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As I shut my eyelids,
I see your face.
My every morning starts with your smile,
And night ends with your memories of day.
If I had a remedy to heal your wounds.
If I could be a reason for you to smile.
If I could held your hand, rub your palms and say 'Be Strong!'
If I could say, 'I'm with you! Do what you feel like! We'll make through every wrongs!'
If I could ask you to rest your head into my laps,
Just to share all your griefs by your silence.
And I could kiss your forehead,
Letting you come out with all, that you're holding within.
Our worst time will definitely surpass one day,
With a happy spin.
I just wish to see my favourite smile on your face,
With those cute dimples that satisfies my heart.
I want to laugh at those lame jokes,...
I want to touch you,
With my moist crimson lips.
You spreading your arms for me,
Arousing my senses.
This is the only dream,
I see in every minute of my life.
Our secret eye contacts,
In my stomach, gets butterflies.
I wait at these staircases,
To fall into your arms by chance.
Like I see in those movies,
Our eye contacts getting deeper, leaving me in a trance.
A strong rush of nervousness,
I feel around you.
My pounding heart orders me to tell you my feelings,
But my craziness level in front of you makes me feel like a stupid.
Waiting for the perfect time and place,
I fear for you, loosing.
Can we share this bon...
Sometimes, screams of your heart can been seen through your creativity!
I couldn't be asleep,
Before our lips meet.
Send me away from you,
And you will find my heart beating.
In the rhythm of your love,
That you poured on me.
Even with a blink of my eye,
I'm scared for you, loosing.
Your one touch is enough,
To give warmth to my cold heart.
The way to you smile, you blush,
Makes me feel like, this is what I want to see whole of my life.
This happiness to my heart feels so comforting.
I just want to feel myself in your arms,
But it seems, this distance between us ain't narrowing.
Anyway! It's okay!
It's okay, not to see you for long.
It's okay, not to touch you.
Cause I've just loved you!
The memories we have lived,
Dreams that make me happy,
Sometimes feels like a nightmare.
With my closed eyes,
When I see them falling,
I hear them scrunching, into my ears.
I feel scared.
As my head plots their end.
A shiver I feel from within.
All decisions suddenly turn into question marks.
I don't want to end my life, with unsuccessful dream's scars.
I feel comfortable being silent and sombre.
Cursing myself, I feel helpless.
At times, I feel like having Arrhythmia,
When your thoughts get clogged into my head.
The things, the moments that used to make smile,
Your fake promises,
Your sweet words,
Now, sounds bitter.
I was ready to wait,
Till things fall into place.
Cause I thought,
But no, I was wrong,
I think, we never understood each other.
You just wanted to be alone.
Everytime I tired, but failed to pull you out of your comfort zone.
I was just like a non-existent,
Who never mattered much.
But now I get it all,
You were just my temporary happiness.
I remember the first time we met,
It felt like everything, like we, we're just perfect!
The love that I saw his eyes,
Said, I'm here with you till our hairs turn white.
All insecurities, all fears,
Were locked and disappeared.
The way he made me smile,
And wiped my tears.
He promised to love me a little more,
Gave a hope for our life and future.
The first time, I felt it's love!
Every dream which I saw without him, now I saw him as my future.
Distance definitely separated us,
But not by our hearts.
I saw him change for good,
Holding my hand in worse.
We definitely never loved.
But, we knew,
We'll fight against all odds and live a bright f...
WHEN YOU REALIZE
A day comes,
And bangs your door of life.
Shows you a reality,
And you realize.
That there are things for which you carve for,
But those are not meant to be.
Even if you try holding them tight in your fist,
A day will come, when it will slip out of your fingers between.
That you can smile even in pain.
Tears definitely roll down sometimes,
But it can get soaked into your skin.
With no visible marks.
So who knows, how much damaged is your inner heart!
That silence is not always comfortable,
It makes you feel restless.
You cannot always enjoy it,
As sometimes it means that you're lacki...
Kaash iss hath koo tu iss waqt fir thaam leta,...
Kaash mere aasuon koo ponch kar mujhe ek umeed deta...
Kehta ki humare saare sapno koo hum saath mei pura karenge....
Bahon mei ek dusre ki zindagi jee lenge...
Kaash sun pata tu mere dil ki dhimmi si awaaz...
Joo tujhe durr jaane se rok leti...
Kaash tu samjh pata meri zuban kaa juth...
