|Every second a new me born beneath the whimsy skin...|
Dear heart ,
A gentle yet too harsh reminder,
Always go with the person who likes you,
Sometimes the person you like is with you for experimental purpose of lust and love for his perfect one...
"He never really thought about this before. If she hadn't asked him, he never would've even considered it to be an option. As he was thinking about it, she stood there. Silently, awaiting his answer..." She probably knew what his answer would be , who else will haha she said to herself !!!
The question was Cristal clear in her mind a commitment or a release , release from this unexpected relationship , though he was their for in every big fight she had against the world but what about the fight she had with herself what about when she had those questions in her mind that bothered her every time someone asked her how's life going ...
After a long pause he said " I don't want to leave you but...
My dear sparrow,
I miss how we use to sit on this branch for endlessly breaks ...
I will confess all my sins, on one dark night
And that day my love , will be the day of trail of your love and promises you made ...
This letter says to me,
I wonder what to write,
Should I write about the mishaps,
Or about the good deeds that went in vain,
Should I write how much I miss my family,
Or about how much they miss me,
Should I write about how filthy I feel alternate day,
Or should I write how fortunate I am,
Their are so many things at a time going hand in hand with me ,
Their are so many things right now I want to write ,
Should I write about how lonely I feel in this place which has more than twenty five thousand people working together daily ,
Or should I write all the happy things and fake out to the world and me ....
The chatter my mind goes through every time I open this app and se...
#When I look into the mirror,
I see a girl with bushy eyebrows,
Eyes filled with the tears of dreams
I am unable to fulfill till now,
Cheeks without any layer applied,
Lips dry as desert,
When I look into the mirror,
I see a girl behind all those flaws,
I see a girl with strong heart and mind,
I see a girl with strong will power...
I see a girl beneath that sheet she wears
Every time that displays that she is alive...
I see a girl that can take this world inside her heart and in those small browny eyes whenever she finds someone loveable.....
It's like that point of time,
When their is someone who talk all love to you,
That someone promises all happy times to you,
That someone wishes all good things for. you,
That someone's love is unconditional for you,
Only the difference is, that someone is not the one you want ...
Although this is the kind of love you want but from someone else...
Unfair isn't it!!!
I don't feel to write so often,
Writing regularly kills my spirit to take an essence of whatever I write ...💙
I know it's been a roler coaster ride,last few months were like a mix of emotions you have gone through so many things, been like walking on water some times, seen so many scenarios made so many friends... And learned so many lessons for life.
I just wish you stay strong the way you were,
I wish you get lots and lots of friends but don't forget the main ones,
I wish you succeed in life and shine bright like a diamond...
I wish the Almighty be their with you forever and always...
Be good do good💙
Opening old books again,
As I made my new letter yesterday,
I went through many things
I analyzed many things
I got to know many things,
Things that I left or should I say gave less priority because of other things that drew my mind away!!!
Learnt something new ,
Will always learn something new from every barren land I'll cross through!!!
I wanted to write right a lot,
Write everything my heart out,
But the time was not going with me
Or I was not going with time..
(Getting ready for a date and imaging the convo I wish he would say something like)
" Embellish yourself as
much you want,
I will only love the girl
who lies benath all that
You Know you are all enough with whatever you have,
You know you use to be a part of the strong girls team in your head,
You know everything about you is just so facinating,
You know, you know the key to the house of satisfaction,
You know Hard Expectations will lead you no where,
You know everything is gonna settle down soon,
You are an oxymoron right, you know you'll contradict your own thought,
No worries honey, pull yourself together, things will be bound to go well for you.
Just wait these late night letters to self will teach you how to talk to about you to no one else but you,
My father taught me how to fight against all the odds,
My father taught me how to live the life like you want,
My father taught me how to stand up against wrong,
And also how to let go bad because karma is everything,
My father didn't taught me everything we are actually in the process , I am still a 5 year old to him and he is still my Popoye the strongest cartoon character I loved ...
I just saw a video on Instagram of a boy who is by the way 19 years old ((the same age at when other youth on this planet think about how to get into someone)) working at united Nations to save the oceans. And as soon as the story ended the next amazing video started with a huge jellyfish beneath a turtle that was busy in its work of eating something I guess and floating around in it's own world.
