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I know that I am unloved
I know that I have been shoved
away for pixelated babes!
I know I am no beloved, perhaps
if I were in a fandom in War and Frame.
I know that I am good to scratch
certain itches when they occur.
I know that unloved and me have
been aquatinted for more three.
Those years that were faked now leaves my soul staked,
I am truly unloved as this spirit aches.
Unloved, not wanted, I am a living ghost haunted.
This is always how it goes.
The pain in my body spreads to my soul.
What is the name for this?
I wish to know!
A never ending loop that consists of; get up, do what I can, and fall back down again.
I try to be strong, I try to carry on.
No one likes to hear, this burden I cannot bear.
Those closest at hand I think they try to understand but I am no pillar that withstands hurricanes of agonizing pangs.
I often wonder does this make me weak?
I have survived the worst of the worst and still managed to get by.
My body something else breaks, I always figure out what it takes!
I cannot stand alone for I have tried,
I stumble and falter
oh god; my pride!
I truly ask for very little but in the end I ...
Forgive and forget or it could be you regret.
Sometimes a look back can
tell where you're at.
Others hearts are full of ill will.
Seeing the truth can be freeing.
Sometimes in order to become our own butterflies,we may have to go through several "cocoons". Forgiveness is a must too!
They say eyes are windows to the soul, so why do people feign ignorance of their worth?
I can get lost those eyes, I have heard!
The same person can leave for the absolute absurd!
Speaking with romance is easy you see,
Learning to read the soul of those windows?
That takes a mighty, mature person indeed!
They say the eyes are the windows to your
soul.so if you can look into each others and
express words not spoken, why is this and more
that has awoken. A moment past and
whispers that have asked why? The journey
of separate paths that parallel but with
occasional whole only to lead to divided halves
so forth the story goes. Staring into panes of
metaphorical glass the only thing to ask, why
must this be a task? Understanding the why
and the time that cannot bend may only lend
to tears unshed. Putting on a mask so perhaps
the pains that show a soul will be shrouded
and the other may not know.
this blackness like a fog consumes thee,
wandering around in circles
alludes but by decree.
fear crawls upon any and more
settling down in any.
it's now the time to find the light.
you are not by yourself,
it's not just your fight.
we are made in an image of might.
show yourself to eachother,
I believe in love and I believe in people. I believe in the ability to grow and become more than what life has molded. I believe one act of kindness can spawn waves of continued humanity. I believe we all have the ability to be more; to buid, to flourish, and most of all THRIVE! Our strengths and our weaknesses as people are what make US unique, what makes us HUMAN. We WILL survive.
Hello Lettrs Family!!!
I have been unable to login for forever. I tried again this day, voilà!
I hope you all are staying safe at this difficult and scary time, but I know that we can do great things together, the whole world... despite some awful setbacks. I will be posting again it seems. Much love to Drew and the team!
Under the same sky
it is you and I,
just to touch.
Black en gold
the fantasy had
to go underground.
reality is life,
there is no obstruction
all before, it was play
it was conceived
now only bereaved.
Before it was distance
that took away persistence.
In these days it seems
a joke you do see,
more along the lines
of pathetic apathy.
I promise I do not
need an ounce of
Strangers we were,
and once again we are.
Forgetting the dangers,
to heart and soul.
Am I not more than just a face?
My mind wanders to much,
trying to understand a disgrace!
I am more than just skin deep,
judgements are made by a peep.
If you take the time to know my mind,
automatically maligned you would not!
This is no longer the meat market,
the times of purveyors is obsolete.
I am more than this skin I wear,
underneath all are bare in soul,
man should speak and extol of underneath.
#SS from Drew
Every moment of every day, the more I know and feel...the deeper this well of emotion overcomes me and threatens to overwhelm. I ache for that moment when two rapidly beating hearts beat as one and a simple slip of skin could send me into a spin. I look upon that face and my heart does race.
Weekly challenge and my own "challenge", write with Drew's SS as inspiration.
Swimming in tears that fell in fear.
Using hands to cover the place
that had been your space.
Painting the dust with saline rain
helping self to understand the pain.
A heart wrenching that seems endless
marble has replaced flesh to depart.
Loss of any and all can maim the whole,
lose your child you may as well lose your soul.
