Sometimes I feel like just running away to a place without emotions. A place where I don’t feel weak for anyone.
A place where my heart doesn’t have to feel.
A place where I can breathe.
A place where I can cry in peace coz I don’t need a fucking shoulder.
A place where I can feel accepted the way I am.
A place where I can smile again.
A place where I can roam around freely without anyone calling my name.
A place where I can just feel myself.
A place that doesn’t exist.
Happy Mother’s Day.
I would be nothing without your love.
I can never do enough for you.
The things that we read about the sacrifices that god had made for all of us, only make me feel that you’re a form of god. And I can openly say that I have not only seen, but lived, loved and have spend my whole life in the presence of god.
This stuck feeling kills me slowly. This lockdown has caged everyone inside. And sometimes we get stuck with some people who are entirely different from us.
Sometimes they are strangers and sometimes it’s your own family.
Sometimes the behaviour is unbearable and it feels so pathetic.
I’m disgusted by some attitudes. Not being able to cope up.
There’s no other way.
At least for now, it’s just going to be this way.
They aren’t bad but they are pretty imperfect and sometimes they guilt trip you to get something out of you.
This is very unhealthy and emotionally draining. When your own family doesn’t even accept the difference and fails to understand you.
They can say anything and ...
I look at people living the van life, and they are on the go all the time, whether they are building their tiny home on their van or planning something, they are always moving forward, always thinking about the next step, next move, next place, next experience, whether it’s a special breakfast or an activity or anything. It’s this ‘living life’ attitude, not waiting for difficult situations to be over before starting to think about living. I envy those who just have this confident sense of knowing exactly how they want their life to look like, and them making it a reality, finding purpose and energy in all the little things, which then accumulated and becomes one life story and journey. Ends ...
Meri awargi ki yeh saza manzoor hai mujhe,
Maane na yeh mann par sahi kia,
Door jo tujhe.
I feel emotionally weak and tears are gathering in my eyes.
I’m wondering how I’ve been so sacrificing and benevolent.
It has drained me in such a way that a part of me will always be alone and won’t trust anyone.
I’m not hopeless, I have feelings and I will trust people but not completely.
Side effects of selflessness.
The sun rises and sets everyday and will go on forever but not you, so make it count.
Is my life worth?
I put all my energy in giving peace to the people around me, I put all my energy in forcing them for their benefit.
I put all my energy in making their dreams come true.
I put all my energy in answering every question they ask.
I put all my energy in making them realize their goals.
I put all my energy into them.
I give my all in every way.
I love everyone and I pour my heart into developing their skills as an artist.
I forget myself in the process and I forget that I need to breathe too.
I forget that I have goals too.
I forget that I have more passion to fulfill my dreams as somewhere in my mind I compare them with myself.
I forget so many things when I’m doi...
In the past couple of months I have taken a few steps and those steps have changed my life. I did things which I never ever experienced. All my fears are gone and even if some of them still reside in me, I know that I have the courage to overcome them at the right moment. Life has become beautiful.
PS Do the things you fear, nothing else is worth doing.
Unheard and filled with emotional dirt..
Expectations always hurt..
Thinking about them all the time isn’t enough.
Caring about them and their habits isn’t enough.
Changing yourself according to their comfort isn’t enough.
Being available all the time isn’t enough.
Considering them your only priority isn’t enough.
Listening to them and their thoughts everyday isn’t enough.
Worshiping their presence isn’t enough.
Craving to be with them isn’t enough.
Afraid of losing them isn’t enough.
Understanding them more then you understand yourself isn’t enough.
Taking in their harsh words isn’t enough.
Admiring their weirdness every second isn’t enough.
Calling them beautiful and cute and actually meaning it isn’t enough.
Killing your ego for them isn’t enough.
Laughing your heart out.
Living your dreams.
Falling in true love.
Spending all your money.
Eating your favourite food.
Dancing in the rain.
Achieving great fitness.
Inspiring genuine people.
Travelling the world.
Do it before it’s too late.
It’s those painful memories that made me who I am today and that pain is all I have ever known.
Crying alone is one of the most practiced things that I’ve ever done.
It is one of the worst feelings one can feel. But it is a part of you, so embrace it. It is the purest form of emotion.
It may make you feel lonely and suicidal. But it also forces you to become better only if you understand it’s true meaning.
There are many happy moments that I’ve experienced but I don’t really remember them. What I remember is the painful ones. Why?
Even the universe within you teaches you something about yourself.
Happiness never gives you anything to learn. Sadness gives you everything.
Love feels the most beautiful when it’s reciprocated.
We don’t know what love is until we discover the kind of person we are and the kind of soul we’ll fall for.
We fall in love a few times in our lives, but it doesn’t really go well, things keep on happening, some time or the other.
Until you’re focusing on your partner only, you will be taken for granted and you won’t realise it until they start treating you like shit.
We all go through this because we feel so lonely within, that we just go insane in love.
All those betrayals, abandonments, cruelty that you face with your partner is only teaching you that you can handle some assholes like that and a stupid soul like yours even in the ...
The biggest truth is death.
The biggest god is of death.
The soul inside of us is the only thing keeping us alive. As soon as the light goes off, we’re gone forever, and then forever isn’t a lie anymore.
People leave us one by one and it breaks our heart to pieces.
Why do we run after money, game and success so much that we start taking people for granted?
Spending time with your loved ones is the only treasure. Cherish it before it’s too late.
There’s a huge difference between remembering the memories and actually having them near you so that you can touch them, love them before their soul vanishes forever.
Just remove hatred from your life and start taking care of your loved ones...
