What the hell is this NEW madness?
I know I've been distant
But so have You
I'm sitting here like an absolute fool waiting for You
Perhaps the same could be said of Me
Hell if I know NEmore...
I don't have the slightest clue where I am
I just know that I hate it here with a burning passion
The environment is far too fragile and sensitive
The littlest thing makes waves of impressions that echo infinities
Wherein lies the Lesson?
Lost once again in the ONYX abyss
FLY ahead My Love, don't get lost in the treachery of Your own head
Do NOT look back on yesterday
Let it ALL go with the wind
Don't let "IT" break You
Learn to swim if You can no longer fly
Oceans are their own Sapphire Sky
MIDNIGHT RAVEN DOVE
Don't You EveR 4-Get;
My TRUEST LOVE...
Beauty is fleeting but You are STILL amazingly beautiful EveN broken, bleeding, shattered and bruised
I know You are beyond tired of being used and abused
Your INCESSANT will to keep fighting EveN after EveRYTHING within You screams ENOUGH continues to amaze Me EveRY single time
But yet EveN I realize You are barely tethered onto the end of Your frayed ...
The full Mourning moon is enshrouded in an IVory gown
Glittered with hosts of Stars all around
Does She know that I'm still on the ground?
Her long, lost daughter of Zion has yet to be Truly found
It was a dead end walking the yellow brick road
So I transcended to walk the desolate Ruby road
Still lingering in the Abyss of the Darkest night of the soul
Working on giving You complete control
How on Earth did Ravana appear last night?
Is Rama coming to defeat him soon?
How long must My soul wander thru this complete emptiness?
I'm beyond Lost
Book of Black Earth
The Cold Testament
Is now my mournful lament
Ferocious onyx wolf with blood dripping from his mouth full of fangs
I see demons ridi...
I've spent 11,333 nights lost in Your Emerald Eyes
Lost in a place where I know You can see my jagged soul
Play with fire
The danger gets me high
U love the smell of gasoline
Between the madness and the apathy
Amber Run I found
I missed You more than I thought I would
I found Love where it wasn't supposed to be
Talk some sense to me
But not too much or You will lose Your mind
Sirens keep filling the icy air tonight
What is My eternal plight?
The Odyssey of flight 33
Stuck back in 1939
Are you truly sending an Angel to hold Me tonight?
Lauren Aquilina Fools
We are too fragile just to guess
Thank You for sending Your Angel to hold Me thru the dreaded night
When can I finally take flight???
The rainbow moon is full and shining brightly tonight
Tucked away in a safe dream Haven
I'm still waiting for the Raven
Meanwhile sipping sweet peach nectar
Will You be visiting Me in this protective sector?
I guess that I won't find out until I'm deeper within the layers of dreams
But then again NOTHING is as it seems
However, I do feel quite spoiled with two handsome knights and a lovely lady in waiting to keep me company as I await Thee
Still anxiously waiting for Your FINAL decree
And then one day it'll be 4-Eva You and Me!!!
I'm broken when I'm lonesome
I can't feel You here anymore
Remember that You met Amy Lee?
Don't forget Taylor Momson from the Pretty Reckless...
Count to 3 and say a prayer
Water for a thirsty soul?
You met Joel and Luke from King & Country too!
Artemis is on the run
Lindsey Sterling is on the list to see
Baby We are Lost....
Come home with Me, come home
The Forest or the Sea?
Which will IT be?
The Forest and the Seas coincide
The Raven has still not arrived
I don't want to live without You
Inner Demons don't play by the rules
Why would You give up?
Angels please hear My cry...
You are BELOVED
Let it permeate Your soul
Can You still salvage Your true identity?
One of twelve
The Burned Over District
Who is the Public Universal Friend?
Where can I find the real Father Divine?
Imminent nuclear annihilation
Making the masses lack in their hesitation
Darth Vader was Father Divine portrayed
Be wary for You will all be dismayed
How many different evolutionary levels exist?
How long will EveRything persist?
Creation of a New reality
Will this fix Your abhorrent, corrosive Spiritual decay?
