"Time alone can waste you
If it's where you place your hope
With all my uphill struggles
How long could you cope?
You wear that face so bravely
And stand out in the rain
But honey, I take all the blame"
-Time Alone, Joshua Hyslop, 2012, Folk
I've changed desk now, but still I am beside a window.
I've got a bigger view of the world now, I can see how the sky can change from dark to light, and vice versa
I get to see students coming home from school, excited to taste their mom's cooking for them
I can observe how the trees would sway together with the wind, as if they were dancing with each other
What a wonderful day it is today,
I marvel at the world.
"If there's one thing in my life that's missing
It's the time that I spend alone
Sailing on the cool and bright clear water
It's kind of a special feeling"
-excerpt, "Cool Change", Little River Band, 1979
For all the growing up we'll do
If you come here to meet me
Don't you want to find a place for sinking in
Don't you want to sit and watch the rain begin
-excerpt, "Country", Kelly McFarling, 2017
For all I know, the city lights are just lights and not stars, the breeze is just the wind, not something that brings your whispers. I know that the sky is dark, and that the moon above is meant to shine as it is designed to be. No, there is no metaphor in this night, nothing to mask the reality.
On this hill, seeing the city, I felt, for first time in a long time, some solitude. Some silence that I have been looking for. In my judgement, the brain is just so awestruck by the view and the heart is just too tired to present its argument. They have left me alone tonight, alone to gasp, alone to have a wondrous feeling, alone to rest.
"I'm dreaming dreams, I'm scheming schemes
I'm building castles high
They're born anew, their days are few
Just like a sweet butterfly
And as the daylight is dawning
They come again in the morning"
*excerpt from "I'm Forever Blowing Bubbles", 1918,
Words and Music by: Jaan Kenbrovin and John Kellette.
Let me sleep with my sadness, please. I tire of your wake-up calls at midnight, only finding out that no one is there.
My eyes hurt from crying, my heart is tired. Let me, at least take a rest from my melancholy self.
Your nights are torture, do I spend them by just waiting for your mornings?
You are quiet, yet loud all at the same time, how do I listen to you? Do I use my ears or heart?
June, I have so many questions, so many wonders, can you at least give back to me too?
To my 2 am,
It wasn't my intention to disconnect myself from you. Nevertheless, I had fun with your cheesy yet cute pick up lines. I hope that at least once in this lifetime, even though it will be unknown for you and me, we'll meet. Just once. Because I liked you.
Have you ever missed someone who misses someone else? Someone who you long for but longs for another? Someone whom you liked for awhile but likes another girl?
Trust me, I have.
And it's the loneliest feeling in the world.
I hope you're doing just fine. It's already evening here in the Philippines and I am preparing for bed. I know that some of you have just woken up or maybe some of you just had their breakfast or maybe some of you are already relaxing under an afternoon's sun. It's funny though how some parts of the world is bright and some of it are dark.
I think life is all about that. Everything has an opposite. Black to white, up to down, big to small, love to hate. Most things have their opposites and now I am beginning to think that some things only exists because of the opposites and nothing can really stand alone. And I am also beginning that I need to find my opposite.
I never really had the time to write a letter now. Well, everything seems to be so peaceful and blissful these past days. I finally had a closure with someone. And I think I did the right thing, asking for closure I mean. I've never been happier.
I really didn't know what's gotten into me but I just did it. Asked him for a closure and I think it was the bravest thing I did and felt.
And now, i'll just enjoy being myself, being with myself and friends and just be happy. 🎉🎊
The hardest thing in life is knowing your weakness because from time to time, you would want to avoid it. And what if it is a thing that is subtle, a thing that is mundane and just blends in everything that surrounds you? Would you still stay away from it? Or the better question is, can you stay away from it?
One againts the world.
Not all people can be very good. Some would treat you in a way that you may hate. People are people. If you can't change them, change your treament towards them. 👿
Sometimes we are given things to make use of them. And some people just can't appreciate these things.
And i think its not about an event...its how you find something worthwhile in it.
The weather's cold, so are you
I always keep asking, are you thinking of it, too?
What has become of a beautiful story,
I don't want to come down to being sorry.
Sometimes we find ourselves being drowned by the memories that we tried so hard to forget. And all people seem to be finding someone to save them from drowning. If you know how to swim or maybe handle yourself, you might be surprised as to how you can save yourself, too.
I woke up today feeling really tired and now it feels like I'm burning. Is this the reasult of fatigue? Or is it just the way my body copes up with loneliness? Nah, I think not.
My dear readers,
Everyday is a new beginning. It may seem cliché but it's true. A new day is like a plant that begins to sprout from the soil. A new day is like the rising of the sun after a heavy rain. A new day is like finding love for the first time, feeling like you've never felt like that before.
Now, some of you may be experiencing heartaches, failures, disappointments or regrets. I hope you see what each day brings. New life. It's always nice to see things positively. And it's always good to find happiness in whatever you do.