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An open letter to my WHAT IF:
I wished I could tell you how much still I wanted it to be you, how I longed it would have been you. But things changed and we grew apart and circumstances are different. My what ifs turned to what is without you in it.
Days, months passed and we became strangers again, but you, you paved your way into my life in your gain. My feelings are in constant battles of what to believe and have faith in. I tried to fight them, yet they always win and I would fine myself back at your feet once again. We are always in this cycle that never stops. Or is it only me?
I tried to regress. And you made it very clear that I'm the only one who feels this way. But here you...
To All My Guy Friends,
I think we've certainly experienced love around us in different ways that we can comprehend the pieces of the puzzle that it takes to be in love. We've perhaps even experienced some of our own very deep love and possibly some heartbreak too. I may not know everything there is to know about being in love, and I know there is a lot for me to learn as I carry on to grow and find my way in the world. In the time being, I want to be certain that you know exactly what kind of love you’re worth You don't need anyone to complete you, search only for someone who makes you even stronger because you are perfect on your own.
You are independent and you have that glint of love...
To All My Guy Friends,
You will attract to yourself whatever you put out.
If you want a woman who fears and respect God, have faith and fear on Him. If you want someone who's prayerful, pray with your heart. If you want a good character in a woman, have a positive outlook and amiable personality first.
If you want a woman who's family-oriented, value as well your family. If you want a partner who will take care of you, please take care of yourself and take a good care of her too. If you want a woman who will give you the world, then give her first the universe.
Aim those character for yourself which you aspire and dream about your partner. What you attract is what you are; aspir...
To All My Guy Friends,
One day you will realize that the girl that you have broke and always break will turn her back on you and won't give you anymore chances; that girl who always cry because of your stupid machismo and heartbreaking acts will be blinded by her sorrow and will forget you in some way. I hope that will not happened but by the course of this letter, it might really happened.
You came into her life unannounced; you were the prince that she always dream of. She was overwhelmed by the feeling of love. But all of a sudden that wonderful feeling was replaced by emptiness. You slowly exit in her life. She pretended to be fine even though she's hurting inside. she pretended to...
I see the hate in the killer's eyes. I see the humility and kindness on the face of the poor suffering victim and I see that he will die irreparably after being tortured for free.
I see a lot of things, but I don't see an art.
To All My Guy Friends,
It’s been awhile now since one of the saddest day of your life happened. It’s been some time now since you had your heart broken and ever since that day you tried so hard to pick up the pieces. Sadly though, you kept dropping some pieces while picking up the rest. And through that I have seen that there are piercing shattered pieces that are hard to pick up but you still do. These are the memories and I know they hurt, a lot.
You might be able to pick them up but in the end you drop them either because you’re too worn-out, they’re too heavy or too excruciating to carry and bear. Sadly, you lean back to the same person who shatters your heart to help you pick it u...
When morning wears crown,
with pasty light of near the beginning
When the sun goes down,
and day takes away its gown
When the night sulks,
and stars lighten up their town
I feel unaided
When quivering eve arrives, I lament
there in no one of my own
When tormenting spring,
glamorizes the lawn
All the desires, now have flown
None to surmise upon
like a bird, being tied to pinion
I feel alone
In fall season,
when storms splash
to me, no shelter is known
not any shoulder to rest on
When cuckoo sings,
in summer's morn
Undeniably! I am wretched and dejected
Life always glares with scorn'
I feel forlorn
Don't deny it. Don't lie to yourself. We all know that once in our life, we judge a person base on their physical appearance. That's human nature. That's us. But what we didn't realize is we are the cause of their deep scars that even time can't heal.
We tell jokes about how bad they look, we laugh and they would just laugh with us, pretending to be okay, pretending that the joke didn't stab them right on the heart. We thought that it's okay to joke around with people who are ugly because they always smile with every joke we make. But what we didn't know is that they are hurting inside, their heart is bleeding and pleading and shouting to the society to stop. Don't be fooled by t...
