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THE PERFECT DATE,
I'll cover my body with a red dress
He'll put on tux that day,
While dressing up,
he will Rome around everywhere
Shouting we are getting late,
I'll say two minutes honey
He'll make a gape,
Entering the restaurant
All eyes will glitter,
And that day my love
We'll promise to make each other lives better...
"The end was near. Everyone knew. But it wasn't easily discussed. As he was laying in bed, everyone silently stood around...." His son started crying , the doctor pressed his chest again and again , his son standing near his head shouting PAPAJI ,papaji !!!(DAD in Hindi) as if he felt his dad would come back to life by calling out his name several times he didn't stop.
The doctor gave up saying he is no more and everyone around bursting into tears!!! The old man took a breath again like he came back , gave a hope to everyone around rushed towards the hospital and again his son n daughter in law calling out him saying papaji please don't leave us!!! The old man left his body after seeing eve...
"I don't think it will ever be the same again after this. She sighs as she looks into the sad eyes of the person standing in front of her...."
He waves away and vanishes as if it was a dream,
As if it meant nothing to him,
As if she wasn't there with him all this time,
A decade passed of togetherness and he whipped it right away infront of her eyes having no shame at all.
She picked up all the letters of past and set them free, bought a new letter head to write a new story ...
I got up,
Cleaned my knees,
Ignored my wounded elbows,
Wiped the water flowing through eyes,
Made a upside angle with lips,
Walked a bit carefully then,
We walked together,
You faded away,
I fell again,
And it's a never ending loop !!!
"The sky turned darker and darker as she walked towards the beach. This can't be a good sign, she thought to herself..."
Thinking all the way down the path she got someone holding her hand together, she titled her face and got that sadning expression and got to know why the sky is growing darker with every step...
Walking through that same path she felt her body rising up soul strechinh out to reach someone...
Her man had a hallucination and she suddenly transported to somewhere else, and left a message to him stating not matter where I am you will always take care of your feelings
Your feelings define the weather of the world, and he couldn't say no!!!
He was happy while bless...
Love is what goes around
And love is what comes around,
I have seen people making mistakes,
Crying for it
Dying for it,
Making up to the person for their mistakes,
Ever thought why,
Why someone is so retarded
Why someone is so lustful to hear that I forgive you word
Why someone ends their ego and respect sometimes
Although ending your ego is good rather than all of the time
The reason is because they are afraid!!
They are anxious of losing someone dear is what they feel but actually they are afraid of being alone again , building up the trust once again and so on everyday issues...
They asked what you will do for kindness!!!
Aah someone talking about it , I thought it's just me who always think if people were kind to each other this world would be the best place to live in.
Just imagine with no war , no crying children, no needy people , no sad faces only happy faces.
The first thing I'll do for kindness is to be kind with myself at first place and to everyone around me, even to the bus conductor uncle (in Chennai most of the bus guys are uncles only 😌).
Even if they are rude ,which is most of the time but still. That's what kindness is all about right!!!
My heart aches a bit more now,
I guess that's the pain of taking a tough decision,
A decision as rough as not wanting to see you anymore,
Although I want to see you every time I open my eyes,
A decision as tough as not talking to you anymore,
Although I have a chat with you every time in my mind,
What wrong I have done I don't get this,
You assured your feelings,so did I
Still I don't know at what place I you or our destiny went wrong...
WOULD YOU RATHER
1. To read minds : would love to acknowledge the comments
2. Spend the entire day without using your smart phone : anyway I use it less
3. Trapped in Jurassic Park : adventurous
4. Be the funniest person in the room : i like laughing faces
5. the ability to talk to all animals : I use to do it with my dog!!!
Every night I sleep with other thought popped,
Every morning I wake up on the other side of bed
It's like everything is different than last night
But still so similar,
Like everything is tossed and twirled,
And moved upside down or reversed or whatever is the antonym for messed up !!!
"I felt lost but also didn't want to be found." She wrote in her journal. She sighed and. Closed the book. She looked up and.... Saw that fan moving round and round continuous staring at it felt like hypnotism, I shook of my head , patted my checks in order to wake me up from the external force driven I don't know from where, the hectic days the daily routine the crisis of friends family and happiness in my life was like killing me inside each and very single day.
The illness inside my body was like sucking my peace , the constant thrive to like a perfect adult was also a bar I had to reach...
I was lost somewhere I knew that , I also knew that I didn't want to be found , I just want everyth...
Wait for me Darling I'll just be there with you , to nurture you honey , just wait please!!!