Dil mei chipe sach koo chupate chupate usska vajud hi mei khoo baithi....
Abb toh akele hi zindagi ke her pal katt lenge....
Thodi juthi khushi, inn hotho se jalka lenge...
Shayad sapne dekhna hi gunhaa tha humare liye....
Ye kali raatein aur kale din, saanein bandh hone tak katt lene....
You know, what I love about negativity?
It makes me feel comfortable!
It doesn't give you false hopes!
It hurts a little, but slowly you start enjoying!
Shattering your dreams at once.
Unlike, being positive and expecting to rule the world.
It murders you with a stroke of knife.
Unlike slowly loosing your breaths,
And fluttering for your death bed.
You're alone! And you will always be alone!
Happiness is temporary,
I think, It's the pain which is permanent!
WHY DO NIGHTS MAKE ME MISS YOU MORE?
From the dusk to dawn,
I feel your presence in my head.
But why do nights make me miss you more?
Why it intensifies my feelings and unveil my secrets?
You're the light to my soul.
A part of me,
Which is undetachable.
I've thousands of words to say to you,
But in the empty nights,
Without you around me,
I'm a scared soul.
You're a thief to my heart.
I wish, I could arrest you in heart.
The way you make me feel,
Is so intense and deep,
That I'm lost insanely in your love.
The nights don't scare me anymore.
In the moonlight,
I see us dancing together.
Like moon romances with the st...
With empty hands,
And hollow dreams.
Sometimes make me feel,
So unwanted and a liability.
It feels like I'm a burden to this world,
Giving no smiles but disappointments.
I see those hurddles into my path,
Like a blockage.
Even if I try jumping or escaping,
It pulls me down with that gravity,
That I again feel caged.
Unable to breath anymore.
Thumping heart with an uncertain fear is ready to blow.
I see myself dragged back when I move one step forward.
I feel, as if someone has tied my hands and legs with some kind of handcuffs.
Am I just a structure of bones with a layer of mass?
Sometimes I feel,
Why do even air is free?
Don't you think, it should also ha...
The way his words touched her,
Hypnotizing her heart.
The letters he wrote pouring his love,
Expressing his feelings in the form of an art.
Her eyes struck into those engraved letters,
Re-reading until they're imprinted into her heart.
Her numb body just feel their togetherness,
With the happiness & eyes full of tears.
The curve of her lips widens,
To know, that he's there for her at her worse.
She wished to hug him so tight right now,
That both forget their problems & fears.
The day he held my hand,
His eyes promised me to love me till infinity.
The day he kissed my lips,
His heart promised to only beat for me.
He said, I was a diamond.
But that shine behind a diamond can pierce a soul.
Rip into pieces,
With a infinite holes.
Now, we are comfortable with our silence.
Like for each other, we're non existent.
Now, our hands meet less often.
All our memories, we pretend as if we've forgotten.
Love is lost somewhere in pointing out each other's flaws.
Eyes are into a habbit of diving into river of tears.
A LETTER TO YOUR HEART
I know, you are sitting next to me.
We both holding a cup of coffee.
I know, you are so close to me,
Yet this little space between us is eating me.
Right now, yes right now,
I just want to fall into your arms.
Right now, I want tell you,
How much I am crazy in your love.
I want to touch your fingers,
Lock my fingers into yours.
I want to caress your cheeks,
And look into your eyes, blushing,
Like I am looking right now.
I want these people to disappear for a while,
Letting my heart speak for a while.
I know, you're waiting for the same.
Waiting, to pull me closer,
Holding me by my waist.
That touch of our skin,
Is still left u...
Alone in a room,
Where voices cannot reach.
Outside, there is silence,
And fresh air to breathe.
But this place is still a cage for me.
This room feels suffocating.
These people whom i hate,
I just want to flee.
This peace is a parasite,
Slowing eating me.
Scares me more than a news of strom.
These negative vibes,
Threatens me in every form.
No..I cannot stay here anymore.
I'm tired of fighting from these demons.
Take me away!
Cause I'm just waiting to be reborn.
Throbbing hearts lying beside each other.
His hands caressing my face,
Playing with my hairs.
Pecks that he give me on my cheeks,
Ignite my desires that I feel.
Lusty to press my lips against his.
He moving his fingers tenderly onto my skin.
Holding me tight into his arms.
Feeling like, we are inseparable.
Exposing each other through our skins,
Our breaths go high like deprived of oxygen.
