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Broken Promises

PO# 143465
United States
United States
Love lasts longer than life
July 5, 2017
Jacksonville, United States

I moved again. It started off rough. I actually regretted it the first week. Bad things just kept coming my way, I thought nothing good was going to come from moving here.. I'm starting to realize maybe I'm right. I'm stuck in a house with no friends here, just like I was in TX. At least when I moved back home I had people who cared, who actually couldn't wait to see me. Though it was only a few months of knowing them it felt like I knew them for so much longer. I guess I miss them.. Now I'm in FL, and I feel so alone. The one person who's suppose to make me feel less alone is causing this feeling. Why did I think things would change? Why do I keep putting myself back in the same misery? I ha...

CELEBRATING FREEDOM
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May 31, 2017
Newport News, United States

It sucks not having anyone to talk to. Constantly having to pretend everything is fine when in fact everything is falling apart. Not having anyone to relate to, everyone being in a different chapter of life as you. So we just bottle things up and hope for the best. We don't see anything wrong with the silence, the anger that builds in us, the crushing feeling of the world we carry. We don't see anything wrong with the feelings that come with the bottled up feelings. We bleed to know we're alive. We cry to know we're alive. We scream to know we're alive. But we do everything in silence because we have no-one..

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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April 27, 2017
Newport News, United States

I rather be alone than with you.

ANGEL OF PASSION
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April 23, 2017
Newport News, United States

I shouldn't have to cry myself to sleep..

ANGEL OF PASSION
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April 23, 2017
Newport News, United States

There is no we, only just you. You fix this, because I'm done.

EARTH DAY
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April 21, 2017
Newport News, United States

I've sacrificed so much for you, where's your sacrifice?

DREAMS
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April 15, 2017
Williamsburg, United States

I'm at this point in our relationship that I can't even care anymore. Things aren't going to change, not even when Lukel is born. People say babies test relationships, well if anything else puts anymore strain on this relationship we are definitely screwed. I remember telling someone we were at a 7/10 in our relationship, that was last week. I told my therapist we were at a 5/10. I realized now that just because at the time of the question just because we are either not arguing or arguing shouldn't dictate were our relationship stands as a whole. We are a solid 4/10, we aren't enough for each other and it's sad we had to bring a child into this world knowing that.

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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April 14, 2017
Newport News, United States

You live and you learn

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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March 25, 2017
Newport News, United States

Where do I go, when I have nowhere to call home?

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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February 25, 2017
Hampton, United States

I don't really nowhere to go, I don't feel like I belong anywhere..

Hurray for Hollywood
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February 25, 2017
 

I'm fat, and my body disguises me. You use it and toss me to the side like I'm worth more to you when I'm getting you off. No wonder my body doesn't respond to you like it should. Its not me, it's you...

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February 24, 2017
Hampton, United States

I'm tired of waiting for something that'll never happen..

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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February 19, 2017
 

I'll never be enough for you. Even when I try my hardest I fall short of your expectations. I'm not sure what you see in me and it's gotten to the point where I don't care. I should probably focus more on trying to own up to my own expectations of myself. They're a lot more obtainable..

Hurray for Hollywood
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February 18, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

I've never wanted to hurt you so bad in my life like I do now..

Hurray for Hollywood
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February 18, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

3 more days until I leave.
8 more days until you do.

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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February 12, 2017
 

I keep telling myself to breath, to relax, to just ignore the negativity but it's so hard. For the longest that's all I lived with. Negative thoughts, negative emotions, negative outcomes..I just lived a negative lifestyle..

ANGEL OF PASSION
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February 12, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

Spending time with you means more to me than it does to you..

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 8, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

A wife desperately pleading for emotional love.

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 7, 2017
Arlington, United States

It's too hot to cover my scars with a hoodie. I hate when the weather doesn't agree with my mood..

SUPER BOWL
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February 5, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

I will always be the blame for your misery. If that gives you some kind of closure for your life before you met me then so be it.

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 5, 2017
 

19 more days..

You don't want me to stay here because I'll be alone. It's ironic because I feel alone here with you more often than never. I'll be alone wherever I go. It doesn't matter how many people I'm surrounded by...

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February 2, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

I'm dying inside and nobody knows it but me..

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 2, 2017
 

I've been wanting to move from this state since I got here in July. Now I finally get what I want but not under the circumstances that I imagined. It all happened way sooner than was expected. September turned into August. August turned jato July, and now July turned into February. Back to VA for 3 months then off to FL. I don't wanna live there either...I just want to sleep this all away..

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 2, 2017
Haslet, United States

When you're just laying in bed, in complete darkness  and you just wish everyone you have ever lost would just get another chance to come back.

#ifonly

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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February 1, 2017
Haslet, United States

I forget I'm breathing sometimes. My mind is on autopilot.

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 30, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

Sometimes I think that all those people were right. I am the creator of my depression. Its the way I think and feel, the way I perceive this world. Its woven in my soul. A gloomy part of me which makes me feel the pain that doesn't even exist. It can't be cured.

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 30, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

I'm suicidal..

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 29, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

It's crazy, it's been a year since we lost you. Time flies doesn't it. I miss you so much little brother. I wish none of this would have happened and you would still be here. I'll make sure your niece/nephew knows everything about you. Your smile, your laugh, your style, your funny stories, everything. We miss you Lil Tim.
Rest easy..

ANGEL OF UNDERSTANDING
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January 26, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

I'm sitting here and my mind has been racing for the past couple hrs. Unfortunately I had to go to work so I put on a happier face, wiped my tears and covered my arm with gauze to temporarily fix what was broken.
I don't know how I'm going to last this whole night here by myself, this silence only makes my mind wonder. There's nothing you can possibly say to makes these feelings go away. You keep telling me to get help but I can't stomach the thought of talking to someone about my problems. I get triggered so easily that I'm just going to end up triggering myself talking to someone. And then what? I end up back in the hospital, a place I vowed so many times would be my last time going. No, I...

DREAMS
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January 26, 2017
Fort Worth, United States

I need help, but I don't know how to ask..

-catch me before I fall

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