How many infinities of oceans have I cried in Vain?
NOTHING EveR stopping this overwhelmingly Insurmountable plethora of Pain
I can hear EveRyOne in the smallest, quietest of whispers
Yet here I am SCREAMING with My final strength of EveRy shred and fiber of this fractured, dejected and broken Soul
No One can hear a thing....
As the ominous and insidious creatures in their malevolent and rapacious ravage...
pull and obliterate my LAST
Screaming out Your name desperately from within
Surely loving You is My Immortal Original Sin
Do You know when IT will finally Begin?
This wretched missing piece of My soul can't bear much more
All I keep finding is just another maze of doors each time opened I'm falling and falling until I inevitably hit the cold and unforgiving floor
The Hunter's Moon is here
My heart crying that you are nowhere near
Off to sleep and hopefully this time tomorrow
You will NO longer cause me despairing sorrow....
Things are slowly falling into place
This time I'm following the universe's pace
4 months now since I've surrendered the upmost need to numb the pain away
No longer succumbing to those malicious and malevolent clouds of Gray
Oh don't get me wrong the Storm still greatly wages war from within
Only this time I'm not running from these uncomfortable emotions
I'm embracing the immeasurable pain with EveRY shred of this frayed and fragile vessel
It may end up tearing me completely apart dealing with the seemingly insurmountable wreckage
But that's ok, because then I'll FINALLY have a fresh new start and be the person that my Creator AlWAYS intended for me to be.
Exhaustion beyond comprehension
Traveling forward towards You with every best intention
My Love, tis very dark here
But I can feel Your somber Presence near
Valley of Death is completely enshrouded
Meaning that it is No longer crowded
Try to meet me there soon...
Until then I most eagerly await the full Hunter's Moon
Knowing that I'll be close to a versioned form of You soon
Can't wait to explore the UNKNOWN
And find out to see how We have both grown
Things have been placed in motion
Let us FINALLY explore Our Love 4-Eva buried in the endless eternal ocean....
Not sure where I am or where to begin again
Rug ripped out beneath me
Free falling but finally managing to fly into an unopened and unowned Time and place
Just maybe, You will finally reveal Your True face to me
I've followed Your voice for so long
I know this Time.... Can't be wrong
Can You hear my Song meant ONLY for You?
Please tell me what I now must need do here?
Keep sweetly whispering in my ear
Make the army of demons 4-Eva disappear
My soul is shredding and enraptured by their present capture
Rapture it away
Fragile shell flickering out until there are no more Shadows left of inerasable doubt
Don't make me pout beneath the moonlight
One day my dearest darling You'll be My m...
She will ALWAYS be the Gypsy that permanently will remain
Yet nothing EveR is the same
A weary recycling endless game
Dearest Gypsy where will Thou WandeR now?
When will You reap what You sow?
And what is IT that exactly will grow?
Across the escalades of Time
Are Uour incessant visions truly from the ONLY Divine?
Or are You simply going MAD from Your various Cages of Confine?
Then WHO truly controls and creates this ULTIMATE intricateness of SUPREME DeSIgN???
My Most Precious and Divine Love,
I am truly in magnificent awe of You
Thank You for safely guiding me thru the tumultuous Storm and heavy Spiritual attacks that rained down in ways unseen
Bless you for placing Angels and Warriors in my path to make it thru to where You want me to be
I have so many emotions flowing thru me I can't even begin to describe them
Please help me to keep listening to Your gentle whispers
I am filled with unfounded Joy of what's to Come
I seek rest under your mighty Wings tonight
I'm so weary My Love
Te veo en mis sueños
Te Amo con Todo de Mi Alma, Mente y Corazón
Where do I go from here?
I'm so tired of wandering from place to place
Hardly ever a familiar face
But what is familiar anymore?
Other than just another bloody door?
I suppose I should be grateful given my unforseen circumstances
So many exhaust multiple chances
And no longer deserve second and third glances
Sitting in the Shadows lost and confused
Honestly not sure anymore what to do or where to go this time
I can no longer swim nor climb
Wherein truly lies The Divine?
I'm sinking and drowning
But at least I'm truly smiling because it has FINALLY come to the decimation that I was so desperately craving
freeing me from Your melancholic creation
Nothing left but one last breathe of ultimate ce...
This fragile body is a grievous chamber weeping with sheer exhaustion
I've been unable to heed your words of caution
Not for lack of trying
But my continued nightmares keep waking me with incessant screaming and crying
The acrimonious past has come to viciously haunt
It doesn't matter anymore what I want
My soul is reeling with despair
But it was He that placed me there
I shall wearily and resentfully return to the land of the living
Have you truly thought about everything You are freely giving?
