|Voracious reader.Imaginary drummer. Traveler. Writer. A Boy in a body of girl!|
She can be all independent. All strong.
She can stand for herself. She can be cold as ice. And hard as rock.
A connection with tears is something which cant be defined. They never meet. Ever. She won’t let anyone that bring her down, remain in her life. She keeps no connection. Nothing that can get even close to her being soft. She stays aloof.
She can't let herself get there again. Cause she knows, how devout she is.
How she can give everythin she ever had.
And she is not ready yet.
This is not the time to give all herself in when she is not yet satisfied with the time she is giving to herself.
There comes a time, when sometimes she is so vulnerrable to stay same.
So tired, so ex...
It's been so long I have wrote about you. May be, now i have no emotions urging me to write?
Or may be I no more posses that feeling for the words to come out?
I become soft as cotton, sometimes,
tough as thunder. Sometimes, I shout out loud enough to throb the building, and then i cry myself, a tear won't fall.
How more is it going to take me to forget you now?
Cause, you have never moved from the place you reside since ages. Never have i ever tried to move you. It hurts. But that's what makes me feel alive. Strong.
You residing in me, but still not with me.
It's been quite long I wrote for you.
And as now i write, I want you to know, i know when you need me. And i am here, with my arms...
No, that wont fall. It would just be there. Not even a thought of going out from there.
It would try to hop in again, not letting it out. It forced itself. Again. And again. And again.
Eventually, it gave up. It realized, there's no way going back.
"Let me just free myself atleast until this space is filled," it thought.
Spreads itself, slowly, calmly, steadily until theres no space and, stuck itself right there.
"Now, I won't move from here," smirked it.
There it stood, steady, trembling, shivering. Holding itself so tight, it wont move.
It was when it realized, it had to fall. It has to let go, let it out.
The person holding it in that sparkling, deep almo...
Still at night, when I lay down my bed. I close my eyes, about to sleep. I think of you.
That face, never looked so innocent, those eyes, so deep, I still can't help myself get drown.
That curve comes up on the face, never looked so real. It still makes me fall for you since the day I met you. So serene, so peaceful.
I still remember that time when i held your face, looked straight into your twinkling eyes asking if you really love me? And not once, when you said i felt it wrong. Not once.
I always felt eternal. Perfectly safe. Perfectly LOVED.
When seeing me smile back, u just knew how I felt. Each and every ounce of me. You just knew that time. It's when, then you leave a peck on my hea...
So Santa, Now that you are gone, and your work here is done.
I would remind you of how grateful you were to all the people out there.
Everybody celebrated your visit. Everyone was so eagerly waiting to welcome you.
They were all more than prepared for you to come, give them what they wished for, bring smiles to their faces and bring happiness in their lives.
But, did anyone bid you a Goodbye?
Did anyone, just for few minutes, thanked you genuinely?
I think, not.
Well, this is me here, with nothing but the hope that this note, that I am now scribbling, would reach you in any way.
You have been an angel for some. And for some, fairy with beard. You might have been some fat old guy, or tha...
I know. I know I write you a lot, but you are restlessly amazing. You make me feel perfect.
I always hope that someday i find you.
May be in the middle of the ocean, while I am in the cruise, going somewhere?
Or may be, somewhere in the museum, where people are trying to find deep meaning behind those meaningless sculptures or paintings or whatsoever?
I wish you would be as wacky like me, where you want to explore the world and keep each part of yourself in every corner.
But, won't it be pretty eerie, if you are exactly contrary?
I wonder, how would I be able to take it with you.
Well, you know much of me by now and you would seemly be able to seek every part of me.
And that's when, suddenly it got soft.
She thought about it, figured out the reason.
But she couldn't.
Wondered how from rock solid it became cotton.
How some things never really occupied the space, is now at its verge of exploding.
And she kept on thinking, when she realised, she was tired.
Tired of being so strong and stoned.
That it had to fall at its place once again, just to make sure, it's still there.
That's when she knew - that is how the heart works.
"Honestly, tell me the reason of you leaving me." She asked.
Her fingers trembling on the wet screen. She could hardly think of anythjng. She was not ready for the answer. Yet, she had to know.
"You. The real you. Your selfishness, your nature, your behavior, your tone - YOU". He replicated.
May be he meant it, may be he didn't. But she knew, she lost him. It was when, she realized it was time, she had to let go. The guy she loved and the guy who loved her more than she could ever ask for. Is gone.
Wiping off her screen, "Okay." She said.