- mom said on the cellphone
"And that day I had a dream of her , me sleeping carelessly beside her stomach craving for the heat I have been missing since months"
A thank you letter
Sometimes I know how I feel with the reasons tagged, but the other times I am just another clueless girl that stir here and their,
Sometimes I wonder do you even know all my pray list I give to everyday ,
I question that do you even know who the hell is this girl from this tiny planet filled with all the silly people now,
I ask you for any sign a clue or something to make sure that you are listening like they show in pictures ,
And then you sent a shooting star , I urged my wishes again and started believing that you do know who the hell is this girl from this planet...
She is an average looking girl,
Not that beautifully made that make your heart skip a beat!!!
Just simple plain pretty!!!
But she is always warm to her surroundings , the trees and flowers around her would always bloom, people around would always smile!!!
She is that type of an average looking girl ,which makes her stand out from the rest!!
Dear heart ,
A gentle yet too harsh reminder,
Always go with the person who likes you,
Sometimes the person you like is with you for experimental purpose of lust and love for his perfect one...
"He never really thought about this before. If she hadn't asked him, he never would've even considered it to be an option. As he was thinking about it, she stood there. Silently, awaiting his answer..." She probably knew what his answer would be , who else will haha she said to herself !!!
The question was Cristal clear in her mind a commitment or a release , release from this unexpected relationship , though he was their for in every big fight she had against the world but what about the fight she had with herself what about when she had those questions in her mind that bothered her every time someone asked her how's life going ...
After a long pause he said " I don't want to leave you but...
My dear sparrow,
I miss how we use to sit on this branch for endlessly breaks ...
I will confess all my sins, on one dark night
And that day my love , will be the day of trail of your love and promises you made ...
This letter says to me,
I wonder what to write,
Should I write about the mishaps,
Or about the good deeds that went in vain,
Should I write how much I miss my family,
Or about how much they miss me,
Should I write about how filthy I feel alternate day,
Or should I write how fortunate I am,
Their are so many things at a time going hand in hand with me ,
Their are so many things right now I want to write ,
Should I write about how lonely I feel in this place which has more than twenty five thousand people working together daily ,
Or should I write all the happy things and fake out to the world and me ....
The chatter my mind goes through every time I open this app and se...
#When I look into the mirror,
I see a girl with bushy eyebrows,
Eyes filled with the tears of dreams
I am unable to fulfill till now,
Cheeks without any layer applied,
Lips dry as desert,
When I look into the mirror,
I see a girl behind all those flaws,
I see a girl with strong heart and mind,
I see a girl with strong will power...
I see a girl beneath that sheet she wears
Every time that displays that she is alive...
I see a girl that can take this world inside her heart and in those small browny eyes whenever she finds someone loveable.....
It's like that point of time,
When their is someone who talk all love to you,
That someone promises all happy times to you,
That someone wishes all good things for. you,
That someone's love is unconditional for you,
Only the difference is, that someone is not the one you want ...
Although this is the kind of love you want but from someone else...
Unfair isn't it!!!
I don't feel to write so often,
Writing regularly kills my spirit to take an essence of whatever I write ...💙
I know it's been a roler coaster ride,last few months were like a mix of emotions you have gone through so many things, been like walking on water some times, seen so many scenarios made so many friends... And learned so many lessons for life.
I just wish you stay strong the way you were,
I wish you get lots and lots of friends but don't forget the main ones,
I wish you succeed in life and shine bright like a diamond...
I wish the Almighty be their with you forever and always...
Be good do good💙
Opening old books again,
As I made my new letter yesterday,
I went through many things
I analyzed many things
I got to know many things,
Things that I left or should I say gave less priority because of other things that drew my mind away!!!
Learnt something new ,
Will always learn something new from every barren land I'll cross through!!!
I wanted to write right a lot,
Write everything my heart out,
But the time was not going with me
Or I was not going with time..
(Getting ready for a date and imaging the convo I wish he would say something like)
" Embellish yourself as
much you want,
I will only love the girl
who lies benath all that
You Know you are all enough with whatever you have,
You know you use to be a part of the strong girls team in your head,
You know everything about you is just so facinating,
You know, you know the key to the house of satisfaction,
You know Hard Expectations will lead you no where,
You know everything is gonna settle down soon,
You are an oxymoron right, you know you'll contradict your own thought,
No worries honey, pull yourself together, things will be bound to go well for you.
Just wait these late night letters to self will teach you how to talk to about you to no one else but you,
My father taught me how to fight against all the odds,
My father taught me how to live the life like you want,
My father taught me how to stand up against wrong,
And also how to let go bad because karma is everything,
My father didn't taught me everything we are actually in the process , I am still a 5 year old to him and he is still my Popoye the strongest cartoon character I loved ...