Apologies for the morosity
I can no longer bear this daily mediocrity
Praying that I see you soon
We will meet under the next Full Hunter's Moon
But Times and places have yet to be decided
We will k...
My Most Precious Darling,
You really need to rest
I'm going to need you at your very best
I know you have been wide awake since Domingo waiting for my reply
Which to you I'll nEver deny
I've been stuck in cruel captivity but I was able to receive your warning not a moment too soon
Beware of the Shadowed hungry wolf in the Snow
He is seeking to extinguish your Glow
I know there are many wolves prowling in my stead but one I've sent out just for you at the right moment
You'll know when and if you should flee with him
His distinguished accent will speak words Only you will understand that it was given by My command and no intruders'
I've had no luck contacting tus bruders
Please My Love...
I see you've deployed the Protector over Her
Hopefully not too late in
Your procrastinated Timing
She's still painfully naive in the realms of Love
Plans must be made to rid of the malignant pestilence once and for all
I'll leave it up to You and who to call
I detest watching from the sidelines
She can NOT afford to be further derailed
She can no longer be cradled
The rude Sapphiric Awakening is ensuing
Soon Her PURE Magic will be brewing
P.S. Meet me on the ancient battlefield on the Darkest of nights of Your soul and then We shall take eternal flight into
OUR Dawn's Mourning Luz
I need to hear from You soon
Your continued Silence is like a gushing arterial open wound My Love
I feel myself becoming unDONE
Crawling inside of this wretched skin
Uncertain of where to Begin
I know things must be taking You longer than anticipated
Have Septima and Segundos been decimated?
My wretched anxiety grows as Time nears for this Precious Life we have Created
I know You are out there in the Sequestered Abyss
My apologies for being so week and uncertain
Do You think He and She are ready to pull theLAST veiled curtain?
Too many spies lurking in the Shadows and some EveN masquerading in the Light
It is too perilous to share with you my cursed Sight so the Enemies don't hasten your pr...
I have yet to sleep a wink
Too much damn time to think and think
Tis a Misty fog morning
So serenely haunting
I keep waiting for a stern warning
The enigmas of it all is ever so daunting
I keep walking thru the Eerie mist in vain attempts of finding Thee
Tis quite possible now that I'll never be sane
I keep hearing Your voice call out to me and singing my haunted lullaby
I'll keep following it until I drift off to sleep
just maybe then we will finally meet
if even only for a little while
It'll be worth seeing Your gorgeous smile
I'm not allowed to walk during the day
Night is my cloak and you can't see me thru His ultimate Shadow
I don't know where I'm going from this point on
I don't EveN care what's lurking
Just let IT be finished once and for ALL
When will You make that FINAL Call?
I have NOTHING left just Your continued borrowed breath that I no longer want
Why must I still remain to haunt so ALONE?
I know I'm the Last of my Kind
Which You still won't reveal to me that quiet, precious Enigma of what I truly am.....
At this point I'm nothing more than a Lullaby of Woe
Sapphira the Creator of hell fire
Calypso how dare you keep me here longer than 7 years!
Aurora have you lost your Dawn en la Oscuridad?
Ruby the highest in demand for sangre droplets forEveR spilled on repeat
Lilith have you still forgotten your Only daughter Tiger-Lily left in the decimated Valley?
EVAnescent seems to be the common theme among you All
Tierra why are you still burning?
Temperance are you still seeking your recompense?
Reina where does your Eternal Kingdom lie?
Odette my precious, hidden Onyx Swan
Sage, have you been lost in all of this chaos?
Eivor has your true love Death found you yet?
Have you sent down the Raven?
I No longer have a safe Haven
Yet again I'm a desperate RUNAWAY
What is your name in Mine Time?
What is your name in Your Thyme?
What color is my hair?
Midnight Ruby or Midnight Indigo?
My skin is so fragile and breaks easily and bleeds incessantly
When will the rocks finally melt with the Sun?
My Love has nEveR Begun
What the hell happened to me today?
What was all of the amplified noise?
Who turned up the volume on sonic boom?
Who is trying to accelerate my impending Doom?
I barely survived today still in tact
Where are you My Love?
I couldn't see or hear you thru all of the Chaos
When will it stop?
I can't hear myself think
I can't EveN drown it all out in a bloody drink
I did receive an anonymous letter
Is it really you or was it another imposter?