To All My Guy Friends,
Love is a wonderful feeling to have, but it's not all that matters when you are a broken person. Let me start telling you what is being broken.
To feel broken is when you see all the people around you as a hindrance, it seems like you can't trust them. I am personally an ambivert, being an anniversary isn't easy. I am half extrovert and my other half is an introvert. I love people but I also love my solitude. I know it's hard to be broken, you couldn't explain what you really feel and make them understand that you're hurting.
The one that you loved was one of the believer that you can heal her. She was a young woman who fall in love with a man expecting ...
I want to be outstanding. But my expectations to myself always is over the top from reality of who I really am. I see myself as a singer, a dancer, an activist, a caregiver…
But I’m not any of those things. Not really. I’ve tried my hand at so many different undertakings been eager and positive about each one until it turned perplexing or monotonous, and then… I stop. I never make it to the next level, where I might actually get good but never the best. I’m determined at the start; it’s being consistent to something that’s hard for me.
I used to vision myself being really good at something and I’ve succeeded to assure myself that the reason it hasn’t happened yet is because I just haven...
To All My Guy Friends,
I know you've been with her for so long. You've been through a lot with your relationship. Now that you have broken up, I just want you to thank her for being part of you. For being your sister, your best friend and for being your partner during the span of your relationship. For I know that she have made a mark in your life.
I know for a fact that you are currently hurting. I know that feeling, cause I have been there but I know you are strong and you'll get by.
So, thank her for the love and care and the happiness that you both shared with. Thank her for the memories. It's hard to start a new beginning and I know your life will never be the same again be...
A Letter to My First Love,
It has been some time now, not a crazy amount of years or even that many months but it feels like forever to me somedays. And other days, it feels like I had you just yesterday.
I still don’t know how you managed to take over my heart and my mind. It was fate to meet and fall in love with you. You gave me this feeling that no one else had ever made me feel.
I want you to know that it’s all good between us.
I often wonder how you are, and though I have no idea, I believe you must be well. It’s what I hope for, because it’s what you deserve.
As for me, sometimes I’m unexplainably happy that I sometimes cry. If I saw you again I would hug you, just to thank yo...
To All My Guy Friends,
I know you love everything about her. I know you love that you can tell her things you've never told anyone. I know you love that you can be yourself with her. I know you love that she cares about you and tries to make you happy. I know you love that she tries to understand how hooked you are in your computer and mobile. I know you love the way she laughs. I know you love how her breath feels on your skin. I know how you love the way her touch is so calming. I know you love the way her arms feel around you. I know you love her smile and her eyes and every last inch of her body. I know you love the sound of her voice and the way she talks to you. I know you love her s...
To All My Guy Friends,
After the years have passed, it all disappears.
This is what some couples fail to see. After how many years, the spark will fade away. The reasons why you loved the other person will be unknown. The butterflies in your stomach will soon disappear. You will forget why you liked that person in the first place. You'll start to see all the wrong and the ugly you chose to look blindly in your beginnings. Now, going home to each other's arms is not as exciting to look forward to as before.
Cuddling and those exchange of sweet words become rare and all the fighting will take over. Procreating will become less and less. You'll be shocked that one day, those nights...
To The Person I’ve Considered My Life,
The day you came into my life, I told myself I would love you for the rest of my life, never gonna hurt and never ever leave you. You were my best friend, my brother and my everything. I was so deeply in love with you. It feels like it was a never ending happiness for me.
Until one day, you said, “I don’t want to hurt you but I need to tell you this. We need to break up, I still love her.”
I refuse to believe at first, I never thought that you would do that to me, but when I heard your voice telling your sorry, tears fell down my cheeks. I was begging you to stay and never leave me, but you said it would be better if I let go of you.
I was to...
When our hearts are shattered into pieces, we start to look for some diversions that could let us forget the pain that we felt inside.
