|I'm still trying to find me, but I'd love to find US TOGETHER|
First let me state that I'm in no way looking for recognition for my actions, I only wish to share the immense feelings of joy & happiness that I, simple me was able to bring such joy into the life of another when out with my son earlier today...
In line at McDonald's after having downloded the APP, finding the coupon & calling some 5 or 6 past used gift cards (all having a remaining balance of mere change but combined equaled enough to buy the fries my son nor I needed, but would bring a happiness to him was more than enough for my struggle) Alas as I approached the register with one person a head my primary phone died, with a line behind I stepped aside motioning them ahead, I was sligh...
I'm "IN" shape...
ROUND is a shape,
Besides I'll ALWAYS be
Cause I'll NEVER turn
I'll never understand her reasoning:
After signing me over to the state I still remember vividly the conversation between her & me,
She asked me "If you were doing meth why weren't you losing weight?"
There was no concern that I was using drugs, just queries at why I failed even in being a druggie!
She told me that they were getting divorced, that he found another woman on the internet.
At that point why would it even matter to me?
My question was "So why didn't you leave him for me, why didn't I matter enough to you? Yet he left you for some bimbo on the internet!"
Her reply "How do you know she's a bimbo?"
My baffled response "Um, you kinda missed the point entirely!"
"I'll be right here where you left me...
Waiting for you...
I've never had a "song"
I've never had a "place"
Is it so wrong for me to want this for US, to start a new life TOGETHER?
It means so much to me,
I'd truly go anywhere to be your Queen!
First can't I live the dream, of Knight rescuing the princess within me?
I LOVE YOU
I wonder if you know how much it pains me to know, that while I needed you, you needed me, yet neither was aware the needs behind the others despairs...
The difference between negativity & deppression:
Depression is within me & out of my control to an extent,
Negativity is what a person expels onto another & is completely within one's control!
Negativity is meanness,
Depression is sadness!
Depression & empathy are great friends!
Negativity can't even extend friendship to sympathy!
My depression causes me to lash out at me!
Negativity causes people to lash out at others!
I can't explain why the negative is so much easier to accept than the positive, other than perhaps it speaks to the depression within me!
My heart however (for the most part, I am human) refuses to convert my inner turmoil into negativity against another.
I do spe...
I left him due to drinking AND getting prostitutes while we were together...moved 5 states away cause my son was assaulted by a family member in KY he followed me back...i was in an abusive relationship out here that was SUPER BAD & he offered me a place..an escape I agreed on the basis of only as roommates & cause I not only needed an escape but wanted my son's father to be a part of his life but he couldn't accept that i didn't want to be with him i had my own room but once woke up to him raping me which kinda through me through a ptsd spiral so i stayed out at night leaving when he came home going back when he went to work...things got worse if i wasn't ready to leave as soon as he got hom...
Another comment on another fridge my apologies I really need to start remembering who's fridge I commented on I'm a scatter brain most times & if it weren't for copy & paste & then immediately going to my fridge I'd squrril off posting my comments as well... so forgive me my scatter brain ways it's not intentional...
The comment I left:
I'm ok with giving love with no return, it's the times my love is used against me that kills me internally, but still I give love freely cause to do otherwise would make me someone like them, they say love your self in order to love others but I know plenty who love them selfs yet can't love others, so is it wrong if in loving others I then love my self mo...
Watching Kong in 3D
4th row from the front
Other phone died
(Just in case u chose to join me)
Manstake stake ur claim😁
Just saying 😘
Just left this as a comment & I rather quite liked it so I figured I'd share on my fridge as well... My apologies I was in a hurry in forgot to check who's fridge I was in 😶...
But you can see the air everywhere, you can see it as it picks up leaves in the fall, you can see it blow the girls skirts in spring, you can see them struggling against it as well, you can see it in a person's chest as it rises falls, sometimes even the invisible has a time to be seen!
I've got different memories associated with owls:
1 of camp long ago... I loved that experience THANK YOU!
The second & not such a great memory, perhaps now cause I realize the answer I got & why it was the answer; wish I had been able to forget that memory like I've forgotten ones I wish I could remember!
I remember waking up on the shared mattress between my sister & brother both older than me,
I was scared & kept trying to wake my sister up but she kept telling me to go back to sleep.
Aggravated & still scared I told her in a not so quite whisper..."BUT THERE'S AN OWL IN THE HOUSE!"
Her replied answer stumped me, untill that is just recently, with all the owls appearing on everythin...
I've but one TRUE love,
It's only EVER been one,
I wonder does he know that no matter how painfully or often he says goodbye,
I'll forever wanna be his bride!
Forgive me if at times my realities overcome the hope in me,
It's hard to hope when your realities are drowning you,
I'd give just about anything to escape the realities that are drowning me!
It's truly not for a lack of trying,
In fact me trying is what buried me,
Hard to explain but it's truly my reality!
Forgive me as I forgive you!
Maybe then I can love me,
like you say I should do!
The perfect wedding for me I'd have to say would be any planned with him outta love!
If loving you is truly a crime,
Then I'll be a criminal till the end of time!
I'll admit if I had the experience like the one in the stamp I'd probably not be so terrified of elevators....
When I was little, I've no idea where our mom was which wasn't uncommon) my brother & I were playing in an elevator going up & down, that is till he decided to push EVERY button...the elevator stopped the doors opened...the floor isn't supposed to be in the middle, is it!? Well it was & it took a fire department & what felt like forever to get us out!
True story lol
Once I received flowers at work...
I was in KY
They were in AZ
Flowers are nice
I applied for a loan,
Was told I had to prove I have a job,
If I had a job I wouldn't need a loan!
I have $2 cash, some change in the bottom of my purse & $0.97 in the bank!
I'm not broke money wise as that's more than I had when I was homeless,
I'm broke inside & that's not a good feeling, being a person who loves to bring others happiness as it also brings me happiness, it's difficult to be so broken & lost when all I want is to love & be loved. Especially since I now hide away cause I'm scared to destroy me completely, which only destroys me more since in this hell I hide in no one can possibly find me! I know it's silly, trust me I've tried, but each time I crawl out & fail it's tha...
If you see a pregnant lady jump up & waddle quickly outside would you sympathize with me,
I need more than a perceived sign,
Please show me empathy..
Call me maybe,
Some times I'm so broke,
I can barely afford to pay attention!
I'm still trying to find me,
I'd LOVE to find
Todavía estoy tratando de encontrarme pero me encantaría encontrarnos juntos!
I'm still waiting to read a book,
"The Travelers Bible"
I believe is what the name was intended, originally told to me!
How were the chicken tacos?
I've not made em since that day!
Do not believe that I forget as easily as I might pretend, not about you my dearest friend!
I'd never wish to be who we used to be back then,
Cause then that would mean our love couldn't win!
You know as well as me that your destroying you as you destroy me!
If that's what makes you happy, I'll take the sadness any day!
And so it seems
once again in hoping
I have destroyed me!
I admit I'm ruled by emotions at times, there's times when I'm quick to lash out it's not a trait I'm most proud of & yet that very trait is also what enables me the ability to forgive just as quick, which honestly can also be a downfall in situations where forgiveness, although to an extent is required, should not be given in a means that allows another to walk all over me or another (which I'm also guilty of doing) I guess what I'm saying is that yes I have traits that are good & bad combined together, do I wish them away? No cause they are what makes me who I am...do I need to work on them? Of course doesn't everyone have things that they need to work on!? I don't blame anyone for the li...