|Just an average guy exploring the world and figuring things out. Also so very madly in love with the love of my life 💕|
I’m an absolute basket case
A train wreck of emotions
A ticking time bomb, waiting to explode
A constant hurricane of feelings
An avalanche of thoughts
A flood of insecurities and self doubt
But still you love me.
Whenever I look at this thing on my wrist, I see more than just strands and a heart.
Grey and black. The colors of the strands of this bracelet. One color to represent each of us. Two strands entwined to created one single braid. A metaphorical and physical symbol of us.
Our two lives, two souls, two bodies, two hearts, separate yet entwined with one another. When one of our lives changes, so does the other. What impacts one of our lives impacts the others.
And even though sometimes it really hurts, and sometimes it’s really hard, especially the days when I don’t see you, I’m always grateful for the time I get to spend with you, and the days ahead we’ll have together.
The feeling of butterflies in my chest when I think about you never go away 🦋
She looked into my eyes, into my very soul, and said,
"Each day we go farther into our relationship is uncharted territory for both of us. But we have each other so that we don't get lost. We're doing this together."
There is no such thing as a perfect relationship. But with communication, faith, fun, love, and a common purpose, there can be a strong, healthy, lasting relationship.
My heart and mind are at war.
My mind is telling me lies planted by the enemy.
Terrible, terrible lies race through my mind, tearing me to pieces.
But I know it's an assault, an attempt to tear down the stronghold that God is building.
But yet, in a way, they're doing their job. Casting doubt and fear into me, pushing me to tears, keeping me from sleep, throwing me into a spiraling descent.
But my heart knows what's true. I have nothing to worry about with us. What we have really is love, and I do not have to fear losing you. God has the truth in my heart. I know she is faithful and I do not have to worry, as I trust her with my life. Knowing these things and praying brings me peace. It fen...
A Sweet Reminder
It had been a long time since we had this kind of night.
The "us" time we hadn't had in a few weeks.
Perhaps a few weeks too many, but tonight was a sweet reminder.
A sweet reminder of your touch.
A touch so gentle, yet contains the ferocity of a lion; so tender, yet contains the strength of a warrior.
A sweet reminder of your passion.
A passion so fierce and steadfast in the hardest of situations; so filling and rejuvenating.
A sweet reminder of our love.
Your soft lips upon mine, the loving embrace of each other's arms, the fiery passion in the room.
A sweet reminder that we can get through anything. That we are inseparable, and that no time or distance is too great....
How radically can someone's life change after meeting the girl of their dreams they never knew existed?
The way that you smile captivates my heart
And the way that you speak captivates my brain
The way that you love is a whole other form of art
We're moving together through this life on a train.
A train where we are merely passengers
And God is our conductor
You and I, no matter whatever
By Him, will always be together.
For our love knows no bounds, it has no borders
It reaches far beyond space and the stars
Unbending to the views of society and onlookers
For this is who are are.
Like a song or a dance
We change tempos constantly
Some days we run and we prance
Other days, we take it slowly.
Every time I go to bed
You are the last thing on my mind
And even when the night is dead
I'm with you for so many reasons.
Not because I want a girl to do things with for a little while.
Not because I feel like I have to this day in age.
Not just because you are beautiful.
These reasons are not good reasons for me.
No, I'm with you for so much more than that.
Your personality is so unique and beautiful and perfect for me.
I can see a forever for us. I want to make a life with you that we both enjoy and are proud of.
I can see us owning a home, having a family with dogs.
I can see us singing and dancing around the kitchen as we cook, laughing as we make fools of ourselves.
I can see us going out or staying in and having a great time, whether it be watching a movie, playing gam...
The smell of her and her hair
The blue in her eyes
The happiness in her smile
And the joy in her laughter.
Her simple amusement
Her fiery love
Her unbreakable faith
And her compassion for others.
How she carries herself daily
How she makes conversation with ease
How she dresses so casually but so amazing
And how she looks so beautiful, even when disheveled.
She doesn't need makeup to look beautiful.
She just is.
She doesn't need dresses, skirts, or cardigans.
she is beauty.
"This is happening.
I am here and I am looking at her
and she is so beautiful.
And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite."
Perhaps one of the best and truest quotes from a coming of age movie. Heck, I resonate so well with this movie. I was in some of Charlie's shoes at one point.
Perks of Being a Wallflower
This garage is different now,
It feels a little vacant.
Though here I sit, painting and listening to that same playlist again,
It's missing you, and us singing to the songs of love.
I can't wait to get out of here,
All that I've experienced in this apartment.
Although my time here has been temporary and coming soon to a close,
The memories that have been made here are permanent.
And my favorite ones are the ones that we made together.
From that first night we finally locked hands, igniting a great fire, to sitting in this garage and lying in bed together.
Those ones will last forever.
I hate the pressure and expectations of society today. It expects you to know what you want to do when you start high school, so you can plan your classes around that field, whether it's STEM or the Arts. So much pressure.
