A scary celebration..
It’s been a few years that I have realised this one thing about the seasons and it touches my soul in many ways.
As soon as the monsoon ends, the weather goes a little dry and it’s
🍂 autumn🍁 and it gives me a really weird vibe!
In my country, the colourful, traditional and celebrated festivals arise around this time.
I used to love this part of the year as it is so calm and there’s a sense of silence even in the noisy world around me. That silence is my own and it makes me feel so nostalgic and I lose all my senses to understand.
It is beautiful yet scary, as I go through all the flashbacks that made me who I am.
Today as I was walking by the road in the eve...
Just like the moon, your greatest magic will come in the time of darkness. When you have no choice but to trust your own power.
When you go through a series of bad relationships, you tend to become more mature/desperate and careful/carefree(it depends).
But there’s that one part of ourselves that we lose in every relationship that we left behind.
Because of that one part we don’t stay the same with the next person.
Now, if we are going through a hard time with them, it’s not only their fault. It’s your fault coz you think that you’re completely in love and doing everything you can to not let go, but that’s not true.
You’ve lost yourself piece by piece and you think that you’re the same.
It is really wrong of you to think so!
Expecting our partner to do whatever they can to prove it to us that they genuinel...
Sometimes we feel so low in life that we think we’ll lose everything. It feels like that our dreams are not going to come true, our life will stay the same and we will lose everything including our lover.
At that moment, we’re being put to a test. A test which is necessary for us. It is a reality check that helps you realise how important your identity is for your existence.
You may feel like giving up, coz you’re somehow done proving yourself right. Well, give up on proving it to the world and even to yourself. That stress kills our strength. We have a lot of strength and this fear will destroy our strength.
The point is not to prove it to yourself or to anyone, but to feel satisfied. J...
We make it a really big deal when we are in love and our lover needs some time and space to process their thoughts.
The only reason behind our insecurity is that we never found true love. We all crave for that one person who will believe in us, care for us, stay with us and love us for who we are.
But we have to understand our partner as well. We have to understand how their mind works. Maybe they wanna come back to us again that’s why they’re going away. But we’re so sensitive and afraid of the fact that we might lose them or sometimes we think that they’re going to abandon us just like others. It can scare them too. They will also lose a sense of belonging.
We have to have an understand...
As soon I woke up I sensed the sunlight on my skin. I felt it on my face and it felt like your touch. As if you’re caressing my face with your soft hands. Obviously you are far away from me at the moment but that touch made me feel that you’re closer and next to me. Your presence in my life leaves this kinda impact on my soul. It makes wanna love you more. You’re the most beautiful thing ever happened to me. Whether I close my eyes or not, ‘YOU’ is all I see.
Sochun kya is mod par ?
Main yahan atak gaya..
Thami na teri yeh berukhi,
Main bewajah bhatak gaya!
Bole mujhe, hai ishq tujhe..
Teri baaton mein ulajh gaya,
Kaha nahi tune sach mujhe,
Mera dil wahin simat gaya. -Roohaan
Every individual in your life will expect something out of you in the name of love, duty, responsibility or friendship. No matter who they are or how much they matter to you. You always have a choice to make, whether you want to do it for them happily or just do it in an unhealthy way.
Your parents, your friends, your lover, your colleagues etc expect you to behave in a certain way or do something for them. They don’t expect a ‘NO’. It becomes obvious for them that you will surely do it.
Your beautiful heart is ready to do anything for them but you are not realising that it’s unhealthy for you. Every individual should fight their own battle, see what’s right or wrong for them and let the ...
Work hard on yourself and discover yourself more coz if you don’t, then someone people will always take away what you deserve. Be a complete package so that you don’t have to go to anyone for any help. No matter how hard it is to achieve it. Just Do everything on your own and own it.
JUST A POEM ABOUT HER:
She hugs me with her feelings and I hug her back with mine.
She took away all my sorrows,
And because of her, I shine.
She’s the woman I wanna wake up next to,
She’s the one with whom I wanna dine.
She’s the lady who knows where to draw a line.
And I know if I trust her, I’ll be fine.