Life is really unpredictable and I think we all know that after every couple of years we feel like we should have done that when we had the chance.
We all know we can’t get everything we want, but we all know that we all can try as hard as we like.
Every moment that you’re spending right now is worth. Feel it. Start from drinking water to buying an airplane.
Feel the joy in everything. Feel happy with whatever you have.
Life is just one. Be happy for others and be kind to them. The world needs a lot of it.
Your efforts will deplete the suffering and it will come back to you.
Sometimes you just know that you’re alone and you gotta accept it coz you’re valuable.
Feel empowered and not empty as no one can love you all the time, only you can.
Sometimes your heart is so filled with emotions that you just can’t control your tears. You cry for hours and nobody knows.
People say it’s one of the worst feeling a person can ever feel. But I’d say it’s the biggest achievement which makes you realise that you’re all alone in this and helps you get used to it which in turn leads to self control and you become more forward looking without wasting time over thinking about the things that are said and gone.
It is kind of impossible for some people to accept this because they expect attention and care from the ones who’ve actually hurt them. But getting over it is the only way to move on and think about your life.
Coz if they really cared...
When you understand yourself, know what you want, and do the right thing always, nothing can stop you from achieving your dreams.
And when you find the right person who has the same vision as yours, which is to feel happy and spread peace.
Then I must tell you, every problem seems small, every negative thought becomes invaluable and every tiny act of kindness becomes the purest form of joy.
Trust me you can achieve all this, but it has a procedure.
The procedure starts from you.
Understand yourself and why you’ve been born.
Work on yourself every single day and everything will come to you. Your dreams, your soulmate and your soul satisfaction.
It is the most beautiful feeling ever.
Life isn’t gonna get better until you take a bold step every single day towards the better. Going with the same flow which is kind of unproductive and too monotonous isn’t gonna help.
Whatever you’re doing or whatever you’re earning isn’t gonna give you the right satisfaction whereas whatever you’re feeling will.
There’s happiness hidden in so many things. It comes to us in so many forms.
Life is not about spending money or doing what you love. Though it gives a sense of accomplishment but it isn’t everything.
Life is all about acceptance, feeling beautiful even if you have nothing.
Finding satisfaction in nothing will give you happiness in everything.
So whatever your earning or ...
No matter how hard it is to love yourself, you have to do it. It’s necessary for you to feel what your heart, body and soul deserves and not just what your mind desires.
I love you is a lie..
The wait is over, the Hope is over, the time is gone and I’m all alone.
I’m just a puppet and I follow instructions.
Only my emotions, require corrections.
They are always right to disagree and I’m wrong with my objections.
They say they were addicted and it was unhealthy but the truth is that I was the one with the obsession.
Suddenly from special and the bestest, I have become random.
I believed in them more than they did, yet, me they abandon.
It doesn’t matter when I’m gonna stop breathing, I’m already dead.
The colour of my tears now, is red.
They think they did the right deed..
but is it right to make me bleed?
In each other, we both ploughed the lov...
A scary celebration..
It’s been a few years that I have realised this one thing about the seasons and it touches my soul in many ways.
As soon as the monsoon ends, the weather goes a little dry and it’s
🍂 autumn🍁 and it gives me a really weird vibe!
In my country, the colourful, traditional and celebrated festivals arise around this time.
I used to love this part of the year as it is so calm and there’s a sense of silence even in the noisy world around me. That silence is my own and it makes me feel so nostalgic and I lose all my senses to understand.
It is beautiful yet scary, as I go through all the flashbacks that made me who I am.
Today as I was walking by the road in the eve...
Just like the moon, your greatest magic will come in the time of darkness. When you have no choice but to trust your own power.
When you go through a series of bad relationships, you tend to become more mature/desperate and careful/carefree(it depends).
But there’s that one part of ourselves that we lose in every relationship that we left behind.
Because of that one part we don’t stay the same with the next person.
Now, if we are going through a hard time with them, it’s not only their fault. It’s your fault coz you think that you’re completely in love and doing everything you can to not let go, but that’s not true.
You’ve lost yourself piece by piece and you think that you’re the same.
It is really wrong of you to think so!
Expecting our partner to do whatever they can to prove it to us that they genuinel...
Sometimes we feel so low in life that we think we’ll lose everything. It feels like that our dreams are not going to come true, our life will stay the same and we will lose everything including our lover.
At that moment, we’re being put to a test. A test which is necessary for us. It is a reality check that helps you realise how important your identity is for your existence.
You may feel like giving up, coz you’re somehow done proving yourself right. Well, give up on proving it to the world and even to yourself. That stress kills our strength. We have a lot of strength and this fear will destroy our strength.
The point is not to prove it to yourself or to anyone, but to feel satisfied. J...
We make it a really big deal when we are in love and our lover needs some time and space to process their thoughts.
The only reason behind our insecurity is that we never found true love. We all crave for that one person who will believe in us, care for us, stay with us and love us for who we are.
But we have to understand our partner as well. We have to understand how their mind works. Maybe they wanna come back to us again that’s why they’re going away. But we’re so sensitive and afraid of the fact that we might lose them or sometimes we think that they’re going to abandon us just like others. It can scare them too. They will also lose a sense of belonging.
We have to have an understand...
As soon I woke up I sensed the sunlight on my skin. I felt it on my face and it felt like your touch. As if you’re caressing my face with your soft hands. Obviously you are far away from me at the moment but that touch made me feel that you’re closer and next to me. Your presence in my life leaves this kinda impact on my soul. It makes wanna love you more. You’re the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. Whether I close my eyes or not, ‘YOU’ is all I see.