To know what college you want to attend when you start high school, so you can plan to get there and get in. To take as many AP classes as possible, get the highest ACT and SAT scores known to man. So much pressure.
I took my first campus tour yesterday, of my second school of choice. I didn't like it at all. I realized it wasn't the school for me, and I no longer wanted to be in that field of study after that tour. So much pressure.
I don't know what I want to do with ...
You somehow always find a way to amuse me.
Whether you're trying to or not.
Whether we are together or apart.
Like the other morning, I found a strand of your hair hanging from a shirt in my closet.
I laughed to myself,
and I smiled with the biggest smile ever.
This universe is so infinitely big and ever growing.
There are billions of stars in the Milky Way.
There are seven billion people on this Earth.
Any of them could have ended up being the one I fell in love with.
And I'm so glad it was you.
None of these stars can compare to you in fiery passion, beauty, and a loving radiance.
The only you in existence.
A Fool and a Girl
"Wise men say, only fools rush in"
Don't rush calling her your girlfriend or having a cute name to call her
Don't tell her you love her in the first couple of months
Don't rush a kiss in the first couple of months
Don't rush in thinking she may be the one
Don't change your plans just for her
But it's kind of hard to when what we have just feels so right. This is the love I didn't believe existed; a love so surprisingly easy that throws everything I was told about love out the window. A relationship so pure and genuine, neither of us feeling any need to change for the other, fitting together like two missing puzzle pieces, finally completing the picture.
Besides, since when ...
Before I put on a shirt in the morning
Before I get in the shower
Before I go to bed
I run my hand along my back, tracing each of the scars you've left on me.
I know exactly where they are, which ones run vertical, which ones run horizontal, which ones are indentions of your nails, and when you made them.
But they are not of scars of pain. They are far better than that.
They are scars of your love ❤️
I have fallen in love with someone who is hiding inside of you.
A girl who loves so passionately, purely, and tender all at once.
A girl who feels so much more than she leads others to believe, except for me.
A girl who makes me feel a million butterflies, and can steal all the words from my lips.
That someone hiding inside of you that I do not want to, cannot, do life without, since I have fallen in love with you.
For me, love used to be a four letter word with no real meaning. I would hear it and I think to myself that I was never going to experience love outside the love my parents showed me.
Oh but obviously how wrong I was. Love is continually falling head over heels for the same person every week, every day, every hour, every minute, every second of knowing them. For all the little things they do that put the slightest of smiles on my face. For me, now, that is love.
On the nights we go out to be alone with each other, I always get surprised by you.
I remember the first time I was so unprepared, I felt like I was going to do so many things wrong. But I was so excited that it didn't matter to me; I was going to be with you, and it was going to be just you and I for an hour and a half, not another soul around.
But that first time, I felt no anxiety at all. It felt as if we had done this before in another life, like we already knew each other inside and out. We quickly picked up on each other's habits, and how to work each other up. That night, you picked the lock I had put on my heart and my mind to keep people out, picked the lock like a thie...
Two souls tending to the same fire.
Together, we have lit an eternal flame.
Two minds, one dream.
Two hearts, one love.
People always say "Don't do drugs."
It's too late for me,
I think I'm an addict, hooked on a drug that I can never get enough of:
Music is one of the best things ever created for a plethora of reasons. Here's some of my reasons:
Thoughts it brings
Feelings it evokes
Rhythms to move to
The messages that can be spread across the world.
The ability to bring people together, regardless of language, race, ethnicity, religion, gender, any possible difference one can think of.
Lyrics that tell stories
Of happiness and hope
Of sorrow and despair.
My favorite thing is the songs that you resonate with, the ones that really make you feel something, and the ones that make you think about a special someone any time you hear it.
These are the reasons I love music.
The Curtain Call
I remember the days
when I didn't show
the feelings I felt.
I wore the perfect veil
of obscurity and deceit.
A mask of deception,
a never ending masquerade ball,
a never ending play.
I never let anyone in
to my personal space,
never let anyone see
the real me.
Nobody has seen me cry before,
be angry, be really happy,
and nobody has seen the real me like you have seen.
After 17 years, the play is done.
I've hung up that mask
in order to be closer to you.
The only person that I
have ever truly loved.
And it's the best decision that I have ever made.
When we met, we pulled each other from the depths of our deepest, darkest emotions.
Together, we explored the depths, pulled light out of dark, love from pain, and most importantly, we saved each other.
And before that, I never knew what true love was. Now I never want to forget.
The Little Things
The little things about love are the best. The ones people never speak about.
The way she is the first person you look for in a crowded room. The last thought on your mind before bed, and the first thought on your mind in the morning. The little things you do together to make memories- cooking a meal or baking cookies, even if it turns out disastrous. The way her eyes light up when you talk, and you could stare into them and just talk for a million years and a day. The time spent with her is pure and genuine; no phones are needed for conversation, they become something obsolete and useless. The way her hand fits perfectly in yours, just as her personality fits perfectly wit...