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Sam MI

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United States
United States
Drifting aimlessly through the dark, looking for direction.
June 21, 2019
 

All I want is answers, but I guess that's all anyone wants. I'm surely not anyone special.
It's been six years and it still hurts today almost as bad as it did that day.
-S

CHIRAYU
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June 17, 2019
 

Empty Shell. It's an analogy to feeling nothing. But what if it's more? What if there's hope?
When a hermit crab out grows it's shell, it leaves to find a bigger one.
What if I have outgrown this situation? What if I am off to find a bigger one?
What if I'm not the same person I was, and I'm just waiting for someone new to move in?
What if feeling deserted and empty are all part of the process?
Well I wish it would hurry up and get it over with.

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LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 8, 2019
Grove Hill, United States

One day you will realize how tired you have made my soul. How much pain and how many scars you have inflicted. I promise when you look at me, you will feel the callousness and the unwantedness that you have made me feel.
But by that time it will be too late.

I will be beyond caring. I already am.

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HOPE BATEMAN
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May 19, 2019
Grove Hill, United States

You know those nights when you feel like you've been kicked in the stomach and all you want to do is wretch?
Yeah?
I wish they'd go away and not come back.

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FREEDOM
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May 5, 2019
Jackson, United States

The sound of you sleeping puts my soul at ease

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HOPE BATEMAN
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April 16, 2019
Livingston, United States

One burning question, one simple word:

                                Why?

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THE SUN
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April 11, 2019
Livingston, United States

I'm sorry dear, but I can't help those who don't want it. If you're not trying, I'm not trying. I don't want to see, "I have nobody"s. You had somebody and you ignored that or walked away.

Just thoughts/clearing my chest

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MOVEMENT
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April 9, 2019
Livingston, United States

Some days are just harder than others.
I wish I was better in every way, in my mind, in my heart, and in my acts.
I'm sorry that sometimes I'm as easy to love as it is to hug a cactus.
But some days are just harder than others.
-S

THE ORBIT STAMP
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March 31, 2019
Jackson, United States

I hate it. I hate this feeling.
Like I'm not enough for myself. Like I'm not enough for everyone else. Like I'm just a drag.
Excess baggage...

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ORIGINAL
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March 11, 2019
Livingston, United States

Ever feel invisible?
All the screaming in the world and you'll never be heard.
It's like one giant glass box and I'm stuck inside.
It's great, I'm fine, really I don't mind.
Spoiler alert: I'm lying.

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LONE SOULS
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March 9, 2019
Livingston, United States

Why is depression so depressing?

I'm stressed and upset and it all builds up. I feel like a kettle for tea, under pressure and needing to scream.
I want to do it all. I want to study for my tests, I want to clean the whole mess.
But instead I just sit here and stare at a wall. I just sit here not washing any dishes at all. I sit hear not sleeping, or eating.
At least I'm being depressed and that's something after all.

Hashtag mood.

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ANCHOR
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March 7, 2019
Livingston, United States

Don't be hard on yourself,
Why do I ruin everything I touch?
You make me so happy,
But you hate my guts.
Today was a good day,
But you didn't get out of bed.
You have so much energy,
But you don't do anything at all.

Every day is a struggle. Every last one. I wish I knew how to deal. I wish I were normal. Im sorry im too much. Im sorry I suck. I try my hardest and it just ain't enough.

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NEVER ENDING
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March 5, 2019
Livingston, United States

You're an emotional rollercoaster. But I no longer subscribe to your ride. So why do you come trying to make me partake of this awful affair?
Goodbye doesn't last, and you're full of lies.
Holding a grudge is too much energy, but why can't you just keep your distance?
Im not who you think I am. We don't match. People change. The truth is you're abusive and I don't want you around.
I don't care who you're with. I don't care what you're doing.
Leave for good.
Stay gone.

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LIGHT LETTRS LOGO
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February 21, 2019
Livingston, United States

Sometimes, the concept of time makes me sick, but I guess that's just my Anxious Mind.

