Skylark Challenge 169
As *mystic *howls begin to surge...
...An untamed *instinct to *prowl,
Becomes the solitary urge!
Amidst the guttural growls!
It's said people tend to remember the beginning and the end and forget the middle...
(i.e. to stand out from others interviewing for the same job u should be first or last...)
With that theory in mind...
"I Love You"...
If "I" and "You" are remembered then "Love" would be forgotten, in which case I'd gladly switch places with love or omit I altogether & lead with love and finish with you!
Lost in the clouds all black
Your love I truly did lack
Misery in every shade of grey
Wishing you would come back today
Speak the emotions you refused to say
Wish I was worth your love in even the slightest way
In sorrow and heartbreak here I lay
My love for you in tears I pay
Broken hearted pieces placed on a collection tray
So long as you're happy I'll endure my souls dismay
Maybe, maybe one day
Maybe one day you'll decide
Maybe one day you'll decide to stay
Your memories forever on replay
Butterfly trys to dance in the rain☔
Instead drowns in rice grains🌾
Can you hear her silent pain🆘
Y do I ALWAYS let my anxiety win? Of course if I had a car or even a ride I could make it still but not on the bus not now! I'm so screwed! Gonna Wind up in prison just cause anxiety kicked my ass again!
I've got a possible solution for the problem you sent to me...I wonder if you'd both agree...
Find the sum of X and tell me does it add up for you just as sweetly as I'm perceiving?
A caterpillar gazes at the sky,
Wonders when he'll ever get to be so high,
In cocoon wraps caterpillar with a gentle sigh,
A transformation was nigh...
A butterfly emerges,
Flies ever so high,
To place a kiss on summers golden sky!
(You asked me why,
Why I love you,
"Summers Golden Sky",
To my "Butterfly"!)
Hi, so this was originally meant as a comment to a free will post but well as u can see it was difficult to compress lol...(I'm also going to send it as a pm to the person as well!)
Wishing u ALL the happiness life has to offer & more!!
I in no way am judging anyone these are merely my thoughts(which I'll b honest are generally ever changing and evolving, hopefully for the better...)I've had different thoughts and beliefs over the short(seemingly long) course of my life thus far with very little outside influence. As children we were kept away from church and pretty much anything to do with religion. Outside of the few questions we asked and the vague answers we were given my only real me...
Connecting with another,
To me is, like plugging a power cord into a watermelon...
...of no use and only serves to ruin the both!
...you know where to find me!
Make sure I'm who you TRULY want...
...cause I won't survive another goodbye should it come from your lips following another hello!
I don't need to self mutilate...
...I simply give my heart away...
...and sit back and wait...
...for the inevitable heartbreak!!!
K so I'm over here climbing walls and if ur not willing to/interested in taking care of what u caused then just let me know instead of whatever it is ur doing(if u even know!) All I know is u were warned that if u did it again I'd b done and being that I'm sure u left ur flashlight here on purpose cause u knew u weren't just going to pick up money real quick...I TRULY don't understand y the lies though? I'm not blaming u for the fact that I failed my son yesterday because I should have known better(I FUCKING KNOW BETTER) despite asking u Wed night if u were gonna b leaving Thurs(I invited u for Thanksgiving dinner did u really expect me to not wait for u?) Even though I wasn't sure what to ...
I learned a few years ago that despite how much it may seem as though someone's writing is to, for or about me...I can not assume it to be so! It's hard and helpful in similar ways, it's hard cause I'd love to believe that all the lettrs full of love are for me even as impossible as that is to me! It's helpful to me even if only slightly since it helps me at least try not to believe all the lettrs saying goodbye are possibly not directed at me! I try to accept all that while waiting, hoping, praying & wishing to get that lettr that's truly addressed to me, for me & about me! Maybe one day!
What do you expect...
Kiss me met with a shoulder push,
I want you met with go to sleep,
I love you met with silence...
I need you met with your absence!
You chose to pretend I didn't mean anything,
And yet meeting someone new didn't help, it only made me feel worse!
Why do I have to feel wrong & guilty when your the one who chose to discard me!