We look for reasons not to fall in love again. We wait for that one person to fix us but unconsciously we are not waiting for him or her to fix us but to make us realize that our heart is not broken at all.
Liham Para sa Mga Lalaki Kong Kaibigan,
Nandito na naman ako at may gusto ipahiwatig. Hindi ito isinulat sa Ingles dahil gusto ko inyong maintindihan ng lubos ang aking damdamin.
Huwag mo siyang ligawan dahil gusto mo lang siya. Ligawan mo siya dahil mahal mo siya. Huwag mo siyang i-date dahil gusto mo lang magkaroon ng isang maikling relasyon. I-date siya dahil mayroon kang layunin sa na mapangasawa siya. Ang MU ay hindi nangangahulugang "malanding ugnayan" kundi mutual undesrtanding.
Aking kaibigan, kung naghahanap ka lang ng pansamantalang relasyon. Mangyaring huwag hilingin sa kanya na siya'y ligawan. Hindi siya tulad ng iba pang mga batang babae na nasiyahan sa isang walang kat...
To All of My Guy Friends,
Love a woman not just because she's beautiful. But because there is a golden heart behind her exterior facade. Love a woman not just because you always miss her but because your world is brighter and colorful with her in it. Love a woman not just because she is fun, but because that's what makes her real. Love a woman not just because she is sweet but because she has a warm and kind heart that it feels like home. Love a woman not just because she is strong but because her strength makes her special and unique from the other women.
Don't love a woman just because she is a crown that you would put on top of your head as an ornament to be called a king. Love he...
“I haven't in my whole life let myself look like a mess and asked for miracles." he said.
"You never have faith in in miracles, John." I said
"That's the main idea. I don't believe in it. Yet, why am I so fixated with this heavenly expectation as the only answer to my problems?" he answered.
"Because, sometimes when all else fails, you cling onto the impossible." I told him while looking at the blanket of stars
Mergen Originals: Myriad of Hopes
Sometimes we don't want to be the writer but the literary piece itself. We want to be the piece because they won't judge us by looking in the outside attributes. We want to be the piece because there are people who's trying to understand us. We want to be the piece because they connect their own point of view while reading us. We want to be the piece because we are the fruit of someone's tears and agony; of someone's bliss and butterflies. We want to be the piece that readers admire because of its content. We want to be the piece for there's always someone who can relate to us.
We want to be the piece because we want to show the world that being beautiful is more than just staring somethin...
Seventy six days had passed since I last sat here and wrote down all the things I know about you. This corner has been my sounding board to all the things I feel for you.
It’s been one thousand six hundred and forty days since you broke my heart and yet we kept going. On this day, the 15th of January marks another letter unread. And as always, I am looking forward to the setting of the sun. When for some, darkness is sorrow, for me, the darkness means you — a sense of fulfillment for me. Will you ever be the same? I always wonder whether absence makes the heart grow fonder or find another. I’m just hoping it will never be the latter. Friends, you say, is the relationship we should keep. Pe...
Pain is one of our greatest nemesis. We searched far and wide to find ways to kill it. But eventually, we realized that pain is not the real enemy. It is a no nonsense honest friend.
Pain is a signal for you to heal. It's a sign that something is wrong. And I'm not just talking about the physical. It tells you if there's a relationship that needs attending to. It challenges your strength, your faith and your humility.
You may say that, what are painkillers for? It just hide the pain. But it doesn't take it away. The best way to recover from pain, is to endure it. Then, and only then, can we heal.
In simple words, there is no healing if there is no pain.
The sketch of emptiness etching thoroughly to the mist flowing under the glamour of her lashes; tired eyes, tangled memories, soul trapped--deleting her from her own will. She is hesitant, lost-- broken. And she doesn't know whether she's still alive or just breathing.
The scent of a melancholic ambiance towards the place where gleam of stars refracts created a weird kind of nostalgia through her system-- as the night's becoming deeper, her thoughts follow.
