Sometimes I hear you calling out my name when it's dark.
Maybe you're trying to wake me up from an endless dream.
Maybe things worked out perfectly in the world on the other side.
We laid on wet grass holding each others hands and fetishized the moon and stars.
The grass blazed into ashes and the sky turned opaque.
The silhouette of a woman moved into the shadows while I lay dazed.
I was thinking about you again. Maybe because that day, the day we waited for, I waited for, the whole year is just around the corner. The day which made me the happiest person in the world. It's so weird how things change. A time where stars grew brighter and the blowing wind left a sweet scent could turn into a cloudy sky so fast. I wish we could spend that day together just once. I wonder how it could have been.
তুমি ফিরে জানি আসবেনা কোনোদিন
তবু মনে পড়ে ফেলে যাওয়া দিন রঙিন।
ফিরে এসো আজ এই প্রাতে
ফিরে এসো আজ মন মাঝে
ফিরে এসো সোনা ঝাড়া সাঝে
ফিরে এসো আজ মন মাঝে।
দিন শেষের আলো মেখে
তুমি এসেছিলে লাজ মুখে
প্রথম দিনের সেই দেখা
মনো মাঝে তুমি ধীরে এলে
চলে গেলে, ঐ দূরে
হারিয়ে গেলে তুমি মেঠো সুরে।
আজ এমনি মায়াবি দিন শেষে
শুধু চেয়ে রই, ফেলে যাওয়া পথের শেষে।
আলো আঁধারীর ওই পথে
তুমি ফিরে এসো মন রথে
ফোটা তারাদের সাথী করে
রাখো দুটি হাত মোর হাতে।
দেখব যে প্রাণ ভরে
শুক তারার ঐ আলো হয়ে।
তুমি ফিরে জানি আসবেনা কোনোদিন।
I saw you again today. You were wearing the same dress as you were on my birthday. You used to get so excited for my birthday. I never cared for it. But you made it special. It kills me to think it won't be the same anymore.
আজ আবার ভেজা বালিশে মুখ দিয়ে ঘুমোতে যাবো।
আমি কি এতটাই দুর্বল?
নাকি এতটা বিশ্বাস পুরে ছাই হওয়ার ফল এটা?
তুই কি ভাবিস?
তুই কি আদও কিছু ভাবিস?
নাকি তোর সবটাই মিলিয়ে গেছে?
তুই কি সাধারণ জীবনে ফিরে যেতে পেরেছিস?
আমার এখনো বুকটা ঠান্ডা বরফের মতো জমে যায়।
আমার মন এখনো একটা কোনো যোগাযোগের স্বপ্ন দেখে।
তোরও কি হয়?
হলে হয়তো পরিস্থিতি অন্য রকম হতো।
হয়তো আমিই একমাত্র ছিলেন যে প্রেম প্রেম 'খেলাটা' খেলছিলাম না।
হয়তো আমিই প্রত্যেকটা শব্দ প্রত্যেকটা প্রতিশ্রুতি অনুভব করেছি বলে বলেছিলাম।
যদি তুইও তাই করতিস পরিস্থিতি হয়তো অন্যরকম হতো।
বোধহয় অনুভব করেছিলি কিন্তু আমাদের দুজনের অনুভূতির মধ্যে অনেকটা অন্তর ছিল।
এত বুঝি যখন তাও কেন আশা রাখি মনে?
Seasons change, but I can't change my feelings for you.
All I can hear is your breath when we adhered.
My heart beats faster whenever I go past your place.
I imagine what could happen if our eyes meet again.
Would we ask which song played in our headsets then?
It's 4 in the morning and I'm writing you this letter,
Just like I used to when we were better,
I could have called you but your number said I'm just a stranger,
Hope it finds you, in some way or the other.
Amy, do you still have those letters?
I frequent the alleys we walked on together,
The blowing wind painted a reflection of your figure,
Tearing apart the sautoir I gave you last year,
And the things that you gave me lay decomposed in the terra.
So Amy, my love, do you still find the time to read those letters?
I can't help but look at my lonely face in the mirror,
Hidden deep behind the smirk I clothe for the better,
I saw the train leave before my eyes,
You never looked back to see m...
I was seeing our pictures today. Turns out messenger still has those pictures we sent each other. I still have those pictures from our first year of meeting in my computer. We looked so happy in those pictures. We saw each other growing old in that house on a hill in front of a fireplace through each others eyes. Now we can't and the dream succumbed into the abyss. I still look at the only thing I kept that belonged to you. Your hair. I hope they quickly Invent the machine for cloning human beings.
I went to a forest reserve today. It was such a great experience to see these animals in their natural habitat. I wonder how excited you would be to know I'm going there. I wish I could share with you every single detail and see your eyes glistening like it always did when you saw me happy. I wish I could be more happy all the time. My depressive nature changed everything. I wish I could be better and improve my mental health. I guess you wouldn't be there to see it.
I saw these violet flowers on a hill slope near the road. I could see us walking by it and I know you'd love them and we'd stop just to gaze at the beauty of those flowers. I saw myself climbing up the slope just to pick it up for you and you pulled me with a concerned face as you normally did when I tried to get out of my way to do something for you. I picked a flower and gave it to you. You didn't take it. You were so angry that I did something like that and I held it in front of your nose so you could smell it. You took it from my hand but you were still furious and started walking forward without me. I hugged you and then everything was okay. I wish something magical happens and everythin...
I'm on a vacation. I saw these newly married couples. They looked so happy. I imagined us in place of them. I always did imagine us going on a trip. You were holding my hand like you used to. I so desperately wish we could make it through. The thought of it only being my imagination and could never ever turn into reality chokes me. I can't breathe at that moment. I always thought we would make it. Deep inside I really thought we would make it. Holding hands walking into the horizon. I miss you. I wish I could hold you in my arms one last time.
I was woken up by that dream again,
I call your name but you don't recognize my voice anymore,
I stood before you but you look away like I was never there,
I try to hold you but you move away,
I'm just a stranger to you now, escaping from a fragment in your brain.
Nothing can warm us in a cold winter day like the sun
Nothing can embrace us like nature does in her way
No one can love you like I do, you'll know that one day.
He lies there, soulless.
Clutching on the wet pages of the diary.
Hugging life through the very known handwriting.
Waiting for the world to end.
Waiting for the next life.
To get another chance to meet her again.
Dreams blurred behind smoke,
Life burning away in a paper roll,
Eyes constrict as lungs fill with tar,
The guitar ends another riff,
Another burnt stub falls on the ground.