And if you sent him to test me then you failed to realize I'm not obligated to be loyal to someone (no matter how much I love them) if they aren't mine nor I theirs! You are free to do as you please and you did so without any concern about hurting me! As much as I don't want to hurt you and despite loving you I can't hold onto empty air whene...
Eyes closed so my lips cannot speak,
Mouth shut so my eyes your
sight they cannot seek!
Loving you leaves me weak, trembling, plunging off the highest peak.
So used to the pain you cause it's welcomed with a smile, no longer met with a shriek!
Head still hurts from all the thoughts you make me think!
I'll write my pain with pen cause you can't erase ink!
I can be though, if only you would finally blink!
Dream like haze of pink you'll wake with this final wink!
I don't expect to find anyone strong enough to carry ALL my baggage...
... I do however hope to one day find someone brave enough to help me unpack it!
I AM NOT...
I AM NOT the best.
I AM NOT the prettiest.
I AM NOT the most caring.
I AM NOT the most giving.
I AM NOT the most generous.
I AM NOT the sexiest.
I AM NOT the most intelligent.
I AM NOT the most loveable.
I AM NOT the most savvy.
I AM NOT the skinniest.
The list goes on for I AM NOT so, so many things!
However out of all the things I AM NOT...not one can compare to what I AM...for I...I AM simply...ME!
Some call me C.B.
Some call me FROGGIE.
Some call me BRE.
My birth name is Sabrina...
they are ALL...
Did you ever stop and wonder what loving you would do to me? Did you ever stop to wonder what losing you would do to me?
Did you ever wonder what I went through EVERY time you vanished into thin air on me?
Did you ever wonder if by tricking my mind into believing you were someone else, you had also tricked my heart as well?
Did you really believe that you could waltz into my life as someone "new" and trick my heart into believing it wasn't you?
Did it matter to you that despite having to force myself to go about living a life I didn't want to live, I mourned the loss of you internally in public and whole heartedly and soul consumingly while alone!? That the t...
Remember that time we met, fell in love AND lived happily ever after!?
Yeah, me neither!
I don't care if your a cop or the relation of a cop, you are still bound by the exact laws your sworn to enforce! Being a cop or relation to doesn't give you the right to not only break the law but to try covering up the fact that you broke it using immigration status as a means to ensure the victims silence and using your buddies on the force to stalk and harass the witness after threatening that witness! You're NOT above the law! You in fact should be held more accountable for following the law than a mere civilian! I'm NOT going to "mind my own business" and if I have ANY say in it I'll make damn sure that the lady who was got hit follows through with the legal process necessary to ensure ...
So even though I have figured it out for the most part, I'm still not enough to be a part of your life. Why did you find it necessary to make sure I knew what I was not good enough to be a part of? Was my crappy life not quite crappy enough, that you felt you had to compound that reality and add to it, all the while giving me false hopes that my life might possibly get better! Had the girl with "California eyes" not fallen in love with little thin white lines she would never have been pretty enough for you to have come into her life as you did! Yet you state that is the reason you didn't make her yours! I've begged and pleaded, I've written poems and songs, I've asked for forgiveness...Still ...
So many memories...
So many hopes...
The memories outnumber the times... And reality has slowly been killing the hopes that were mine!
What was the point of it all?
Did you satisfy your curiosity,
Did you answer the questions you pondered?
So yesterday the Constable came. I suppose I lucked out as far as they didn't enter or force me out, they only posted lock out stickers on my door and window. I'm guessing cause of my dogs barking, and I didn't answer the door! An old fRiend showed up to help or at least I believed that's why! I truly am alone in this world with no where to go and I have no idea what to do any more . Can it be over now, PLEASE? Can I be done already, I'm so tired of trying just to fail!
So today is more than likely the day I'm going to once again lose everything and become homeless once more! My mental illness has been kicking my ass and it's hard to even breath let alone try to figure everything out!
People are often unreasonable and self-centered.
Forgive them anyway!
If you are honest people may cheat you.
Be honest anyway!
If you find happiness people may be jealous.
Be happy anyway!
The good You do today may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway!
Give the world your best you have it may never be enough.
Give your best anyway!
For you see in the end it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway!
I've always said;
If you have the need to look around to see if you may be caught,
you shouldn't be doing it anyway!
After all it's not anyone on Earth who you will stand before on judg...
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