A cursed life, a yearning lullaby
Craziness subsides within soul
Uncertainty rises over the top
With melancholy drooling over
Blank are the pages once filled
The rush of blood is no more
Stains are only left to memorize
Of the life he only wished for
An endless fight between wishes
And balance of self-esteem
A burden for life to to be fulfilled
Legs torn down to see the bones
From walking miles without sleep
The anxiety still hits the head
Things undone unfinished unsaid
Dreams forgotten, promises broken
A haze of dust in his eyes blinding
Weird he still has his pen
Wanna write something maybe
His last words maybe, regrets
Or a summary of his sadness brady
He sees roses black not red
Half way down, the view from here
Reminds me of the few last tears
I shed away without saying goodbye
Crumbling through the way in fear
I screamed à lot, but she didn't hear
What could be going on in her mind
Half way down, I see the place
A tiny ray of hope deep in solace
But now it's worthless, I'm already
Half way down...
I thought I just might close my eyes
As always I've been in disguise
But the memories of the past, they returned
I see things clearly as I close my eyes
All the truth and all the lies,
I see the bigger picture at last, my last episode
The curtain rises the theatre is closed.
Half way down the wind reminds
Of my mother's love, her self divine
If I only I could have said ...
She takes me by the arm
My glory and my charm
Compared to her divine love
I've got nothing much to offer
And she makes me feel alive
Just by being by my side
And she tells me all her stories
Some of love and some of glories
And i couldn't even sing back to her.
She asks me all about
My hopes and all my doubts
My reasons and my insecurities
What's in my head that's what she sees
But still her love is enough
I'm scared it might be a bluff
But she never makes me feel uneasy
She's a mixture of bold and cheesy
And i couldn't even sing back to her.
A little sinned is the soul of mine
But its all I've so keep it fine
If its a dream don't care to wake me up
A moment here just might be enoug...
An old school uniform
Torn and dusty in the drawer
Marks of stains forever remain
They hide in them a gentle fire
Lighten up with memories
Of laughter and echoing choir
A sudden breeze of nostalgia
Enough to melt a solid wire
The pages burnt, are never lost
What exactly do memories cost
I've a lot, a bit too much,
Enough to make me feel a touch
Interested if someone is
I'll sell you all with analysis
I've a lot, a bit too much
People I never knew as such
The sky's blue, the curtains red
People mean so much once they're dead
The graveyard is full of memories
My heads is quite similar much
I wish how could I leave this place
Tons of memories nothing but disgrace
Would you mind if I borrow
A few words from your sorrow
To tell you that I feel the same
And know what you say
I'm not any different than you're
Looking for the same old cure
To fix my bones and make me bleed
A little lesser from the soul
I'm bored of life that's not true
But my thoughts are without a clue
As to what might make me feel happy
I talk with friends like you do
But they all feel the same
Are we all fed up with our lives
Or this is just a stupid game.
I switch from screen to screen
Hoping to find that high in brain
I'm afraid i don't start drugs
Cause boy they are hard to refrain
Sundays are mostly mundane
There's no hope for a change
If this is the pursuit of happiness
Silence is another way,
To say what you wanna say,
It never tries to pull you down,
Doesn't need to keep around.
Ignorance is another way,
To keep your distance from the rest,
It neither makes an enemy,
Neither a friend too, I would say.
Denial is another way,
To not move on to a different place,
Reality is something else,
It keeps you in delusional hell.
Struggle is another way,
To keep the burning light awake,
Something that's already gone,
You tried too hard but can't move on.
And love is just another way,
To beautifully discriminate,
Between people who you find useful,
And others are left to scrap.
And dying is another way,
To keep all the pain away,
The sickness never comes bac...
These falling expectations,
Are the wings you wanted me to have.
And you think I'm not ashamed of,
All the things I couldn't have.
Sometimes trying your best is,
Never gonna be enough.
Cause that's not how the world works,
Things failed are better off undone.
And it breaks my heart cause,
I'm conscious of everything these days.
Every single mockery,
Of the things I couldn't be and all the stares.
But lamenting never seems to fix the scars,
Holding on to things that break apart,
I'm trying my best but what does it mean?
I see the world moving everyday twice,
You think I just not realise.
Laying in my bed you think I don't care,
Walking past things which shouldn't be there,
I saw her first time in the park
She was writing something down
Sitting she was with her thoughts
Lost in her self, forgetting around
Smiling as always she was
Lost in her imagination because
She's looking for something in mind
She might be the last of her kind
And i couldn't stop myself falling
Growing close to her and her callings
We met for a while though i guess
The time was even less, nonetheless
We parted our ways but kept contact
Our bond is hard to say, but abstract
She wants to be free, I see it in her eyes
All the things she say, truth and the lies
It makes her adorable to me i guess
Her desire to roam and conquest
She wanna paint the world silver
With her beautiful eyes
The city, ...
I’m still driving, and I wanna go home,
But my hands are tired and the vision’s gone.
Maybe I’ll get hit by a truck or crash in the valley,
So the ambulance can get me home,
While I relax at back of the alley.
My feet are trembling as I walk down the stairs,
Don’t have much energy left in me I guess.
I want to save the time to go down I suppose,
Maybe I’ll take a shortcut and jump out of the window
They tell me to open up and express what I feel,
I search for counselling just to break the wheel.
The prescription pills take much time to kill the pain,
So maybe this time I will try out a bullet.
They tell me to dive deep into the ocean,
I feel that I can’t breathe, the pressure subside.
I did something didn't I
Pushing away you like that
How could I,
If it ends right now like this, somehow
I know it's going to haunt me forever
Things I said, I couldn't say
How could I take a break
How I make you to stay
All these words in my dictionary
Suddenly have started to fade
My mind is a dizzy slime
Suddenly I can't rhyme anymore
Would it end right here right now
I don't wanna think, blow
My head to the point, I don't know
What to say. I did something
Stupid as always, making it
Dirt stack, over all the things
We built together, i wanna make you
Stay, just wanna make you stay
To help me thoughts blow up
In this peculiar array
I'm pretty strong on my words
But I can't find what to say
There's tattoo down in her hand,
She never tells me what's her plan.
And she goes around the things,
Like she always wants to sing.
She says something to cheer me up,
Warm she is like a hot cup.
And she wants to paint the whole world,
With the color of her own mind,
Some red some blues some oranges,
Like a enchanted ray of sunlight.
And she makes it easy for me to breath,
I have my doubts but boy she is concrete.
I have a box of reasons why I shouldn't care
But she outnumbers me like a puny dare.
And all this might lead to something new,
Till then let's live our moments few.
Sometimes all we have is distance,
But I still like her persistence.
And if you see the world from her e...