Classic peer pressure seems to often work
AlWAYS serving the whims of a sociopathic narcissist to say the least
Who now all bears the mark of the Beast?
Spiral of radicali...
Fingers are azul on the Snow
What is this if not some witchcraft?
Distances of Stars between Our eyes
A new day comes again and laughs in Our face
Drudging up the Summer scents of Moonlight in Your hair
The Raven is on His way
I know You are here somewhere and not forgotten
I won't let You fade into the Dawn
I don't EveN know how far You are
I only hope He reaches You in Time in the midst of the Overwhelming Darkness
Not where We belong
My Love just keep listening to Our 4-Eva Song
Exhausted to the point of tears
I've truly Lost so many precious years
Waiting to find a place to lay my weary head
Dreaming of You cuddling up next to Me in bed
This place is stagnant and eerily still
What foul plot is afoot against Your Will?
Certainly, there is NO rest for the wicked
I can feel Your overwhelming sadness from here
The Earth is weeping the loss of those You held EveR so dear
Words fail Me miserably presently
Hard to breathe today
I sold away My voice
Not that I EveN had a choice
Fatally losing all connection
I'll be Good
For all of the times that I n-Eva could
I saw the devil this morning
He came with a warning
Trying so desperately to see things clearly
My past has tasted acrimonious for years now
The sangre on My hands scares Me beyond Death
Am I FINALLY and Truly waking up?
I'm waiting for You
We are meant to dance on the Edge of something New
Your Emerald Eyes make Me lose track of Time
I'll see You later when You are ---AvaLone
My most Precious Love,
What a long and arduous day...
Woke up with the Witch
Been traveling EveR so far and fast
Covered in dirt along the way
Thank You for finding me a pillow to rest My weary head tonight
I start traveling again long before daylight
Apparently I'm sixteen again...
At least that's what I look like here to their unsuspecting eyes
If Only it were True!
What I wouldn't give to be sixteen again but this time with the marvelous exception of You by my side
That is one Future that neither One of Us can be denied
Hopefully I'm looking more regal with the help of Queen of Plum followed by Dark Teal lost in a trail of Rainbow tear burst
I'll be traveling with the North Wind tomorrow
She cried softly with the winter wind
Amethyst mixed with Quartz Crystal was uncovered buried deep within the Rock
Greensleeves... Do You still remember?
I do find that amusing now
Although, I still recall that Emerald Verde dress You wore that enchanting EveNing
Again with another lament,
Why must no one STAY content?
When will the Wardruna be complete?
Hush My Rose,
Look at the Moonlight
There is magic inside of You
Brave New Worlds
Stirrings in the Wind
Don't forget to heed the Mourning Star
Not sure where You are..
The scent of embers linger in the air
How much longer will this world be enraptured in Lies?
So Human of You
Take My hand and I'll drown You with Me
Drag Me Under
Drag me Down under the water
I can't breathe
No One saves Me
No One saves You...
You need ONLY to be still
Do You hear the bells chiming Your name?
Do You feel like you are going beyond insane?
I know all of the questions You must be having...
The full color changing moon just fell off the wall
Heart is racing as I saw a Shadowed hand knock it from its place
Need to pick the Moon up from the floor
Beauty and the Beast have returned the original version
Following the White rabbit can lead to the Venom within
We have NO Secrets!!!
3 broken talons in less than 7 days
If I say June will it be a lie?
Or is October a better begining?
Tis quite chilly here My Love
How can One be freezing in the burning fire?
You are My One and ONLY ultimate desire......
My Love Will nEveR die
Meet me under the midnight starlit sky
If we must say Our ultimate goodbye
My mind is such a mess
I'm at the end of my rope
Why won't You let me let go?
How far am I falling?
Can You still hear me calling?
Little Alice fell
Down the rabbit hole
Bumped her head and bruised her soul
Another plague is beginning
Who is winning?
Onyx mask covered in constellations
Did You take over for Death in the Ivory shroud?
