Sometimes the only thing you can do is try, try to figure out how to fix the damages done. But it is not necessary that you will be supported or understood at times.
However you have to put aside your self respect and dignity just because you value them more and more. And finally there comes a time when there is no respect left, no dignity left and no person who had them....
We did a lot for others and when the time came to do things for ourselves, we didn't have time or the situation or the resources or due to some other reasons......
But I believe a day will come when there will be no others to do things for and there will be only "We".
While moving ahead in your life I wish whichever roads you take, whatever tasks you pursue, whoever feels better for you and all the decisions you make bring nothing but Happiness in your life. Amen.
And then she asked him, "Where are you ?"
And he said to himself doesn't she knows where he always is and has been.... In her Heart.
It hurts to hear an I, I and only I when you die waiting to hear a We.
How on Earth can two totally different souls get along while having more differences than common interests ?
If you feel like missing someone else while you are with your Love.... then wake up and realize that it's not Love.
The moment when you need them to be by your side and you find them Exploring their own interests...
The pain given by your Love by iterating the words, " A person has no right to point out on others when self is stained", shatters you to the core !
And very very rarely you find someone who turns out to be the villain of his own Story.......
A story of Self Destruction !
Sometimes the distance between Lovers creates an unbreakable bond or an unexpected void or one each on either side.
Either you live free like a bird or be caged in your Fears...
Choice is yours.
Everytime he decides not to bother her anymore, his heart says let's look at her, text her, speak with her and ironically it is a habit now.
You meet two types of people in life.
Many who will not be with you after a while and a handful who are destined to be there for you.
Thank the hundreds who left and LOVE the precious few who stayed.
He thought why so many hurdles in their life, why not only happiness ? Why not only Love and No misunderstandings ???
Her Love for him echoed in his 💓 that with every misunderstanding we increase in understanding... each other.
Though they are very casual, have so many Friends, have varied hobbies....
But then the only place where their souls finds rests is in each other's arms.
Then they said, "You take rest for the day...!"
And he was thinking will it give him rest or is it a spoiler alert ?
Anyhow not everytime you get what you want, so let's take rest.
Before judging, blaming or humiliating the people who love you, take a moment to see how much they missed you, how many times they checked their phone for your call or text or... if they tried to contact you.....
Because you may not know that seeing you called once, they tried reaching you multiple times but found you busy with something or someone more important.
The only thing one should not do is live life the way people want you to...
Cause they may make you feel that they too are doing same for you but the only thing they do is what their hearts and minds say and not what your heart says.
He was asked why do you Love her ?
He couldn't even answer the question let alone answer in a romantic way.
He was thinking why...? Why he Loves her ???
Then he realized, "You don't need a reason to LOVE your Life".
She thought he was busy. He assumed she was busy. They both didn't wanted to disturb the other assuming they might be in some important work, but they forgot that disturbing each other was their happiness and not staying idle....
He always needed a hand to live....
But whenever someone did so, he hurt them, caused them grief and forced them to desert him but always thought that the problem was on the other end. However when she came in his life, and same repeated.. He understood the problem is not external but within....
When you travel a road which is either never travelled or travelled long ago, you find new concerns, issues and hurdles in front.
But the deciding factor is risk. You take it and become free for eternity cause you can live either the way you want to or the way others want you to.
So it's up to us to live free or don't live at all....
He assumed what happened yesterday was just a conversation on a lighter note. He was again going into a Traumatic experience.
She asked him multiple times what's wrong but he couldn't tell what he thought and what was happening... He didn't even have the courage to ask her what he was feeling.. was it the same with her ? But the fear of rejection enveloped his mind and soul and he couldn't speak a word..
She might have felt that and she had the courage to give her hand in his hand and didn't even care for others surrounding them.
He was confused and the only thing he could ask was what does this mean and her silence made him emotional and tears started descending from his eyes....
When everything was going smooth they moved away from each other all of a sudden. He was unsure about what's happening and he started feeling like his past that he lost her....
But then she did what he never thought of and he still couldn't believe what happened....
He was a spark which always needed to become a lightning fire.
In pursuit of which he first burnt others and then himself eternally.
Now he feels there is nothing left in him.....
Their conversation had a lot of topics included and they jumped from one to another. However one frequent word that echoed was "Sorry". He never liked her being Sorry for the things which doesn't even matter him and she never got why he said so....
He kept quiet assuming time will do it's course.