own happiness. I can't help but to want to cry or fold up in the end I am always in tune with my feelings no matter if it's a sunny day or a rainy one. I have a way of making a rain on my parade just from remembering that no matter how much I believe I deserve (not what's owed to me, but what I have earned.) I will always be given a broken stick and told to...
"I Couldn't Make You Happy Anyway"👣
Firing up that one thought for that one second... I can never make you happy. It will pause every decision you will and have made. Rounding up the doubts and the pain and pleasures I still somehow come back to... "you couldn't possibly be happy with me." The pushing, shoving and running you away grew stronger and lasted even longer. I could tell in my heart and all over my body I loved you deeply, truly and with no pause. But at times I didn't believe I made or left that impression on you.
I'd battle the barbaric feeling of wanting to separate myself, bc you could do better than the love I gave. See I saw that I was an awesome soul, giving light...
No matter how a person may feel it never subtracts the fact that what they show will always outweigh the feel. Spending countless hours trying to entertain the thought that i would be more than what i am visioned in someone else's eyes. Love to need and love to hate i am just needing to realize one of those does not have a growth. Seeing a beauty so defined I slowly realized the soul left traces developed in my mind.
Now we are here just craving that care, that joy and that warmth. You called out to me, but i did not hear. You reached out to me, but I did not feel and you saw me, but i did not see you. Is it me or does this lonely shadow seem to follow me with ev...
"Lost Bottled Message"
"Next to the biggest decision that could be made would be the beginning of a new day for all whom wish to make an infinite change. One day we will have to take a look back at all the things we did and didn't do. Remember there is always a choice. If for any reason you think that it would be better leaving your past with you in disguise you may continue with making the choice of accepting responsibility.
Never forget life can be just as swift as justice. Being honorable is not for yourself, but for mankind. Let's take a look back into what life use to be. Than we can began with where life is now. Hopefully by the time you get this message life will be what you wis...