"Stamps from Drew"
To have such fear
if truth was told
to shatter hold
it would no more.
To tremble dear
no clue to know
as with certainty
and forward on
Little bird with broken wings; it seems that little bird is left to die you see. Ja, ja Little bird will fly! There was determination to defy, the damage extensive. Despite at first; constant aggravation, Little bird werked intensive. Only wings to heal and heart to feel; Little bird began to spread feathers some more, sooner than expected, Little bird soared!
*thank you Drew Berkowitz for this social stamp, I hope you see this letter.*
I remember the things I want to forget,
forever it seems that I will regret.
A shattered mirror broken at my feet,
the reflection is nothing I wish to meet.
Having prayed for circumspect,
I am an architect of a wreck.
Intersecting lives that do intertwine,
it is me to blame for this design.
Life moves forward with little regard.
I only wish to erase all that has been marred.
It became the norm every day to disregard,
The husk of what should be "home" was nothing but charred for sure.
Where had the detour of half truths and no time get us to?
It took two separating, taking a tour of who each were.
Now as ...
I stop the cries
when I stopped the hate
I began to realize
I was a lunatic
for having loved the snake. 🐍
Still do we stand
and take in hand.
Also allow the
beauty to sink
within our souls.
A look and simple
touch is all I know.
To my heart
and my soul,
I do love you so!
In his mind; in his way, it
was he, himself that gave.
His pride flourished, believing
that he was loving.
He could not see her silent crying,
If his life did not match the ego,
A temper's flair did dispatch,
Always behind a mask SHE wore,
screaming to be made whole but,
chained to the immortal was her role.
Social Stamp Inspiration:
Sent by: Drew Berkowitz
The first glance
and there was a twist
in my soul that
felt almost amiss,
the feeling of,
what is this?
A look as passed
by which did
always a glimpse did
cast, heart did
beat too fast, as words
of jest did flow, and
times often did go.
Under stars did speak,
often moments I was
weak, perhaps a game
did we play or one
would call sister for me.
Moments gone as emotions
go. All for naught and
things did slow. The times
do speak for lies made
meek, Nothing meant
as feelings were faux.
my heart I give for you to keep. I dream of holding on, wrapped in love. Passion deep and fires steep. I love you more with every breath I seek; the transcendent words, we need not speak. Conflagrations peak every morning that we are a part.
IT is what IT is and nothing more.
Just not exactly sure what IT, is for.
This thing that has become
something enormous and
yet, IT can wax and wane,
like a surf crashing to
and from the shore.
Confusion ever present
at times terror transcendent.
IT is my heart
and IT is sore.
Is there something else to this,
of this I am unsure?
So further undefined,
further emotions entwined.
What else to do?
There is only time to accrue.
The patterns were always the same,
lives entwined with intricacy.
Sensitivities flaring with inadequacy.
As the show went,
storm clouds concentrated,
all could witness intent.
Despite embracing it all,
ascent had been at a crawl,
chasing memory every last stall.
A Trump Tweet from Japan
The sentiments in this tweet shows; a VERY unstable persona, in MANY OBVIOUS ways. Insisting that he has a "love affair", with a known dictator who killed one of his own siblings, but murders his people in DROVES. Jong-un runs concentration camps of 3-Generations. These camps run with "punishment" of 3 generations of of 1 family. Small CHILDREN to SENIOR CITIZENS, the conditions so appalling that these 2 groups of "generations" are the most vulnerable. Mass starvation, mass suppression of ALL personal FREEDOMS and information, which Trump LOVES and DESPERATELY WISHES TO EMULATE. He also expressed amusement and joy at Jong-un's ridicule of his political OPPONENT, but...
I don't want things to be logical.
I want to be happy and
I want to make you happy,
even if it makes no sense at
Knowing that the mind was clouded, all she wanted was for Dad to see, how proud of the woman she could be.
Last words said, I love you Daddy. Dad spoke with some joy, I love you too my baby girl. Now the past will unfurl, tears and pain swirl, as memories whirl!
Her Dad was now with her Mum, the two became as one, saying goodbye rips out part of her soul; but she can see their aureole, together they are home.
"Ik hou van jou PaPa. Ik mis je heel erg."