I’m a nine and she’s also a nine.
We do clash sometimes, but we don’t stop tryin’
We don’t stop each other from laughing but we do stop each other from cryin’
She’s the most beautiful thing I ever called mine.
So finally my friend left a moment ago.
I went to see him off outside to the taxi. I somehow controlled my tears as he was the only one I trusted and shared my emotions with, in my city and now he was leaving. Life never lets you feel safe and stable for long.
Even after getting hurt I prayed for them,
That’s how I lived my life and still craved for them.
Today my heart is crying because my friend is leaving the city as he found another better opportunity for himself. I’m happy for him but I will remember the time we spent together. No matter how hard and selfish he sounds, no matter how harsh his words are sometimes but he always taught me the right thing. He made me see things clearly. He pushed me out of the apartment so that I could face my fears and fight my anxiety. He’s a really strong headed individual who is always focused. But deep down I know there’s a heart in him which still cares about things. Doesn’t matter if it’s the hard way but still the right way.
“There are hard learners and then there are smart learners. You’re a hard ...
When someone hurts you without noticing that they’re sounding so insensitive and rude, it just kills the vibe.
No matter how much you try and think about them and their welfare, sometimes it’s impossible to expect anything.
When we’re in true love, we tend to think about them more than ourselves coz love is all about giving.
But sometimes it hurts you so much that it starts to feel numb.
And your tears just stay in your eyes. Neither they drop nor they dry.
It’s so easy sometimes for people to give up on you that you start feeling scared of being alone forever coz it’s scary as hell. And being with them makes you feel scared too coz they’re insensitively hurting and leaving you in a se...
Sometimes your soul needs a much needed getaway.
It feels like all your life’s negativity just went away.
You just feel the moment with having nothing to say.
Like in your black and white, you finally found your grey.
#Skylark challenge 200 #2
Five years ago a guy started his journey to an endless world.
A world full of dreams and opportunities. That guy went through thick and thin, without letting anyone know about it.
That guy lived most of the time alone. That guy spent like thousands of lonely nights with a hope of seeing light. To learn and to implement was his only goal.
That guy was just a beginner and he barely knew anything.
That guy wanted to create music.
That guy wanted to channelise his emotions.
That guy wanted to inspire people to face their own fears.
That guy wanted people to find satisfaction in every emotion.
That guy wanted to give to those that lived a similar life as his and ...
#Skylark Challenge 200 #1
He was five years old and he was molested by some people. He lived a few more years to realise that it was just a start.
When he fourteen years old he was bullied and molested again by some people.
One day he went on a trip with his friends and they all were in a pool, playing volleyball. After the game his so called friends held him and shoved him underwater. He could barely breathe. He nearly saw death but his friends pulled him out seconds before. He realised that maybe his lonesomeness put a blindfold on his eyes and these people are not his friends. He stopped swimming as he became hydrophobic. He still is, but now he lives alone and is following his dreams. He...
Take yourself away from the unhealthy.
Life is one, and you know it can end anytime. Value your time and the moments you spend with your loved ones. Most importantly, spend time with yourself. Spending time alone gives you clarity and satisfaction.
Many people are craving to be with someone or they think that someone will make them happy or someone will do something good for them, and then only life is complete.
That’s absolutely wrong! We can love ourselves as much as we expect others to love us.
And giving your calm away for the people you want or need is never gonna give you soul satisfaction.
Draining yourself for anyone, doesn’t matter how important they are to you, is actually not...
The feeling you get when you find that one person.
This person isn’t the one you always wanted or needed.
This person is not the one who hurt you.
This person is not someone who will abandon you or betray you.
THIS PERSON is nowhere near your choice but you fall in love with them.
This person makes you fall in love with yourself and helps you heal.
This person is the light that brightened your life.
This person showed you the right path and you feel independent, emotionally.
This person makes you stand up for your own self.
When you feel happy alone, you tend to understand that your individual happiness lies within.
After finding your happiness, you make a choice...
Now what can I say about how I feel?
Trembled is my breath and there’s a question on my living.