ANNA
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January 29, 2019
Livingston, United States

There are so many things I want to say. I want people to know the truth. But people don't understand. They don't understand that some days you just can't do it. They don't understand, that sometimes it hurts too much. Sometimes there's just too many things to say so you say nothing at all. Sometimes it stings on the inside. Hard . Sometimes it makes you sick when nothing is wrong.
Sometimes you hate yourself and all you can do is hide it with pleasantries.

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CHIRAYU
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January 29, 2019
Livingston, United States

Tired. Tired of being tired. Tired of feeling this way. Just plain tired.

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DARK NIGHT
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December 28, 2018
Jackson, United States

I just always do it wrong.....

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SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW
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November 6, 2018
 

It hurts a lot in so many ways and I don't think you know it.

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WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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October 29, 2018
 

Everybody else. They get to be emotionally tiring, they get to lash out, act out. But not me. But not me..
Keep your composure, I don't want to hear it, "they're going through a hard time"...
At least theirs will pass. At least it's a fleeting emotion, or something upsetting.
It's so much harder when it is yourself you fight.

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PURPLE SPINNING
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October 17, 2018
 

"What's best?"

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WHITE CLOCK
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August 20, 2018
Livingston, United States

So I've tried my best to turn around my thought processes and write happy things here for the world to see. But the reality of the matter is sometimes, you need a place to go to let everything out. The nasty ugly things. The dark haunting thoughts in the back of your head that you try your best to hide. The "I never would have thought..." Sorts of things.
So the fact of the matter is, I've not been doing well, and this is my way to let it out. Let it out without judgement or questions.

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DARK NIGHT
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August 14, 2018
Livingston, United States

Sometimes I wish my mother would just realize that it's not my fault I'm alive. I didn't have sex to create me and I do not owe her anything because of it. I didn't ask for this. Yes, she does so much for me, and yes, I want to do so much for her. But I also have to be responsible. #Rant #FeelingGuiltTripped

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LOVE YOURSELF FIRST
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July 2, 2018
Dauphin Island, United States

It's amazing how it's always the people so very close to you that hurt you so deeply. Maybe because they know where to stab?

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ILLUSIONAL TRIP
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June 28, 2018
Dauphin Island, United States

Sometimes

Sometimes you just have to lose yourself. Sometimes you have to let your heart wander in the dark. Sometimes to be stronger, you must allow yourself to be broken.
Sometimes you have to wake up tomorrow morning and feel stronger.

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STARS
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May 3, 2016
 

It's just a day. Today is just a day. Tomorrow is just another day. You'll make it through even if you don't think so. Relax and Breathe. You got this. Your hard work and diligence will be rewarded one day. Find joy in the little things. Smile. Today is just a day, and you got this.

Smile.
Sam

LETTRS CHALK
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April 25, 2016
 

Sometimes radio silence is the best thing for a stuffy head
Lots of Love,
Sam

CARBONIZED
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April 24, 2016
 

If left in the sunshine for long enough an ENO will hatch a stress free college student. Keep calm and final on!

Lots of Love,
SAM

RELAX
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April 18, 2016
 

So spring is in full swing. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, and the college kids are hammocking :) It's a beautiful day and the world is your playground, make use of it. Carpe Diem.

Lots of love,

THINK BIG
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April 5, 2016
 

Smiles

Smiles are a beautiful thing. Lately I've been exploding with them. The best feeling in the entire world is when your heart smiles. When your heart decides to smile, embrace it. Let it be. Let yourself be happy. Don't worry. The world still turns and life still continues. But when your heart decides to smile, take the time, make the world stop, and let your heart smile.

Lots of love,

MORNING DEW
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July 28, 2015
 

So I've begun writing again. I have a local writing pad on my phone. I feel like every now and again, I might want to share what I am working on, so I will pick lettrs  back up again. Hopefully this time my writings will be much happier 😊

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INTERNATIONAL DAY OF YOGA
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