So now coming back to what I came here for. To write some shit down, even though I don't know anymore if any of it ever matters anymore. It feels like I've lost the connection with this place too.
There's so much inside me, maybe I should write, maybe it'll help. But do I really wanna? Do I really care? Or does it really help anymore?
Maybe I need to write, I mean, not my need. But a general need, maybe. Guess it doesn't seem to be helping anymore.
Loneliness can be pretty sad, but getting used to it and getting numb about it, is probably worse.
Oh, there are quite a few types of loneliness I guess.
I've been through a few myself.
First is probably the type you see on TV or anywhere. ...
I don't really do this anymore, but this is on request. Must be cause of their own little experience or what they're going through right now.
So the theme is "struggle".
That shouldn't be so hard, is it? Cause we are facing our own struggles or have faced something of this sort, at some point in our lives anyway. Maybe you could just write out something that might just inspire someone, or maybe you could just write your own story and if you're seeking some sort of help, you might just get it here.
There will always be something,
That holds you back,
Even if you never accept it.
Even though we know its true, even though its what's most sensible and even though everyone keeps telling us so, there's a part of you deep inside, that still believes and hopes things will fall in place again.
I am sort of disappointed with my people skills of late.
It's like I don't care about anyone or anything anymore. And I don't even feel the need to connect with human beings no more. The detachment is real, I feel no bonds with anyone anymore, nor do I feel the need to be connected with anyone or anything in this forsaken world. What do we need or seek anyway.
Everyone seems tu have something to say about life, and furore and everything else in it. Like life is only one, so live it. Life is beautiful and blah, blah. I dunno really, what is so beautiful about it. When everything revolves around money and nothing else.
Being in love is probably the only good feeling that makes life s...
Not everything can be poetry,
Not every word can have meaning,
Sometimes the deeper implications are lost,
Trying to satisfy the thirst for curiosity,
Sometimes the world just doesn't spin anymore,
Around the Sun it's supposed to circle,
You can get a candy you've always wanted,
Only to be snatched away before you take a bite,
The hopes tend to get raised,
When the omens seem to concur,
Only to be left disappointed,
When things go wrong,
Not that it was supposed to be right,
But you're mind made you wish it were,
If happiness is not the end,
Why take all means to get there,
If there's a better afterlife,
Why struggles through this hell,
What are you rat racing for,
When one end leads to anot...
To find meaning,
When all is lost,
Deserves more recognition,
Than what's ever accounted for.
When you're constantly alone,
You start growing into it,
Unconsciously building a wall around,
That you're no longer willing to step out of.
Detached I am,
Human connections inexistent,
Seeking true purpose.
All I got was a smoke signal,
From lands far away,
Under the cloudy skies,
Hidden in thick forests
Unable to pinpoint,
I still wander around,
Oblivious to the world,
But for peace within
What do I seek,
Where do I find,
Lost as always,
Searching the needle in a stack
I roam the barren lands,
For paradise lost,
Just wishing inside,
Please find me soon.
I've been wondering what's wrong with me. Like really really wrong with me. I've started watching House recently. And now I'm super analytical, or at least that's what I would like to think (not really).
I always used to over think things anyway and now it's only getting worse. Are all of these symptoms for something wrong with me? Am I depressed? Or is it something else? Maybe I'm just over thinking this shit. I can't even be a proper judge of myself and my status. I highly doubt my stability. I could really use a pillow right now, probably to choke myself out or something. Cause I'm sleeping or sleepy pretty much all day long. My sleep isn't super short or even broke anymore. 6+ hours s...
Ey Princess 👸,
I wonder where you are and how you're doing. It's close to 3 months now and still not a sign of contact from you. I wonder what happened. How you could stay apart for so long, I wonder. Are you okay? Or did you just get used to this? I wonder, because I don't really wanna think of the unthinkable right now, though that's a bit worrisome.
At first I was super angry, when Kik was like, message not delivered to user like, and that you haven't been on it for a while. N then I was super pissed, Cuz no reply anywhere. Here, there or even mails. N I still thought maybe you'll pop up out of nowhere on Valentines day at least and give a surprise like you love to do. But you didn't....
Hello humans and other earthlings,
Happy Easter wishes to you all.
Hope you have a wonderful day and weakened.
God bless ju
#Skylark Challenge 132
The usually patient brothers were clutching each others arms in fear due to the rustling sound produced by the wind, forgetting all about the quarrel they had over some misunderstanding.
Nothing can drive you more insane than,
being out of touch with the one you love.
Never thought I'll be like this,
Ever since I could remember,
I was always alone,
Just tried to always fit in,
But it never worked out,
Desperate and clueless,
I tried all tricks in the book
I never could be what I was not,
I would always revert to who I am,
Cause lies never made me,
Who I am right now,
Cursing the whole world for my misery,
Cause the naivety always resurfaced,
Drowning me again n again
If I told you about me,
You'll probably turn your back,
Laughing at the stupidity,
With energy of negativity flowing,
Right through this bad blood,
Portraying as someone "To stay away from",
Not cause of any harm
Wonder what I have turned into now,
Hiding in a shell of black,
Under the vei...
Sometimes all you can be a huge wreck.
One that makes no sense, how and why it happened.
Broken pretty much everywhere, inside out.
Life by itself makes no sense anymore.
And if you say that out, all you hear is about your unfilled potential; what you're and what you could have been and so on.
Honestly I don't have any sort of drive to move forward from where I stand.
I'm not living anyway, barely surviving for god knows what.
It's not like I'm in pain or suffering as bad as others.
It's just the loneliness looming over me.
It's not always u find someone, someone out of dreams.
Nobody is perfect, everyone has flaws and I have nothing but flaws.
I've completely lost myself and at the point of...
Two months n more,
Two anniversaries n more,
I be lost,
Sinking into pitch black,
All hopes extinguished.
Lost in thoughts now,
I am screaming,
In my cold head,
Crying non stop,
I can't feel it,
What is going on,
I wish I knew,
The answers I seek,
Things are falling,
Out of place now,
Missing you are,
I know not where,
I could use a text,
Saying you're fine,
That would calm me,
From this feeling.
I know I am writing this late, but how does it matter :)
I've always felt it stupid to have a designated day for an event, especially the ones that should be a daily norm, anniversaries may be a different thing altogether but this, like Valentine's day shouldn't be held on to just for one day, a year.
I honestly don't celebrate any of the days, not even my birthday (for that matter, never ever in my life ♥️) or anyone in my families, its always just a wish, and maybe a cake, if mum is in the mood to bake one overnight ( oh, not with candles n all, just a normal cake 🎂, which tastes the best in the world). But anyways that's not important right now, I just wanan dedicate this letter...
Not sure how I feel about this whole thing.
Life as I see it now, seems pretty meaningless.
I dunno who or what matters anymore. I'm numb or dumb, or maybe blank and confused at the same time. If only I knew, what I have or had or what I even want. Life is dull, nothing interesting is happening nor do I want to make anything interesting happen either, I'm just happy left alone, dunno about the happy part, at least I feel that I'll be better off left alone.
Sometimes all I wish for is one letter or message from someone, who's been out of touch for quite a while now, and I don't even know what's going on in er life even. It's scary in a way, yet I'm completely lost, like a blind man sear...
Word of the Day :
rabble (noun) :
1 : a disorganized or confused collection of things
2 : a disorganized or disorderly crowd of people
Write an open letter which includes the word "rabble" and tag your letter WOD.