I only caught a glimpse of him in the Shadowed Snow in the form of a wolf
Was he one of your messengers?
I don't know what to think anymore
Is your brother still playing this Wicked game?
Have you heard from my younger Twin brother?
My soul can't bear ...
No te visto en mis pesadillas anoche
They put me under and choked me out
No pudé respirar
No quería despertarmé está mañana
Casí te vi en la distancía y mi alarma se fue al Las Cuatro en la madrugada
Estâ tiempo para tratar a dormir otra vez
Gracias por estar a mi lado en maneras diferentes
Durante mi día en esté maldita mundo hoy
Te ví en muchas cosas
Pero tengo una pregunta
¿Cómo te llamas en mi Tiempo?
Tengo que saber
No puedo continuar estar tan confundida encontrando Tu de VERDADERO Mi Amor.
Gracias Mi Rey por mis regalitos!
¡No pudé creerlo!
Arté, ropa y zapatós para recordarme de Ti y Tus promesas Incredibles
Me voy por ahora
No puedo quedar más
La ventana estâ cerra...
My Love I'm finally coming home to Thee
Will You still meet me 'neath the Silver Branch Tree?
I've run out of Stars to count along my perilous journey Home
I know I'm nEver truly alone
Tis late here
I'm not sure what Time you are presently trapped in
But I know we are getting close to the End
When you and I can finally begin anew
I don't have much Time left here
This atmosphere makes it hard to breathe but I'm out of my element
Each day lamenting your absence
I'll look for you tonight in my Dreams and the many worlds unseen
I'll see you somewhere in the Mourning Star!
Te Amo con Todo que yo soy en el pasado, presente y futuro Mi Amor Perdido y Verdadero.
Please leave me clues to where you are...
She's on vacation
She's on Life support
She's barely breathing....
Dark night of the soul is what this is called
But what a cruel misnomer giving such false hope
Because it is so much more
Than just that damn red door
Words yet to exist and probably never will come close to Even begin to describe what I'm exactly feeling tumultuously inside
There is NO where to run and NO where to hide from this incessant
I can Only plan my Last Goodbye
Alice I've been dancing with your ghost
You're the only one I wanted the most
But indeed I see that it's off with your head
While She painted the roses red
Cruelly making me believe that you ARE truly Dead
How could I not see that it was you in disguise?
My secret and forbidden Scarlett obsession....
I missed your Royal procession
My dearest Queen of Broken Hearts
Can we EveR make a new Start?
No, it cannot be, we are destined to be forEver apart.
You'll Always remain in my shattered memories and within the shards of all the Souls of Hearts you left behind grasping for True Love so rapaciously
This is your immortal curse for all of damned and forsaken eternity.
I Will continue to dance with...
Prick your delicate painted Lusty Orchid and Blue Moon River finger...
It is DONE!
The Scarlett and Sapphire Moons have finally eclipsed the dying and sick Sun
What will happen now once Scarlett and Sapphire converge?
Why the Amethyst Moon will soon emerge
Indicating that my forEver LOST Love is near
I know longer have Death to fear as He seductively whispers in my ear...
The immaculate Angel of Dark has spread His fiery Onyx wings
And whispers " My Love y Reina de mi Corazón y mi Alma, the Time has come for better things. So come with me now my most Precious One, it is beyond Time for you to finally be undone and AWAKEN!"
Esperanza that tragically nEver was...
Vivien what an indomitable & fiery Spirit!
Amethyst is the one to create a love tryst
Nevaeh do you Even still exist?
Gwendolyn when will you let your heart beat again?
Esmeralda your gypsy Spirit is Always on the move
Luna you're the purest form of La Locura
Ivy my wild and wicked child
Naomi do you still go by Mara these days?
Amber is eternally forsaken and will regrettably nEver awaken
She's forEver fading away
She no longer wants to Even attempt to stay
She doesn't belong here and nEver will
She knows this time it'll be the final Onyx and Scarlett pill
Don't cry for Her when She's no longer in this mortal and fragile realm
She will be with Me manning this nefarious spiritual helm
She's already been here going on 27 years of stolen fragmented Time
Perhaps Her soul will finally be free and intertwine with what was Always meant to Be
You can NO longer keep Her away from Me
Fragile and fragmented mind
What mendacious rabbit hole did you now find?
So do you think it is a wise decision to embark on another mental collision?
Will it turn out like you so precariously envision?
Will the darkness rapaciously hold on to your last shred of sanity?
Is the answer worth this FINAL calamity?