You don’t have any idea nor did you ever had any grief.
Everyday, you’re a tree and I’m a falling leaf. 🍂
In the end, you are all alone, as people will always love you when it’s convenient for them.
These rains mesmerise us.
The clouds cry to give us peace without any expectations.
We also have someone in our lives whom we love so much that we cry within sometimes but we want them to feel happy.
There’s not much of a difference between us and the clouds anyway.
Zindagi bhar woh ek ishq paane ki chahat mein khud ko gawa dena aur yehi galti har baar karna woh ek ishq paane ki chahat mein.
Jab yeh aadat ho jati hai, toh sukoon nahi milta hai raahat mein.
Bas dil ghabrata hai kisi naye insaan ki aahat mein.
Aisa samaj paana aur phir bhi umeed karna ke yeh intezaar khatam Kab hoga.
Humare badhte dard ko kaun apna waqt dega?
Yeh intezaar jhoota hai kyunki koi nahi aane wala! Kisi ko farak nahi padta saala.
Sab apne mein lage hain Tum bhi lag jao.
Apne dard ka gaana bana kar gaao.
Bhool jao woh intezaar jo tumne aaj tak kiya.
Samaj jao yehi sach hai, Kuch nahi hoga aisi haalat mein. Khud se karo ishq, Kuch nahi rakha is unke ishq ki waqaalat me...
As I was walking down a road today, it was full of jam packed traffic, it was really hot and humid. I was listening to some music but I couldn’t focus on it due to the noise around me. My crowded city full of vehicles and humidity didn’t let me focus on the song I was listening to. And then all of a sudden I noticed , a butterfly flying over, away from me and instantly my mind was diverted as the clouds gave sun a cover and me a shade. Gradually, everything around me changed. I kept looking at the butterfly as it was flying away from me. Unexpectedly, I could hear my music again and it gave me a new meaning. Those thirty seconds made me realise that we can always find peace in everything. We ...
I think my soulmate is my soulmate because I love them with my everything though it won’t be the same if I behaved like them.
There’s this feeling when you are alone and there’s this another feeling when someone makes you feel alone even in their presence. There’s a huge difference between the two.
The feeling eats up your mind and buries your emotions for a moment. It can be anything they said or made you feel.
What’s the point trusting someone?
What’s the point giving them your everything when they can’t even give you, your peace. I mean one can find his/her peace alone but when you are with someone you expect them to reciprocate and that is the peace of the situation.
Why is it so di...
Happy World Music Day 🎧🎸🍾🤟🏼
Music is like god, it is there for you when no one is, it understands you when no one does, it makes you remember your memories, both happy/sad which actually satisfies our soul as nostalgia is a cure to our hearts. It makes you smile when you don’t even want to and it makes you cry when you feel numb and feelingless. It motivates to get up every day and work for yourself, your family, your dreams and your life.
It controls in a way that you feel safe and it never asks you anything in return. Music is indeed like god. A mixture of darkness and light. A feeling which makes you see the stars in the dark and gives you a shed in broad daylight of the sun. It changes t...
It’s funny how people just use your presence until you are a part of their daily routine and then they just replace you or leave you. They make you feel uncomfortable, unworthy and unwanted. A lot of us go through this mini trauma. And we all have this fear of abandonment. You’re worth everything good.
I must say it is really courageous to be in that situation when you give your all to someone knowing the face that they might take away your essence of life and break everything in a fraction of a second.
We all want that someone, who will never stop choosing us and who will be there for us when no one will believe in our existence.
We find a lot of people and we tend to fall for them coz ...
To the man who never gave up on me..
To the person who's values made me who I am today..
I thank you for being there for me in my darkest times. No matter how dark the time is, or no matter what anybody says, I will always love you. You are the light in everybody's lives, doesn't matter if one realises it or not. I care for you, I am your son and your son is saying this to you that you’re his everything. I want you to take care of your health and be happy. With you, I learnt how to be happy in the smallest of things and not in other materialistic stuff which people crave for and look forward to. I learnt equality, integrity and to be kind with every individual. I learnt patience, resilience, ...