She was hurt and broke. That's when, she took a deep breath. She was being played unfair. The guy who once loved the same girl, now acts so cold, so...
They talked after 9 months and two days confessing they were still in love.
When just, the ring tone woke her up.
He tried. She tried. They all tried.
No one could make her smile.
Suddenly, she laughed out.
They stood muddled.
Well played, Marijuana. She thought.
May be, may be she was too dangerous to be with. Or rather, too good to be with. She resembled an enigma, so much obscure.
She was broken, she was blazed and yet she endured. May be, that's what made her so callous. So cold. Among the numerous people she had in her life, there was one who managed to stay. Who stayed, knowing her worst side. They had been best of friends, even so much more than that. He, he was a stayer, her person. He was constant. He was...
He just was. Her 'was'. And that 'was' never felt to change its tense. That page never turned again. She wanted to dog-ear it, but, that seemed to be the last one.
It was when she realised the book has to be closed. It was when, her p...
She doesn't feel anything, even if she tries to.
Because she left it all behind: everything.
Her feelings, the emotions, the affections, The Heart!
She is callous. She sleeps around with guys, she gets intimate,she kisses them so passionately. She go get drunk, is bought up with a drink,gets more drunk and waits untill the alcohol almost blackens her out. She knows the things coming next, she does it anyway. She just doesn't feel anything at all. No regrets, no guilt, no relaxation, no love. Her heart seems like a void, to figure out, she may write about it, think about it. Nothing. She imagines and recall nothing . And she feels, nothing.
Tired of the chaos in her mind, she lit her cigare...
You know you don't need to cry on anyone.
Realise what you deserve, how you deserve to be treated and no one could ever make u shed a single tear from your eye.
Yes I know, people are important, very important for they need to be in your life.
But consider that not everyone stays. Let that be how much close that person was to you.
May be they don't think or feel the same you do for them.
People come and go honey, accept that!
May be that's the hardest you could do, to accept the fact. But din't you had it before?
Many people, who once used to be your life, left you, and you still managed to survive. Didn't you?
So you will do it again. You have to do it again.
That clock on the wall never seemed so interesting or to be gazed upon. The minute hand being the longest, has never been so fast. That little hour, never took the shortest path. They both seemed to be in a race, the race of life.
The time never stops. How sometimes it catches the speed, and how sometimes it takes ages to move further.
Time has to be the most important, it never comes back, you know. We can’t get it once its gone. When somehow we realise, it may have been too late. Morning it was, when I last saw, the sun throwing its brightest light. People hovering around in the streets, rushing to finish their task. While some are busy with their ownself, figuring o...
"Why don't you go back to him if you are missing him?", he asked.
When deep inside, i know that was not the way. Or may be, I didn't wanted it to be like that. Missing is just a part of your love. Missing doesn't mean you should go back to the person, it is a feeling, an ecstatic feeling which is to be felt deeply. When you can mesmerize all those memories you had. When you can smile back to the thing you once had. And then, then let the feeling go.
I was happy like this. Just to feel things. I was over him but I still wanted to miss him. I wanted him to always be a part of me. I let him go from my life, but i still wanted him to be in my body, my mind. Because everytime, thinking of him m...
Tonight, I want to fall in love with a stranger.
A stranger, may be I find him on the lanes i walk, or some where near the cigarette shop.
I want to catch hold of him, and talk to him about life, about love. I want to talk to him about my ambivalent days and my stressful, yet peaceful nights. I want to talk to him about my last love poem, when I don't believe in love.
I want to talk to him about god,being an atheist. I want to tell him how much i adore tattoos and how much I want to travel the world. I want to know his idea of favourites countries and may be i add that up in my list being the reason. I want to be his now. Only his 'now'.
I want him to know how much i want him to be a pa...
How i miss those kisses,
how badly i miss those real, tight hugs, so warm, so safe!
Those sparkling eyes which looked at me, and i could not stop but stare, finding myself so lost in them.
How through eyes i told u how much i love u.
N how you smiled back giving a hint that you totally knew what exactly i tried to confess.
I miss you being so naughty, teasing me, harrasing me in joyous!
And how i got annoyed and end up scolding you.
How sometimes we met, looking at our worst and laughing on each other.
I miss those times, we went on a date, and waiter would bring our favourite dish befre we could order.
Those rides with you, those giggles i did to you, those risky rough drive we would ...
In the population of billions,
At the hustle of crowd.
I realized, i got lucky.
That to you, i found.
How hard i try,
To be like you.
I wonder, how can u be so good?
So new, so true.