My Darling Love,
You looked absolutely stunning in your Scarlett wedding dress tonight
I'm just sorry that I was not there to walk you down the aisle
I hated leaving you out in the cold
Thank you for pressing on and being EveR so bold
Keep walking towards the Light
I will be there with you as you continue to fight
Time to rest your Rose covered head
Please don't cry too much over the Dead
Keep in mind EveRything that I've said
I'll be seeing you on the Day of the Dead
Loving you always from an Insurmountable distance,
What kind of tragedy is causing your continued spiritual malady?
Just grab the bottle
Take a drink
So then you will no longer have to think
Numb that pain that's so desperately eating you from within
But to what end and purpose?
The pain will only return a hundred times worse
Only adding to your deepening and pathetic remorse
Keep thinking just one drink...
But deep within you know it ONLY takes that ONE to ultimately sink
Is it truly worth the steep cost?
To continue to add to EveRything that you've truly Lost?
My Dearest and Most Precious Love,
Thank You for sending an Angel to hold Me last night in My dreams
NOTHING is as what IT seems
I did not wish to return to the waking world but alas You nudged me to go...
I was safe and perfectly content with You in Our secret world of sheer innocence and bliss
Twas but a dream within a magnificent dream
I still carry the scent of your lingering Kiss
My mind can't seem to escape it and I don't want it to
I will hold onto the unwavering memory of You
4-Eva's LAST breath
I can ONLY think about when I'll see You again...
Will You be gone for another Eternity or 3?
Just promise that You will AlWAYS wait for Me
No matter the cost...
Until We can find again.........
Apparently this is the FINAL goodbye
This Time I can't EveN bring myself to cry
So many harsh words rained like acid from Your lips without provocation
I guess I shall continue in My ultimate desolation
For a fraction of a nano second...
I actually believed You
How insanely stupid of Me!!!
You give Me a glimmer of Esperanza for a future that could have been Ours
Only to rip it all away without warning not EveN giving me the Time of day
No opportunity to listen to what I have to say
Oh pathetic little shredded heart
You knew better from the very start
You always do but despite that
You continue to Love
You are Truly Only meant for HIM up Above
I know You are bleeding and grieving inside
Trees of Eternity
The Broken mirror
With tides divided
Only a million tears?
Presently in alternative space
I believe I'm dreaming again
The man is waving the Black flag in the wind
I'm not strong enough to leave on the Light
My neck is breaking
No one sees that IT is following me
More than the weight of the world descends upon me tonight
Under this precarious New Moon
If these scars could speak...
EveN then You wouldn't be able to understand
I fight a war within
All of the stigma viciously feeding
Continues to drain the Life from Me
Can You hear them?
Will You please try to listen?
The Ruby droplets beckon for release
When will They cease?
Shredded Scarlett and Onyx heart intertwin...
Ruby is ready
Why did you go see Him?
You had NOTHING to prove
I'm so over it!
You gave Ruby up for Him?
Oh what disastrous peril
When will I make it to River Run?
Stunning rapidity indeed Darling
You burned this Time in the fire
I saw Him End Your suffering for now
Your Son still lives
You burned with Me in the fire?
But I was already gone
How far did You travel to fetch Him?
The Otter's tooth Stone
Why so forbidden!?
I just want to stay hidden
Don't come back for me this time
I've chosen this
Restless Spirits lurking in the Abyss
A Rose that shames all other roses in comparison
A Rose 4-Eva lost in the Frozen wilderness
Scarlett disappeared again
She's but a fleeting flicker amongst the Onyx
The air is too heavy for Her to breath here
She's best suited for aqueous nature
But is unable to find it in this infinite desert
Will you be able to find her soon?
Before the next Full moon?
NOTHING HERe is making sense
Let's see how You will try to torture my heart some more this evening...
How much longer will I keep grieving?
When will I be Free?
My favorite red dress...
Remember when we laid in the street?
Can I do what I want now despite You?
Babyclaws...I forgot about that one
Am I still Daddy's girl?
When will I be able to fly?
This is something that you can No longer deny
When will Your True colors bleed?