What I noticed was a crazy thing that these ocean creatures don't have any visual boundaries to brag upon their kingdom, they are free as hell still busy with their own lives without distorting any other creature.
This is the most idealistic way to love yourself and a perfect ...
My secret place
To write about love
My secret place
To love what i write
My secret place
To all my secrets
My secret place
To all the hurricanes
I deal with smiling face
My secret place
To all happenings
I guess this why I write when I am happy or upset,
This Paper and keyboard always ready to jot down my heart out.
I guess this why my diary was my best friend and now this digital diary.
I wanted a different kind of love,
But it was all with,
Crawling of sheets
From one corner to other,
Grabbing hands so that
They couldn't interfere,
Pushing me down
For a better view,
You Begging to get undressed
For our skins to meet,
Your heavy body on mine
That bury me with want of love,
The urge to listen why
I love you from both the ends,
And what I needed was just our naked bodies lying , cuddling, smiling, confessing the sins and revealing the truth...
It's been like this since I don't know exactly when,
The one who dominate never urged,
The one who tolerate dies for it...
I wish I could wish mother's day to all those lovely, beautiful ,brave hearts mother's of martyrs...
I wish I could...
I love you the most , a little more than I love papa , maybe because you se yourself in me and that makes you easier to understand me among your three children. I love you the most because I know all the trouble you have taken to make me the type of human I am , a girl who I guess is more a human than just being a girl . I love you the most because only you have taken care of me the way no one else in this world would have taken. I love you the most because I have seen your efforts you put in your children to become a good human. I love you the most because only you in this will still cook food for me even after our cold wars. I wander sometimes how can anyone in this world love som...
Introvert Vs Extrovert
I really don't know what I am among these two things, it totally depends on how bad I want to talk to someone who is new to me plus it also depends on the mood I carry that moment. Basically I am introvert towards the humans I know (not my friends) and an extrovert towards the people I want to know.
Neither of them is alone good I think as they say a pinch of sugar is always added to some food to give it a bit of fusion, that fusion thing is mostly the life of many I guess.
Also Being both is better because our friends get to have an excuse to give when someone queries about your behavior.
My fictional friend
My fictional friend would b someone who knows all the what ifs and maybes,
Someone who listens me till the end of the day
Someone who could read my face,
Someone who could relate to things that I have been through,
Someone who loves the silence just like me ,
Someone who loves me the way I love other people in my life,
Someone with no special Powers,
Someone just like me but still has his own vision and identity
They say good things take time,
What I believe in is good things and bad things both take their own time , it's just a matter of hormones change you are going through...
Because sometimes when I stay strong it doesn't matter how bad things are going or how Good things are happening...
Just few chemical reaction in my body will change my perspective on every other stuff...
Why I write
I write to see, what I have exactly inside me
I write to make sure is that really what I am all about,
I write to lessen the impact of not being able to get along with others very well,
I write to the almighty, me ,you and many others whom I don't mention,
I write to know what exactly I feel at that very moment,
I write to have a meeting with me,and have a beam of hope in me,
I write to express my gratitude for everything I have right now,
I write to love me more before I can love any one else,
I write to cherish all the good and sober moment,
I write to make my every special feeling for anything more of a memory ,
P.s- And this is why I write also a big thanks to you g...
Your soul is meant to be cherished by ever single particle you sorround...
A love song
Sometimes I want you and me to be free,
Under an alluring sky under the shade of a colossal tree ,
My head on your chest listening your heartbeats ,
Resting in peace throughout the eternity...
Love and Darkness
My love story had the same start as other love story usually have. But the fact that was I was unaware was that it would be so dark that I will be unable to see my own vision.
The thing is was unaware about was the misconception about the term love,
The thing is was unaware of was that thin little blur line between what I am really and what is was pretending to be,
I saw a whole new world that night when it was all dark in and out.
Love stories are meant to brag about whether they are bright as stars in the night or they are dull like one of those rare nights with no stars in the sky.
She asked " why me honey ???
Why not some other girl with the dark eyes ?
Why not someone with a perfect body?
Why not someone with a photogenic face someone from your surroundings some girl you work with why not one of your best friends?"
He retorted" no doubt they have that perfect body and many other things but no one out their has a perfect heart like you baby , no is so beautiful the way you are!!! You are the most beautiful person I have ever met if you see yourself through my eyes dear!!! "