Out of all those kids,
you happened to me.
I m sure, i had some good deeds.
That to you, I'd be so free!
You be the kindest,
You be the best.
With ur smile, ur laughter,
Here around, you create zest.
So hard you work,
Still u manage to have the smirk.
That's what owes you tons,
Which makes eveyone stunned.
So far from you,
I realize that now.
How much you mean,
I feel that somehow.
Promise to you i make,
Someday I'd make your head high.
I'll achieve all my goals,
And happily, would i die.
The flow of cold breeze
And the voice of shaking trees
Makes me perpetually freeze,
That feel? That feel is peace!
The clouds that shift
And the voice that lift
Ah! That was nature, as a gift!
The chirping of birds,
The one in Melancholy
Went on it's way, just so solely.
How when you sit alone,
Scribbling poems on paper
That moment you go so deeper!
Peace is when you have your head so empty,
Your mind so blank and feelings in plenty
Being in love, being in love with peace is sage,
Perhaps i know, this may sound so vague!
Lazy day out.
In All those hustle and all the choas, figuring out about our life, our work, have we ever realised that we need to work on our own self too?
What was the last time when you looked at the stars, lying down? When was it when you watched your favourite movie all alone? When was it when you had a peaceful walk all by yourself?
Let's sum up and say when was it when you had your "me-time"?
I thoroughly believe, spending time once all in peace is extra necessary. That, at some point makes you find yourself. When sometime you can peruse your own thoughts, figure out what actually are we doing
We’re so busy dying, we forget to live. Don’t limit yourselves, we’re unlimited. Thes...
I hAve loved you. I love you still. How much I miss you now.
I miss how that little light shone at you when you were sleeping. How sweet and innocent you looked. How u slept like a baby. That all night, I never got tired of looking you.
I miss how you made me go sleep. Those super amazing at the moment made up bed time stories you told me. And how sometime we ended up getting exited to make that story real.
I miss how we met everyday. Never did we ever get so mucn dressed for each other. We met at our worst and still loved in a best.
I miss how we went to our favorite place n ordered our favorite food. *The waiter still remember us.*
I miss our fights, which were something so cute and s...
That love, slowly went into hate,
Was this written in our fate?
Or did i realize it so late?
Exhausting this is,
Seeing the fading of wishes.
Something tells me to be strong.
I wonder what's wrong?
That care, that love seems to be null,
I dont understand how did it get so dull!
No stories seem good, nor does song.
I wonder, what's wrong?
No emotions, no feelings i feel.
The worst fact with which i have to deal!
I dont seem to see the road so long.
I wonder, what's so wrong?
Slowly and steadily, loosing my hope,
Baby, stop me before i elope!!
Forever i want us to belong,
And i dont get it, what's wrong!
Is this how it has to be? You doing nothing to make things better, to make it work. To save the relation from breaking apart.
I never knew it was just me to make things well. But i realise it now.
I wish you knew that i am in need. I am in need of your love, your efforts and your care.
I really wished you knew how much i need you.
He doesnt even know how much i miss him. He doesnt even know how badly i need him. Days by days , i am becoming stronger waiting for him. Waiting for him to finish all this. I know, days have been worse, our feelings dint match, our world seemed different. But we have our own different world. And i am craving to be in there with you for the rest of my life.
Ive done enough. I have annoyed u, i have hurted you. But in all of this, i am in love with you. Madly in love with you that i cant think of anything else but you. You seem to be a disease in me. I think you. I breathe you. I eat you. I see you. I dream you. And I never wanna let go this disease. Be in me, within me, all my life. Becaus...
Anger on the nose,
It turns red, like a roZe!
Tht dumb, act so bold.
But i love it, when he scold !
Lil kid, always stays so mute,
But wen annoyed, hes just so cute!
That care in his eyes i see,
That love in his voice i feel,
No problems that would b left to deal!
Would eat him up, like a super tasty meal !
How can you be so stubborn? how can u not let mind rule you? How can you just let me obey what u say?
Are you so strong to make things work in ur way, or u are just to fragile to bear those!?
What are you!!
Soft as sponge or hard as rock!?
U shout, u cry, u break , u are hurted. How are you still working? How can u still feel? How can u rule over my mind? How?!
I love u both equally!
Then why its always u i gotta obey?
Why? Even though its the hardest thing to do! Why do i!?
Um, may be i knw, coz you are right, coz you can love, coz you are the most precious part in my body, coz you are somethin which beats for the other one!
Yes, you are a heart !
You beat for him! N he...