I wish no disaster could touch Us anymore
Nothing is but a sick cycle carousel of rust
Don't walk away....
Oh yes, I will
I've stayed too long to watch the world burn
Unless you truly relish in making me cry
Apocalypse state of mind
Where can I bury all of my suffering?
My mind is slowing down finally
Why can't I leave this place?
Maybe for once I can see things clearly
What flower did I take form?
Who wants to live 4-Eva?
I sure as hell don't
Eternity of immortality
I can't fathom the calamity
Can I change the song please!
Why is EvEr thing getting quieter?
Is the volume being turned down?
Am I supposed to listen Even closer to Your whisper
I want to claw my skin off before the wolves do
My soul cannot bear this Meloncholy
Please quit breathing thru me...
Where am I now?
Why am I so dizzy?
Is it happening again?
Yet another Willow Maid?
Which flower am I now from the Willow bed?
A ray of light in the MoonDance
How many forests have you wal...
The Bloody Curse of the fold
Will You EveR be so bold?
So many Lies
Can't hold on much longer
I really don't know how the hell this is making Me stronger
You see Me struggle trying to find Your imminent Light
Why is almost EveRything such a blasted fight?
You deprive Me of restful sleep
Letting the Darkness lurk and creep
I should find solace in My suffering
But alas, I'm nothing but a belligerent obstinate Child presently
Why do You pursue Me so relentlessly?
May I be ridiculously reckless instead?
Can I please paint myself 4-Eva Red?
Yes, yes I know what You have said...
At least You finally saw fit to give me some claws
When will OUR bodies finally wash ashore?
When will WE be for-Eva nEveRmore?
This weak earthly vessel is trembling and quaking...
What is IT that You will be eternally forsaking?
Overwhelming Universal powers have set upon a daunting and precariously risky task
But you're too occupied to notice.......
as You rapaciously grasp Your tainted flask
Don't You EveN realize that You are the pawn that turns the FINAL tide?
You no longer have to hide...
You can drop Your cryptic mask
And set the spark in motion
on Our lingering task
Just remember that We can no longer find refuge in the unforgiving Ocean
One last magic potion...........
What the hell is this NEW unprecedented darkness that is vehemently enshrouding me?
I can't breathe....
It's so frigidly and inexplicably cold HERe
wHERe and when is HERe presently?
EveN completely submerged in scalding Hot bath water
I'm still shivering with goosebumps underneath the Lavender waves
I can feel the imminent death of millions being callously thrown into their graves
Oh Death!!! What have You done?
What NEW sting have you now brought?
That leaves Everyone's souls left to necrotize and FOReva Rot?
How many infinities of oceans have I cried in Vain?
NOTHING EveR stopping this overwhelmingly Insurmountable plethora of Pain
I can hear EveRyOne in the smallest, quietest of whispers
Yet here I am SCREAMING with My final strength of EveRy shred and fiber of this fractured, dejected and broken Soul
No One can hear a thing....
As the ominous and insidious creatures in their malevolent and rapacious ravage...
pull and obliterate my LAST
Screaming out Your name desperately from within
Surely loving You is My Immortal Original Sin
Do You know when IT will finally Begin?
This wretched missing piece of My soul can't bear much more
All I keep finding is just another maze of doors each time opened I'm falling and falling until I inevitably hit the cold and unforgiving floor
The Hunter's Moon is here
My heart crying that you are nowhere near
Off to sleep and hopefully this time tomorrow
You will NO longer cause me despairing sorrow....
Things are slowly falling into place
This time I'm following the universe's pace
4 months now since I've surrendered the upmost need to numb the pain away
No longer succumbing to those malicious and malevolent clouds of Gray
Oh don't get me wrong the Storm still greatly wages war from within
Only this time I'm not running from these uncomfortable emotions
I'm embracing the immeasurable pain with EveRY shred of this frayed and fragile vessel
It may end up tearing me completely apart dealing with the seemingly insurmountable wreckage
But that's ok, because then I'll FINALLY have a fresh new start and be the person that my Creator AlWAYS intended for me to be.