Warmth of his skin,
Give shivers to me.
His eyes are enough to intoxicate me.
Whirling my senses,
He fills me with ecstasy.
His whispers into my ears,
Fills me with excitement.
Like there isn't any heaven,
That I have ever seen.
Melting into each other,
Our every nerve tingling....
A cursed soul,
Scuffling with her inner demons.
Felt like, 'No! Not anymore!'
Those dim lights in my life,
Scared me much more.
More than the fear of darkness.
More than being forgotten with no regrets.
Those dim lights!
Which gave shivers to me.
The sweat that drips from my body seeing it.
Those dim lights,
Which were worse than the darkness.
Cause, everytime when I wished to see it getting brightened,
It back stabbed me leaving me into the world of darkness.
Everytime it gave me a false hope,
That everything is fine.
It felt like, it hypnotized me somehow.
Cause I had no control over my mind.
When I got comfortable with dark,
It flickered ...
REALITY OR A DREAM!!
With the best dress, lipstick and hairs open,
I rushed towards the metro to meet him for the first time.
I was a lot more concious and nervous then I thought I would be.
Cause meeting someone for the first time was never knew to me.
But this meet was not less than an examination!
Cause I wanted to feel this love, this craziness in these two days meet, which I've never ever felt for someone.
After which, our journey will either begin or I would've to remember them as the best days which I lived through my destiny.
Thinking about him kept me excited the whole long way.
And there was a little awkwardness that I felt,
Cause the day...
But cannot escape from it's cage.
Holding me within those boundaries,
Unable to bear more pain.
There ain't any scratches on my skin,
There ain't any marks of my sins.
Just those haunting thoughts,
Hypnotizing my mind.
Making me feel suffocated,
By getting my breaths high.
Killing me, in each second from inside,
But still, somehow, this body manages to survive.
Sometimes those thousand pages of my diary ain't enough to pour my love for you.
Just a blank page of my diary with your embossed name feels complete.
When this heart rebels,
And say to hold your hand once again,
Like I used to.
To fall into your eyes once again,
Like I used to.
To feel you around once again,
Like I used to.
But it hurts to realize this fact,
That it wasn't meant to be.
Sometimes for someone like me,
It feels like love does not exists.
Every failure feels like my dreams,
Slipping like sand from my fist.
How much I try hard,
I get nothing but see my hopes getting shattered.
I see that disappointment in those eyes,
Who wished for my success.
I feel this negative energy,
Building around me, a negative shell.
Those unbearable comments & taunts.
Those false hopes which people give.
For some moments,
You doubt your own existence.
Life feels more miserable.
Cause you know,
There is nobody to hold your hand.
To hug you & cup you face,
Look into your eyes with that confidence & trust, and say
That 'I trust you! You'll do it! Believe yourself!'
'Life is all about learning from your failures!'
When I feel...
Underneath the moonlight,
I could see that lovelight in your eyes.
Wanting to lock that moment,
Freezing the time.
The way you touch me,
Hold me a little closer.
The sound of our accelerated breaths,
Is the only thing which I could hear.
Mingling our bodies into each other.
Wet lips taste more sweeter.
Being so lost in our presence & togetherness.
You left me enticed by your love.
IT'S JUST A PHASE
That your past makes you feel.
Leaving your eyes weeping,
Self regrets & cursing.
You're strong enough to deal with anything.
Still for that moment,
You feel broken.
You try so hard to put that fake smile of being alright, consoling yourself.
But inside, those thoughts eat your mind.
You want to let it all out for once.
But you can't.
Cause you're the person who love to keep your problems to self.
Maybe people don't even care what you're going through.
Even if you say in your trembling voice that 'I'm fine!',
They won't bother to ask or troubleyou.
Maybe asking for the tenth time,
You would've spoken up.
LOST IN LOVE
Staring at her,
He was lost.
The way she used her hands,
To explain every word.
The way she made her face expressions,
The way she spoke in front of him,
Without any hesitation.
He could just freeze his eyes & smile,
Which she never let it fade.
Slowly, he crawled near her,
Wrapping his arms around her waist.
Touching her softness passionately,
Her eyes widened & stunned,
Lips slowly getting still.
Words were now ceased.
She could see that love in his eyes,
For which she craves for.
In his enchanting eyes,
She was ready to surrender.
Heart beats ran faster,
With the touch of their lips.
Lost into ea...