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|I’m a mixture of darkness and light, trying to find the colours of life!|
It’s my birthday today and I would like to share something that I learnt last year!
Life is a mixture of emotions! Every emotion has a value.
One should not run away from it.
Your emotions will help you find your true self. Your emotions will help you find your true love.
No matter how hard it is to be happy or how hard it is to cry! Go ahead! Laugh or Crumble, it will only help you.
Keep moving ahead, as opportunities come and go!
People, come and go!
But the time will only pass! It won’t go back so, feel satisfied in every situation.
Think positive, think neutral and actualise that whatever is happening, it’s opening you up.
The more you feel, the more you can express!
I have decided to finally let her go !
I want her to leave my mind.
I just know one thing that, I never loved anyone as much as I loved her!
So a part of me will always want her..
A part of me will always love her.
I’m a mixture of darkness and light, trying to find the colours of life!
My true goal is not merely to survive but to thrive!
Only this makes me feel alive!
Today I found out that my health is degrading. Mental as well as physical. I never really was one of those crazy guys who ruin their life over a girl until I fell in love. No matter how smart you are, our end up falling for the wrong person! The more they ignore you, the more you fall in love. It’s fucked up!
Screw those girls who tell you they love you, and then they abandon you! It leads to this disaster.
This is because I truly and deeply fell in love.
Never trust anyone!
And all those efforts were merely nothing maybe that’s why my life became so tasteless.
All my life I’ve been trying to please people around me! I tried a thousand times, but nobody really cared! I realised this a thousand times, but I didn’t give up!
I kept on loving’ em with all my heart. I know I’m stupid but I still felt good about it.
They kept on using me as a toy and I got used to it. Every time I thought maybe they’ll understand this time, but they never gave a flying fuck.
I kept on waiting..
I told myself that there’s always hope and we all always find light at the end of the tunnel. Until you realise that you’re the light!
I didn’t lose anything.
Eventually, they ended u...
After ruining my soul and burning my emotions to death for so long, which led me to think that, maybe I have forgotten what it feels like to be happy, she wished me a happy new year!
Staying close to your parents and staying close to god around New Years, gives you immense satisfaction. It gives you a boost to start your life with a strong and a new hope. No matter where you are, it’s always home with them! One should always believe, that there’s always someone looking after you. Some things which we think, are not happening?
They are not happening for a reason. Maybe something better is about to come. Hang in there and don’t give up on yourself. Positivity is everywhere, you just have to feel it. Never ever lose hope.
PS Gosh, this smells like home!
Some people can see the dark circles under my eyes while some still see a glow on my face but no one can really see my broken dreams .
I wish I could tell myself that I will have a happy new year!
She abandoned me yet again!
These New Years come every fucking year but the feelings which I have for her are precious and delicate!
She has a habit of killing my emotions in a fraction of a second.
She says she wants me to be happy, but how the hell am I supposed to be happy without her?
She did the same thing last year before New Years.
As much as I wanna hate her for abandoning me again, my heart never wants to let go of her!
But it’s heights and my feelings?
They may fade-away!
So I will stay on stand by mode but I will take no more load, I will actually change my road where she won’t have my heart code!
First girl killed the kid in me and I became serious.
The second one died and I became critical.
The last one just left and I died within.
Hope is all I need, to survive.
Dear You, If you’re reading this, it means I actually worked up the courage to express it, so good for me. You don’t know me very well, but if you get me started, I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the expressing is for me. But this, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write. There’s no easy way to say this, so I’ll just say it. I met someone. It was an accident. I wasn’t looking for it. I wasn’t on the make. It was a perfect storm. She said one thing, I said another. Next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation. Now there’s this feeling in my gut. She might be the one. She’s completely nuts, in a way that makes me smile, hig...
So I guess she never valued my emotions and I wasted my love, care, affection and most importantly, time. Though I don’t regret anything but a pinch of wasteful spending hurts coz it was for the wrong person!
Maybe this is a sign, maybe I will never be able to give away my true self to anyone.
Maybe I will always be alone in my mind, trying to make everybody happy!
Maybe there’s no one for me who will see the pain in my eyes and feel the love in those unsaid words.
Maybe I should stop thinking about love and start thinking about life.
The understanding I had for that someone was out of the world.
The tuning we had was tremendous. But she’s still an immature girl who is scared to co...
Coz the last time you told me you loved me.. is the only thing that echoes in my mind ..
You gave me hatred and I accepted it coz I was the one to blame to make you happy ..
So here I am.. talking to you after a disastrous year.
Everything seems fine and we’re best friends again !
I’m sorry for that night when I lied to you.. but it was for your mental satisfaction.
You don’t know but I go back to that January every now and then..
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you..
Wishing I’d realised what I had when you were mine ..
I’d go back to that January, turn around and make it alright again..
I go back to January all the time !
Everyone around me here is celebrating. And I think I should celebrate too!
But I can’t lie to myself! I just miss someone so much! And I feel incomplete without her!
So I have a fake smile and laughter to help me! But deep down inside I miss her! I miss my love! I wish I could meet her! I wish I could let her know that I am sad coz I am not with her right now!
Coz she’s my celebration! She’s my everything.
Bebas thi tu, main tujhe kyun na samjha!
Bewajah main khud-ba-khud yun hi tadpaa!
Bhool gaya us jahaan ko!
Bhoolaa woh sama.
Kho gaya ab mera aayinah..
Enjoy your privileged life
'Cause I'm not gonna hold you through the night. We said our last goodbyes, So, let's just try to end it with a smile. And I don't wanna hear that you are suffering no more! 'Cause I held you down when you were suffering! Blues away, way way .. I got two red pills to take the blues away.
And I'ma fuck the pain away, and I know I'll be okay.
They said our love is just a game, I don't care what they say! But I'ma drink the pain away, I'll be back to my old ways. And I got two red pills to take the blues away! #Weekndvibes
Even the skies bleed watching you walk away from my arms. I kept on wondering why couldn’t I rise, after falling for you?
Sometimes you just can’t explain what a certain person makes you feel like and you don’t have to. They once meant something to you, and they took you places you wouldn’t have discovered if they hadn’t held your hand along the way. You don’t have to explain why it can be hard to cut the ties when you tire of these places one day. When you wake up next to them and it no longer feels right. When you can’t take seeing the same old faces, when they no longer feel like home to you. You don’t have to justify missing these kinds of people even if they hurt you in the past, it is okay feel pain over their departure. It is okay to miss them and wish for them to come back even though you’re...
To burn and still come out stronger, more beautiful.
My entire life I’ve been trying to make people feel better ! Even the ones who don’t value me and my efforts! But for the first time in my life, I’m out of this mess.
You can’t change or try improving them. It’s always good to change yourself!
I know it’s hard to change yourself all of a sudden, but if you really want to feel free and feel indescribably indestructible.. then you gotta take baby steps towards loving yourself! You can’t waste your time on bullshit!
Don’t do anything for anyone anymore until they make an extraordinary effort for you or until they make you fall in love with yourself.
Some people have this tendency to show you how good they are and how sophisticated th...
Darling, even if end up on different worlds, I assure you I’ll travel through the stars just to make you smile.
So rest easy my love, nothing will keep us apart. Not even the stars that burn to keep us apart!
Your time as a caterpillar has expired.
Your wings are ready.
Mere saath baith kar ‘waqt’ bhi roya ek din,
Bola, Banda toh tu thik hai main hi kharab chal raha hun.
Maybe the day you fall in love with the wrong guy, will be the day you will miss me again!
I will say it again, a place without you is still an abandoned home that I keep running from..