"The thing is that it could never again feel natural to talk to her"
John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
You could climb to the top of the world and jump into the deepest of ravines, but if you don’t have someone to share it with you’ll always be looking back.
You will never see me surrender, never see me cry, but you will often see me walk away. Turn around and just leave, without looking back.
I hurt myself deeply, though at the time I had no idea how deeply. I should have learned many things from that experience, but when I look back on it, all I gained was one single, undeniable fact. That ultimately I am a person who can do evil. I never consciously tried to hurt anyone, yet good intentions notwithstanding, when necessity demanded, I could become completely self-centred, even cruel. I was the kind of person who could, using some plausible excuse, inflict on a person I cared for a wound that would never heal.
And when you get something good, please don't go looking for something better ....
My anxiety is silent. Youu wouldn’t even notice a change on the outside, but i’m honestly so stressed I can’t even manage simple tasks ....
"As far as you can avoid it, do not give grief to anyone. Never inflict your rage on another. If you hope for eternal rest, feel the pain yourself; but don’t hurt others."
Conflict in what?
Conflict in personality. That's the problem. You and me we are both the same persons. You are just another part of mine, right ?
It shows the complication with me. Its not bad thing in some manners conflicted personalities within a single person makes him a very good artist and provide him the wider possibilities to think about and more depth in his thoughts.
He stoped to caught his breath.
But in real life this thing is really dangerous. You can never be good at any relation with this kind of personality.
You always remain confuse and you don't even know which part of your dominating you at certain time of your relation with someone.
How this thing eff...
In the start I have very strong feelings about her but there is something like some sixth sense which alarms you and that sign was so true. I realized it and gave up on her before anything started because its easy to get over things which never started. But then there was fate, who had a different plan of its own. Fate said "No, no, no its not that simple, this is not supposed to end like that."
"Don't do anything foolish its not a child's play stay away and keep her away from me or its gonna be a disaster you know it." I said to fate clearly.
Then it ended just like that?
No fool it was just beginning of a catastrophic end I forget that you can not reason with fate.
I don't ...
"Sometime's I consider myself very lucky."
Really do you ?
"Yeah I do."
"Whenever I remember the nights I went to sleep texting with her" he smiled. "Those was the most comfortable sleeps I ever had in my life otherwise I sucks at sleeping ." There was a pause.
"Those were the days when a single text of her made my heart racing fast, when her emojies made me forget everything around me and when only one enchanting look of her made my whole day, when her wink made me to run away from everything and hide somewhere and when and when ... " he stopped.
Yes carry on ..
"I'm so lucky I have memories of someone like her. What else someone wants from this life."
Then why did you hurt her so...
So how it was started?
"It was started in just blink of an eye. I always doubted feelings like that ever existed, but that very moment utterly jittered me and my views. It felt like time stopped and my heart forget to beat." he stopped and lauged. "It all sounds like unreal just few flattering words but you never knew that felling until you meet someone. I can gave away anything to went back in that moment thats how important it was to me and thats how it started.
Was she that beautiful?
"I dont know what you mean by beauty but for me she is the scale of beauty. Before her I didn't knew anything about beauty for me everything which attracted me was charming well you can say I was very cheap b...
You know what charm is: a way of getting the answer yes without having asked any clear question ...
If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.
You can't force love, I realized. It's there or it isn't. If it's not there, you've got to be able to admit it. If it is there, you've got to do whatever it takes to protect the ones you love.
I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.
Lisa Kleypas, Blue-Eyed Devil (Travises, #2)
I love you so much that nothing can matter to me - not even you...Only my love- not your answer. Not even your indifference.
My heart no longer felt as if it belonged to me. It now felt as it had been stolen, torn from my chest by someone who wanted no part of it.
Since he knew things at the beginning, maybe at the end he knew things too. That we had gone as far as chance would take us. That nothing is more sacred than youth or more hopeful than turning yourself over to someone and saying ~ I have this time, it is not a long time, but it is my best time and my best gift, and I give it to you. When I revisit my youth, I re-visit you.
Loneliness leads to nothing good, only detachment. And sometimes the people who most need to reach out are the people least capable of it.
میری زندگی تو فراق ہے، وہ ازل سے دل میں مکیں سہی
وہ نگاہِ شوق سے دور ہیں، رگِ جاں سے لاکھ قریں سہی
ہمیں جان دینی ہے ایک دن, وہ کسی طرح وہ کہیں سہی
ہمیں آپ کھینچۓ دار پر, جو نہیں کوئی تو ہم ہی سہی
سرِ طُور ہو سرِ حشر ہو، ہمیں انتظار قبول ہے
وہ کبھیی ملیں وہ کہیں ملیں، وہ کبھی سہی وہ کہیں سہی
نہ ہو ان پہ کچھ میرا بس نہیں کہ یہ عاشقی ہے حوس نہیں
میں انہی کا تھا میں انہی کا ہوں، وہ میرے نہیں تو نہیں سہی
مجھے بیٹھنے کی جگہ ملے میری آرزو کا بھرم رہے
تیری انجمن میں اگر نہیں، تیری انجمن کے قریں سہی
تیرا در تو ہم کو نہ مل سکا تیری راہگزر کی زمیں سہی
ہمیں سجدہ کرنے سے کام ہے، جو وہاں نہیں تو یہیں سہی
میری زندگی کا نصیب ہے، نھیں دور مجھ سے قریب ہے
مجھے اس کا غم تو نصیب ہے، وہ...
It didn’t matter. I loved her. I loved her so much that I couldn’t see anything else for a while. She filled the cracks inside me, blotted out the cold, empty places in the world. It didn’t take long before she
was the only thing that mattered. Love like that is what they make movies about. It’s the thing you’re supposed to want, the answer to every question, the song that you’re supposed to sing. But love like that can be too big, too. It can be something you shouldn’t be trusted to hold when you’re the kind of person who drops the eggs and breaks the remote control. Love doesn’t break easily, I found. But people do.