Tracing my own scars
Lips that promised me to stay forever waved me a goodbye. Depression knocked my chest made me feel broken and alone again. I was vanished inside my own silence. I turned around didn't find anyone, didn't feel anything but darkness around me. People around me uttered the words which they knew would hurt me. I always wanted a softer light, a softer night, a different care and I even know that I can never get that. I was always looking for a light to wrap and love for my fractured heart. Each and every day I was hoping that I didn't miss taking pain in every breath and I hope I didn't miss to put all the broken pieces of my heart together, every night. I always knew looking...
I do not hear your voice at the other end of the phone anymore and your smile does not light my world anymore.I loved you with everything I had and surely I cannot have it all back. You don't knock on my door anymore. But you'll meet me in the middle of the city in every strangers face. You'll always have that piece of my soul I gave to you. I am sure of one thing- you will forever have my love.
It’s the worst feeling where silence is stuck in your eyes and tears don’t rain down.
We sit next to each other but a little bit closer.
He had nothing to say so I tell him how escobar burned 2 million dollars for her daughter to keep her warm and eventually the conversation turned into an erudite discussion.
He brings his face near to mine I turn my neck to the opposite side.
I see his hand coming on my tight he moved his hand and touched my vagina, and moving his fingers like a giant wheel ride. I was appalled and I look at him with fear in my eyes, I was lost at words so I move my head side to side, screaming a ‘NO’ in my mind. I stood up there to leave. He touched my shoulder and push me harshly on the bed. He locked my legs. Touched my body with his invading hands. Op...
I love you
I can’t promise to always love you.
I won’t promise you something that I can’t promise myself.
A request to you
Not to ask me
If I’ll love you forever
because that last time
I answered this question
I ended up breaking his heart.
Ps: how do I love someone more than I love myself?
Sometimes mean, selfish,sweetheart,ruthless,lovable,rude, kind, sincere,bitch,dumb, selfless. It’s too complicated to get me, I know. I will be laughing inside and can be a mean ass. I will be smiling and yet my smiles asks for help and heal. I will lie and inside tell the truth to myself. I will ask about your pain and can feel twice your pain. I will tell you I hate you but could go at the end for you. I will tell you to stay away but will make sure to check on you. I will laugh, smile and shine like I have never been this happier before. I will sit in peace staring at the wall and feel numb till the time my tears don’t stop. I could fall asleep in the heart of a child or could risk my life...
Let’s not expect him to always open doors for you or pull out your chair or to always pay the bills.
Let’s not expect him to give you respect if you aren’t respecting him back.
Let’s not expect him to go out of his way to make you feel happy when you aren’t meeting him halfway.
Let’s not expect men to lead the entire family while going through the storms of his life.
Ps: let us still believe that they are chivalrous men out there.
Let’s not call him a faggot if he’s still a virgin.
Let’s not squeeze him to have a six feet height, six pack abs, a six digit salary or a six inches penis.
Let’s not bully him for being into feminism or being to skinny or corpulent. ...
I’ve stopped reading about love quotes. They keep talking about people who are going to leave you, the love which isn’t gonna be the one I was looking for. I have tasted love, all the wrong ones and I’m not gonna look out for the one that makes me feel right. This has been pretty much clear I’m not going back to feel those storms inside me, shut my mouth for caring about their feelings, wasting my time in benefiting others, to feel my heart break so bad that it forms a storm inside me where I couldn’t feel what 3 am friday feel like. I’m gonna avoid writing about how they broke my heart each time, avoid writing about boys I’ve loved, feelings I once felt, how loving and to be loved back harde...
One morning, I was in a hurry to go to the college. My neighbor uncle said bye beta with a wide beautiful smile on his face. I ignored, pretended as if I didn’t hear. I was at the bus stop, saw my bus arrive and sat taking a relief relaxing breathe. Thinking about the assignments, suddenly his smiling face popped in my mind. Thinking., I wish I would have smiled back and maybe it could make a difference to his morning?
I was standing on the road waiting for my sister to pick me up. An old poor beggar approached to me and spread his palms. I didn’t have change and I wasn’t willing to pay him two hundred. So I walked few steps away from him.
I sometimes, pass by that road and it always remin...
When you are gone
my smile is absent too
it’s so hard to be happy
when I haven’t got you
Every time someone waves you goodbye, there is a fragile hello patiently waiting
The last couple months I’ve been the realist. Had my heartbroken, got my shit together,lost the person whom I loved the most and thought would be in my life for a long time,tasted how betray feels like,went from being friends to strangers.
When the ache came I feed it with broken flowers and full of scars. I got so lost in my sadness that I forgot the way back to the world. But sadness will not make most of my dreams alive and will not bring back those who departed. So I say goodbye to those who have left and thank who have stayed and even left without breaking my heart and welcome those as if they have never left.
Now I have learned to spend more time with today and less time with yesterda...
Sometimes you meet people who change your life for better
Those people are called bartenders
Do not ask me why do I keep memories and not friends.
Do not ask me why do I run from the echo of love before it could find me.
Do not ask my scar why did it choose my name.
Do not ask my sadness why did It prefer to stay.
Do not ask why do I explore the size of your heart and not the size of your smile.
Do not ask how can my words calm all hearts and could find none for my own.
Do not ask why do I believe in the speeches of the eyes before tongue.
Do not ask why do I believe in the embrace of hearts and not bodies.
Do not ask why some people and some things written in my heart with permanent ink.
Do not ask why I am brave enough to catch the walls of sadness.
Do not ask why do I wa...
Three years later...
He sits in front of her ex lover. She doesn't say a word and his heart doesn't ache for her anymore. He looks amazing even more than the day she left him. He was naturally striking and his charm was irresistible. And at that moment, she panics. She can never have him back with her again. She can just watch him be extraordinary handsome and elegant and in love with someone else.
Goodbye to the way when you looked at me when someone called my name. Goodbye to the mornings when you called just to wake me up and only because I want to hear your voice before starting the day. Goodbye to those nights when you called just to make sure I’m all right. Goodbye to the fun times when I highly embarrassed you in public and laughed real hard. Goodbye to the times when your happiness was seeing me happy and guffawing.Goodbye to the times when you had me laughing in the aisle with your nonsensical jokes. Goodbye to the times I listened to love songs and thought of you through it all. Goodbye to the way you made me laugh and I made you cry.