The strong attack of realizations only made, her howl louder. Those cries that can't be heard by just simply listening. The kind that needs openness and understanding.
"She was so busy saving others, that's why she forgot to save...
To All of My Guy Friends,
If you do not plan to enter into a serious relationship, don't give hope to the person. If you do not intend to catch her when she falls, do not disturb the quiet life of that person.
And read this.
She's minding her own business when you came along. She was happy with her world. She was just there being herself. Do not expect her not to fall for your sweet tongue and efforts. Do not expect her not to appreciate all the little things that you do just to make her feel better.
Mind your own business. Don't make her an option because in her world she is the priority. Do not ruin the personality that she has built. Do not waste her time. Y...
Trust me, when a man really loves you he will take random photos of you. He will love every little detail about you.
He will appreciate all the “minor” things about you:, how you blow your nose, how you hum, how you chew your food and the way you dance while listening to your favorite song, how you smile when he says something beautiful about you, how serenely you pray about the goals that you aim for, how you messy you can be and your bed hair looks good on you and how hyper and enthusiastic you are every time you go out together.
I know you get self-doubting at times. There are days you think you are ugly, fat, messed up and hard to love, but superlatively believe when a man really lo...
My mind always told me to "Leave and advance,"
But my heart told me that I still have a chance.
So I listened to my heart and gave it a shot,
It was a bad choice, now look at the misery and failure it brought.
I thought I'd have a chance, so I kept holding on,
But I know that the last ray of hope is gone.
Sadly, it was you, the guy I trusted the most,
Who left me feeling empty, just like a ghost.
Today, the little hope I had inside was killed.
I don't know why you destroyed something you helped build.
I must have been crazy to even try,
Because all it did was crush me inside and make me cry.
And I cry only if there's too much to hide.
Like right now because I've got nothing...
You are beautiful.
You're beautiful for all your imperfection is an art. For every feature that you hate on your face there's always a certain someone who loves to see that. You are beautiful maybe not because of that mesmerizing eyes but because you see things in a unique way; maybe not because of that kissable lips but because you speak the words of kindness-- maybe you don't have the curves, the alluring body but smiling even you're broken or hurting is your best curve.
You're beautiful because beauty isn't just what we can see outside, you are beautiful for you're more than just a face. You're beautiful for you got something beyond physical judgments. You're beautiful because God cr...
When I was a kid, I fell from a tree but I managed to hold on to a branch. I was up there for a long time and waiting. The silence, the pain in my arms, the blood pumping in my ears is deafening.
Then, I fell. I couldn't remember what happened when I hit the ground. All I can remember were the pain of holding on and the wonderful feeling of letting go.
I get hurt for I let go and fell but it's much better to let go than trying to hold on, knowing that it's going to be painful even more and knowing that I'll eventually fall and hurt.
Why do we give our all? Why do we exert so much effort? Why do we insist on changing ourselves? Because, we chose to love. Because when we love, you give yourself a chance to have a happily ever after. But you also have to open yourself up to so much pain which teaches you to grow and mature. Whether you get an apology or not, whether he loved you or not, you need to learn to forgive.
That forgiveness. That's not for the person who hurt you . It's your gift to yourself. In order for you to live on the life that you have made before he brought havoc to it. To that, you will be a better you in the future. That incidence is a lesson. A lesson to forgive.
An open letter to the brokenhearted;
Are you feeling unwanted? Sad? Alone? I bet you felt all these on some instances in your single life. But I'm telling you that you don't have to.
You shouldn’t be drowning yourself in misery all because you’ve been left, dumped or cheated on by the person you loved. It’s a normal thing to grief.
I heard a lot of people say that if you love someone, you must never give up on that person, fight for your love. But what if in the process of fighting for that person and giving everything that you have, you realize you’re all alone and that person you’ve been loving all along is pushing you away, driving you to the edge of insanity? Day by day you are l...