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Do you have the feeling of being choked, not being able to gulp down, the breathlessness..?
Do you sometimes feel heavy in the chest where you feel like there's this huge weight crushing and pounding your heart?
Do you think all this pounding and crushing is infact chaffing and bruising your heart(metaphorically)?
Making it bleed?
Making it impossible to fix or mend or heal..
Everytime you care, it gets a little more ruptured, a little more brittle.
Thinking about all this hurt and pain, I slid down into the memory lane into the dark room I hadn't visited ever.
I go back to the time where I cut myself and watch it bleed. How my skin separated as a pressed the razor ...
Though swift flies the time,
I wouldn't be the one like it.
I'll be still; and never let you down.
You are my drug; my antidote.
I don't know what time has in store for us, but this I promise you darlin'..
I'll fight a thousand battles and die a million deaths just to see a smile on that pretty face.
You are that one phase / memory that I can't get enough of or over with..
I act like I don't remember you but deep down I know you are a part of me. So there is no forgetting you.
There's not a day that you don't cross my mind; our maybe not a single day you left my thoughts.
I never wished things happened any differently between us nor hoped we never broke up.
Parting ways had its butterfly effect: did you good, made you humane while I lost my sane.
As I lay in bed every night I imagine these scenarios that will never happen and alot of "What if"s. I dream a lot about you. About us. About what went wrong and why do complicated it was.
I wonder if I ever cross your mind an...
Not trying to be poetic or impressive.
I want to go far far away.. Into an alienated beach with rocks and no sight of any human existence . I then want to cry my hearts out looking at the see. Cry and cry till I fret. So much. So little. Loud and shallow tears and screams. Cry with despair. Nobody to judge or bother. Just some alone time for me to peacefully cry. Maybe compete with it on who has more tears hidden.
Why so I have to cry?
Did something terrible break your heart?
Do I feel life is falling apart?
Am I trying hard to be happy?
Yes.. Fake it till you make it.
Cry with immense sorrow, melancholy filled in my heart.
I feel like life is just sliding away an...
When I dig back I just realised what a long way he has travelled.
He has climbed the highest mountains, swam the deepest oceans.
Ran the far extremes and tasted the bitter sweets.
Has been pampered, has been crampled.
Seen wonders,done blunders.
You know there were times he was right but mumbled... Maybe I am wrong. Maybe I am not meant to be.
He has been a great companion,guardian and cheerleader.
Though treated ill and low,he could still could fill the poor soul with rainbows of happiness and cupcakes of laughter.
Even when the world is cussing, howling and growling I could still hear his silent lullabies whispering into my soul.
Oh how on Earth would I be if it wasn't you.
The season of Joy.
Christmas tree lights and colourful candies,
The stars lit outside houses and the manger setup by the tree.
The long Santa's list prepared and crossing fingers that he has the best things in store this Christmas;
The pine scented candles and freshly baked cakes;
The enchanting christmas music and the carols ringing the doorbell in the night, singing and dancing with joy;
Childhood's scattered friends meet after decades,dig back the faded memories & become young at heart again.
Family, like the main course of a meal , the backbone of existance gather together with happiness found on every corner of the house;
The innocent heartfull laughter seen on the face of an infan...